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Note: Chapter 5 ne…is…urm…a little…I don't know…I don't like this chapter…Well…Anyways, please R & R!! And oh yea, I need someone to help me with the grammar…Can someone help me? Give me a mail okies?
Chapter05: "…Ha…haha…hahahahaha…"
Yuki Eiri nudged Shuichi aside gently as he get himself out of bed, leaving Shuichi in the warmth he laid behind. He perambulated around his bedroom for a short while before deciding on getting himself a beer from the kitchen's fridge. He moseyed lazily towards his study room after pulling out a can.
His laptop was in standby mode and on a tab of the enter key revealed what was written of his newest work to be only 54 pages of nonsensical crap.
"What have I been writing…" he sighed. Too many events had occurred recently. Too many to make Yuki more than exhausted, unable to account and analyze what had happened. He was in no mood to write at all now. He wanted to sleep but he couldn't…not when he was sleeping next to his lover whom he knew was dying… Lover? Since when did he recognize Shuichi as his lover? Since when did he care so much about Shuichi? Didn't he want to get rid of this annoying pest a long time ago? Didn't he want Shuichi to be out of his life a long time ago? Shuichi reminded him too much of Kitazawa Yuki…too much that it hurts him… But now…Shuichi would not be pestering him six months later…six months…six months…
"Shit…" Yuki felt tears overflowing from his eyes.
Why am I crying? Why the tears? What the fuck are these tears for? For Shuichi? Why?
// "I want to hold you like this in future, not only for six more months."
"I will find you too. No matter where you are, dead or alive. I will find you too, Shuichi. I promise." //
Why did I say all that? I promise? So what if I did? Find him? What if he is really dead? Will I find him? Fuck. What is wrong with me? What the fucking wrong is with me?
The more Yuki think, the faster the tears flowed. He clenched his fists. He should not be crying. He did not like to cry. It made him vulnerable…edgy…stupid. It made him un-Yuki.
"Shuichi…" Suddenly, Yuki's mind was blocked. Blocked by memories and thoughts of Shuichi. How they first met…how their relationship started…how Shuichi started living with him…how Shuichi lost and found him again…how…how…how…
That cute kawaii baby-face…those large trusting emerald eyes…the soft amazing lips that made Eiri swoon with lust…Shuichi…Shuichi…Shuichi…
"Don't leave me too…Shuichi…" Yuki whispered, half wishing that Shuichi in his…their bedroom would hear him.
"DING----" The doorbell went ringing in the middle of the night. At first, Eiri wanted to ignore it but decide upon answering it anyway after a second thought.
"Tohma…"
It was Seguchi Tohma at the door, in his typical almost glamorous outfit. It is hard to believe that anyone would wear an outfit as resplendent as that on a night like this. But no…certainly not on Seguchi Tohma, N-G Corporation's president. It would be…abnormal instead if he appears without his frills, hats and scarves.
"Konbawa, Eiri-san." Tohma replied in the same calm feminine voice he always has.
"What do you want?" Eiri inquired as he ambulated towards the blue-black leather crouch in the living room.
"…It's about Shindou-san, he is sleeping?"
Eiri did not answer, drinking his beer he pulled out just now.
"…I presume it's a yes…" Tohma shut the door but remained standing at the doorway, crossing his arms, watching Eiri's back as he sat down on the crouch.
"…You know about it already…" Eiri stated soberly.
"…Yes, I do."
"…And I assume N-G will suffer some heavy losses…"
"…As a matter of fact, yes. But I am not here to talk about N-G's losses tonight. I am here to have a little chat about you and Shindou-san."
*** ***
The gentle soothing morning sunlight shone through veil, landing softly of Shuichi's face. Yuki gently stoked Shuichi's cheek, shaping a mini 'U' back and forth on it.
