Chapter Eleven: Slave to Desire
Damn. She couldn't sleep. The crescent moon within Heaven's embrace mocked her. Her dreams before this time were consumed with bloodshed. Devoured by hatred in which mirrored that of an uncertain future. In all of these night terrors Naraku had been slain, and she had…….sobbed. She had enveloped him within her embrace and cradled him as if he were a newborn child. She…..she cherished the worst of killers. The cruellest of foes, yet none of his past ills could have mattered to her. Her tears were a testimony in which, even now, she chose to deny. Testimony to love? Love, Nasai didn't think Naraku knew the meaning of love, let alone feel it. He had never tried to understand it hadn't he? Yes, Nasai knew herself to be a naïve fool, beseeching love were it did not exist. Where death and suffering were the makings of one man's soul.
Memories of last night invaded her thoughts, causing her to slam a clenched fist upon her pillow. Seeing those crimson eyes within her mind, watching them slowly die again as she pulled away from him. Was it sorrow in which she saw dance across his eyes? Telling her to stay…..pleading with her? She could hear the disappointment within his deep voice, a voice in which teetered upon the brink of desire. His voice enveloped by yearning. Did he just desire to bed her and send her on her way? No, within the deepest recesses of her mind Nasai could not, and would not believe such a thing. Though of course she knew, from the stories she had heard about him, was a likely goal.
Yet those eyes, eyes in which yearned for Nasai to desire him as much as he desired her. Had he wanted her to love him? To know his touch brought fire to her skin because she craved for it? Nasai damned her heart, her own desires, and thus tried to cast them from her. Yet she knew they could never be vanquished.
At that moment, last night, it wasn't Nasai and Naraku, yet merely a man and a woman. Their emotions entrapped by thoughts of rejection. By thoughts of heartbreak. Nasai was suddenly jarred from her reverie by a knock on the door. A stern voice accompanying it.
" Lady Nasai?" The voice belonged to Lady Kyra, the door slightly opening as light poured into the dark room.
" What are you doing here in the middle of the night?" Nasai asked. Her voice agitated that her thoughts were interrupted by the damn woman, yet Nasai's eyes were suddenly captured by a shining gleam of light. The origin…..the shikon no tama. The treasure was dangling from Kyra's neck, her fingers slithering about it, entwining it within her hand's embrace.
" Your slumber can wait can't it? Is this not what you desire?" Nasai felt the sweat as it collected upon her brow. Not knowing whether it was from her nightmares or her anxiousness.
" What do you plan to do to it?" Nasai's voice tore fiercely through the silence, drowning in self possessed desire. " What!?" Nasai could not restrain her anger, her utterly jealously that Kyra held the jewel……yet worst of all beheld power over Nasai in which she could not shatter.
" Patience and I shall tell you." Kyra's voice beheld a tint of amusement, causing Nasai's anger to become utter madness.
" Tell me now!" Through all this Nasai's eyes couldn't keep from draping the jewel, it called to her. Kyra seemed to notice for she encompassed the jewel within her fist, denying Nasai's eyes access to it.
" Do you know how I came upon this treasure?"
" I do not care!" Nasai spat the enraged words from her mouth, clutching the sheets in which bound her, for lack of anything else. " Why suspend such power before my desirous demon eyes!?"
" Except it or not, when I am in possession of this jewel you will do anything for me to obtain it. Will you kill for me?" Nasai's eyes, now narrowing to slits, glared to the youkai queen. She hated her because…..she knew her words were fact.
" So you will use my craving for the shikon against me shall you?" A smile kissed Nasai's lips. " Who is it that stands in your path?"
" Inuyasha. He wishes to take the shikon no tama away from me. Kill him, and the jewel shall be shared with you."
" Shared? I thought it was to be given to me."
" Answer me first Nasai." Nasai threw her head back and burst into laughter. Kill Inuyasha? Such an easy task wasn't it?
" Very well. Inuyasha shall die."
" Use this then." From behind her Kyra's fingers grasped the dagger that lay within it's sheath and threw it to Nasai.
***
Nasai had been driven by an unknown force, an aura that could not be explained. Her heart raced, as if she were being caressed by a lover. Her breathing was heavy with need, desire, and meaning. Killing Inuyasha had been inscribed within her mind, her thoughts consumed by it. She could sense him, he was near. Yes, she could sense others, yet she couldn't have cared. The darkness could only aid her, as she lost control of herself. She was no longer Nasai. She didn't know who she was. She wasn't anything, just a beast.
Nasai could hear the hanyou's steady breathing. He had no idea what was coming for him. Leaping down from the branch of the tree she was within she locked eyes upon Inuyasha. Her mother, Kagome, lay beside him. Aya and Ania on the other side of the once lit flame. Shippou, leaning against a tree.
