Okay, here's another fic^^ this idea just came to me, so I apologise if someone has a familiar idea. I'm not sure about my ending, it may end as H/V (I'm a super Van and Hitomi fan) or it may not. It depends on you. With your opinion, it will help me decide what to do. I was thinking of not being a H/V fic, that's why the title is "Not Always a Fairy Tale". If it ends up being a H/V, I'll change the title, but for now, it'll remain it the same. I was trying to post this over the weekend, but there was no internet, so I could only post it until now, sorry-.-;; Well, enough talking and more reading, enjoy!!! ^__________^
Disclaimer- I do NOT own Escaflowne, and I do not own the song "The Ring", the Japanese version of "You're Not Alone". All rights are reserved to those wonderful people who made the series, and the songs. So please, don't sue me, this is for pleasure only, not for money=)
Okay, now read!!!!!!!!!! :p*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
*~*Not Always a Fairy Tale*~*
*~*Chapter One- Memories of an Angel*~*
It was just an ordinary day like all others for everyone. Well, not for Hitomi. For her, each
day that passed felt like a month, correction, eternity. It seemed like the clock would take
an era to tick to the next second, as if it never wanted to change. For the last five years, her main hobby was to cry, and sleep. And the source of all the water works was no other than because of Van.
No matter how many times she tried, how many times she wished, the image of the raven
haired boy just wouldn't live her mind alone. Each time the image came to her, it took a
piece of her broken heart. For she knew that she couldn't be with him, and still she loved
him with all her heart, and her deepest wish was to be with him, but she knew she couldn't.
She knew that she would never be able to gaze into those dark rubbish orbs that always
fascinated her. To smell his sweet scent of fields whenever he held her close, to protect her, to love her, to hear the passionate words he said in her ear, telling her how he loved her so.
STOP!! Stop it Hitomi!! You're only hurting yourself even more by thinking like
this!! Screamed Hitomi inside herself. Even if she could stay with him, she wouldn't be
able to stay too long from her world, regardless of her strong love for Van. She couldn't just leave her family, friends, and memories all go down the drain. They needed her and she needed them. Only in a different manner from herself and Van.
Besides, they would properly want him to marry a princess, right? After all, he is a king.
Kings don't marry common girls, even if they are in love. It just wasn't proper. Those
advisers of his wouldn't let such a thing happen. So what was the point in grieving on this
subject even more? Crying wouldn't solve anything, so why bother? Because I love him, damit! Cried Hitomi mentally in despair, only in the process of making more tears slide down her tired face as she dropped to the floor, now crying uncontrollably.
I gotta get a life. Thought Hitomi while trying to regain her normal position with haggard breathes and using the back of her hand to dry away the tears that stained her angelical face. Yukari keeps nagging me that even by the age of twenty I haven't had a boyfriend yet. But than again, how can I do that when I have an image of him 24/7 on my mind? It would feel as if I'm betraying my boyfriend by thinking of another man apart him, right? That's it! I can't handle this! I'm going to have a drive, yeah, maybe that will help clear my mind out. With that thought finished, Hitomi jumped out of her bed and climbed down the stairs, and in the process, she collected her jacket and car keys.
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Ah, what would I do without my car? Thought Hitomi as she opened the car door open and plopped herself down on the driver's seat and turned on the engine, and not long after, she was driving down the road. The truth was, every time she was feeling down or the image of "him" came into mind, she would drive to take away her stress. By driving it
would make her feel free, take all her problems and worries, making her feel as if she was a bird, soaring through the air with nothing to fear. Even if it was just for a short period of
time. And most importantly, it would distract herself from thinking of Van.
It feels so good to be an adult, especially because I can now drive without my
hysterical parents behind me, telling me the most incontinent stuff ever! Thought Hitomi with a brief smile tugging at her lips.
