Will You Be Mine (part
one) Chapter 4
Disclaimer: I don't own digimon, never will. Warning: No, no warning, not even a lemon, yet any ways. I will put one in, maybe next chapter. Message from me: I'm sorry for not posting, I have been working on a CCS fic. Just so you know this is called part one because its part one to the 3 part series. Part 2 will not be focused on Mimi and Tai so much. I will release further details on part 2 at a later date.
Truth Hurts
(Matt's POV)
I just stood there watching them kiss. I was angry, confused, and sad all at the same time.
IIs it time to say goodbye?
I don't know why it hurts so much
Seeing themi
They stopped kissing, and Tai looked up at me, finally they noticed me. I took a step inside. "Hello, Tai and Mimi, am I interrupting any thing?"
(Readers POV)
As Matt slowly walked into the room, Tai rose up from his crouching position. Matt turned to face Mimi then he knelt next to her. "Did I hurt you?" His question was rewarded with a slap. Matt looked up at her, he saw a small bruise on the side of her face. He touched his fingers there, "Mimi, I'm so sorry, I never meant to.." he was cut off by Tai. "Matt what the hell has come over you, one minute your hitting and beating Mimi, the next your caring and worrying for her"
Matt was obviously taken back by that remark. Calming him self he relaxed, and tried to explain him self. " Look I was drunk, and I didn't mean to -gulp- hit Mimi.. I know what I did was wrong, and I'm sorry, I would never hit Mimi that was my first and last time I " he was cut off by Mimi. Mimi, " Matt your lying, you hit me before, at the restaurant, and other times, you may not have noticed cause you were drunk, but you have hurt me over and over again, not just physically, but emotionally. Whenever you would go out for days on end, or get so drunk you ended up at some slut's house, Matt I cried my self to sleep. I use to worry so much that I'd have to go to the hospital for sleeping pills"
(Matt's POV)
Mimi was screaming and crying when she finished her statement I could tell that she had more to say. I was shocked, was this how she felt, did I hurt her this much. Does she love me? I love her don't I? I mean I do, I love her, and I wouldn't have come down here if I didn't. " Mimi I'm sorry that I hurt you. I never meant to do it on purpose. I'll never do it again, I promise"
"Matt you're lying to yourself. You know that you're just saying that now, but your just going to turn around and self-destruct again. You have an anger problem, you drinking isn't going to solve anything, you're just making the problem worst" Mimi was making a hell of a lot of sense. Sure my drinking was a problem, but I could stop. Couldn't I?
II should've given up Why do I torture myself like this? It seems so pointless nowi
"Mimi, look I love you to much to lose you, Mimi can't you just forgive me, think about all the good times we had" " Matt we did have some good times but, those times were followed by bad times" I wasn't done pleading my case yet. There had to be a way I could get her back.
II have to try again.
But what will come out of it but pain?i
She had always said I would make a great father.
"Mimi what about the baby, you want to have, tell me that's worth staying together for." "Matt, I got pregnant about two years ago". I almost fell to the ground, but I managed to catch my self, something didn't make sense, if she was pregnant two years ago where was the baby. I glanced over to Tai, who seemed as confused as me. Mimi seeing our confusement started to explain. "Matt, you came home drunk one night, that night I was about two and a half months pregnant. When I told you, you got so mad. You called me a bitch and then you beat me up. You did everything to me, you kicked me and punched me in the stomach. You even said that you were trying to kill the baby. I was shocked but Matt, Matt do you know what I did, I forgave you, I fucken forgave you". I was shocked, why didn't I remember any of this. Was I that drunk?
I opened my mouth to apologize, and she stopped me. " Matt I was an emotional wreck. You seemed not to have noticed or cared. Matt I didn't tell you because I didn't know how you would react. I didn't know if you would try to help or if you would make the problem worse."
"Mimi, I , I would have .." the truth is I didn't even know what I would have done. I struggled to hold back tears and anger. I took a deep breath and asked her what happened to the baby.
