Fandom: Fruits Basket
Title: music without words.
Pairing: Hatsuharu x Yuki
Rating: PG
Description: (Au-ish) Yuki has finally told Tohru how he feels about her, but how is Hatsuharu going to handle it?
Disclaimer: Yui doesn't own FruBa.
music without words.
by miyamoto yui
Chapter 13 - blind to me.
Yuki began to smirk at me as he crawled on the bed with his knees next to each of my ribs. He sat on my stomach as he put his hands on my chest. "I don't know what I'm doing..."
Leaning forward, he bit on my ear and then down on my neck. "But how can I prove to you that you're wrong, Haru?"
"Yuki..." I was still shocked, trying to ingest all this as I felt him just kissing me. Trying to touch me...
Trying to be so close to me as if we were of the same skin.
He made my chest so red with his sucking and his teeth. I sometimes writhed in pain while grabbing the sheets as he softly said into my ear, "I'm sorry."
Shaking my head, I'd take his head into my hands and kiss him back to let him know how hard it was to watch him with Tohru or Akito. That I wasn't there who was making this impression on him.
Shivering, I still tried to believe in this. Some part of me wanted this. It was something I had always waited for...
...but some part of me doubted.
Still doubted the sincerity of these feelings.
How...
Why to Yuki of all people?!
Pulling away from Yuki, I sat up on the bed. I shook my head as my hands rested on one of the edges of the bed. "This isn't...you shouldn't feel...I can't..."
I got up as he sat on the bed looking at me with dumbfounded eyes. He was so confused and I didn't want...
I didn't like that look.
I couldn't bear to look at him and so I found myself running away. Running away like the time I was watching them tending the vegetable garden. I was going to surprise them that I had come and by myself too without getting lost.
But I saw Yuki and the way he patted Tohru on the back. The way he watched over her with a smile.
I felt like some stupid girl who doesn't know any better.
I ran outside and into the ocean. I kneeled before it and washed my face.
Salt...I wanted to cry.
Why couldn't I cry? What the hell was wrong with me?
"Haru!" Yuki ran after me and dropped the towel he brought to the sand. He then hugged me while I stood there silently.
I lifted up my head and looked at the dark sky before me. So very dark.
"Don't pity me, Yuki!" I pushed his arms away from me. Turning around, I shook my head, stepping back and more into the water. "This is exactly why I didn't tell you anything! I know you more than anyone!"
He stood there looking at me as water dripped off my body and back into the water, stinging a little from his kisses. How ironic.
I sighed deeply with my eyes looking straight into his. "And the person that is still in your heart is Tohru."
My heart cringed even more and twisted beside itself...
I couldn't breathe from this...
"I will always have that impression inside me. I've seen everything."
Instantly, because it was so painful to say all these things that I never expected to say or admit, tears started to come out from the sides of my eyes.
Drip...drip...
"No...you're wrong." Yuki shouted at me as he pushed me and I fell into the shallow water. "You're wrong, Haru!"
Standing before me, he leaned forward and shook his head as I laid there below him.
Like a tiger, he came closer to me crawling seductively. He licked my tears away, kissing my lips again. Taking the back of my head, he pulled me forward and kissed me even deeper.
The rush of water kept on coming back and forth, it ran through the contours of our bodies.
"Why are you afraid of me loving you back?" he whispered into my ear as he slipped his hand to take off my pants and my boxer shorts. Letting them slide onto the shore along with his.
I looked into his eyes as he kept me there below him while the water kept on coming and going between our entanglement.
And for a moment, we looked at one another with fear.
Why...
Why was I so afraid?
"Of all the people I cared for, I didn't want to hurt you the most," I confessed honestly. "I've been so used to you never looking at me that how could I possibly even think you would?"
"Haru?" Placing his hand on my cheek, he gently smiled at me. "You can hurt me all you want. But if you leave me now, you'll truly break me."
"What are you saying...?" I asked, not understanding him.
With serious eyes, he replied, "I've been watching you as long as you've been watching me. Don't be blind towards me anymore, Haru..."
I opened my eyes in surprise, but then, he kissed my lips again before I could say another word. He didn't explain anything else as he entered my body. I cringed in pain that I grabbed onto the sand below me.
"Yuki...Yuki..." I called in between all his kissing.
I gasped for breath, but he kept on continuing to kiss me until every inch of my body had been explored and touched...
Yuki and I laid on the sand with the large towel over us, looking up to the darkness around us. As he breathed calmly, I looked into his face and wiped the remaining sweat away with my palm, but I just smiled at him sadly
Akito...
Will never accept this no matter what I do...
I looked away from him and turned to one side.
Without a word, he kissed the back of my head. While sliding his hand over my chest, he found my hands. Whispering from behind me, he said, "Don't worry. We'll find a way..."
"We..." I mumbled to myself and held his hand closer to me.
No...I wasn't alone anymore.
I believed in that now.
Tsuzuku...
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Author's note: I'm sorry, but I'm really, really bad with lime. ^^;;; And I'm totally inexperienced in lemons. * gulp * I'm totally bad with 'scenes' so please bear with me because I'm still learning. Plus, the fact that I was presenting that Yuki and Hatsuharu are inexperienced with this type of stuff would make this realistic. ^^;;; I just thought that the situation seemed the right time to put this, though.
Poor Haru. Thinking Yuki didn't like him 'cause he was so used to thinking that; so, he couldn't see that Yuki was falling in love with him, but he couldn't believe it. I'm just sorry it was sappy. ^^;;; I was aiming for dramatic since this was one of the main arguments throughout Haru's perspective: how could yuki love him? When in reality, Yuki already had.
I'm happy at the progress...but we'll see if I kill Haru or not. _I_ know, 'cause I'm the author, but can you handle the suspense?