Will You Be Mine
Disclaimer: I will never own pokemon! (I meant digimon)
Warning: Still no lemon. I promise one in the later chapters..
I would like to thank my friend Squid for helping me out with this chapter.
Senseless Decisions
(Matt POV)
"How could I have been so stupid, man, how could I have loss control of my self" I couldn't believe that me, me, some one like me could have done that. I knew how alcohol effected my body. I knew that two beers, could drive me over the edge, but. I just had to drink.
I couldn't even pay attention to the road in front of me. My car swerved. Calm down Matt, just calm down. Matt get a grip, get a grip Matt. Concentrate; try to get to where you're going. Turn left here, and make a right there, ok now another left. This would have been easier if I was a little more sober. I reached a look out place, I had came here often to watch the sunsets with Mimi. Now I'm just here trying to remember where it all went wrong. I sat in nothing but my pants trying to organize my thoughts.
I guess you could say the first piece of bad news was I getting fired from the Record label. They had called and said they couldn't afford to advertise, or even put up with my crap. They said that my music was shit. And to make matters worst, I lost all of my gigs because my lead drum player quit on me. My music career is down the drain. That's all I really wanted was my music and my Mimi.
Mimi, funny thing really. I guess that was bad news too. I had prepared to propose I spent every dime I had on a non-refundable ring. When, I had brought Mimi to the restaurant, I had decided it was time for it I was ready, we were ready. I loved her, and I knew she loved me. We had expressed our love in so many different ways. I was sure that I was, no we were ready for the next step.
So once I had gotten us to our table, I started to have my doubts. Halfway through the main course, I received a phone call from Tai.
Tai: Hey Matt, guess what Matt: Tai I'm busy Tai: This'll only wake a minute; I'm going to ask Mimi out
Matt: whats this, your joking right.
Tai: No! You know how I feel for her Matt: I meant that you waited all this time, she maybe taken
I knew that I should have told him, it was his right to know. He loved her, and he always reminded me of that. What kind of friend was I, if Mimi accepted this proposal this would have broken his heart. I knew I had to tell him, but not now. One gig at a time, that's what I say. (To bad I don't have any gigs now)
Tai: Matt I know, but come on she would have told me if she were serious with some guy Matt: (my voice almost as low as a whisper) not if that was my job. Tai: what? Matt: nothing look find some else. (I hung up)
When I reached the table, I quickly hid all signs of guilt I may have had on my face. It seemed that Mimi might have noticed them before I did. Mimi, " what's wrong honey, who was it", I started to say 'nothing boo, just keep eating', but I thought it wouldn't be so good to lie to her tonight. So I sighed and answered, "It was Tai he wanted to know if you would go out with him" I quickly tried to stuff as much food I could into my mouth. Mimi, "Matt when are you." "Going to tell him, I know, I know, I should tell him because I'm his best friend", " No, cause your like his", "Brother", I had finished. We had that argument many times. So it made sense that I knew what to say. Well, when dinner was over I had asked Mimi to wait before she would leave. I then got in front of her, and got on one knee. Mimi, "Matt what are you", "ssssshhhhh" I stopped her.
"Mimi, ever since we started dating, I knew I was in love.
I knew that it was you that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with,
You're my joy, my ambition my sunshine,
Even though my dreams of music are gone, you are here, like you always were, are and I hope always will be. You where here for me, and I want to be here for you. I want to make you happy, I want you to be mine forever. Mimi will you marry me"
What happened next was as much as a shock to me as it was a shock to the crowd that had assembled around us. Mimi, opened her eyes, and seemed to be indifferent, unmoved by anything I had said. Then, calmly but cautiously she answered.
" No"
How could one word, just one word, kill my soul? It took me, and killed me. This, was a foreign language, as if she were some one I didn't know some one I had not been spent the last two years of my life with for the last year? How, how, just the memory of this moment, was enough to drive over the edge.
The rest of that night went like this. "No, but how the fuck can you say NO!" I demanded an answer from her. "Matt, you don't have your life together, you a mess, you have no job, and you get drunk every night." Her words were so true, is that why they hurt so much. 'N O' those letters broken down into every syllable, still meant nothing to me. Even after a whole month those letters, and that word pained me. It hurt me to try and remember the last part to that conversation, but I think it went more or less like this.
