Chapter Thirteen: Eternal I Remain
In Power Divine, Wisdom Supreme, Love Primal
-Dante's Inferno-
Her realm of eternal dreams had been vanquished. No longer had she any use of those night passions, wishes in which were left unheeded. Dreams left untended, thrown thus within the embers of her grey heart. Thoughts of love had been decaying, set amongst the lonely recesses of her mind. So her lowly existence was to continue, eyes lost within a sea of false memories. Controlled emotions unneeded, nor wanted. The continuing days deepening the void she had alone caused to engrave her soul. To tattoo her tainted heart. Was this not how it had been? Yes, yet now within the embrace of her lover Nasai could no longer confirm such certainties to herself. She had placed her stone wall about her, thinking Naraku would break his hand trying to break it, yet he only slid through a crack.
Her families eternal enemy, the foe in which caused so much pain and suffering was teaching her to feel again. Teaching her to love, allowing her to a caress and know it is not tainted by guilt. Many a time Naraku had searched through the endless currents of sorrow in which tossed about within those golden eyes. She feared life, he knew this. With that knowledge he conspired to caress that fear away, to make her feel again. Yet, he knew he had no right to teach her emotions, and it was strange for it seemed as if she were teaching him.
Naraku, himself, had tried to memorize every detail about her. Thinking their relationship would go no further then his bold advances. Yet she had willingly given both her heart and soul to him because she yearned for love. A love he knew, now, only he could satisfy.
She had clung to him the night they laid together, her body weaving itself uniquely within his. He, of course, gave no protest. He could not find the will to slumber, he merely wanted to watch her as if she wasn't real. As if she were only a phantom in which came to haunt his passionate dreams of her before him as she was now. Her breathing was steady, her silver hair creating a waterfall in which cascaded from the side of the bed. Naraku saw Nasai's whisper within her dreams yet could not understand her. He saw her brows knit together and she pushed him away as if in fear. Naraku tried to revive her, knowing her dreams to be the only place where he could not protect her.
" Nasai?" His voice was gentle as first, becoming commanding. Seeing her eyes burst open, the corners of her eyes becoming full with tears. " Nasai." Came Naraku's whisper, holding and rocking her as she sobbed within his chest. " Was is it my love?" He asked, kissing the top of her head.
" I dreamt. I dreamt of your death!" She cried aloud, griping him fiercely for she feared he would disappear.
" Nothing is going to happen to me my love. Nothing." Nasai gazed up at him and smiled. It was just a dream wasn't it?
***
He knew he had promised her. He knew he had said he would not come. Yet he could not keep himself away. Sesshoumau had not told Kagome, or anyone for that matter, that Nasai had come to him pleading with him not to follow her anymore. He could not abandon her, he could not.
As always, Sesshoumaru had placed some distance between himself and his "group." Inuyasha was nothing but an unwanted irritation, and his daughters the same. The fox a talkative fool, and the flea that had not long ago joined tried to make him feel guilty.The one person he did not mind whatsoever was Kagome. She remained within her silence, and only spoke when she was spoken to. No doubt worried for Nasai as he was. He had heard her crying sometimes and always told himself he would comfort her the next time, yet he was still to "afraid" to do so. He, Lord Sesshoumaru, was intimidated by one human woman. Strange. She intrigued him, so always had. When she was younger he had thought of nothing but her, and why she invaded his thoughts in such a way no one had mirrored. She was his mystery, still was in fact.
She was also so very caring towards him, seeming as if the past had never happened. She probably knew he was just a worried father, and knew how he felt. This woman, this one woman, apart from Nasai, was his reason for getting up every morning. The reason why he even bothered to stay alive anymore.
When dusk was settling upon the heavens and they had ceased in their daily travels, all the others had gone to bed. Of course Sesshoumaru had his eyes closed yet could not sleep. He was listening. Listening for the sobs his Kagome would make, so he could finally comfort her. Slightly away from where they made camp he heard the sobs of a woman. He opened his eyes and stood, scaling the darkness for Kagome.
She must have been so enveloped within her thoughts she hadn't even sensed Sesshoumaru in which now towered above her.