" Matt you ,.. The...." She didn't even know what to say. But I knew what she meant. I gasped for air, then I fell towards the couch. My knees hit the floor hard. My hands caught my self, I was kneeling in front of the couch. All of my held back tears started to flow. I'm crying,.. Can it be. I thought I had forgotten how to cry. I wanted to kill myself. I never cried. The last time that I cried I was seventeen and Sora had dumped me. I struggled to look up at Mimi. I tried to stop crying. Damn these tears, they showed how weak I was, I needed to be strong, strong enough to face the truth.
"Mimi when did you find out the baby was dead?" it wasn't me who asked the question. I wanted to . But I couldn't bring my self to say the words. Who asked, I turned and looked at him. Him the one that started all this, if he had just stayed away from Mimi. We wouldn't be here at all. Why was he silent, he hadn't said a word since I came into his home. Why would he choose to interject his thoughts now? I looked back at Mimi, and saw her she was crying. She had loved me a lot, enough to forgive me. All I had done was hurt her.
" I wasn't sure that the baby was dead. At first I thought that it was alive. Sora came over the day after you.. " She couldn't even find a word to describe what I did to her. She could of said beaten her. But I guess that's the nicest way to put it. " Sora saw we bleeding and unconscious, the first thing she did was rush me to the hospital. The doctors had told her that I was pregnant, and that since most of the damage was centered around my stomach and womb (a/n I don't think I should of used the word womb but oh well) that the baby might be dead. Matt do you remember that month you couldn't get in contact with me, and I had told you that I had to leave the country for a month cause my uncle in Hong Kong was sick. I lied that whole month I was in the hospital. They were running tests, and checking to see how much damage there was to the baby." I didn't want her to continue, I wanted her to stop, I didn't want to know how much pain she was in, I couldn't take it. I couldn't even face myself anymore. Did she really love me enough to forgive me?
"Matt, you couldn't begin to understand how I felt. I knew my baby was dead, long before the doctors told me. Matt I was an emotional wreck, I felt empty. I truly believed that I was some how at fault for my baby's death. I felt like part of me was gone, that I was incomplete. When Sora told Tai that I was in the hospital he had no idea that the baby was dead or that I was even pregnant, he saw me there brokend, he stayed with me until I was well enough to leave the hospital."
IMaybe..
Maybe it will work.
Just maybe.i
So Tai had been there for her, but he couldn't love her as much was I could. Him being there in the hospital was one way he showed his love for her. But that was a small amount compared to how much I loved her, I would do anything for her. If she could only give me another chance. I had to know if she still loved me.
" Do you want to know something Matt, it's pointless. You being here it doesn't matter, I already chose the person I love. Matt, I can't even stand to be in the same room with you. I've always loved Tai, the way that he is compassionate, caring, he take leadership over a situation, he's always been there for me, and I know that he would never hurt me, I have always been in love with him. I guess the only reason that I was in love with you was. because you were so close to Tai, that I thought you might have been his brother. But know I see that you're just the opposite of him. You don't care about anyone but your self. Matt I don't love you anymore. To me you don't even exist, your obsolete. You're not even here in front of me."
I. . I. I don't believe it. Everything that I lived for was always being taken away from me. First my music, and now Mimi. I guess she never really loved me, then was I the one who was in love? She had said that I don't even exist, when she was describing why she loved Tai it was like she was looking through me. Like she was looking into each other's eyes. She made a lot of sense. I was so depressed I couldn't even cry. Everything I loved was always taken from me. Now I'm truly alone. I loved Mimi but she didn't love me back. This is it I guess; the truth is that. That she ever loved me, only Tai. Its always Tai. Sora left me for Tai, and now Mimi is leaving me for Tai. I might have turned some of my depression into anger and hit Tai. But what would that prove, it prove to Mimi that I am destructive, that I have anger problems. I knew one thing, I had lost Mimi. Forever.