"Un…Yu…Yuki…" Shuichi's eyes lid unveiled slowly, revealing of what was of the blurred V-shaped contour to be Yuki's face. Shuichi smiled broadly at Yuki. He did not have to go to work today…no…anymore. He can stay at home now, spending quality time with Yuki. Eat with Yuki… Cook for Yuki… Clean the house for Yuki…Watch TV with Yuki…Chat with Yuki (which is highly impossible)…Jam his newly bought Playstation 2 with Yuki (more impossible)…Make up for all the time they had lost when Shuichi had to work. For once, just this once, Shuichi was thankful for the tumor in his brain…
"I'll go make breakfast now…" Shuichi got up, composed himself before deciding upon what to make for the morning.
"Wait…" Yuki grabbed Shuichi's arm and pulled him close for a hug and a passionate kiss. A kiss conveying messages of love and pain. A kiss imploring for love in return. A kiss that was different from the hundreds and thousands of kisses Yuki had gave to Shuichi before. Shuichi could feel Yuki's breath lost in his own and it revitalized his whole body with heat. Time seemed to have stopped. The morning dew froze. The world seemed to have halted in a silent note. Everything was so quiet.
"Mm…u…u…ki…I…I…can't breathe…Yuki…" Shuichi finally managed to speak after Yuki broke off the long kiss, teasing Shuichi's lips with his own lightly.
"Then don't…" Yuki's mouth grabbed that of Shuichi again, pushing him back on bed slowly again. So soft…his lips were so soft…and the taste…a sour yet sweet taste…the taste of Shuichi.
Yuki felt a sudden surge of wanting Shuichi so badly. He could not get enough of Shuichi. He wanted more. He wanted this moment to last forever. However, he was not going to rush things. He was going to take it one-step at a time, at a gentle pace.
And Shuichi was accommodating to that. He was enjoying this as much as Yuki was. In fact, he felt overwhelmed as Yuki rested his weight on his body.
Shuichi moaned as Yuki parted from his lips, sucking his puny Adam's apple after licking and tasting his way along the contour of his neck. Eiri was mesmerized and loving every bit of it. Eiri started to run his fingers into Shuichi's navy blue singlet, finding its way towards Shuichi's erected nipples and gently tickling it with his fingertips. Shuichi, on the other hand, slipped his fingers into Yuki's silky blond hair, sighing Yuki's name now and then as he felt Yuki's fingers working on his chest.
Yuki pulled back slowly, taking off Shuichi's clothing while Shuichi unbuttoned his white Calvin Klein.
"I didn't know you like to have sex in the morning." Shuichi broke off the silence, blushing just a little.
"Now you know…" Yuki replied with a small smirk as he pushed himself against Shuichi once more.
*** ***
The room was filled with vapors of lust. And as Yuki looked down at Shuichi who was as exhausted as he was, he could not help but kissed him again. Shuichi was so beautiful and fragile, like a shimmering crystal…so vulnerable…so exquisite.
"Yuki…I love you…"Shuichi whispered softly to Eiri's ear as the latter rested on him, hugging him softly.
"Mm…" Yuki's voice was muffled in the sheets.
"Really…I do…Yuki…"
"Mm…"
//Flashback//
"You have to break up with Shindou-san now." Tohma stated.
Yuki Eiri stayed silent.
"He's going to hurt you again and I won't allow that."
Eiri gulped his beer, still staying silent.
"I swore to protect you. Even if it would risk my life, I won't allow anyone to hurt you again."
"…I know…" Eiri replied softly.
"Leave him. Mika-san won't want to see you hurt. No one would want to see you hurt."
Eiri got up from the crouch, carried his legs to the balcony, watching unfeelingly at the starry night scenery before him. He was unaware that Tohma was staring at his back gently, noticing its loneliness and melancholy as it cast a shadow in the living room through the moonlight.
"Shindou-san won't want to see you hurt too, I guess." Tohma raised his voice just a little as he emphasized on the "Shindou-san".
Silence lingered on for a moment before…
"Leave him." Tohma repeated once more.
//End of Flashback//
"Yuki…I really have to get up now." Shuichi patted his lover's back. Yuki was still lying on top of him.
There was no answer.
"Yuki…Yuki…? Are you sleeping, Yuki?" Shuichi patted once more.
%% "You've got to leave him." %%
"Ne…Yuki? What's wrong, Yuki? Ne?"
%% "Listen to me, he's going to hurt you again!" %%
"Yuki? Are you alright?"