" Kagome?" The voice. Even he noticed it was not his own, yet she looked up at him. He knelt before him slowly, gazing wildly within her puffy blue eyes. " You do not have to hide your sadness darling." Sesshoumaru reached and caressed her cheek with his hand, at first unknowing to the fact he had called her darling. Kagome shifted beneath his glare, he had just called her darling. A testimony to ones love for another. Kagome willed herself to gaze up within his golden orbs, and allowed more crystal tears to fall. Throwing her arms around his neck, she rested herself within his warm embrace.
" I'm so worried about Nasai! I have no idea what had happened to her. I don't know if she's alive or if she's...." Sesshoumaru caressed her hair, pulling her tightly within his arms.
" Nasai is fine Kagome, don't doubt that. She's to valuable to Kyra right now." Sesshoumaru felt Kagome smile against his chest, felling her head reach up so she could look at him.
" You don't have to hide your sadness from me either Sesshoumaru." Sesshoumaru gazed down with Kagome's eyes, knowing his staring made her uneasy. So he ended it, he kissed her. She did not resist, she in fact returned his kiss. Hungry for more. This startled the both of them. Kagome pulled herself away.
" I'm sorry.." She whispered. Sesshoumaru placed his hand upon her chin and lifted her head to met his eyes. Bring his lips to hers once again.
" There is nothing to apologize for Kagome-love." Sesshoumaru, being so swept with this midnight interlude with Kagome hadn't noticed a certain hanyou watching. Kagome directed her gaze to Inuyasha and gasped, causing Sesshoumaru to face him as well. A wide eyed look of pure shock implanted upon his features.
A/n: I'M BACK!!!!! Yay! Okay..band camp was really hard..damn..anyways..I'm home and I'm going to update like mad now!^___^ All I want to do is write so I'm going to update quickly. And I'm trying to figure out how to end this. I'm not going to end this soon so don't get worried, but I'm just thinking. And thank you to all of your kind reviews on my lemon! You really cheered me up! Thanks! ( Tell me if your have any suggestions for the ending )
In Power Divine, Wisdom Supreme, Love Primal
-Dante's Inferno-
Her realm of eternal dreams had been vanquished. No longer had she any use of those night passions, wishes in which were left unheeded. Dreams left untended, thrown thus within the embers of her grey heart. Thoughts of love had been decaying, set amongst the lonely recesses of her mind. So her lowly existence was to continue, eyes lost within a sea of false memories. Controlled emotions unneeded, nor wanted. The continuing days deepening the void she had alone caused to engrave her soul. To tattoo her tainted heart. Was this not how it had been? Yes, yet now within the embrace of her lover Nasai could no longer confirm such certainties to herself. She had placed her stone wall about her, thinking Naraku would break his hand trying to break it, yet he only slid through a crack.
Her families eternal enemy, the foe in which caused so much pain and suffering was teaching her to feel again. Teaching her to love, allowing her to a caress and know it is not tainted by guilt. Many a time Naraku had searched through the endless currents of sorrow in which tossed about within those golden eyes. She feared life, he knew this. With that knowledge he conspired to caress that fear away, to make her feel again. Yet, he knew he had no right to teach her emotions, and it was strange for it seemed as if she were teaching him.
Naraku, himself, had tried to memorize every detail about her. Thinking their relationship would go no further then his bold advances. Yet she had willingly given both her heart and soul to him because she yearned for love. A love he knew, now, only he could satisfy.
She had clung to him the night they laid together, her body weaving itself uniquely within his. He, of course, gave no protest. He could not find the will to slumber, he merely wanted to watch her as if she wasn't real. As if she were only a phantom in which came to haunt his passionate dreams of her before him as she was now. Her breathing was steady, her silver hair creating a waterfall in which cascaded from the side of the bed. Naraku saw Nasai's whisper within her dreams yet could not understand her. He saw her brows knit together and she pushed him away as if in fear. Naraku tried to revive her, knowing her dreams to be the only place where he could not protect her.
