Losing Memories
A Rockman.EXE story by Kero Trigger
Author's Note: To those who have reviewed, thank you very much. I never thought anyone would ever read my writing. I hadn't even planned to write the second chapter to this, but now it seems I should make this into a real story, although I know this chapter is somewhat rushed and not as good. It seems my report on depression is starting to sneak into my writing.. Anyway. Same notes regarding spoilers carry out for the rest of this story.
Oh, Moonymonster, thanks for pointing out my misspelling. I thought it looked off.
Disclaimer: Characters copyright Capcom.
Chapter 3:
Stargazing
If tangent theta is equal to cosine theta, what must theta be..? How should I know that?
Netto sighed, resting his head on his arm. He had been working on this math work for hours, and it still made no sense. Of course, it would have helped if he hadn't taken those breaks for a few games and comic books.
"Netto-kun, you should have paid more attention in class." Rockman grinned slightly from his place on the nearby computer screen. He knew that eventually Netto would ask him to do it for him, and he probably would after a while. But for the moment he was rather amused by the way his brother searched his mind for the answer.
"Ah.. Saito, why do you always point that out?" Netto glanced at his twin, frowning slightly. Lifting his head off of his arm he ran a hand through his brown hair, then picked up his pen once more. "Why don't you help me out with it?"
Rockman chuckled slightly. "Sure thing, if you let me go out to NetCity and scan the BBS as soon as we're done."
"Anything! As long as this stuff is done!"
* * *
It didn't take long until I had finished my homework, I owe Saito for that one. Our strange abilities made learning things he would show me so much easier. I was glad to finish, I wanted to see what had been going on in the NetWorld during my absence.
It seemed odd for me to sit here in front of my desk watching what was once my twin run around in a pixelated world. I can only wonder if he misses the real world, he was here even if it was for a short time. I don't think I can ask him, however. I don't want to risk hurting him more than I have in the past without knowing it.
Before I realized what I was doing I had crossed the room, my hand resting on the handle of the sliding glass door that was in the wall the head of my bed was against. It opened quietly, the cold breeze causing a small shiver to go down my spine.
I barely registered Saito asking where I was going, and I barely heard myself answer that I just wanted to go look at the stars a bit. The door closed behind me as I stepped out, my feet making a soft tapping noise against the concrete of the balcony. I turned my head up towards the sky, my breath making small clouds in the air in front of me before vanishing.
It may seem odd, but I always found the stars to be something that could always take my breath away no matter how many times I saw them. They were hard to see from most places, even from my high point I could not see them as well as I had once on a camping trip. The sky was so dark and vast, and there they were, those small specks of light, trying to make an existence for themselves. It was much like people, trying to always be someone in a sea of millions of others, similar but different in so many ways.
A shiver went down my spine as I hugged myself lightly. What if each of us were connected to one of those stars, had Saito's gone out? What about my own, was it the same one? I shook my head, I was starting to think crazy. But still.. Who had I gone camping with anyway, when I had first seen the sky like I had that night? I couldn't remember. I searched my mind for what seemed like hours, but I couldn't find anything.Ê I couldn't stop myself from shaking. Something told me that I was just cold, but something else in the back of my mind told me that I was upset about my current lack of memory.
Odd, I always think about Saito when I see things that make me lonely, when I can't remember...
I closed my eyes tight, fighting against the tears that threatened to fall. Here I was, enjoying a beautiful sight, something that he could never truly experience for himself. He was much more deserving of such a gift than I was, I knew that. I should have been the one to die, my mind started to yell at me. I soon found myself mumbling these same words as I slowly sunk into a kneeling position on the cold floor.
A strange feeling suddenly passed over me, I snapped my head up at the recognition of it. I felt like someone was pulling me into a warm embrace, I was no longer cold. A single name went through my head, I knew who it was.
Saito...
Don't worry, Netto-kun, I'm here.
My tears seemed to slow as I heard my twin's voice echoing in my head. It was comforting to know that he was there, willing to be with me even when I didn't want to be with myself. I allowed myself to fall into that warm feeling as I stood up once again, wondering why I had even thought the things I had in the first place.
