Fandom: Fruits Basket
Title: music without words.
Pairing: Hatsuharu x Yuki
Rating: PG
Description: (Au-ish) Yuki has finally told Tohru how he feels about her, but how is Hatsuharu going to handle it?

Disclaimer: Yui doesn't own Fruits Baskets.

music without words
by miyamoto yui

Chapter 12 – let me show you…

"Well, this is great," I sarcastically commented to myself as I sighed while looking at the sight before me. It was the understatement of the year, but I knew I had to say something before I would really break down.

Now, almost everyone knew and it was Kyou mad at me at that moment.

I swiped the water's surface angrily and washed my face with the salt water of the sea. While getting up, I began to laugh darkly. "These are now my tears. How ironic."

What was I going to do now? Who was I supposed to turn to now?
The answers pointed to myself. Only I knew what was going to happen and yet, I closed my eyes to pray if there could be another way.

Why did things turn out this way?

I hung my head again as I sighed. My heart was going to burst from its burden and yet I could say nothing because I wouldn't know what to say.

"I'm disappointed in you, Haru," he had told me.
Of all people, I hadn't expected Momiji and him to say this to me.

After a long while, I turned around and headed back to the beach house, but I saw the light was on in the living room. I thought it was only Kyou sitting on the couch as I was walking from the patio, but I saw Hatori, Shigure, Tohru, Kyou, and Momiji all over the room too. They all had contemplative faces.
And as I entered through the threshold, they turned to me. I stood there looking into their faces.

Some part of me wanted Yuki there…
But I knew that wasn't possible.

Not here. Not now.

Taking another step, Tohru shot straight up, whispering with tears in her eyes, "Haru…"
She frowned, going down her face as she calmly sat back down. "I can't even hug you."
I sighed as I looked over at Hatori. "You weren't supposed to say anything."
Hatori's guilty eye looked away, but pointed towards Momiji.
Momiji then rose his hand up and whispered, "I was the one that told them the whole story while Yuki was sleeping."
He gulped as he closed his eyes with infliction written all over them. "I…We want to help you, but we're stuck."
Kyou, who averted his gaze away from me, crossed his arms and joked, "Maybe we should ship them off."
I pouted as I sat by him. Leaning my head on his shoulder while he was still upset, I asked, "Still mad at me now?"
Messing up my hair, he tilted his head a bit. "Just a little."

I smiled, patting his shoulder while lifting up my head, but it was Momiji who came over to the couch. He sat next to me and leaned his head on my shoulder this time. "I think Kyou's got a good suggestion."
Shigure shook his head, keeping his arms folded before him. "Not good. Akito would still find some way to find you two, especially if it involves Yuki."
"The only way may be that you leave or Yuki leaves," Hatori suggested and stared at them while leaning on the wall behind him.
"Isn't there another way?" Tohru spoke up as she hugged the pillow in her arms. "This is exactly what Haru doesn't want."
I glanced at Hatori, but in the next second, looked at the ground in confusion. "It may be the only way though. As long as Yuki's safe, then I'll leave."
Momiji got off my shoulder and shook his head while shouting. "No!"
"Momiji!" I harshly scolded along with Kyou.
"What's wrong, Momiji?"

Yuki walked down from the stairs and found us all in the living room.
No one said anything and we avoided his gaze.

Tohru was the one who couldn't hold back as she looked at Yuki. Unable to be nothing but honest, tears started fall down again.
Yuki panicked as I knew he would.

"Tohru?" He immediately kneeled before her. "What's wrong?"

I almost didn't want to watch, but I couldn't.

Tohru didn't say anything.

"No one will tell me anything, huh?" Handing her a handkerchief, he got up and looked over at Momiji. He bowed his head in gratitude with a sad smile. "I heard everything, Momiji. Thanks for being honest with everyone."
He turned to me with an annoyed look on his face. "I would like to talk to you."
Then, eyeing everyone, he politely requested, "I'm sorry everyone, but I'd like to talk to Hatsuharu alone."

A chill went down my spine as he said my full name.

Hatori stepped up and nodded his head. "Take your time. I'll be taking everyone to Shigure's."
No one protested as Shigure said, "We'll see you in the morning."
"Thank you," Yuki said before the door closed behind them.
His eyes darted at me as I stood in my place feeling as if a sudden earthquake would happen and the earth would eat me alive.

I had never seen Yuki look so upset to the point that I couldn't read if he was more frustrated, disappointed, mad, or feeling all this at the same time. I just took a deep breath waiting for my sentence.

"You're so sure, aren't you?" He walked over to me.

That wasn't a question I expected…

"Sure about what, Yuki?" I backed up until I was up against a wall.
Standing in front of me, he clenched his fist. "So sure you'd die."
With a blank look, I just gulped.

Of course I had, Yuki.

It was then that my heart finally came face to face with the very questions I didn't want to ask myself: How could I win against Tohru? How could I possibly live through Akito's tyranny and his possessiveness over you?

Slamming his hands to the wall by the sides of my neck, he looked at me deeply with tears in his eyes. "I know you've been told not to tell me, but that's exactly what Akito wants you do."

No, Yuki…
This is exactly what I didn't want to do…

I didn't want to hurt you this way…

Slowly and shakily, his hands touched the sides of my face. A tear went down his cheek. "You coward! You should have told me!"

At that moment, he kissed me so forcefully I thought I was going to pass out.

Looking into my eyes again, he shouted, "How could you be so sure this wouldn't hurt me if you didn't tell me? How could you believe I'd let you die so easily?"
With my eyes closed shut, I shook my head, honestly shouting back, "I can't! Not against Tohru or Akito. When you're next to them, I'm so far away from you!"

"Look at me, Haru. Tell me that you hate me so that you won't have to suffer anymore."

I could still feel his warm hands on my face. Here I was melting from his touch even though he wanted me to tell him the very thing I could never say to him.

Carefully, I opened my eyes to see him looking directly at me.
I still said nothing.

Taking a hold of my collar, he pulled and pushed me to the wall while threatening, "Tell me, Haru!"
"No!" I shouted back.

Pulling my collar again, we ran to the hall with him running as I quickly walked backwards. Bumping onto another wall, I gulped in pain as my back hit it.
"Were you lying to me, Haru?" Yuki desperately asked me. Shaking his head, he threw me towards the stairs. "Were you lying that night to me?"
He stood over me and then began to loosen his shirt and unbutton it.
"Yuki, what are you doing?" I sat on the stairs, my brain jumbled by his behavior.
"You think I didn't love you?!" He angrily screamed as if he didn't hear me.

I opened my mouth a little as I stared at him wide-eyed, not knowing what the hell was happening.
I didn't know what to say to his words…

"Yuki, I-" I started to say as he came over to me and kissed me passionately on the lips.
Pulling away from me, he shook his head again with his frustrated eyes looking down at me. He began to rip my shirt open. "You think I don't love you, Haru?!"

I stared into his hurt eyes. Now, I could finally see what I was blind to…

While still holding onto the collar of my shirt, he picked me up and pressed me against the wall while going up the stairs. While kissing me over and over, our shirts left a little trail on the stairs as we made our way to his room.
Throwing me onto the bed, he then leaned over me and whispered into my ear breathlessly, but aggressively,

"Then, let me show you how much I love you."

Tsuzuku…
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Author's note: Importantly, I forgot to mention that within this fic, I tried to get rid of –san and –chan not because I find it bothersome, but because I thought they'd be close enough to be comfortable enough to say each other's first names.

Oh god…it's really hot now…

I hope this didn't come out too sappy, but I thought Yuki would have reacted this strongly. ^_^ I can't and won't let Haru die so easily. Hee.