"Mimi, why, why can't you just say yes, Mimi I love you", I stated as I stood up. "I, love you to Matt, and that's why, .I hate seeing you like this, every night you drink, you talk about getting your life together, well do it, you know that beer makes you act crazy, you almost killed your old drummer after you had two beers." she paused to take a breath. " And what about Tai, he doesn't now about us it would kill him." That's it, its always Tai. I had to break up with Sora because she loved Tai. And now Mimi too. I couldn't stand the thought of losing my beloved. It was true, that I had been drinking more often then I should, but that was because I needed to think. But, now if I think about it, maybe it was because I was just so scared to face my new life by my self. If only I had thought about it I would have known then as I know now that I didn't have to face it alone. I had Mimi, my Mimi. She would have been there for me.
The rest of that night, was still a blur, but the effects of the alcohol was starting to fade and I could remember last of the events that followed that night.
"Mimi shut the hell up, all you care about is your little bitch friend Tai" I shouted at her. I hated my self for that then and now. "Matt, I.I", "shut up", I then slapped her. I had let my rage control me; it forced me to hit her. " Ah." she gasped. I stood there shocked looking at my hand it was red. I didn't know what I had just done, I, I hit my Mimi. Her face turned blood red as I saw a tear drop from her eye. "Mimi I, I.I didn't mean to" I said as I took a step towards her, but then she withdrew and that hurt me. "Fine be that way," I shouted as I dropped the ring on the ground and stormed out of the restaurant. I then took my car and drove to the nearest bar.
Now, as I sat back in my car and watched the sunrise I tried to remember the events of last night. I had beaten the shit out of Tai, my best friend. I was so drunk that I couldn't control my self. I tried to remember why I did that, and then it hit me. Earlier that night, I was at Izzy's bar. Having a few drinks, talking about the good ol' days. I hadn't noticed Tai come and sit next to me. He started talking about sports and music but, then Tai had to go and tell me that tonight he was going to ask her out.
Well, if I wasn't drunk maybe I might have told him what happened over the last couple of months. And he might have believed me, but I was drunk so he might of thought I was lying. Well, anyways I told him to stay away from "My Mimi". She was mine wasn't she? I did love her and she had she loved me. Anyways, after the bar I decided to pay Mimi a visit. She had been trying to call me, she wanted to apologize. I didn't really want to go over there, but something just made me. I was completely drunk; no I was over drunk. I had spent three hours at the bar. I am sober now, but I wasn't last night.
When I had made it to Mimi's place I had apologized at the door. Then she let me in. She wasn't about to come near me. She was in her nightgown. I remembered thinking 'Damn, she looks so damn, hot right now, I should do something.' I then walked over to Mimi, and told how sorry I was and how much I still loved her. I guess she didn't know I was drunk yet, cause when I kissed her she kissed me back.
I guess that was all the motivation I needed. I then carried her into the room and started to take off her nightgown. She tried to struggle, but then I tightened my hold on her wrist. That wasn't a smart move, I was drunk and she wasn't tying to let me fuck her, so I became aggravated. I then started to remove my shirt. I guess it might have been the fact that I was so drunk why I couldn't see straight. "Matt, are you drunk" she said with a shiver. It was the way she said that made me wonder ' Gee I just might be a little drunk, but it'll all blow over'. But even then I knew I was lying to my self. "Yeah Mimi I am drunk, I only had about an hour worth's of beer." She knew I was lying, "Matt, I can't do this with you if your drunk just leave." Now that pissed me off. I slapped Mimi hard, so hard that her face turned blood red. "Bitch, do what I say, now kiss me" I forced a kiss on her. She started to cry, but I was dunk and I didn't care.
I couldn't control myself; I forced her to kiss me again then I started to kiss her neck. I might have forced her to do more but I heard some one knock the door. I slapped her again, and told her to keep her ass in the room. When I went to the door, I saw Tai. Him! I was instantly enraged. I told him, "Didn't I warn you to stay away from my Mimi". I saw him try to back away. No one backs away from me, it's like running from a dog. You'll just aggravate me. "Hey Tai, where you running to?" I then jumped at him and started to beat him up, the whole fight was a blur to me, and still is. I was out of control, but when Mimi came to the door, she started yelling at me. I guess I don't remember what I did.