%%"Don't you understand? You will be broken! You will fall apart! You may even be dead!" %%
"Yuki?"
%%"Eiri-san?" %%
"Uru…" Eiri breathed.
"Huh?"
%%"What?" %%
"URUSAI!!!" Eiri bellowed, scratching Shuichi's eardrums.
"Itai…Yuki…Ah…Gomen…I'll be quiet now…I…"
%%"Leave him or I'll make him leave you." %%
"NO!! NOOOOOOOOO!!" Eiri yelled as he pushed himself up, sweating with fear.
"YUKI! Are you alright? What's wrong?" Shuichi cupped Eiri's cheek to bring him back to senses. He was in awed of the frantic man on top of him.
"………Shu…Shuichi…?" Yuki looked down as he felt Shuichi's warm hands.
"Are you alright? Don't scare me like that, Yuki." Shuichi inquired with a worried expression hanging on his face.
"…Shuichi…You…You are…You are still here…"
"Huh?"
"Don't leave me…don't leave me! DON'T LEAVE ME TOO!" Yuki screamed frantically as he caressed Shuichi tightly.
"Yuki…ne…you are suffocating me…"
Shocked, Yuki let off some space for Shuichi to breathe and turned away, hiding his face.
"Yuki…urm…are you alright? You are scaring me…"
Yuki kept quiet again.
Weird…this is so weird. What's going on? What's happening to Yuki? Why is he so…afraid?
"Yu…" Shuichi was interrupted by Yuki's embrace.
"Shuichi…I know now…I finally know why now…"
"Huh?"
"I…I…"
"Yuki?"
"I love you, Shuichi."
"Yu…ki…?" Shuichi's eyes lit up with surprise.
"I love you. I love you. I love you so much. I don't want you to leave me, Shuichi. I don't want that. Please…don't leave me…don't leave me…" Eiri squeezed Shuichi tighter.
Shuichi was confused. Yuki was practically frantic this morning. First, he had sex with him suddenly. Then, he started screaming like a mad dog. Now, Yuki said…
"Yuuuuuuuuuuuukkiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~~~! I love you! I love you! I love you too~!" Shuichi regained all his genki-ness suddenly and jumped on Yuki.
"Ah…baka…"
"Ah…sumimasen…" Shuichi got up clumsily.
"…Ha…haha…hahahahaha…" Yuki laughed…for the first time…before Shuichi…
"Yu…ki…? You…you laughed…you…" Shuichi could not help but jumped on Eiri again.
"Ah…careful…"
"Ne…Yuki…you laughed…and you…you said you love me…I…I…I am soooooooooooo happy…Yuuuuukkiiiiii…*sob*" Shuichi was crying with happiness now. He was not going to get up this time round.
"Baka…" Yuki Eiri blushed. He was a little shocked by himself too this morning.
The lovers were in warm embrace now. Nothing was going to separate them now. Not even when they found out they were still naked…
*** ***
"Mah…Yuki…" Shuichi spoke after swallowing his whole lunch down. He was hungry. How can you not be after such a tiring morning?
"I have reached a decision, Yuki."
"Hm?" Yuki Eiri was back to his old self --- cold and composed. But he knew…no…both him and Shuichi knew many things had changed.
"I decided…I am going for the operation."
"Ah…"
"You are right. Six months ain't enough at all. It is not enough for us…especially now…" Shuichi's flustered, without noticing Yuki to be right in front of him now.
"Shuichi. You will get better. I know you will." Yuki placed his hands on Shuichi's as he spoke.
"Mm. I will." Shuichi's cheeks went red as he agreed.
"Mm…I need to go back to my work now. You…come with me?"
"CAN I?!" Shuichi was surprised. He was never allowed to be with Yuki when he was writing.
Eiri nodded before turning around and headed towards the study room.
"YAY~! AH…I'll do the dishes first~!" Shuichi exclaimed excitedly. Yuki is opening up to him now. Maybe having a tumor ain't so bad after all…
CLINK---CLANK---
"Huh…Yu…Yu…YUUUUUUUKIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!" Shuichi screamed.
