Ryuichi couldn't make one clear thought. All he could think of was Tatsuha.
His bright eyes, his friendly voice.Was it real? Ryuichi finished up
writing a song. Normally his mind was clear again after he wrote down his
thoughts in a song. But not tonight. There was still this lovely smiling
face on his mind. 'And if it really is true? If he is different? Why can't
I get him out of my head? His warm lips on mine. I've never felt something
like that before. I want to feel it again. Tatsuha, do you feel the same?'
Ryuichi began wandering around in his appartment. He stepped onto a piece
of paper. It was the letter he had wrote Tatsuha the day before. "What's
this? The words are blurred. How could water get onto it? Oh no! This can't
be! This means, he cried. Because of me. I hurt his feelings. But he has
feelings for me! He really likes me! Oh Tatsuha! I need to talk to him as
fast as possible. I have to explain it to him. I hope he will forgive me. I
made him cry, I'm so sorry Tatsuha. Please forgive me.' Ryuichi went to the
phone and called Tatsuha. He let the phone ring about 20 times, but no one
picked up. He tried it again and again , but there was no response.
The next day he went to Shuichi. "Ohayo Shuichi! How are you?" "Ohayo! I'm fine. And yourself? You're surely going to the rehersal for tomorrow,ne? I would love to play at such a big festival once." "I'm sure you will. Shuichi , do you know why Tatsuha doesn't answer the phone?" "No I don't know. He locked hisself up in his appartment and doesn#t want to talk to anyone or see anyone. I would really like to know what happened. The last time I spoke to him he didn't sound well. He is very hurt and sad and I don't know why. I'm really worried about him." At that moment Thoma showed up "Shuichi! Hurry up. Everybodys waiting for you!" "Gomen. Well I have to go. We'll see each other later." Shuichi ran off. Thoma followed him. Ryuichi thought for a moment. "Thoma wait! I have to talk to you."
Tatsuha was watching TV waiting for Nittle Grasper to perform. 'But why do I watch this? Ryuichi , the man who had been the center of my life for so many years. Why do I still want to see him after he told me that I don't mean anything to him? Why do I want to hear him sing, when I know it isn't for me?' "And here are 'Nittle Grasper' with their new song 'Illusion'!" a voice in the TV yelled. Tatsuha looked at the TV. Ryuichi looked the same as always, bright and shining. His clear green eyes, but there was a different look on them tonight. 'Tatsuha, I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.' Ryuichi opened his eyes and began to sing.
// I'm sitting here , in the middle of the night,
Thinking of you, my hands shivering by desire,
What happened?
I've never felt somethin like this before.
The thought of you sets me on fire,
Your touch burns me from inside,
You are like poison to me, poison running through my venes
This fire in your eyes, was it a lie?
Did I see something that wasn't there?
This feeling that struck me when your lips touched mine
Did I feel something you didn't feel?
The pain in my heart, now that I know
Was everything just an illusion?
Than give it back to me!
My hearts beating against my breast,
Where are you? I need you next to me
Wanting you by my side, it tears me apart
Missing your smile and longing for your touch
Where are you? Why aren't you by my side?
Holding my close, making me feel safe
Why don't you come to me? I'm waiting
This fire in your eyes, was it a lie?
Did I see something that wasn't there?
This feeling that struck me when your lips touched mine
Did I feel something you didn't feel?
The pain in my heart, now that I know
Was everything just an illusion?
Than give it back to me!
Can an illusion turn into truth?
Can we make it happen? //
"I really have to say theat I've never heard you sing better than today.You wrote a real great song. I'm sure we will be on top of the charts in two days." Thoma smiled satisfied as he left. Ryuichi packed his things and slowly walked home. He enjoyed the cool air and the quietness around him. He watched the moon which was golden and bright. When Ryuichi walked up the stairs to his appartment he stopped. Tatsuha was standing in front of his appartment. "Tatsuha? What are you doing here?" Tatsuha determinde eyes looked at him. "I have to talk to you. I watched your performance at the music festival. I've heard your song and to me it seemed you wanted to tell me something with it. And now I'm here to get to know if I'm right." Ryuichi watched Tatsuha 'It must have been hard for him to come here. He is so sweet.' "You are right. Ive tried to call you, but you didn't pick up. I hoped you'll hear the song. What I wanted to say is that I am sorry. I'm really sorry and I hope you can forgive me that I hurt so much." Ryuichi made a step towards Tatsuha. He softly stroke Tatsuhas hair. "I thought your feelings weren't true and that you just wanted me because of my fame and my money. Now I know that I was wrong. I didn't want to get hurt again. And instead of getting hurt I've hurt you. And I am sorry for this. Please forgive me." They looked into each others eyes. Tatsuhas fingers enclosed Ryuichis fingers which still laid on his cheek. "It's o.k. Don't worry about it anymore." And they kissed each other in the light of the bright shining moon.
