Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon....If I did, I wouldn't have accidentally
missed recording the end of Digimon Frontier...v_v
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Konnichiwa Minna-san! This was updated sorta soon! (Not really...but I'd like to think that) I've been gone for a week visiting my mother.....-_- .... My next update might not be until next week though since I have to visit my mom, again....
I've been playing Final Fantasy 7 like crazy! It's just such an awesome game and I was thinking about maybe writing a Vincent x Cloud thing, but who knows? I think I've played around 60 hours in a 4 day time period.....see I have no life -_-....
I've also been really nostalgic for 1st and 2nd season, so I've been watching like all my tapes (since I recorded all the episodes of those 2 seasons) and I go crazy cuz I wish they still showed it on Fox every Saturday morning.... ;_; ..... But I'm like really weird, and the episodes that make me hate certain characters, are like my faves! The episode I've seen the most with a doubt, is 'A Very Digi Christmas'. I could watch Yama's concert forever, and if you really wanna know how insane I am with that episode, you know at the beginning of the concert when Yama screams "Are you ready to rock?!". I actually scream back at the TV.....*_*....my dad actually thought one time I was like schizophrenic.... But, I better stop talking about my fave episodes because that would waste way too much of your time....especially if I got started with 'Home Away From Home', 'Digimon World Tour - part 2', 'Prophecy' and 'Crest of Friendship' --- That is my most fave ep!!! ^_^ My most fave quote comes from that one..... *quotes scene* "I never doubted you for a second Matt. I know it didn't always seem that way..." *sighs*
Another thing, but since you all don't know what I look like, you won't care, but I got green contacts! They're so awesome, and I would've preferred blue, but green is good too. With my hair color and now the Green eyes it sorta looks like I could be related to Iori or something. o_o;;
Well, I better get to responses, before I get an injury of some sort from Patamon....o_o;;
CCPheonix: I know, I know.....that chapter was a bit upsetting. It even upset me and I'm the author for goodness sake! But that moment will be all for good cause....You'll see very soon! Mwahahahaha!! I feel evil now.........sorta....
vialana: I will now answer your questions. 1. Yes, Sora. 2. Very easily. 3. Yes, Yama pretending Tai was Sora. 4. I really don't know. and 5. Yes, really, Sora.......Other than your questions, I'm glad you liked the chapter! (I realize I'm a dork for actually answering your rhetorical ?s)
sillie: I know, isn't Taichi a sweetie for keeping his promise no matter what? He'd make the perfect boyfriend.......*sigh* ^_^
nEo-cHaN: I'm glad you were able to read it despite my formatting probs. Thankfully I was able to fix it, but I didn't figure out the prob.....hmm......and I was thinking about possibly making a sequel or just a one chapter epilogue to this, cuz I this is my fave fic of mine so far.....
Ninetales122: Yay! A new reviewer! Isn't the FAKE Manga great?! I luff it SOOO MUCH!!! and Gravitation too. I'm glad you like the fic...^_^
Aero-Grrl: I made you speechless? -o_o- Wow. I'm proud of myself....I....never....thought....THAT I'D GET SUCH A GREAT COMPLIMENT FROM YOU!!! ^_^
Bandit-Lone-Wolf: Another new reviewer! Aw...you don't have to stop liking Yama-sama because of the fic, remember this is just a fanfic.......
Kurochan: New reviewer! Okay, we don't HAVE to kill Yamato, or else Taichi won't be able to get together with him in the end.....But what I made him do was pretty infuriating...
and that's all for now people! Enjoy this chappie!! I have a good feeling that you'll like this one more than the last one, well maybe.... Ja ne! ^_^
AN: This chapter has to do with the songs from the Japanese series of Digimon. So I advise that if you don't know the song I'm talking about, download it and hear how pretty it is! ^_^ and I guess so that there's no confusion I'll put a translation of the songs lyrics in the fic, k? Now go and read....