I stood up and walked to the door, slowly, then I took one last look at Mimi, and then I looked at Tai. I sighed, then continued to walk out of the apartment, before I left, with my back still to them I said, "I hope you two are happy together" then I left.
(Tai POV)
I was at a loss of words. I didn't have a thing to say. I was stunned, and confused, and angry, and sad all at the same time. Matt was gone, he hadn't even tried to fight me. Matt just left. I looked at Mimi and saw that she was crying. For a minute I hesitated before I said anything. I sighed and then kneeled; I felt a little bit of pain. "Mimi are you going to be ok?" I asked, was she? Everything she had said was a lot to take in. Could I even handle this much information myself? I would have to. I need to stop thinking about my self and start thinking about how I can help Mimi.
"Tai, I didn't really want to yell at Matt, or say all those things to him but, I had to it was how I felt. Tai I love you, and I want to be with you" her voice had returned too normal. She was still crying though. I placed my hand on her cheek and tilted her head towards me. I smiled at her. "I love you too Mimi and I always will". She had stopped crying and smiled back. Then we kissed. It lasted for a couple of seconds, before she stopped and asked me "What if Matt comes after you, I don't want you to get hurt, what if he tries to" I put my finger up to her lip to silence her. "Mimi were finished with Matt, he's not coming back, and if he does I'll be here to protect you as long as I'm here you have nothing to worry about, I promise to never let anything bad happen to you." With that statement finished I started to kiss her again, and she stopped again. "Mimi, my love what's wrong?" I asked. She replied, " Why don't you close the door or do you want everyone that walks by to see us" I got up and closed the door. When I turned back I saw Mimi standing at the doorway of my room. I walked over to her and picked her up, and carried her into the room closing the room door behind me.
§ Another good chapter, I think. Well that took a long time to type, sorry for the long wait but I had, well other things to attend to. And with School starting I'll be even busier, I promise to post as soon as possible though. The next chapter shouldn't take that long to write. One more things, Tai and Mimi did not just fuck each other that would be rushing things a little too much. I hope y'all liked this chapter please R+R. §
Disclaimer: I don't own digimon, never will. Warning: No, no warning, not even a lemon, yet any ways. I will put one in, maybe next chapter. Message from me: I'm sorry for not posting, I have been working on a CCS fic. Just so you know this is called part one because its part one to the 3 part series. Part 2 will not be focused on Mimi and Tai so much. I will release further details on part 2 at a later date.
Truth Hurts
(Matt's POV)
I just stood there watching them kiss. I was angry, confused, and sad all at the same time.
IIs it time to say goodbye?
I don't know why it hurts so much
Seeing themi
They stopped kissing, and Tai looked up at me, finally they noticed me. I took a step inside. "Hello, Tai and Mimi, am I interrupting any thing?"
(Readers POV)
As Matt slowly walked into the room, Tai rose up from his crouching position. Matt turned to face Mimi then he knelt next to her. "Did I hurt you?" His question was rewarded with a slap. Matt looked up at her, he saw a small bruise on the side of her face. He touched his fingers there, "Mimi, I'm so sorry, I never meant to.." he was cut off by Tai. "Matt what the hell has come over you, one minute your hitting and beating Mimi, the next your caring and worrying for her"
Matt was obviously taken back by that remark. Calming him self he relaxed, and tried to explain him self. " Look I was drunk, and I didn't mean to -gulp- hit Mimi.. I know what I did was wrong, and I'm sorry, I would never hit Mimi that was my first and last time I " he was cut off by Mimi. Mimi, " Matt your lying, you hit me before, at the restaurant, and other times, you may not have noticed cause you were drunk, but you have hurt me over and over again, not just physically, but emotionally. Whenever you would go out for days on end, or get so drunk you ended up at some slut's house, Matt I cried my self to sleep. I use to worry so much that I'd have to go to the hospital for sleeping pills"
(Matt's POV)
Mimi was screaming and crying when she finished her statement I could tell that she had more to say. I was shocked, was this how she felt, did I hurt her this much. Does she love me? I love her don't I? I mean I do, I love her, and I wouldn't have come down here if I didn't. " Mimi I'm sorry that I hurt you. I never meant to do it on purpose. I'll never do it again, I promise"
"Matt you're lying to yourself. You know that you're just saying that now, but your just going to turn around and self-destruct again. You have an anger problem, you drinking isn't going to solve anything, you're just making the problem worst" Mimi was making a hell of a lot of sense. Sure my drinking was a problem, but I could stop. Couldn't I?