To be continued…
Note: Chapter 5 ne…is…urm…a little…I don't know…I don't like this chapter…Well…Anyways, please R & R!! And oh yea, I need someone to help me with the grammar…Can someone help me? Give me a mail okies?
Chapter05: "…Ha…haha…hahahahaha…"
Yuki Eiri nudged Shuichi aside gently as he get himself out of bed, leaving Shuichi in the warmth he laid behind. He perambulated around his bedroom for a short while before deciding on getting himself a beer from the kitchen's fridge. He moseyed lazily towards his study room after pulling out a can.
His laptop was in standby mode and on a tab of the enter key revealed what was written of his newest work to be only 54 pages of nonsensical crap.
"What have I been writing…" he sighed. Too many events had occurred recently. Too many to make Yuki more than exhausted, unable to account and analyze what had happened. He was in no mood to write at all now. He wanted to sleep but he couldn't…not when he was sleeping next to his lover whom he knew was dying… Lover? Since when did he recognize Shuichi as his lover? Since when did he care so much about Shuichi? Didn't he want to get rid of this annoying pest a long time ago? Didn't he want Shuichi to be out of his life a long time ago? Shuichi reminded him too much of Kitazawa Yuki…too much that it hurts him… But now…Shuichi would not be pestering him six months later…six months…six months…
"Shit…" Yuki felt tears overflowing from his eyes.
Why am I crying? Why the tears? What the fuck are these tears for? For Shuichi? Why?
// "I want to hold you like this in future, not only for six more months."
"I will find you too. No matter where you are, dead or alive. I will find you too, Shuichi. I promise." //
Why did I say all that? I promise? So what if I did? Find him? What if he is really dead? Will I find him? Fuck. What is wrong with me? What the fucking wrong is with me?
The more Yuki think, the faster the tears flowed. He clenched his fists. He should not be crying. He did not like to cry. It made him vulnerable…edgy…stupid. It made him un-Yuki.
"Shuichi…" Suddenly, Yuki's mind was blocked. Blocked by memories and thoughts of Shuichi. How they first met…how their relationship started…how Shuichi started living with him…how Shuichi lost and found him again…how…how…how…
That cute kawaii baby-face…those large trusting emerald eyes…the soft amazing lips that made Eiri swoon with lust…Shuichi…Shuichi…Shuichi…
"Don't leave me too…Shuichi…" Yuki whispered, half wishing that Shuichi in his…their bedroom would hear him.
"DING----" The doorbell went ringing in the middle of the night. At first, Eiri wanted to ignore it but decide upon answering it anyway after a second thought.
"Tohma…"
It was Seguchi Tohma at the door, in his typical almost glamorous outfit. It is hard to believe that anyone would wear an outfit as resplendent as that on a night like this. But no…certainly not on Seguchi Tohma, N-G Corporation's president. It would be…abnormal instead if he appears without his frills, hats and scarves.
"Konbawa, Eiri-san." Tohma replied in the same calm feminine voice he always has.
"What do you want?" Eiri inquired as he ambulated towards the blue-black leather crouch in the living room.
"…It's about Shindou-san, he is sleeping?"
Eiri did not answer, drinking his beer he pulled out just now.
"…I presume it's a yes…" Tohma shut the door but remained standing at the doorway, crossing his arms, watching Eiri's back as he sat down on the crouch.
"…You know about it already…" Eiri stated soberly.
"…Yes, I do."
"…And I assume N-G will suffer some heavy losses…"
"…As a matter of fact, yes. But I am not here to talk about N-G's losses tonight. I am here to have a little chat about you and Shindou-san."
*** ***
The gentle soothing morning sunlight shone through veil, landing softly of Shuichi's face. Yuki gently stoked Shuichi's cheek, shaping a mini 'U' back and forth on it.
