Should've Said Something
and it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole
through everyone that feels it.
He misses Jack Sparrow, he really does. They worked great together, and had been such friends. Yes, he had betrayed Jack, and yes he had marooned him, but he loves him. They had been the best pirate team this side of the Atlantic. And had still managed to love one another.
He remembers what it had been like to hold jack, and kiss him in all forms of passion, while the crew slept. He remembers when they would buy out some whores, and play with them, while having eyes only for one another.
He remembers, when Bill Turner, or Bootstrap Bill, came aboard the Pearl. And stole Jack's passion, right from beneath him.
It had hurt, it had caused jealousy. Oh, how he hated Bootstrap Bill. How he wished he could strangle him.
Finally he wanted Jack to pay for his betrayal, for leaving his bed cold. He remembers, gazing into Jack's eyes. The ones that used to be so warm, but were now cold. He remembers the ultimatum he gave Jack.
"'Tis either me or him. I will not share you with another. You are mine!"
He remembers Jack's answer.
"I can not leave William. I cannot submit to you anymore. I shall give you the way to the Isla De Muerta instead."
" You are weak Jack, and you will always be my bitch."
He wants Jack now, he wants to taste Jack. Jack who tastes like apples. He wishes he could have Jack back. Sometimes it feels like he left his sanity on that island with Jack.
Sometimes, he wishes Jack weren't dead.
He wants to take him in his arms again, and show Jack compassion, instead of complete dominance
He feels guilty, and dirty sometimes, but he knows he never broke Jack. Just made him codependent. He wishes, the crew had just dumped him on that island, after they had found out about the curse. So he could know Jack's last days of suffering. Until the end of eternity.
Sometimes, he also wishes he could be alive, just so he could die. Just so he could go to Hell, and pay for what he had done to Jack. For being undead was not enough in his eyes. His fervor for punishment would never be quenched.
Not until death, or Judgment Day.
Sometimes, he wishes he were still First Mate Barbossa.
He always wishes Jack were alive
Sometimes he wishes he could die.
should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way the words were faded
rather waste some time with you
End
Lyrics by The Used, the song is Blue and Yellow.