" Nasai?" His voice was gentle as first, becoming commanding. Seeing her eyes burst open, the corners of her eyes becoming full with tears. " Nasai." Came Naraku's whisper, holding and rocking her as she sobbed within his chest. " Was is it my love?" He asked, kissing the top of her head.
" I dreamt. I dreamt of your death!" She cried aloud, griping him fiercely for she feared he would disappear.
" Nothing is going to happen to me my love. Nothing." Nasai gazed up at him and smiled. It was just a dream wasn't it?
***
He knew he had promised her. He knew he had said he would not come. Yet he could not keep himself away. Sesshoumau had not told Kagome, or anyone for that matter, that Nasai had come to him pleading with him not to follow her anymore. He could not abandon her, he could not.
As always, Sesshoumaru had placed some distance between himself and his "group." Inuyasha was nothing but an unwanted irritation, and his daughters the same. The fox a talkative fool, and the flea that had not long ago joined tried to make him feel guilty.The one person he did not mind whatsoever was Kagome. She remained within her silence, and only spoke when she was spoken to. No doubt worried for Nasai as he was. He had heard her crying sometimes and always told himself he would comfort her the next time, yet he was still to "afraid" to do so. He, Lord Sesshoumaru, was intimidated by one human woman. Strange. She intrigued him, so always had. When she was younger he had thought of nothing but her, and why she invaded his thoughts in such a way no one had mirrored. She was his mystery, still was in fact.
She was also so very caring towards him, seeming as if the past had never happened. She probably knew he was just a worried father, and knew how he felt. This woman, this one woman, apart from Nasai, was his reason for getting up every morning. The reason why he even bothered to stay alive anymore.
When dusk was settling upon the heavens and they had ceased in their daily travels, all the others had gone to bed. Of course Sesshoumaru had his eyes closed yet could not sleep. He was listening. Listening for the sobs his Kagome would make, so he could finally comfort her. Slightly away from where they made camp he heard the sobs of a woman. He opened his eyes and stood, scaling the darkness for Kagome.
She must have been so enveloped within her thoughts she hadn't even sensed Sesshoumaru in which now towered above her.
" Kagome?" The voice. Even he noticed it was not his own, yet she looked up at him. He knelt before him slowly, gazing wildly within her puffy blue eyes. " You do not have to hide your sadness darling." Sesshoumaru reached and caressed her cheek with his hand, at first unknowing to the fact he had called her darling. Kagome shifted beneath his glare, he had just called her darling. A testimony to ones love for another. Kagome willed herself to gaze up within his golden orbs, and allowed more crystal tears to fall. Throwing her arms around his neck, she rested herself within his warm embrace.
" I'm so worried about Nasai! I have no idea what had happened to her. I don't know if she's alive or if she's...." Sesshoumaru caressed her hair, pulling her tightly within his arms.
" Nasai is fine Kagome, don't doubt that. She's to valuable to Kyra right now." Sesshoumaru felt Kagome smile against his chest, felling her head reach up so she could look at him.
" You don't have to hide your sadness from me either Sesshoumaru." Sesshoumaru gazed down with Kagome's eyes, knowing his staring made her uneasy. So he ended it, he kissed her. She did not resist, she in fact returned his kiss. Hungry for more. This startled the both of them. Kagome pulled herself away.
" I'm sorry.." She whispered. Sesshoumaru placed his hand upon her chin and lifted her head to met his eyes. Bring his lips to hers once again.
" There is nothing to apologize for Kagome-love." Sesshoumaru, being so swept with this midnight interlude with Kagome hadn't noticed a certain hanyou watching. Kagome directed her gaze to Inuyasha and gasped, causing Sesshoumaru to face him as well. A wide eyed look of pure shock implanted upon his features.
A/n: I'M BACK!!!!! Yay! Okay..band camp was really hard..damn..anyways..I'm home and I'm going to update like mad now!^___^ All I want to do is write so I'm going to update quickly. And I'm trying to figure out how to end this. I'm not going to end this soon so don't get worried, but I'm just thinking. And thank you to all of your kind reviews on my lemon! You really cheered me up! Thanks! ( Tell me if your have any suggestions for the ending )