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-School Buddy for Life- part 7
I heard Yamato's door click shut once again and then I collapsed on his sofa. I was speechless..... He saw Sora in me? That was it? That was why he kissed me? Made me feel all those feelings? Made me get my hopes up? Only to tell me I reminded him of Sora and that's why he had an instance of attraction to me..........
I could swear my heart literally shattered when those words left his mouth. That mouth that captured mine for an instant, just murdered every happy thought and feeling from my body. I thought that maybe he would return all the feelings I kept secret from him over the last 5 years, but instead they were intended for another person.....
I've always sort of pretended not to be lonely, that's why I'm always so friendly, but I guess I can't escape my fate. I was rejected by Sora first, and then the one person who made my life perfect did too. I always sad that I was the only one who could make him smile in that special way, but now I think it was vice-versa. He was the one who always made me smile.....
My head ached just at the thought of the kiss now. Not even the usual soothing sound of Yamato's voice could make me feel better. He just made my face burn with anger at the moment. I buried my face in my hands and started to cry.....
My palms were soon dripping with tears that I thought would never stop flowing. I had to move my hands away from my face because it was completely wet and a shade of bright red. I decided to go back down the hall to wash my face in the bathroom that was directly across from Yamato's room....
I stood up, almost unwillingly and walked slowly to the bathroom to which the door was closed. I looked at Yamato's door and noticed that it was closed as well, but I could hear Yamato's voice coming from within. I know it's not nice to eavesdrop, but truthfully, what did you expect me to do? I cautiously took a couple of steps towards the door and gently cupped my ear against it to hear the conversation., but it wasn't what I was expecting....He was writing a song, not talking to anybody....
I listened as the sounds of the strumming guitar and his voice mixed together. They were still muffled so I had to press my ear harder against the door. What kind of song could he be writing about now?
Every once in a while I would hear a slight growl of frustration and the crumpling of paper, and then he'd sing a few words , or he'd hum a melody and then play it on the guitar again. Over and over the cycle repeated. I guess writing songs was harder than I thought....
I started to get pretty bored with listening to Yamato's random noises and I was going to turn to the bathroom, but suddenly all the scribbling and working noise stopped and he started playing his guitar. And finally his voice joined it.....
::Fuyu no Sanpomichi, Ate nado nanimo, Nai mama de arukou:: (On a winter walking path without a purpose or anything like that, let's go walking)
::Tsumetai aozora, Ryoute wa poketto, Kokoro de korogaru ishikoro:: ( The cold blue sky, with both hands in my pockets, and a pebble tumbling in my heart)
::Kimi no yasashisa ga, Massugusugite, Sukoshi dake tsurai yo:: (Your kindness was too straightforward and it hurt a little bit)
::Sunao ni narenai, Sunaosa nanka ja, Kotaeru shikkaku mo nai ne:: (I'm not used to being meek, but meekness as an answer can't be ruled out)
::Hitoribotchi no shiisoo de, Daremo ga dareka ga kuro no wo matteru, Boku mo onnaji dakedo ne, Itsu demo hantai muki shite, Suwatte itan da:: (On the lonely seesaw, Waiting for no one, waiting for someone to come, I'm the same but, I'm sitting on the other side, anytime.)
He stopped playing there. I couldn't believe the words. Was that supposed to be about me and him? I really didn't know what to think anymore. On one hand, he was the boy who broke my heart, but on the other, he was still the one I desired...
I stood there for a second thinking about the song he just sang, but then I heard him get up and start walking towards the door.
"Shit, he's coming...." I mumbled to myself.
Too bad my body reacted slow to this comment. He opened the door and in a sad attempt to hide in the bathroom.....I ran straight into the door....My face hit it with a loud *thunk* and then I fell to the floor, groaning in pain and covering my face....
"Tai! Are you ok?" He kneeled down next to me.
"Maybe....I don't know...." I said through my hands, "But, I think my nose is bleeding..."
