Chapter Fifteen: A Tears Kiss
Her heart had been cede to...to flames. This place, this time felt as if it were only combined entities of air, darkness, and dream. As if she were watching herself from outside of her own body. She couldn't respond to either her father's nor Inuyasha's accusations. They had pointed their finger to Naraku, and in doing so, to accuse. Nasai stood to Naraku's side, meeting his eyes and whispering her apologies for her father with her pain stabbed eyes.
The silence bombarded Nasai, taunting her with its stillness. The zephyrs haunting her with the whispers of her future words unsaid. She would have to speak in his defence. She must! Though why was she unable to move? Unable to say what must be said? Everyone around her demanded an answer, an explanation. Something! Forcing her eyes to meet her mothers she stood rigid, taking a breath, gazing at her because she thought her mother would not judge her.
" Do not speak so spitefully of Naraku for you know nothing." Her calm words, teased by the silence, confused her family. She, herself, knowing she must embellish. Yet oh she did not wish to! Kagome's eyes were rimmed with tears, tears in which she dare not shed until the truth was spoken. Watching Nasai's growing discomfort she grew impatient and vexed. " You do not understand." She nearly whispered the words. Was she ashamed? Nasai averted her gaze away from her ningen mother. Wishing with every shard of her soul that she would remain unpunished for what she had done. Yes, the thought sounded as if she were a child and she had broken something, yet now it seemed right. She was...she was in love.
" What do you mean?" Kagome asked, unable to keep her thoughts bottled up within her mind. Nasai slowly met her mother's gaze, seeing tenderness there.
" I.." She trailed off, yet a sudden squeeze upon her hand prompted her to speak again. It was Naraku's hand. " I am in love with Naraku." There, she had said it, and now she would suffer the consequences. Yet hadn't she done what every being born in the world was meant to do? That, in her mind, was the only reason life was worth living.
Nothing. There was nothing from either side, and the silence branded Nasai with her own bold words.
" But how?" Kagome's voice again. Smothered in false hope that she misunderstood Nasai. How could Nasai feel anything but contempt for the half inu youkai? All the things Naraku had done, all the blood in which stained both his hands and his soul, how could she love someone with so much hatred?
Nasai had heard her mother's question, yet didn't know how to answer. Her eyes shifted to Kyra. Still, calm and....beautiful? Then Naraku, his eyes rimmed in disgust, heart rimmed in hatred. Throwing her arms around him Nasai rested her head upon his chest.
" I do not wish for blood to be shed this day beloved. For if theirs is shed so shall yours. My heart would die in your perished this morning. I could not bear it." Tightening her hold upon her dark prince she sobbed openly for all to see. Perhaps now they would understand. Nasai knew that perhaps even an eternity could not extinguish the detestation Naraku and her family held her each other, yet she did not care. She did not care! The past remained within the past, and she knew she could not change it. There was only the future, and it was her dreams of that future in which fuelled her.
Naraku felt Nasai unfurl her arms from around him. Could he truly hold himself back from the blood he had counted on shedding? Did she care this much for a family in which had hurt her so?
Nasai watched with golden eyes blurred with tears, her father's vacant stare, and Inuyasha turn his back.
" Fine." Hearing his voice all heads turned to Inuyasha. " Fine love the bastard, but I want no part in it." Was he walking away? Oh Kami he was! Nasai couldn't take it anymore! She run to Inuyasha and embraced him from behind. Forcing him not to move.
" Don't leave. You are the only father I have ever known, please don't abandon me now. In all of those years you spent with me did you feel nothing? Did you not love me at all?" Nasai's voice broke Naraku's heart. He could not bear to see her in such a way. Bearing her emotions to the world, her heart, her very soul. He watched as Inuyasha remained motionless, gazing on as if he hadn't heard Nasai's heart breaking plea.
" How can anyone love an odium drenched memory?" Inuyasha tore away from Nasai and turned to face her slightly. " I rid myself of you." Turning himself around as he stared away from Nasai, eyes of unforgiving gold gazing into nothingness.
The words Inuyasha had said caused Naraku's blood to boil. Despite Nasai's plea Inuyasha's blood would be shed by him.
