Fandom: Fruits Basket
Title: music without words.
Pairing: Hatsuharu x Yuki
Rating: PG
Description: (Au-ish) Yuki has finally told Tohru how he feels about her, but how is Hatsuharu going to handle it?
Disclaimer: Yui doesn't own fruits basket at all.
music without words.
by miyamoto yui
Chapter 10 – invisible hug
I watched Momiji run away from me while the numbness inside of me was scattering from my legs to the rest of my body. Nothing was making sense and I couldn't hear anything but ringing in my ears.
That was until Kyou took my shoulders and shook me back and forth. "What's going on?!"
I just gave him a blank look as my eyes followed the bodies of Tohru and Yuki going over to Momiji with Hatori coming after them.
Shigure walked to us and shook his head at Kyou. "I'm pretty sure there's a good reason for this."
I didn't know if he was doing this to save me or to get the rest of the story. Either way, I was keeping my lips sealed. Because even if I could tell, my mouth wouldn't say anything at this point.
Kyou let go of me and gave me a frustrated look. "You, Yuki, and Tohru have all been acting weird. And now I know there's something wrong if the brat is actually hitting you."
He looked at Shigure and then at me. "Someone better tell me something or else I'm gonna be pissed for the rest of this trip."
Shigure took Kyou's shoulder and began talking with him as I walked to the beach house to wash my face. As soon as I washed the cut, I went to my room and closed the door behind me.
I was left alone, but I felt so bad about ruining the weekend.
I didn't know how much time had passed, but when I finally sighed for the umpteenth time, someone knocked on the door.
"It's me."
But I didn't respond as Hatori slipped into the room and sat next to me on the floor.
I should have been mad, but I just couldn't. I hated admitting that Hatori was kind in telling Momiji when it should have been me all along, but he still had no right to do it.
"Why did you tell him?" I asked, not meeting his eyes. I was too frustrated to even make a move.
"I thought he would put some sense into you," was his simple answer to me.
Now, this made me angry.
Turning around, I glared at him. "Do you think what I'm doing is stupid?!"
Instantly, my hands became fists as I stood up and shouted, "What should you know?! You're the one in love with Akito anyway, Hatori! After you have your eye blinded him, you still didn't blame him! Well, I blame him a lot, Hatori!
"Because I love Yuki, I'm able to protect him only in this way. Who are you to say that I've lost my senses?! Who?!"
Hatori coolly got up and gave me a stern face. "You're right, Haru. I let him do all those things and I'm allowing him to do this to you too without protest."
He took a deep breath, nervously taking a cigarette from his pocket and beginning to light it. "But how would you know that I'm human enough to make him jealous? I don't blame him at all because I brought it upon myself, Haru."
What do you mean?
I looked at him as his calmness over this shocked me. I lifted my head to watch him put his hand on my shoulder. "I don't want you to do what I did."
Patting his hand, I let go and sighed. I closed my eyes in confusion and hurt while hanging my head. "Where is Momiji now?"
"In my room crying."
Excusing myself, I went to Momiji, but when I got to Hatori's room, Momiji turned away from me.
"Let's go for a walk," I told him as I walked up to him.
"Don't wanna." He pouted, looking out the window with his hands cupping over his knees.
I sat down next to him and even though he protested, I grabbed him and hugged him.
"Let go, Haru," he warned while trying not to cry again.
I shook my head and hugged him tighter. "I only did it because I loved you, Momiji. You know how much I love you."
"Let go…"
"You're the only one who would truly understand what I was going through and if you knew, I'd hurt you too. Well, it's not like it doesn't hurt already because I didn't tell you, but I couldn't bear it." Still holding onto him, I continued, "You're my closest cousin and the one that's never left me alone whenever I needed you. And I will end up leaving you. I think I wanted you mad at me so you wouldn't have to deal with it."
"Haru…" He closed his eyes for his second, squeezing his hands on my arms. "I'm upset because I thought you didn't trust me."
He sighed. "It's selfish to love someone, but you have to hurt them sometimes to understand you. It'll never change if you don't do anything to move it.
"I've watched you stare at Yuki for years, but I didn't do anything but try to distract you. It's like when you hug me whenever I see my mom. It's harder as time goes by, not easier. It's just easier to hide."
He turned around, grabbing my face and grinning. "I always need that hug even though I don't ask you to hug me. I'm close to you because there's nothing I can do. You never ask me for anything, so why shouldn't I try to hold your burden? That's about as close to the hug you'll need from me but won't ask for."
I smiled thoughtfully as we touched forehead to forehead. "You truly amaze me sometimes, Momiji."
He jumped up and nodded his head. "I give you the same compliment."
He patted my head as he gave me a wistful expression. "But you are the sweetest person I know."
Then, I saw something very rare: Momiji's serious face and tone. It scared me as much as Akito's usual look of displeasure.
"Many people think I'm the sweet one between us, but they're wrong. I won't accept this, Haru. I won't be nice about forgiving Akito if anything happens to you."
Because I was in shock from his ferocity, he left me without letting me protest.
Tsuzuku…
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Author's note: * wince * Momiji's so cool!