Hitomi hadn't grown very much after her return from Gaea. From her experience on Gaea
she matured a lot physically and mentally. She wasn't the naïve, defenceless girl, but she
could still cry like an immature. Now she had a slim woman's body, having all the right
curves at all the right places, a sight that would please any man. She was gorgeous in any
way and every form. With her bright emerald eyes, golden-brown hair that reached her
shoulders, and soft rosy lips, she is any man's dream girl, eh, woman. But lately her
emerald eyes had lost its sparkle, but instead it was replaced by dull, tired eyes and dark
circles, due to her "hobby".
The way she interacted with people had changed drastically. Everyone noticed that the
cheerful girl that once lived inside Hitomi was now a sad, protective, dry person. The few
times Hitomi smiles, they contain sadness and longing, as if she was missing something, or
someone. Someone to fill the empty spot that rested inside her heart, a painful emptiness,
one that can only be filled by one person, Van.
Whenever her family and close friends asked why she was always so sad, she would
quickly change subject, or seem as is she didn't hear. No one pressed on the issue, taking
the hint it was something that was hard for her to discuss. After she returned, she built a
wall around herself, as if afraid someone would hurt her, toy with her feelings. She backed
away from everyone, even her family. She wouldn't share any of her emotions, too scared
to have any kind of relationship. She was scared of the world.
While Hitomi was driving, she turned on the radio, searching for something soothing to
listen too, something to relax herself. Soon enough, Hitomi found her favourite station,
"Mystic Mix"; there was always something good to hear in that channel, regardless of the
time. Moments later, as Hitomi listened to the song playing on the radio, she let her hand
rest outside of the car mind-absently, feeling the cool afternoon breeze tickle her creamy
white skin. Not long after, she was singing to the song, but soon the song that was playing
ended, and another song started. When the lyrics started to play, Hitomi felt her heart stop.
As my tears keep overflowing,
I can't see your last smile through the blur.
Don't go! Don't go! Stay with me.
Light breaks through the sky.
This song reminds me when I left, Van… thought Hitomi as a single tear trickled down
her face.
I'm so insignificant but,
I loved you with all my soul, more than anyone.
Thank you for…all of the,
Precious feelings.
That you gave to me.
How can there be a song that describes my feelings so much?? Why must I hear this?? It's only bringing sadness to me, so why listen?? But I can't stop, I have to listen, I have to know what it's going to say next. Debated Hitomi mentally, while trying to focus on the road.
At that time, I just…
Watched for ages as the vapor trail vanished.
Don't forget…
You're not alone.
Even if we part, our hands are still linked.
It was my first love, when I first
Learned of sadness like this.
STOP!! I don't want to listen to this anymore!! It's bringing too many painful
memories; it's making me remember of Van. Remember the things I did with
him, how happy I was with him. Make it stop, make it stop!! Cried Hitomi within
herself as tears started pouring freely, blinding her from the road.
Even if something fades away, Something will live again.
The smile you gave as we parted, was
Your message for me to triumph.
Why did I have to leave?? I love Van so much, and I left him!! Screw family,
screw friends, I don't care anymore, nothing matters to me anymore, just Van. I want you, Van!!! Screamed Hitomi inside her head, forgetting she was driving, or that a truck was coming towards her direction.
Someday surely we'll meet again and be together.
No matter how far, we'll stare into each other's eyes.
Bet all our hopes and dreams.
Let's promise each other,
That we'll hold on to the intensity,
Of that day.
And live in the future that blooms in tomorrow…
Van!! Take me back!! Take me back with you!!! I can't stand it anymore, make
the pain go away, just like when you had your strong arms around me, making
me feel safe and loved. Come and take me, please!!! Nothing else matters
anymore…before Hitomi could finish her thoughts; she was blinded by a flash of bright light and a piercing honking noise. There was a sharp, painful scream, and one last word
muttered from Hitomi's lips before being engulfed into total darkness.
Van…*´¨)
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Cliffhanger!!! I'm sooo very evil!! Please, please tell me your opinion, it really helps me. I
hope you liked the chappy:p It's gonna to take a while before I up-date again, but please be patient, see you later!!
Hitomi-chan^-^
26/04/03