II should've given up Why do I torture myself like this? It seems so pointless nowi
"Mimi, look I love you to much to lose you, Mimi can't you just forgive me, think about all the good times we had" " Matt we did have some good times but, those times were followed by bad times" I wasn't done pleading my case yet. There had to be a way I could get her back.
II have to try again.
But what will come out of it but pain?i
She had always said I would make a great father.
"Mimi what about the baby, you want to have, tell me that's worth staying together for." "Matt, I got pregnant about two years ago". I almost fell to the ground, but I managed to catch my self, something didn't make sense, if she was pregnant two years ago where was the baby. I glanced over to Tai, who seemed as confused as me. Mimi seeing our confusement started to explain. "Matt, you came home drunk one night, that night I was about two and a half months pregnant. When I told you, you got so mad. You called me a bitch and then you beat me up. You did everything to me, you kicked me and punched me in the stomach. You even said that you were trying to kill the baby. I was shocked but Matt, Matt do you know what I did, I forgave you, I fucken forgave you". I was shocked, why didn't I remember any of this. Was I that drunk?
I opened my mouth to apologize, and she stopped me. " Matt I was an emotional wreck. You seemed not to have noticed or cared. Matt I didn't tell you because I didn't know how you would react. I didn't know if you would try to help or if you would make the problem worse."
"Mimi, I , I would have .." the truth is I didn't even know what I would have done. I struggled to hold back tears and anger. I took a deep breath and asked her what happened to the baby.
" Matt you ,.. The...." She didn't even know what to say. But I knew what she meant. I gasped for air, then I fell towards the couch. My knees hit the floor hard. My hands caught my self, I was kneeling in front of the couch. All of my held back tears started to flow. I'm crying,.. Can it be. I thought I had forgotten how to cry. I wanted to kill myself. I never cried. The last time that I cried I was seventeen and Sora had dumped me. I struggled to look up at Mimi. I tried to stop crying. Damn these tears, they showed how weak I was, I needed to be strong, strong enough to face the truth.
"Mimi when did you find out the baby was dead?" it wasn't me who asked the question. I wanted to . But I couldn't bring my self to say the words. Who asked, I turned and looked at him. Him the one that started all this, if he had just stayed away from Mimi. We wouldn't be here at all. Why was he silent, he hadn't said a word since I came into his home. Why would he choose to interject his thoughts now? I looked back at Mimi, and saw her she was crying. She had loved me a lot, enough to forgive me. All I had done was hurt her.
" I wasn't sure that the baby was dead. At first I thought that it was alive. Sora came over the day after you.. " She couldn't even find a word to describe what I did to her. She could of said beaten her. But I guess that's the nicest way to put it. " Sora saw we bleeding and unconscious, the first thing she did was rush me to the hospital. The doctors had told her that I was pregnant, and that since most of the damage was centered around my stomach and womb (a/n I don't think I should of used the word womb but oh well) that the baby might be dead. Matt do you remember that month you couldn't get in contact with me, and I had told you that I had to leave the country for a month cause my uncle in Hong Kong was sick. I lied that whole month I was in the hospital. They were running tests, and checking to see how much damage there was to the baby." I didn't want her to continue, I wanted her to stop, I didn't want to know how much pain she was in, I couldn't take it. I couldn't even face myself anymore. Did she really love me enough to forgive me?