Nasai could not demur. Would not discover the words in which hide from her view. So this was how to was? Inuyasha had never loved her at all? Had she never once caused him to smile? Had she not once teased his heart? Nasai too turned around. Yes, it was true she had found her true father, yet she had always wished to be seen as one of Inuyasha's daughters. If only for a moment. She would have sobbed at Inuyasha's derisive words if she were the Nasai in which was. Now Nasai was....changed?
There's a game life plays. It makes you think you're everything they ever said you were. All those years in the time in which she was born and raised were all wasted years. Wasted. She wanted then for Inuyasha to clear away from her, and give herself strength to fly away. Was it her fault? Betrayed by a past in which was never in her control? Betrayed.
Graceless? Indeed he was; it was true.
She had lived in a world in which she did not belong. But oh she had yearned to! Now, she felt as if she were merely dreaming. A diaphanous world pressed amongst reality. And with a languorous turn of her head her eyes settled upon Kyra. The Shikon no tama teasing her from beyond Kyra's enlaced fingers. Kyra reached her eyes to Nasai, and it was then Nasai saw something within those eyes in which she never thought possible. Sorrow? Sympathy? Yes, yet it was quickly replaced by emotionless eyes as they turned away from her.
Nasai then gazed slightly behind her, and remembered. Hadn't Inuyasha just defended her? Yes! Oh yes he had!
" When you thought Naraku had taken me against my will why did you yell in reaction if you care nothing for me?" Nasai saw Inuyasha wince at her question. " Did you lie when you practically said you didn't care for me?"
" It was only a reaction." He answered slowly, not bothering to meet her golden gaze.
" No it wasn't!" Yelled Nasai, being stunned for Inuyasha swiftly turned about and held a dagger to her throat. Naraku ran to Nasai's side, unsheathing a sword that lay at his side, and felt it bite into Inuyasha's flesh....wasn't it? No...Naraku slightly opened his eyes, ( He closed them so blood wouldn't blind them. ) to see the blade within Nasai who gazed vacantly with wide eyes to her lover. Ania and Aya screamed in unison, Kagome's tears spilling and Sesshoumaru's gasp.
It was then the Shikon no tama upon Kyra's neck burst into flames and...died. Inuyasha watched at Nasai fell to the ground only to be caught by Naraku who rocked her.
Nasai gazed up through blurry eyes to her Naraku who was sobbing. Sobbing? Yes, she could feel his tears kiss her face and mangle with her own. She felt the pain of the blade leaving her, and the worried faces of her mother, father, and two sisters. She felt Naraku's arms encase about her, pulling her close.
" What have you done?" She felt whispered into her ear. Lips upon her forehead. With half-lidded eyes Nasai saw her mother fall to her knees and hug her from behind. Her sisters grasp her hand, sobbing, and her father...she saw her father kneel and lovingly kiss her lips. Why she had protected Inuyasha she could not fathom yet now the deed was done and she felt her body dying. Gazing up to Naraku whose eyes were drowning in tears, she pressed her hand to his cheek, bring his head down so his lips met hers for one last kiss.
She had found love only to lose it. Found a father only to never know him. Protected a man in which then sought her destruction, and felt the love of a sister in which was never felt before. And so before her eyes closed, and she felt her heart fade did on question posses her mind....
' Are we born only to die?'
Kagome grasped Sesshoumaru's arm and forced his eyes to hers.
" Can't you revive her?" His eyes widened, as he fingered the sword at his side. Pulling it from its hilt he willed everyone away from the now deceased Nasai.
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Nasai could see herself..dead. She saw her father pull a sword from his side and lightly saw it upon her skin. Crimson light poured from the blade, as she felt the pull from her body. Nasai could feel her soul enter her body once again, her eyes unable to open, yet she could speak.
" Naraku.." Reaching her hands out she felt him embrace her, placing a passionate kiss upon her lips.
She was alive again.
She was given a second chance.
Now, she would not waste it.
A/N: Yes this is the last chapter. Sorry I didn't say anything, and I at first I didn't want this chapter to be the ending, but it just evolved that way. Thank you so much to everyone in which reviewed and supported my story I can never say how much that means to me. Did I fool you? I was going to just have Nasai die.but I couldn't stand it. I couldn't. I just love happy endings too much. ^___^. I really hope you enjoyed Ruins and thanks again for you encouragement.