I forced my self to remember what I did. I remembered standing up, and turning towards her. Then focusing on her, I then turned all my anger and drunken rage towards Mimi, I put all of my power and shear force behind one fist and, and.what did I do?.
"Oh my god, I.I hit her, I threw a punch at her, what if she's hurt!" instantly, whatever stroll down memory lane I was on I snapped out of it. I picked up my cell phone and called her house number. She didn't answer. I then started back up my car engine, when the radio turned on the song "Bring Me to Life" was playing. It had just started. I was driving like a maniac through the streets, I knew that Mimi could be seriously injured, so I rushed back to her building. When I got there, I left my car outside with the engine on. I ran up to her floor, and ran to her door, it was locked so I used the spare key she had hidden under the mat. I rushed inside, and looked in her bedroom, the shower, under her bed, I looked everywhere for her.
I then returned to my car, "where could she be, she could be anywhere", I thought. "Where the fuck could she be," Then it came to me, one word, NO! A name came to me. "Tai" I said coldly. I then spun my car around and drove to Tai's. It took me about ten minutes to get there, running through all those red lights. I ran through the main entrance, then up to his floor. I was shocked to find the door ajar. So instead of opening it, I stood and listened, and sure enough I heard Mimi and Tai talking, I couldn't hear Tai that well, but I no he said that he loved her, cause then I heard Mimi reply, "Tai, I've always loved you".
I couldn't believe it, she loved him. I opened the door and just stood there in the opening, deciding to either walk away or rush at Tai. I wasn't drunk any more, so anything I did, as on my own free will. I wasn't going to hit Tai, unless I had a reason too. Then they started to kiss passionately. Oh my god, they were frenching. "Mimi how could you," I said under my breath. Then Tai looked up and stopped kissing her, and then they turned to the door and saw me.
"Hello, Tai and Mimi, am I interrupting any thing?" I said as I took a step in to Tai's apartment.
Well, this a new side to Matt, what do you think he'll do next time. Please review! -Challenge Accepted § (I have edited this chapter, later I should be putting up a brand new chapter signed
Challenge Accepted §§
Disclaimer: I will never own pokemon! (I meant digimon)
Warning: Still no lemon. I promise one in the later chapters..
I would like to thank my friend Squid for helping me out with this chapter.
Senseless Decisions
(Matt POV)
"How could I have been so stupid, man, how could I have loss control of my self" I couldn't believe that me, me, some one like me could have done that. I knew how alcohol effected my body. I knew that two beers, could drive me over the edge, but. I just had to drink.
I couldn't even pay attention to the road in front of me. My car swerved. Calm down Matt, just calm down. Matt get a grip, get a grip Matt. Concentrate; try to get to where you're going. Turn left here, and make a right there, ok now another left. This would have been easier if I was a little more sober. I reached a look out place, I had came here often to watch the sunsets with Mimi. Now I'm just here trying to remember where it all went wrong. I sat in nothing but my pants trying to organize my thoughts.
I guess you could say the first piece of bad news was I getting fired from the Record label. They had called and said they couldn't afford to advertise, or even put up with my crap. They said that my music was shit. And to make matters worst, I lost all of my gigs because my lead drum player quit on me. My music career is down the drain. That's all I really wanted was my music and my Mimi.
Mimi, funny thing really. I guess that was bad news too. I had prepared to propose I spent every dime I had on a non-refundable ring. When, I had brought Mimi to the restaurant, I had decided it was time for it I was ready, we were ready. I loved her, and I knew she loved me. We had expressed our love in so many different ways. I was sure that I was, no we were ready for the next step.
So once I had gotten us to our table, I started to have my doubts. Halfway through the main course, I received a phone call from Tai.
Tai: Hey Matt, guess what Matt: Tai I'm busy Tai: This'll only wake a minute; I'm going to ask Mimi out
Matt: whats this, your joking right.