Nasai slowly made her way to Inuyasha, moving behind him, thieving the dagger that lay at her side. With steady, soundless grace, she brought the dagger to Inuyasha's neck. She ceased there, hearing a familiar voice.
" What did Kyra offer you to drive you to kill Nasai?" Sesshoumaru. Nasai turned her eyes toward him, still holding the dagger close to Inuyasha.
" Power." Was her answer, watching his eyes widen in shock. " Yes, Kyra is my enemy I know that. Yet I can not deny Inuyasha has been my enemy since my birth. Kyra offered me power, Inuyasha only offered pain. Make no mistake I shall kill her once I have the shikon."
" Then what shall you do?" Nasai reached her eyes toward her mother, removing her dagger. How strange, yet seeing her mother provoked such sadness in her, the beast slowly fading away to expose the trembling child beneath.
" I don't know…….Back in Kyra's palace I walked about aimlessly without hope or thought. It was my haven…….it was my prison. What I found within those walls I can not say. Love? I don't know." Nasai slowly locked eyes with Sesshoumaru, letting him see a side of her no one but she, herself, had access to. " Now you see? Do you?" Nasai's eyes flooded with tears, as they threatened to spill from them, yet she beheld no resistance. " I'm such a fool! I was not myself……I am not myself." Nasai stood from the ground, never losing eye contact with her father. " I'll fight her! I will! I will not let her control me!"
" Do you really think I'll let you back there? No! I will not!"
" Please….father. Tell mother I'm alright, and that I'll be with her soon. You must let me go back."
" Is that really what you wish?"
" Yes." Reluctantly Sesshoumaru nodded in agreement.
" Just…..come back."
Placing the dagger back within its sheath Nasai slowly walked back to Kyra's castle. So needed to think, knowing her father would come for her anyway.
***
The sun was yet again reborn, mocking Nasai from its throne in heaven. She would have to face Kyra. Defy her. Yet first she would have to pretend to be loyal to her, pretend to be loyal to……Naraku.
Nasai walked Kyra's palace halls, something she had greatly done, beseeching the queen. Standing before Kyra's chambers, Nasai stood. Her hand wrapped about the knob, her breath hitching.
" Come in Nasai." Her voice. Frozen. Vicious. No doubt Nasai had angered her. Opening the door, Nasai was greeted by fresh light from the sun, also a few candles lit here and their. " You did not kill him?" Did she know? Did she hear that Nasai was going to kill her.
" I wanted to face him when he is at his best." Nasai swallowed hard. Hopefully Kyra would believe her, and in fact she did.
" Do you know when that is?"
" No." Turning about, Nasai walked from Kyra's chambers, closing the door behind her. Letting out a breath she began walking to the garden outside. Surly its beauty would calm her, it always did. Existing the castle, there outside within the flowers, the saw Naraku. Gazing off into nothing, which he always seemed to do. Nasai made her away to him, wrapping her arms around him from behind. She had to get him to trust her……fully.
" What are you doing?" He asked.
" Holding you." Was her answer, even though she denied it she quite enjoyed it.
" Why?"
" Must there always be a why?" Nasai softly rested her chin upon Naraku's head, sighing as she did. Nasai then felt two hands upon her wrists, pulling them apart. Slowly, softly, he guided her before him, turning her around, and pulling her thus into his embrace. She even felt him nuzzle his face into her hair, feeling him tenderly place a kiss there.
" I know you are trying to gain my trust only to betray me is that right?" Nasai's eyes widened, as she felt her body become rigid within his sweet embrace.
" No….." There was both lie and truth in that one, solitary word.
" You're lying to me."
" I'm sorry….." Nasai whispered, leaning her head back so it was supported by Naraku's shoulder. " I never meant……I didn't mean….." Naraku's grasp wrapped tighter around her, feeling his lips upon her neck. " Why are you doing this?"
" I don't know. This emotion is foreign to me, and forgive me if I don't know how to express it." Nasai wanted only to melt into his embrace. She wanted to simply love him.
" Is it love?" Nasai asked, her eyes closing. At first there was silence, yet finally Naraku spoke.
" Is that what this is called? Love?" Nasai smiled. He had just unknowingly admitted his love for her, something she thought we would never even dream of doing. She knew he knew the word love, yet never knew what it meant. Perhaps…….perhaps she could teach him.