Saito... Thank you..
A Rockman.EXE story by Kero Trigger
Author's Note: To those who have reviewed, thank you very much. I never thought anyone would ever read my writing. I hadn't even planned to write the second chapter to this, but now it seems I should make this into a real story, although I know this chapter is somewhat rushed and not as good. It seems my report on depression is starting to sneak into my writing.. Anyway. Same notes regarding spoilers carry out for the rest of this story.
Oh, Moonymonster, thanks for pointing out my misspelling. I thought it looked off.
Disclaimer: Characters copyright Capcom.
Chapter 3:
Stargazing
If tangent theta is equal to cosine theta, what must theta be..? How should I know that?
Netto sighed, resting his head on his arm. He had been working on this math work for hours, and it still made no sense. Of course, it would have helped if he hadn't taken those breaks for a few games and comic books.
"Netto-kun, you should have paid more attention in class." Rockman grinned slightly from his place on the nearby computer screen. He knew that eventually Netto would ask him to do it for him, and he probably would after a while. But for the moment he was rather amused by the way his brother searched his mind for the answer.
"Ah.. Saito, why do you always point that out?" Netto glanced at his twin, frowning slightly. Lifting his head off of his arm he ran a hand through his brown hair, then picked up his pen once more. "Why don't you help me out with it?"
Rockman chuckled slightly. "Sure thing, if you let me go out to NetCity and scan the BBS as soon as we're done."
"Anything! As long as this stuff is done!"
It didn't take long until I had finished my homework, I owe Saito for that one. Our strange abilities made learning things he would show me so much easier. I was glad to finish, I wanted to see what had been going on in the NetWorld during my absence.
It seemed odd for me to sit here in front of my desk watching what was once my twin run around in a pixelated world. I can only wonder if he misses the real world, he was here even if it was for a short time. I don't think I can ask him, however. I don't want to risk hurting him more than I have in the past without knowing it.
Before I realized what I was doing I had crossed the room, my hand resting on the handle of the sliding glass door that was in the wall the head of my bed was against. It opened quietly, the cold breeze causing a small shiver to go down my spine.
I barely registered Saito asking where I was going, and I barely heard myself answer that I just wanted to go look at the stars a bit. The door closed behind me as I stepped out, my feet making a soft tapping noise against the concrete of the balcony. I turned my head up towards the sky, my breath making small clouds in the air in front of me before vanishing.
It may seem odd, but I always found the stars to be something that could always take my breath away no matter how many times I saw them. They were hard to see from most places, even from my high point I could not see them as well as I had once on a camping trip. The sky was so dark and vast, and there they were, those small specks of light, trying to make an existence for themselves. It was much like people, trying to always be someone in a sea of millions of others, similar but different in so many ways.
A shiver went down my spine as I hugged myself lightly. What if each of us were connected to one of those stars, had Saito's gone out? What about my own, was it the same one? I shook my head, I was starting to think crazy. But still.. Who had I gone camping with anyway, when I had first seen the sky like I had that night? I couldn't remember. I searched my mind for what seemed like hours, but I couldn't find anything.Ê I couldn't stop myself from shaking. Something told me that I was just cold, but something else in the back of my mind told me that I was upset about my current lack of memory.
Odd, I always think about Saito when I see things that make me lonely, when I can't remember...
I closed my eyes tight, fighting against the tears that threatened to fall. Here I was, enjoying a beautiful sight, something that he could never truly experience for himself. He was much more deserving of such a gift than I was, I knew that. I should have been the one to die, my mind started to yell at me. I soon found myself mumbling these same words as I slowly sunk into a kneeling position on the cold floor.
A strange feeling suddenly passed over me, I snapped my head up at the recognition of it. I felt like someone was pulling me into a warm embrace, I was no longer cold. A single name went through my head, I knew who it was.
Saito...
Don't worry, Netto-kun, I'm here.
My tears seemed to slow as I heard my twin's voice echoing in my head. It was comforting to know that he was there, willing to be with me even when I didn't want to be with myself. I allowed myself to fall into that warm feeling as I stood up once again, wondering why I had even thought the things I had in the first place.
Saito... Thank you..