Her heart had been cede to...to flames. This place, this time felt as if it were only combined entities of air, darkness, and dream. As if she were watching herself from outside of her own body. She couldn't respond to either her father's nor Inuyasha's accusations. They had pointed their finger to Naraku, and in doing so, to accuse. Nasai stood to Naraku's side, meeting his eyes and whispering her apologies for her father with her pain stabbed eyes.
The silence bombarded Nasai, taunting her with its stillness. The zephyrs haunting her with the whispers of her future words unsaid. She would have to speak in his defence. She must! Though why was she unable to move? Unable to say what must be said? Everyone around her demanded an answer, an explanation. Something! Forcing her eyes to meet her mothers she stood rigid, taking a breath, gazing at her because she thought her mother would not judge her.
" Do not speak so spitefully of Naraku for you know nothing." Her calm words, teased by the silence, confused her family. She, herself, knowing she must embellish. Yet oh she did not wish to! Kagome's eyes were rimmed with tears, tears in which she dare not shed until the truth was spoken. Watching Nasai's growing discomfort she grew impatient and vexed. " You do not understand." She nearly whispered the words. Was she ashamed? Nasai averted her gaze away from her ningen mother. Wishing with every shard of her soul that she would remain unpunished for what she had done. Yes, the thought sounded as if she were a child and she had broken something, yet now it seemed right. She was...she was in love.
" What do you mean?" Kagome asked, unable to keep her thoughts bottled up within her mind. Nasai slowly met her mother's gaze, seeing tenderness there.
" I.." She trailed off, yet a sudden squeeze upon her hand prompted her to speak again. It was Naraku's hand. " I am in love with Naraku." There, she had said it, and now she would suffer the consequences. Yet hadn't she done what every being born in the world was meant to do? That, in her mind, was the only reason life was worth living.
Nothing. There was nothing from either side, and the silence branded Nasai with her own bold words.
" But how?" Kagome's voice again. Smothered in false hope that she misunderstood Nasai. How could Nasai feel anything but contempt for the half inu youkai? All the things Naraku had done, all the blood in which stained both his hands and his soul, how could she love someone with so much hatred?
Nasai had heard her mother's question, yet didn't know how to answer. Her eyes shifted to Kyra. Still, calm and....beautiful? Then Naraku, his eyes rimmed in disgust, heart rimmed in hatred. Throwing her arms around him Nasai rested her head upon his chest.
" I do not wish for blood to be shed this day beloved. For if theirs is shed so shall yours. My heart would die in your perished this morning. I could not bear it." Tightening her hold upon her dark prince she sobbed openly for all to see. Perhaps now they would understand. Nasai knew that perhaps even an eternity could not extinguish the detestation Naraku and her family held her each other, yet she did not care. She did not care! The past remained within the past, and she knew she could not change it. There was only the future, and it was her dreams of that future in which fuelled her.
Naraku felt Nasai unfurl her arms from around him. Could he truly hold himself back from the blood he had counted on shedding? Did she care this much for a family in which had hurt her so?
Nasai watched with golden eyes blurred with tears, her father's vacant stare, and Inuyasha turn his back.
" Fine." Hearing his voice all heads turned to Inuyasha. " Fine love the bastard, but I want no part in it." Was he walking away? Oh Kami he was! Nasai couldn't take it anymore! She run to Inuyasha and embraced him from behind. Forcing him not to move.
" Don't leave. You are the only father I have ever known, please don't abandon me now. In all of those years you spent with me did you feel nothing? Did you not love me at all?" Nasai's voice broke Naraku's heart. He could not bear to see her in such a way. Bearing her emotions to the world, her heart, her very soul. He watched as Inuyasha remained motionless, gazing on as if he hadn't heard Nasai's heart breaking plea.
" How can anyone love an odium drenched memory?" Inuyasha tore away from Nasai and turned to face her slightly. " I rid myself of you." Turning himself around as he stared away from Nasai, eyes of unforgiving gold gazing into nothingness.
The words Inuyasha had said caused Naraku's blood to boil. Despite Nasai's plea Inuyasha's blood would be shed by him.