A/N: Ahh! Fanfiction.net didn't work for like a week! But I'm okay now……it's working now. Finally I can update! Kinda boring, but it's leading up to something…: Devilish grin : Enjoy! ^____^
Damn. She couldn't sleep. The crescent moon within Heaven's embrace mocked her. Her dreams before this time were consumed with bloodshed. Devoured by hatred in which mirrored that of an uncertain future. In all of these night terrors Naraku had been slain, and she had…….sobbed. She had enveloped him within her embrace and cradled him as if he were a newborn child. She…..she cherished the worst of killers. The cruellest of foes, yet none of his past ills could have mattered to her. Her tears were a testimony in which, even now, she chose to deny. Testimony to love? Love, Nasai didn't think Naraku knew the meaning of love, let alone feel it. He had never tried to understand it hadn't he? Yes, Nasai knew herself to be a naïve fool, beseeching love were it did not exist. Where death and suffering were the makings of one man's soul.
Memories of last night invaded her thoughts, causing her to slam a clenched fist upon her pillow. Seeing those crimson eyes within her mind, watching them slowly die again as she pulled away from him. Was it sorrow in which she saw dance across his eyes? Telling her to stay…..pleading with her? She could hear the disappointment within his deep voice, a voice in which teetered upon the brink of desire. His voice enveloped by yearning. Did he just desire to bed her and send her on her way? No, within the deepest recesses of her mind Nasai could not, and would not believe such a thing. Though of course she knew, from the stories she had heard about him, was a likely goal.
Yet those eyes, eyes in which yearned for Nasai to desire him as much as he desired her. Had he wanted her to love him? To know his touch brought fire to her skin because she craved for it? Nasai damned her heart, her own desires, and thus tried to cast them from her. Yet she knew they could never be vanquished.
At that moment, last night, it wasn't Nasai and Naraku, yet merely a man and a woman. Their emotions entrapped by thoughts of rejection. By thoughts of heartbreak. Nasai was suddenly jarred from her reverie by a knock on the door. A stern voice accompanying it.
" Lady Nasai?" The voice belonged to Lady Kyra, the door slightly opening as light poured into the dark room.
" What are you doing here in the middle of the night?" Nasai asked. Her voice agitated that her thoughts were interrupted by the damn woman, yet Nasai's eyes were suddenly captured by a shining gleam of light. The origin…..the shikon no tama. The treasure was dangling from Kyra's neck, her fingers slithering about it, entwining it within her hand's embrace.
" Your slumber can wait can't it? Is this not what you desire?" Nasai felt the sweat as it collected upon her brow. Not knowing whether it was from her nightmares or her anxiousness.
" What do you plan to do to it?" Nasai's voice tore fiercely through the silence, drowning in self possessed desire. " What!?" Nasai could not restrain her anger, her utterly jealously that Kyra held the jewel……yet worst of all beheld power over Nasai in which she could not shatter.
" Patience and I shall tell you." Kyra's voice beheld a tint of amusement, causing Nasai's anger to become utter madness.
" Tell me now!" Through all this Nasai's eyes couldn't keep from draping the jewel, it called to her. Kyra seemed to notice for she encompassed the jewel within her fist, denying Nasai's eyes access to it.
" Do you know how I came upon this treasure?"
" I do not care!" Nasai spat the enraged words from her mouth, clutching the sheets in which bound her, for lack of anything else. " Why suspend such power before my desirous demon eyes!?"
" Except it or not, when I am in possession of this jewel you will do anything for me to obtain it. Will you kill for me?" Nasai's eyes, now narrowing to slits, glared to the youkai queen. She hated her because…..she knew her words were fact.
" So you will use my craving for the shikon against me shall you?" A smile kissed Nasai's lips. " Who is it that stands in your path?"
" Inuyasha. He wishes to take the shikon no tama away from me. Kill him, and the jewel shall be shared with you."
" Shared? I thought it was to be given to me."
" Answer me first Nasai." Nasai threw her head back and burst into laughter. Kill Inuyasha? Such an easy task wasn't it?
" Very well. Inuyasha shall die."
" Use this then." From behind her Kyra's fingers grasped the dagger that lay within it's sheath and threw it to Nasai.
***
Nasai had been driven by an unknown force, an aura that could not be explained. Her heart raced, as if she were being caressed by a lover. Her breathing was heavy with need, desire, and meaning. Killing Inuyasha had been inscribed within her mind, her thoughts consumed by it. She could sense him, he was near. Yes, she could sense others, yet she couldn't have cared. The darkness could only aid her, as she lost control of herself. She was no longer Nasai. She didn't know who she was. She wasn't anything, just a beast.
Nasai could hear the hanyou's steady breathing. He had no idea what was coming for him. Leaping down from the branch of the tree she was within she locked eyes upon Inuyasha. Her mother, Kagome, lay beside him. Aya and Ania on the other side of the once lit flame. Shippou, leaning against a tree.