"Un…Yu…Yuki…" Shuichi's eyes lid unveiled slowly, revealing of what was of the blurred V-shaped contour to be Yuki's face. Shuichi smiled broadly at Yuki. He did not have to go to work today…no…anymore. He can stay at home now, spending quality time with Yuki. Eat with Yuki… Cook for Yuki… Clean the house for Yuki…Watch TV with Yuki…Chat with Yuki (which is highly impossible)…Jam his newly bought Playstation 2 with Yuki (more impossible)…Make up for all the time they had lost when Shuichi had to work. For once, just this once, Shuichi was thankful for the tumor in his brain…
"I'll go make breakfast now…" Shuichi got up, composed himself before deciding upon what to make for the morning.
"Wait…" Yuki grabbed Shuichi's arm and pulled him close for a hug and a passionate kiss. A kiss conveying messages of love and pain. A kiss imploring for love in return. A kiss that was different from the hundreds and thousands of kisses Yuki had gave to Shuichi before. Shuichi could feel Yuki's breath lost in his own and it revitalized his whole body with heat. Time seemed to have stopped. The morning dew froze. The world seemed to have halted in a silent note. Everything was so quiet.
"Mm…u…u…ki…I…I…can't breathe…Yuki…" Shuichi finally managed to speak after Yuki broke off the long kiss, teasing Shuichi's lips with his own lightly.
"Then don't…" Yuki's mouth grabbed that of Shuichi again, pushing him back on bed slowly again. So soft…his lips were so soft…and the taste…a sour yet sweet taste…the taste of Shuichi.
Yuki felt a sudden surge of wanting Shuichi so badly. He could not get enough of Shuichi. He wanted more. He wanted this moment to last forever. However, he was not going to rush things. He was going to take it one-step at a time, at a gentle pace.
And Shuichi was accommodating to that. He was enjoying this as much as Yuki was. In fact, he felt overwhelmed as Yuki rested his weight on his body.
Shuichi moaned as Yuki parted from his lips, sucking his puny Adam's apple after licking and tasting his way along the contour of his neck. Eiri was mesmerized and loving every bit of it. Eiri started to run his fingers into Shuichi's navy blue singlet, finding its way towards Shuichi's erected nipples and gently tickling it with his fingertips. Shuichi, on the other hand, slipped his fingers into Yuki's silky blond hair, sighing Yuki's name now and then as he felt Yuki's fingers working on his chest.
Yuki pulled back slowly, taking off Shuichi's clothing while Shuichi unbuttoned his white Calvin Klein.
"I didn't know you like to have sex in the morning." Shuichi broke off the silence, blushing just a little.
"Now you know…" Yuki replied with a small smirk as he pushed himself against Shuichi once more.
*** ***
The room was filled with vapors of lust. And as Yuki looked down at Shuichi who was as exhausted as he was, he could not help but kissed him again. Shuichi was so beautiful and fragile, like a shimmering crystal…so vulnerable…so exquisite.
"Yuki…I love you…"Shuichi whispered softly to Eiri's ear as the latter rested on him, hugging him softly.
"Mm…" Yuki's voice was muffled in the sheets.
"Really…I do…Yuki…"
"Mm…"
//Flashback//
"You have to break up with Shindou-san now." Tohma stated.
Yuki Eiri stayed silent.
"He's going to hurt you again and I won't allow that."
Eiri gulped his beer, still staying silent.
"I swore to protect you. Even if it would risk my life, I won't allow anyone to hurt you again."
"…I know…" Eiri replied softly.
"Leave him. Mika-san won't want to see you hurt. No one would want to see you hurt."
Eiri got up from the crouch, carried his legs to the balcony, watching unfeelingly at the starry night scenery before him. He was unaware that Tohma was staring at his back gently, noticing its loneliness and melancholy as it cast a shadow in the living room through the moonlight.
"Shindou-san won't want to see you hurt too, I guess." Tohma raised his voice just a little as he emphasized on the "Shindou-san".
Silence lingered on for a moment before…
"Leave him." Tohma repeated once more.
//End of Flashback//
"Yuki…I really have to get up now." Shuichi patted his lover's back. Yuki was still lying on top of him.
There was no answer.
"Yuki…Yuki…? Are you sleeping, Yuki?" Shuichi patted once more.
%% "You've got to leave him." %%
"Ne…Yuki? What's wrong, Yuki? Ne?"
%% "Listen to me, he's going to hurt you again!" %%
"Yuki? Are you alright?"