Nasai could not demur. Would not discover the words in which hide from her view. So this was how to was? Inuyasha had never loved her at all? Had she never once caused him to smile? Had she not once teased his heart? Nasai too turned around. Yes, it was true she had found her true father, yet she had always wished to be seen as one of Inuyasha's daughters. If only for a moment. She would have sobbed at Inuyasha's derisive words if she were the Nasai in which was. Now Nasai was....changed?
There's a game life plays. It makes you think you're everything they ever said you were. All those years in the time in which she was born and raised were all wasted years. Wasted. She wanted then for Inuyasha to clear away from her, and give herself strength to fly away. Was it her fault? Betrayed by a past in which was never in her control? Betrayed.
Graceless? Indeed he was; it was true.
She had lived in a world in which she did not belong. But oh she had yearned to! Now, she felt as if she were merely dreaming. A diaphanous world pressed amongst reality. And with a languorous turn of her head her eyes settled upon Kyra. The Shikon no tama teasing her from beyond Kyra's enlaced fingers. Kyra reached her eyes to Nasai, and it was then Nasai saw something within those eyes in which she never thought possible. Sorrow? Sympathy? Yes, yet it was quickly replaced by emotionless eyes as they turned away from her.
Nasai then gazed slightly behind her, and remembered. Hadn't Inuyasha just defended her? Yes! Oh yes he had!
" When you thought Naraku had taken me against my will why did you yell in reaction if you care nothing for me?" Nasai saw Inuyasha wince at her question. " Did you lie when you practically said you didn't care for me?"
" It was only a reaction." He answered slowly, not bothering to meet her golden gaze.
" No it wasn't!" Yelled Nasai, being stunned for Inuyasha swiftly turned about and held a dagger to her throat. Naraku ran to Nasai's side, unsheathing a sword that lay at his side, and felt it bite into Inuyasha's flesh....wasn't it? No...Naraku slightly opened his eyes, ( He closed them so blood wouldn't blind them. ) to see the blade within Nasai who gazed vacantly with wide eyes to her lover. Ania and Aya screamed in unison, Kagome's tears spilling and Sesshoumaru's gasp.
It was then the Shikon no tama upon Kyra's neck burst into flames and...died. Inuyasha watched at Nasai fell to the ground only to be caught by Naraku who rocked her.
Nasai gazed up through blurry eyes to her Naraku who was sobbing. Sobbing? Yes, she could feel his tears kiss her face and mangle with her own. She felt the pain of the blade leaving her, and the worried faces of her mother, father, and two sisters. She felt Naraku's arms encase about her, pulling her close.
" What have you done?" She felt whispered into her ear. Lips upon her forehead. With half-lidded eyes Nasai saw her mother fall to her knees and hug her from behind. Her sisters grasp her hand, sobbing, and her father...she saw her father kneel and lovingly kiss her lips. Why she had protected Inuyasha she could not fathom yet now the deed was done and she felt her body dying. Gazing up to Naraku whose eyes were drowning in tears, she pressed her hand to his cheek, bring his head down so his lips met hers for one last kiss.
She had found love only to lose it. Found a father only to never know him. Protected a man in which then sought her destruction, and felt the love of a sister in which was never felt before. And so before her eyes closed, and she felt her heart fade did on question posses her mind....
' Are we born only to die?'
Kagome grasped Sesshoumaru's arm and forced his eyes to hers.
" Can't you revive her?" His eyes widened, as he fingered the sword at his side. Pulling it from its hilt he willed everyone away from the now deceased Nasai.
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Nasai could see herself..dead. She saw her father pull a sword from his side and lightly saw it upon her skin. Crimson light poured from the blade, as she felt the pull from her body. Nasai could feel her soul enter her body once again, her eyes unable to open, yet she could speak.
" Naraku.." Reaching her hands out she felt him embrace her, placing a passionate kiss upon her lips.
She was alive again.
She was given a second chance.
Now, she would not waste it.
A/N: Yes this is the last chapter. Sorry I didn't say anything, and I at first I didn't want this chapter to be the ending, but it just evolved that way. Thank you so much to everyone in which reviewed and supported my story I can never say how much that means to me. Did I fool you? I was going to just have Nasai die.but I couldn't stand it. I couldn't. I just love happy endings too much. ^___^. I really hope you enjoyed Ruins and thanks again for you encouragement.