The next day he went to Shuichi. "Ohayo Shuichi! How are you?" "Ohayo! I'm fine. And yourself? You're surely going to the rehersal for tomorrow,ne? I would love to play at such a big festival once." "I'm sure you will. Shuichi , do you know why Tatsuha doesn't answer the phone?" "No I don't know. He locked hisself up in his appartment and doesn#t want to talk to anyone or see anyone. I would really like to know what happened. The last time I spoke to him he didn't sound well. He is very hurt and sad and I don't know why. I'm really worried about him." At that moment Thoma showed up "Shuichi! Hurry up. Everybodys waiting for you!" "Gomen. Well I have to go. We'll see each other later." Shuichi ran off. Thoma followed him. Ryuichi thought for a moment. "Thoma wait! I have to talk to you."
Tatsuha was watching TV waiting for Nittle Grasper to perform. 'But why do I watch this? Ryuichi , the man who had been the center of my life for so many years. Why do I still want to see him after he told me that I don't mean anything to him? Why do I want to hear him sing, when I know it isn't for me?' "And here are 'Nittle Grasper' with their new song 'Illusion'!" a voice in the TV yelled. Tatsuha looked at the TV. Ryuichi looked the same as always, bright and shining. His clear green eyes, but there was a different look on them tonight. 'Tatsuha, I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.' Ryuichi opened his eyes and began to sing.
// I'm sitting here , in the middle of the night,
Thinking of you, my hands shivering by desire,
What happened?
I've never felt somethin like this before.
The thought of you sets me on fire,
Your touch burns me from inside,
You are like poison to me, poison running through my venes
This fire in your eyes, was it a lie?
Did I see something that wasn't there?
This feeling that struck me when your lips touched mine
Did I feel something you didn't feel?
The pain in my heart, now that I know
Was everything just an illusion?
Than give it back to me!
My hearts beating against my breast,
Where are you? I need you next to me
Wanting you by my side, it tears me apart
Missing your smile and longing for your touch
Where are you? Why aren't you by my side?
Holding my close, making me feel safe
Why don't you come to me? I'm waiting
This fire in your eyes, was it a lie?
Did I see something that wasn't there?
This feeling that struck me when your lips touched mine
Did I feel something you didn't feel?
The pain in my heart, now that I know
Was everything just an illusion?
Than give it back to me!
Can an illusion turn into truth?
Can we make it happen? //
"I really have to say theat I've never heard you sing better than today.You wrote a real great song. I'm sure we will be on top of the charts in two days." Thoma smiled satisfied as he left. Ryuichi packed his things and slowly walked home. He enjoyed the cool air and the quietness around him. He watched the moon which was golden and bright. When Ryuichi walked up the stairs to his appartment he stopped. Tatsuha was standing in front of his appartment. "Tatsuha? What are you doing here?" Tatsuha determinde eyes looked at him. "I have to talk to you. I watched your performance at the music festival. I've heard your song and to me it seemed you wanted to tell me something with it. And now I'm here to get to know if I'm right." Ryuichi watched Tatsuha 'It must have been hard for him to come here. He is so sweet.' "You are right. Ive tried to call you, but you didn't pick up. I hoped you'll hear the song. What I wanted to say is that I am sorry. I'm really sorry and I hope you can forgive me that I hurt so much." Ryuichi made a step towards Tatsuha. He softly stroke Tatsuhas hair. "I thought your feelings weren't true and that you just wanted me because of my fame and my money. Now I know that I was wrong. I didn't want to get hurt again. And instead of getting hurt I've hurt you. And I am sorry for this. Please forgive me." They looked into each others eyes. Tatsuhas fingers enclosed Ryuichis fingers which still laid on his cheek. "It's o.k. Don't worry about it anymore." And they kissed each other in the light of the bright shining moon.