%%"Don't you understand? You will be broken! You will fall apart! You may even be dead!" %%
"Yuki?"
%%"Eiri-san?" %%
"Uru…" Eiri breathed.
"Huh?"
%%"What?" %%
"URUSAI!!!" Eiri bellowed, scratching Shuichi's eardrums.
"Itai…Yuki…Ah…Gomen…I'll be quiet now…I…"
%%"Leave him or I'll make him leave you." %%
"NO!! NOOOOOOOOO!!" Eiri yelled as he pushed himself up, sweating with fear.
"YUKI! Are you alright? What's wrong?" Shuichi cupped Eiri's cheek to bring him back to senses. He was in awed of the frantic man on top of him.
"………Shu…Shuichi…?" Yuki looked down as he felt Shuichi's warm hands.
"Are you alright? Don't scare me like that, Yuki." Shuichi inquired with a worried expression hanging on his face.
"…Shuichi…You…You are…You are still here…"
"Huh?"
"Don't leave me…don't leave me! DON'T LEAVE ME TOO!" Yuki screamed frantically as he caressed Shuichi tightly.
"Yuki…ne…you are suffocating me…"
Shocked, Yuki let off some space for Shuichi to breathe and turned away, hiding his face.
"Yuki…urm…are you alright? You are scaring me…"
Yuki kept quiet again.
Weird…this is so weird. What's going on? What's happening to Yuki? Why is he so…afraid?
"Yu…" Shuichi was interrupted by Yuki's embrace.
"Shuichi…I know now…I finally know why now…"
"Huh?"
"I…I…"
"Yuki?"
"I love you, Shuichi."
"Yu…ki…?" Shuichi's eyes lit up with surprise.
"I love you. I love you. I love you so much. I don't want you to leave me, Shuichi. I don't want that. Please…don't leave me…don't leave me…" Eiri squeezed Shuichi tighter.
Shuichi was confused. Yuki was practically frantic this morning. First, he had sex with him suddenly. Then, he started screaming like a mad dog. Now, Yuki said…
"Yuuuuuuuuuuuukkiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~~~! I love you! I love you! I love you too~!" Shuichi regained all his genki-ness suddenly and jumped on Yuki.
"Ah…baka…"
"Ah…sumimasen…" Shuichi got up clumsily.
"…Ha…haha…hahahahaha…" Yuki laughed…for the first time…before Shuichi…
"Yu…ki…? You…you laughed…you…" Shuichi could not help but jumped on Eiri again.
"Ah…careful…"
"Ne…Yuki…you laughed…and you…you said you love me…I…I…I am soooooooooooo happy…Yuuuuukkiiiiii…*sob*" Shuichi was crying with happiness now. He was not going to get up this time round.
"Baka…" Yuki Eiri blushed. He was a little shocked by himself too this morning.
The lovers were in warm embrace now. Nothing was going to separate them now. Not even when they found out they were still naked…
*** ***
"Mah…Yuki…" Shuichi spoke after swallowing his whole lunch down. He was hungry. How can you not be after such a tiring morning?
"I have reached a decision, Yuki."
"Hm?" Yuki Eiri was back to his old self --- cold and composed. But he knew…no…both him and Shuichi knew many things had changed.
"I decided…I am going for the operation."
"Ah…"
"You are right. Six months ain't enough at all. It is not enough for us…especially now…" Shuichi's flustered, without noticing Yuki to be right in front of him now.
"Shuichi. You will get better. I know you will." Yuki placed his hands on Shuichi's as he spoke.
"Mm. I will." Shuichi's cheeks went red as he agreed.
"Mm…I need to go back to my work now. You…come with me?"
"CAN I?!" Shuichi was surprised. He was never allowed to be with Yuki when he was writing.
Eiri nodded before turning around and headed towards the study room.
"YAY~! AH…I'll do the dishes first~!" Shuichi exclaimed excitedly. Yuki is opening up to him now. Maybe having a tumor ain't so bad after all…
CLINK---CLANK---
"Huh…Yu…Yu…YUUUUUUUKIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!" Shuichi screamed.
To be continued…