"Let me see...."
I revealed my face to him and looked at my hands that were covered in blood.
"That is just gross..." I said to myself sarcastically.
"Now is not the time to be joking Tai, it's bleeding badly."
"I've had worse Yamato...."
"I don't care..." He got up and opened the door to the bathroom, "Stay there, I'll get you some toilet paper or something...."
I sat up against the wall, cupping my nose with my hand that was starting to fill up with blood. Maybe he's right, this is the worst bloody nose I've had. He came out in a hurry with a few sheets of tissue in his hands.
"Here...." He handed me a couple of sheets and then bent down next to me and wiped some blood off of my face as I covered my nostrils.
In practically a few seconds the tissues were colored a crimson red, and then the bleeding slowed a little.
"I think I can get up now Yama....I need to wash my face..."
"Sure, let me help you up..." He held out his hand to me.
"It's ok...I can help myself up...." I pushed his hand away and stood up on my own.
I stepped into the bathroom and turned on the faucet. I let the water run to rinse off my bloody hands, and I watched as the water in the sink went from clear to red.....
"I take it you're still mad at me...."
I looked to the doorway where he was leaning against the frame. I didn't say a thing....
"I'm telling you Tai....I really truly am sorry...."
"It doesn't matter whether or not you're sorry," I said under my breath, "It matters whether or not I forgive you....."
I saw his eyes widen as I said this. In my mind I didn't mean to say that out loud. He may have hurt me, but I would hate to cause him pain of any sort....
"So, are you saying that you won't forgive me? Is that it Tai?"
"........"
"You know what Tai? I'd forgive you no matter what! You know that!"
"........"
"You could wreck my car! Steal from me! Even beat me up!"
"........" I bit my lip as he said this....I had to hold in what I wanted to scream so badly....
"You could even embarrass me in front of the whole school, and I'd still forgive you....."
"Yamato.....let me ask you a question though..." I took a deep breath, "Would you forgive me....if I broke your heart? If I took advantage of special feelings you had for me? If I did what you did to me?...."
He looked at the ground. Silence...
"It's not that easy Matt." I said as I closed my eyes and splashed water on my face, "If this was something stupid like stealing or kicking my ass, I'd forgive you in a heartbeat, no doubt......It's just.....this.....really hurt....And even if I was able to forgive you, I don't think I could forget...."
I picked up a towel and dried my face. It felt so warm against my cold, damp cheeks. I was totally absorbed into the feeling, then suddenly, I felt his arms wrap around my waist and his face next to mine.
"I'm sorry..... I didn't know you felt so strongly about me. If I knew.....I wouldn't have done anything so stupid."
"Yamato...."
"And you need to know that you're more important to me than anything. I truly mean it when I say I'd die for you. If you and Sora were in a life-or- death situation, I wouldn't even have to think twice about saving you first...."
I felt so good when he said all these words to me. I put my towel down and looked at us in the mirror. We were so good together....Suddenly I felt him loosen his grip and turn me around so we were face-to-face....
"Tai....."
"Yea?"
"I think I just realized something....."
"About what?"
He looked deep into my eyes and simply said, "Everything......"
~*TBC*~
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Was it better? I hope so...There was so much more I wanted to put in this chapter but I decided to save it for the next chapter/s...^_^.....and I didn't know where else to end this chapter..-_-;; Oh well! I still think this came out ok! I was also amazed at the fact that I printed out this fic for my best friend, Suta-chan! and it ended up 30 pages so far, in size 9 font...o_o...I'm gonna run out of paper...not really....
Well, I will try hard to write a new chappie again before I go to see my mom. And if I don't update for a long while...it's because I'm working on a Harry Potter fic since I'm reobsessed with it again....*mutters* Thanx a lot Stace....
Thank you for all your support everyone!!! Please continue reviewing, and I will make sure to keep writing.....even though you may have to wait a while...v_v....Ja ne!