Tai: No! You know how I feel for her Matt: I meant that you waited all this time, she maybe taken
I knew that I should have told him, it was his right to know. He loved her, and he always reminded me of that. What kind of friend was I, if Mimi accepted this proposal this would have broken his heart. I knew I had to tell him, but not now. One gig at a time, that's what I say. (To bad I don't have any gigs now)
Tai: Matt I know, but come on she would have told me if she were serious with some guy Matt: (my voice almost as low as a whisper) not if that was my job. Tai: what? Matt: nothing look find some else. (I hung up)
When I reached the table, I quickly hid all signs of guilt I may have had on my face. It seemed that Mimi might have noticed them before I did. Mimi, " what's wrong honey, who was it", I started to say 'nothing boo, just keep eating', but I thought it wouldn't be so good to lie to her tonight. So I sighed and answered, "It was Tai he wanted to know if you would go out with him" I quickly tried to stuff as much food I could into my mouth. Mimi, "Matt when are you." "Going to tell him, I know, I know, I should tell him because I'm his best friend", " No, cause your like his", "Brother", I had finished. We had that argument many times. So it made sense that I knew what to say. Well, when dinner was over I had asked Mimi to wait before she would leave. I then got in front of her, and got on one knee. Mimi, "Matt what are you", "ssssshhhhh" I stopped her.
"Mimi, ever since we started dating, I knew I was in love.
I knew that it was you that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with,
You're my joy, my ambition my sunshine,
Even though my dreams of music are gone, you are here, like you always were, are and I hope always will be. You where here for me, and I want to be here for you. I want to make you happy, I want you to be mine forever. Mimi will you marry me"
What happened next was as much as a shock to me as it was a shock to the crowd that had assembled around us. Mimi, opened her eyes, and seemed to be indifferent, unmoved by anything I had said. Then, calmly but cautiously she answered.
" No"
How could one word, just one word, kill my soul? It took me, and killed me. This, was a foreign language, as if she were some one I didn't know some one I had not been spent the last two years of my life with for the last year? How, how, just the memory of this moment, was enough to drive over the edge.
The rest of that night went like this. "No, but how the fuck can you say NO!" I demanded an answer from her. "Matt, you don't have your life together, you a mess, you have no job, and you get drunk every night." Her words were so true, is that why they hurt so much. 'N O' those letters broken down into every syllable, still meant nothing to me. Even after a whole month those letters, and that word pained me. It hurt me to try and remember the last part to that conversation, but I think it went more or less like this.
"Mimi, why, why can't you just say yes, Mimi I love you", I stated as I stood up. "I, love you to Matt, and that's why, .I hate seeing you like this, every night you drink, you talk about getting your life together, well do it, you know that beer makes you act crazy, you almost killed your old drummer after you had two beers." she paused to take a breath. " And what about Tai, he doesn't now about us it would kill him." That's it, its always Tai. I had to break up with Sora because she loved Tai. And now Mimi too. I couldn't stand the thought of losing my beloved. It was true, that I had been drinking more often then I should, but that was because I needed to think. But, now if I think about it, maybe it was because I was just so scared to face my new life by my self. If only I had thought about it I would have known then as I know now that I didn't have to face it alone. I had Mimi, my Mimi. She would have been there for me.
The rest of that night, was still a blur, but the effects of the alcohol was starting to fade and I could remember last of the events that followed that night.
"Mimi shut the hell up, all you care about is your little bitch friend Tai" I shouted at her. I hated my self for that then and now. "Matt, I.I", "shut up", I then slapped her. I had let my rage control me; it forced me to hit her. " Ah." she gasped. I stood there shocked looking at my hand it was red. I didn't know what I had just done, I, I hit my Mimi. Her face turned blood red as I saw a tear drop from her eye. "Mimi I, I.I didn't mean to" I said as I took a step towards her, but then she withdrew and that hurt me. "Fine be that way," I shouted as I dropped the ring on the ground and stormed out of the restaurant. I then took my car and drove to the nearest bar.
Now, as I sat back in my car and watched the sunrise I tried to remember the events of last night. I had beaten the shit out of Tai, my best friend. I was so drunk that I couldn't control my self. I tried to remember why I did that, and then it hit me. Earlier that night, I was at Izzy's bar. Having a few drinks, talking about the good ol' days. I hadn't noticed Tai come and sit next to me. He started talking about sports and music but, then Tai had to go and tell me that tonight he was going to ask her out.