"Matt, you couldn't begin to understand how I felt. I knew my baby was dead, long before the doctors told me. Matt I was an emotional wreck, I felt empty. I truly believed that I was some how at fault for my baby's death. I felt like part of me was gone, that I was incomplete. When Sora told Tai that I was in the hospital he had no idea that the baby was dead or that I was even pregnant, he saw me there brokend, he stayed with me until I was well enough to leave the hospital."
IMaybe..
Maybe it will work.
Just maybe.i
So Tai had been there for her, but he couldn't love her as much was I could. Him being there in the hospital was one way he showed his love for her. But that was a small amount compared to how much I loved her, I would do anything for her. If she could only give me another chance. I had to know if she still loved me.
" Do you want to know something Matt, it's pointless. You being here it doesn't matter, I already chose the person I love. Matt, I can't even stand to be in the same room with you. I've always loved Tai, the way that he is compassionate, caring, he take leadership over a situation, he's always been there for me, and I know that he would never hurt me, I have always been in love with him. I guess the only reason that I was in love with you was. because you were so close to Tai, that I thought you might have been his brother. But know I see that you're just the opposite of him. You don't care about anyone but your self. Matt I don't love you anymore. To me you don't even exist, your obsolete. You're not even here in front of me."
I. . I. I don't believe it. Everything that I lived for was always being taken away from me. First my music, and now Mimi. I guess she never really loved me, then was I the one who was in love? She had said that I don't even exist, when she was describing why she loved Tai it was like she was looking through me. Like she was looking into each other's eyes. She made a lot of sense. I was so depressed I couldn't even cry. Everything I loved was always taken from me. Now I'm truly alone. I loved Mimi but she didn't love me back. This is it I guess; the truth is that. That she ever loved me, only Tai. Its always Tai. Sora left me for Tai, and now Mimi is leaving me for Tai. I might have turned some of my depression into anger and hit Tai. But what would that prove, it prove to Mimi that I am destructive, that I have anger problems. I knew one thing, I had lost Mimi. Forever.
I stood up and walked to the door, slowly, then I took one last look at Mimi, and then I looked at Tai. I sighed, then continued to walk out of the apartment, before I left, with my back still to them I said, "I hope you two are happy together" then I left.
(Tai POV)
I was at a loss of words. I didn't have a thing to say. I was stunned, and confused, and angry, and sad all at the same time. Matt was gone, he hadn't even tried to fight me. Matt just left. I looked at Mimi and saw that she was crying. For a minute I hesitated before I said anything. I sighed and then kneeled; I felt a little bit of pain. "Mimi are you going to be ok?" I asked, was she? Everything she had said was a lot to take in. Could I even handle this much information myself? I would have to. I need to stop thinking about my self and start thinking about how I can help Mimi.
"Tai, I didn't really want to yell at Matt, or say all those things to him but, I had to it was how I felt. Tai I love you, and I want to be with you" her voice had returned too normal. She was still crying though. I placed my hand on her cheek and tilted her head towards me. I smiled at her. "I love you too Mimi and I always will". She had stopped crying and smiled back. Then we kissed. It lasted for a couple of seconds, before she stopped and asked me "What if Matt comes after you, I don't want you to get hurt, what if he tries to" I put my finger up to her lip to silence her. "Mimi were finished with Matt, he's not coming back, and if he does I'll be here to protect you as long as I'm here you have nothing to worry about, I promise to never let anything bad happen to you." With that statement finished I started to kiss her again, and she stopped again. "Mimi, my love what's wrong?" I asked. She replied, " Why don't you close the door or do you want everyone that walks by to see us" I got up and closed the door. When I turned back I saw Mimi standing at the doorway of my room. I walked over to her and picked her up, and carried her into the room closing the room door behind me.
§ Another good chapter, I think. Well that took a long time to type, sorry for the long wait but I had, well other things to attend to. And with School starting I'll be even busier, I promise to post as soon as possible though. The next chapter shouldn't take that long to write. One more things, Tai and Mimi did not just fuck each other that would be rushing things a little too much. I hope y'all liked this chapter please R+R. §