Sayonara!
~*Emiru*~
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Konnichiwa Minna-san! This was updated sorta soon! (Not really...but I'd like to think that) I've been gone for a week visiting my mother.....-_- .... My next update might not be until next week though since I have to visit my mom, again....
I've been playing Final Fantasy 7 like crazy! It's just such an awesome game and I was thinking about maybe writing a Vincent x Cloud thing, but who knows? I think I've played around 60 hours in a 4 day time period.....see I have no life -_-....
I've also been really nostalgic for 1st and 2nd season, so I've been watching like all my tapes (since I recorded all the episodes of those 2 seasons) and I go crazy cuz I wish they still showed it on Fox every Saturday morning.... ;_; ..... But I'm like really weird, and the episodes that make me hate certain characters, are like my faves! The episode I've seen the most with a doubt, is 'A Very Digi Christmas'. I could watch Yama's concert forever, and if you really wanna know how insane I am with that episode, you know at the beginning of the concert when Yama screams "Are you ready to rock?!". I actually scream back at the TV.....*_*....my dad actually thought one time I was like schizophrenic.... But, I better stop talking about my fave episodes because that would waste way too much of your time....especially if I got started with 'Home Away From Home', 'Digimon World Tour - part 2', 'Prophecy' and 'Crest of Friendship' --- That is my most fave ep!!! ^_^ My most fave quote comes from that one..... *quotes scene* "I never doubted you for a second Matt. I know it didn't always seem that way..." *sighs*
Another thing, but since you all don't know what I look like, you won't care, but I got green contacts! They're so awesome, and I would've preferred blue, but green is good too. With my hair color and now the Green eyes it sorta looks like I could be related to Iori or something. o_o;;
Well, I better get to responses, before I get an injury of some sort from Patamon....o_o;;
CCPheonix: I know, I know.....that chapter was a bit upsetting. It even upset me and I'm the author for goodness sake! But that moment will be all for good cause....You'll see very soon! Mwahahahaha!! I feel evil now.........sorta....
vialana: I will now answer your questions. 1. Yes, Sora. 2. Very easily. 3. Yes, Yama pretending Tai was Sora. 4. I really don't know. and 5. Yes, really, Sora.......Other than your questions, I'm glad you liked the chapter! (I realize I'm a dork for actually answering your rhetorical ?s)
sillie: I know, isn't Taichi a sweetie for keeping his promise no matter what? He'd make the perfect boyfriend.......*sigh* ^_^
nEo-cHaN: I'm glad you were able to read it despite my formatting probs. Thankfully I was able to fix it, but I didn't figure out the prob.....hmm......and I was thinking about possibly making a sequel or just a one chapter epilogue to this, cuz I this is my fave fic of mine so far.....
Ninetales122: Yay! A new reviewer! Isn't the FAKE Manga great?! I luff it SOOO MUCH!!! and Gravitation too. I'm glad you like the fic...^_^
Aero-Grrl: I made you speechless? -o_o- Wow. I'm proud of myself....I....never....thought....THAT I'D GET SUCH A GREAT COMPLIMENT FROM YOU!!! ^_^
Bandit-Lone-Wolf: Another new reviewer! Aw...you don't have to stop liking Yama-sama because of the fic, remember this is just a fanfic.......
Kurochan: New reviewer! Okay, we don't HAVE to kill Yamato, or else Taichi won't be able to get together with him in the end.....But what I made him do was pretty infuriating...
and that's all for now people! Enjoy this chappie!! I have a good feeling that you'll like this one more than the last one, well maybe.... Ja ne! ^_^
AN: This chapter has to do with the songs from the Japanese series of Digimon. So I advise that if you don't know the song I'm talking about, download it and hear how pretty it is! ^_^ and I guess so that there's no confusion I'll put a translation of the songs lyrics in the fic, k? Now go and read....
