Sam, woke with a start, seating and panting. All night her dreams had
been plagued with his face, no matter how hard she tried she couldn't shake
the fear that had enveloped her. She looked around, the infirmary was dark,
and abandoned except for a few nurses scurring about. She ran her hands through
her hair trying to regain her composure, carefully she pulled the blankets off
of herself and slid her legs off of the bed, wincing, she looked down at
her stab wound, it had started bleeding through the bandages slightly.
Taking a deep breath she stood, shuddering at the overall coldness of the
infirmary, she looked around making sure no one had seen her, she was getting stir-crazy
in here, she headed towards one of the storage cabinets, trying the handle, she realized
it was locked, banging her head on the door, she moved away, she had to get away,
the nightmares alone were driving her insane, she almost jumped out of her skin as she
heard a toilet flush and a door open.
Coloneil O'Neill stepped from the bathroom and found himself face to face
with Sam, he watched her, she was standing beside a medical cabinet, Damn it, he thought,
he appraoched her slowly.
"Hey Carter, shouldn't you be in bed, Janet will have a fit if she see's you"
He was trying to keep things light, and easy.
"I was...I was...just streaching my legs, getting bored of that bed"
He nodded, walking towards her and leading her back to the bed.
" By the medical cabinet?...Come on Carter...We can get through this, let me help you"
Sam stared into his eyes, her own Steele blue eyes watering, she took a breath,
trying to regain her composure, she couldn't let him see her cry. Allowing herself to
be led back to the bed, she noticed his overall tired appearance, he must not have slept
at all, he looked like hell. Climbing back into bed, she allowed him to raise the blanket
over her. She always felt safe with him, she was very tempted to tell him her true feelings,
she needed him to stay with her, when he left, she felt empty, and afraid...he seemed to
be able to push back the darkness, if only for awhile. And there was so much darkness
these days, she felt like it was overtaking her, enveloping her, and there was no way out,
he was her only light, and even that was small...a match.
"I see him when I sleep"
He nodded, sitting down in a chair beside her bed, he didn't know what to say to her,
he felt so guilty, if only he had fought harder, and gotten to her in time, none of
this would be happening. He stared into those sad blue eyes of hers, he wished he
could take away all of her pain.
"Want me to stay?"
She nodded, hugging his hand as if it were a lifeline.
When Janet came into the Infirmary the next morning, she found Sam hugging Jacks
hand and Jack leaned over her bed, both asleep. She signed silently, maybe he will be able
to get through to her, to help her to face reality again. She and almost everyone else
on base new about the special bond that had formed between Sam and Jack, they also
knew about Air Force Protocal, damn the rules she though to herself. Deciding to let
them both get some much needed sleep she made her rounds of her other patients.
She had had to practially barricade the doors the past couple of days, between Daneil,
Teal'c, and General Hammond, She had tried to distance Jack but had to give up on that,
she had also limited his visiting hours, but he seemed to be genuinely helping Sam, so
she had allowed him to stay without protest.
been plagued with his face, no matter how hard she tried she couldn't shake
the fear that had enveloped her. She looked around, the infirmary was dark,
and abandoned except for a few nurses scurring about. She ran her hands through
her hair trying to regain her composure, carefully she pulled the blankets off
of herself and slid her legs off of the bed, wincing, she looked down at
her stab wound, it had started bleeding through the bandages slightly.
Taking a deep breath she stood, shuddering at the overall coldness of the
infirmary, she looked around making sure no one had seen her, she was getting stir-crazy
in here, she headed towards one of the storage cabinets, trying the handle, she realized
it was locked, banging her head on the door, she moved away, she had to get away,
the nightmares alone were driving her insane, she almost jumped out of her skin as she
heard a toilet flush and a door open.
Coloneil O'Neill stepped from the bathroom and found himself face to face
with Sam, he watched her, she was standing beside a medical cabinet, Damn it, he thought,
he appraoched her slowly.
"Hey Carter, shouldn't you be in bed, Janet will have a fit if she see's you"
He was trying to keep things light, and easy.
"I was...I was...just streaching my legs, getting bored of that bed"
He nodded, walking towards her and leading her back to the bed.
" By the medical cabinet?...Come on Carter...We can get through this, let me help you"
Sam stared into his eyes, her own Steele blue eyes watering, she took a breath,
trying to regain her composure, she couldn't let him see her cry. Allowing herself to
be led back to the bed, she noticed his overall tired appearance, he must not have slept
at all, he looked like hell. Climbing back into bed, she allowed him to raise the blanket
over her. She always felt safe with him, she was very tempted to tell him her true feelings,
she needed him to stay with her, when he left, she felt empty, and afraid...he seemed to
be able to push back the darkness, if only for awhile. And there was so much darkness
these days, she felt like it was overtaking her, enveloping her, and there was no way out,
he was her only light, and even that was small...a match.
"I see him when I sleep"
He nodded, sitting down in a chair beside her bed, he didn't know what to say to her,
he felt so guilty, if only he had fought harder, and gotten to her in time, none of
this would be happening. He stared into those sad blue eyes of hers, he wished he
could take away all of her pain.
"Want me to stay?"
She nodded, hugging his hand as if it were a lifeline.
When Janet came into the Infirmary the next morning, she found Sam hugging Jacks
hand and Jack leaned over her bed, both asleep. She signed silently, maybe he will be able
to get through to her, to help her to face reality again. She and almost everyone else
on base new about the special bond that had formed between Sam and Jack, they also
knew about Air Force Protocal, damn the rules she though to herself. Deciding to let
them both get some much needed sleep she made her rounds of her other patients.
She had had to practially barricade the doors the past couple of days, between Daneil,
Teal'c, and General Hammond, She had tried to distance Jack but had to give up on that,
she had also limited his visiting hours, but he seemed to be genuinely helping Sam, so
she had allowed him to stay without protest.