Nasai slowly made her way to Inuyasha, moving behind him, thieving the dagger that lay at her side. With steady, soundless grace, she brought the dagger to Inuyasha's neck. She ceased there, hearing a familiar voice.
" What did Kyra offer you to drive you to kill Nasai?" Sesshoumaru. Nasai turned her eyes toward him, still holding the dagger close to Inuyasha.
" Power." Was her answer, watching his eyes widen in shock. " Yes, Kyra is my enemy I know that. Yet I can not deny Inuyasha has been my enemy since my birth. Kyra offered me power, Inuyasha only offered pain. Make no mistake I shall kill her once I have the shikon."
" Then what shall you do?" Nasai reached her eyes toward her mother, removing her dagger. How strange, yet seeing her mother provoked such sadness in her, the beast slowly fading away to expose the trembling child beneath.
" I don't know…….Back in Kyra's palace I walked about aimlessly without hope or thought. It was my haven…….it was my prison. What I found within those walls I can not say. Love? I don't know." Nasai slowly locked eyes with Sesshoumaru, letting him see a side of her no one but she, herself, had access to. " Now you see? Do you?" Nasai's eyes flooded with tears, as they threatened to spill from them, yet she beheld no resistance. " I'm such a fool! I was not myself……I am not myself." Nasai stood from the ground, never losing eye contact with her father. " I'll fight her! I will! I will not let her control me!"
" Do you really think I'll let you back there? No! I will not!"
" Please….father. Tell mother I'm alright, and that I'll be with her soon. You must let me go back."
" Is that really what you wish?"
" Yes." Reluctantly Sesshoumaru nodded in agreement.
" Just…..come back."
Placing the dagger back within its sheath Nasai slowly walked back to Kyra's castle. So needed to think, knowing her father would come for her anyway.
***
The sun was yet again reborn, mocking Nasai from its throne in heaven. She would have to face Kyra. Defy her. Yet first she would have to pretend to be loyal to her, pretend to be loyal to……Naraku.
Nasai walked Kyra's palace halls, something she had greatly done, beseeching the queen. Standing before Kyra's chambers, Nasai stood. Her hand wrapped about the knob, her breath hitching.
" Come in Nasai." Her voice. Frozen. Vicious. No doubt Nasai had angered her. Opening the door, Nasai was greeted by fresh light from the sun, also a few candles lit here and their. " You did not kill him?" Did she know? Did she hear that Nasai was going to kill her.
" I wanted to face him when he is at his best." Nasai swallowed hard. Hopefully Kyra would believe her, and in fact she did.
" Do you know when that is?"
" No." Turning about, Nasai walked from Kyra's chambers, closing the door behind her. Letting out a breath she began walking to the garden outside. Surly its beauty would calm her, it always did. Existing the castle, there outside within the flowers, the saw Naraku. Gazing off into nothing, which he always seemed to do. Nasai made her away to him, wrapping her arms around him from behind. She had to get him to trust her……fully.
" What are you doing?" He asked.
" Holding you." Was her answer, even though she denied it she quite enjoyed it.
" Why?"
" Must there always be a why?" Nasai softly rested her chin upon Naraku's head, sighing as she did. Nasai then felt two hands upon her wrists, pulling them apart. Slowly, softly, he guided her before him, turning her around, and pulling her thus into his embrace. She even felt him nuzzle his face into her hair, feeling him tenderly place a kiss there.
" I know you are trying to gain my trust only to betray me is that right?" Nasai's eyes widened, as she felt her body become rigid within his sweet embrace.
" No….." There was both lie and truth in that one, solitary word.
" You're lying to me."
" I'm sorry….." Nasai whispered, leaning her head back so it was supported by Naraku's shoulder. " I never meant……I didn't mean….." Naraku's grasp wrapped tighter around her, feeling his lips upon her neck. " Why are you doing this?"
" I don't know. This emotion is foreign to me, and forgive me if I don't know how to express it." Nasai wanted only to melt into his embrace. She wanted to simply love him.
" Is it love?" Nasai asked, her eyes closing. At first there was silence, yet finally Naraku spoke.
" Is that what this is called? Love?" Nasai smiled. He had just unknowingly admitted his love for her, something she thought we would never even dream of doing. She knew he knew the word love, yet never knew what it meant. Perhaps…….perhaps she could teach him.
A/N: Ahh! Fanfiction.net didn't work for like a week! But I'm okay now……it's working now. Finally I can update! Kinda boring, but it's leading up to something…: Devilish grin : Enjoy! ^____^