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-School Buddy for Life- part 7
I heard Yamato's door click shut once again and then I collapsed on his sofa. I was speechless..... He saw Sora in me? That was it? That was why he kissed me? Made me feel all those feelings? Made me get my hopes up? Only to tell me I reminded him of Sora and that's why he had an instance of attraction to me..........
I could swear my heart literally shattered when those words left his mouth. That mouth that captured mine for an instant, just murdered every happy thought and feeling from my body. I thought that maybe he would return all the feelings I kept secret from him over the last 5 years, but instead they were intended for another person.....
I've always sort of pretended not to be lonely, that's why I'm always so friendly, but I guess I can't escape my fate. I was rejected by Sora first, and then the one person who made my life perfect did too. I always sad that I was the only one who could make him smile in that special way, but now I think it was vice-versa. He was the one who always made me smile.....
My head ached just at the thought of the kiss now. Not even the usual soothing sound of Yamato's voice could make me feel better. He just made my face burn with anger at the moment. I buried my face in my hands and started to cry.....
My palms were soon dripping with tears that I thought would never stop flowing. I had to move my hands away from my face because it was completely wet and a shade of bright red. I decided to go back down the hall to wash my face in the bathroom that was directly across from Yamato's room....
I stood up, almost unwillingly and walked slowly to the bathroom to which the door was closed. I looked at Yamato's door and noticed that it was closed as well, but I could hear Yamato's voice coming from within. I know it's not nice to eavesdrop, but truthfully, what did you expect me to do? I cautiously took a couple of steps towards the door and gently cupped my ear against it to hear the conversation., but it wasn't what I was expecting....He was writing a song, not talking to anybody....
I listened as the sounds of the strumming guitar and his voice mixed together. They were still muffled so I had to press my ear harder against the door. What kind of song could he be writing about now?
Every once in a while I would hear a slight growl of frustration and the crumpling of paper, and then he'd sing a few words , or he'd hum a melody and then play it on the guitar again. Over and over the cycle repeated. I guess writing songs was harder than I thought....
I started to get pretty bored with listening to Yamato's random noises and I was going to turn to the bathroom, but suddenly all the scribbling and working noise stopped and he started playing his guitar. And finally his voice joined it.....
::Fuyu no Sanpomichi, Ate nado nanimo, Nai mama de arukou:: (On a winter walking path without a purpose or anything like that, let's go walking)
::Tsumetai aozora, Ryoute wa poketto, Kokoro de korogaru ishikoro:: ( The cold blue sky, with both hands in my pockets, and a pebble tumbling in my heart)
::Kimi no yasashisa ga, Massugusugite, Sukoshi dake tsurai yo:: (Your kindness was too straightforward and it hurt a little bit)
::Sunao ni narenai, Sunaosa nanka ja, Kotaeru shikkaku mo nai ne:: (I'm not used to being meek, but meekness as an answer can't be ruled out)
::Hitoribotchi no shiisoo de, Daremo ga dareka ga kuro no wo matteru, Boku mo onnaji dakedo ne, Itsu demo hantai muki shite, Suwatte itan da:: (On the lonely seesaw, Waiting for no one, waiting for someone to come, I'm the same but, I'm sitting on the other side, anytime.)
He stopped playing there. I couldn't believe the words. Was that supposed to be about me and him? I really didn't know what to think anymore. On one hand, he was the boy who broke my heart, but on the other, he was still the one I desired...
I stood there for a second thinking about the song he just sang, but then I heard him get up and start walking towards the door.
"Shit, he's coming...." I mumbled to myself.
Too bad my body reacted slow to this comment. He opened the door and in a sad attempt to hide in the bathroom.....I ran straight into the door....My face hit it with a loud *thunk* and then I fell to the floor, groaning in pain and covering my face....
"Tai! Are you ok?" He kneeled down next to me.
"Maybe....I don't know...." I said through my hands, "But, I think my nose is bleeding..."
"Let me see...."