Well, if I wasn't drunk maybe I might have told him what happened over the last couple of months. And he might have believed me, but I was drunk so he might of thought I was lying. Well, anyways I told him to stay away from "My Mimi". She was mine wasn't she? I did love her and she had she loved me. Anyways, after the bar I decided to pay Mimi a visit. She had been trying to call me, she wanted to apologize. I didn't really want to go over there, but something just made me. I was completely drunk; no I was over drunk. I had spent three hours at the bar. I am sober now, but I wasn't last night.
When I had made it to Mimi's place I had apologized at the door. Then she let me in. She wasn't about to come near me. She was in her nightgown. I remembered thinking 'Damn, she looks so damn, hot right now, I should do something.' I then walked over to Mimi, and told how sorry I was and how much I still loved her. I guess she didn't know I was drunk yet, cause when I kissed her she kissed me back.
I guess that was all the motivation I needed. I then carried her into the room and started to take off her nightgown. She tried to struggle, but then I tightened my hold on her wrist. That wasn't a smart move, I was drunk and she wasn't tying to let me fuck her, so I became aggravated. I then started to remove my shirt. I guess it might have been the fact that I was so drunk why I couldn't see straight. "Matt, are you drunk" she said with a shiver. It was the way she said that made me wonder ' Gee I just might be a little drunk, but it'll all blow over'. But even then I knew I was lying to my self. "Yeah Mimi I am drunk, I only had about an hour worth's of beer." She knew I was lying, "Matt, I can't do this with you if your drunk just leave." Now that pissed me off. I slapped Mimi hard, so hard that her face turned blood red. "Bitch, do what I say, now kiss me" I forced a kiss on her. She started to cry, but I was dunk and I didn't care.
I couldn't control myself; I forced her to kiss me again then I started to kiss her neck. I might have forced her to do more but I heard some one knock the door. I slapped her again, and told her to keep her ass in the room. When I went to the door, I saw Tai. Him! I was instantly enraged. I told him, "Didn't I warn you to stay away from my Mimi". I saw him try to back away. No one backs away from me, it's like running from a dog. You'll just aggravate me. "Hey Tai, where you running to?" I then jumped at him and started to beat him up, the whole fight was a blur to me, and still is. I was out of control, but when Mimi came to the door, she started yelling at me. I guess I don't remember what I did.
I forced my self to remember what I did. I remembered standing up, and turning towards her. Then focusing on her, I then turned all my anger and drunken rage towards Mimi, I put all of my power and shear force behind one fist and, and.what did I do?.
"Oh my god, I.I hit her, I threw a punch at her, what if she's hurt!" instantly, whatever stroll down memory lane I was on I snapped out of it. I picked up my cell phone and called her house number. She didn't answer. I then started back up my car engine, when the radio turned on the song "Bring Me to Life" was playing. It had just started. I was driving like a maniac through the streets, I knew that Mimi could be seriously injured, so I rushed back to her building. When I got there, I left my car outside with the engine on. I ran up to her floor, and ran to her door, it was locked so I used the spare key she had hidden under the mat. I rushed inside, and looked in her bedroom, the shower, under her bed, I looked everywhere for her.
I then returned to my car, "where could she be, she could be anywhere", I thought. "Where the fuck could she be," Then it came to me, one word, NO! A name came to me. "Tai" I said coldly. I then spun my car around and drove to Tai's. It took me about ten minutes to get there, running through all those red lights. I ran through the main entrance, then up to his floor. I was shocked to find the door ajar. So instead of opening it, I stood and listened, and sure enough I heard Mimi and Tai talking, I couldn't hear Tai that well, but I no he said that he loved her, cause then I heard Mimi reply, "Tai, I've always loved you".
I couldn't believe it, she loved him. I opened the door and just stood there in the opening, deciding to either walk away or rush at Tai. I wasn't drunk any more, so anything I did, as on my own free will. I wasn't going to hit Tai, unless I had a reason too. Then they started to kiss passionately. Oh my god, they were frenching. "Mimi how could you," I said under my breath. Then Tai looked up and stopped kissing her, and then they turned to the door and saw me.
"Hello, Tai and Mimi, am I interrupting any thing?" I said as I took a step in to Tai's apartment.
Well, this a new side to Matt, what do you think he'll do next time. Please review! -Challenge Accepted § (I have edited this chapter, later I should be putting up a brand new chapter signed
Challenge Accepted §§