I revealed my face to him and looked at my hands that were covered in blood.
"That is just gross..." I said to myself sarcastically.
"Now is not the time to be joking Tai, it's bleeding badly."
"I've had worse Yamato...."
"I don't care..." He got up and opened the door to the bathroom, "Stay there, I'll get you some toilet paper or something...."
I sat up against the wall, cupping my nose with my hand that was starting to fill up with blood. Maybe he's right, this is the worst bloody nose I've had. He came out in a hurry with a few sheets of tissue in his hands.
"Here...." He handed me a couple of sheets and then bent down next to me and wiped some blood off of my face as I covered my nostrils.
In practically a few seconds the tissues were colored a crimson red, and then the bleeding slowed a little.
"I think I can get up now Yama....I need to wash my face..."
"Sure, let me help you up..." He held out his hand to me.
"It's ok...I can help myself up...." I pushed his hand away and stood up on my own.
I stepped into the bathroom and turned on the faucet. I let the water run to rinse off my bloody hands, and I watched as the water in the sink went from clear to red.....
"I take it you're still mad at me...."
I looked to the doorway where he was leaning against the frame. I didn't say a thing....
"I'm telling you Tai....I really truly am sorry...."
"It doesn't matter whether or not you're sorry," I said under my breath, "It matters whether or not I forgive you....."
I saw his eyes widen as I said this. In my mind I didn't mean to say that out loud. He may have hurt me, but I would hate to cause him pain of any sort....
"So, are you saying that you won't forgive me? Is that it Tai?"
"........"
"You know what Tai? I'd forgive you no matter what! You know that!"
"........"
"You could wreck my car! Steal from me! Even beat me up!"
"........" I bit my lip as he said this....I had to hold in what I wanted to scream so badly....
"You could even embarrass me in front of the whole school, and I'd still forgive you....."
"Yamato.....let me ask you a question though..." I took a deep breath, "Would you forgive me....if I broke your heart? If I took advantage of special feelings you had for me? If I did what you did to me?...."
He looked at the ground. Silence...
"It's not that easy Matt." I said as I closed my eyes and splashed water on my face, "If this was something stupid like stealing or kicking my ass, I'd forgive you in a heartbeat, no doubt......It's just.....this.....really hurt....And even if I was able to forgive you, I don't think I could forget...."
I picked up a towel and dried my face. It felt so warm against my cold, damp cheeks. I was totally absorbed into the feeling, then suddenly, I felt his arms wrap around my waist and his face next to mine.
"I'm sorry..... I didn't know you felt so strongly about me. If I knew.....I wouldn't have done anything so stupid."
"Yamato...."
"And you need to know that you're more important to me than anything. I truly mean it when I say I'd die for you. If you and Sora were in a life-or- death situation, I wouldn't even have to think twice about saving you first...."
I felt so good when he said all these words to me. I put my towel down and looked at us in the mirror. We were so good together....Suddenly I felt him loosen his grip and turn me around so we were face-to-face....
"Tai....."
"Yea?"
"I think I just realized something....."
"About what?"
He looked deep into my eyes and simply said, "Everything......"
~*TBC*~
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Was it better? I hope so...There was so much more I wanted to put in this chapter but I decided to save it for the next chapter/s...^_^.....and I didn't know where else to end this chapter..-_-;; Oh well! I still think this came out ok! I was also amazed at the fact that I printed out this fic for my best friend, Suta-chan! and it ended up 30 pages so far, in size 9 font...o_o...I'm gonna run out of paper...not really....
Well, I will try hard to write a new chappie again before I go to see my mom. And if I don't update for a long while...it's because I'm working on a Harry Potter fic since I'm reobsessed with it again....*mutters* Thanx a lot Stace....
Thank you for all your support everyone!!! Please continue reviewing, and I will make sure to keep writing.....even though you may have to wait a while...v_v....Ja ne!
Sayonara!
~*Emiru*~