EPISODE 4: NOT KNOWING WHY

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Dark Angel, I just own my story.

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A day that was free of work, of socialising and of crime fighting was not often for the modern day women of pre-pulse America. Society didn't spend their day lying round the house, doing nothing like many American Soap Watching Women of the other era had done. Women work, women do the grunt work and women make a living for themselves.

But there was the odd day where women could have a day where she could do whatever she wanted by herself. And those days were usually spent doing errands, which was exactly what Asha was doing. Asha woke up early and ventured out to the Market where she picked up groceries, cleaning products and other necessities. Then she went to the landromat to do the washing and then post office where she paid all her bills.

Now Asha was home and when she opened the door, Asha jaw dropped. She couldn't understand how she could have let her apartment get so untidy, so she slammed the door and put all her groceries and clothing away. Then she began cleaning the lounge room.

Asha mopped floors, cleaned windows, wiped down tabletops and kitchen tiles, vacuumed carpets and coaches. Asha put papers into boxes, and she even organised her CD Collection. Asha was a cleaning freak, tiddying everything and anything. She was like Danny Tanner from Full House on Floor Waxing Day. She was mad and she didn't know why.

So Asha decided to sit down after her cleaning frenzy and watch TV. When nothing fancied her tastes, she went and showered and changed outfits. Then she grabbed her favorite book and layed herself out on the couch with no shoes and pillow supporting her head.

And then there was a knock at the door.

Asha put the book on the floor and then went and opened the door to find someone she wasn't sure she wanted to see.

It was Alec.

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"So why are you here?" Asha asked upon viewing Alec standing at her door, and then she eyed the package in his hand. "Or are you working?"

"I'm not sure for the first question and I'm supposed to be for the second one!" answered Alec in a tone that suggested he wasn't really sure of himself which was somewhat a new side of Alec.

"Well, I'm not sure if I want to see you, but I'm not going to ask you to leave" said Asha surprising both Alec and herself. "Do you want anything, a drink?" Asha asked politely.

"No thanks, I just... I guess I'm just really confused right now. Things have been really hectic lately and I haven't had a lot of sleep." Alec sat down uncomfortably on the couch and Asha sat down beside him.

"What do you usually do when this sort of thing happens?" Asha replied and layed back onto her pillow.

"I don't know cause I've never felt like this before, a soldier doesn't." Alec looked ahead and Asha could see his neck tensing at the back, as his gaze became more intense. "At Manticore, everything was structured and any problems were dealt with by professionals. If you got injured in the field, the specialists fixed you up. If you had a deep cover operation, there was always someone you could ask about your problems and they'd fix it. Lot's of protocols, which made sure you were always staying in line and doing the right thing."

"Then I come out here you see and things change, they get better. I come to Seattle, make friends with people and then I get the chance to live large. I'm Alec!" Alec stopped talking and sat back and Asha didn't know what she was supposed to say.

"And then things got intense which is something I'm not used to and I guess I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to deal with that." Alec started again and the he got up from the couch. "I think I might have said to much and I better go!"

"No, don't! Stay and we can talk some more. We can kick back, maybe watch some TV. Just hang out with me!" Asha asked Alec almost pleading and then she tried one more time! "I don't want you to go!"

"I shouldn't open up to anyone!" Alec told Asha, but then she grabbed his arm.

"You don't have to if you don't want to, just stay with me!" Asha got of the coach and faced Alec, making sure to attain eye contact with Alec.

Alec moved forward and so did Alec, but then he broke away.

"I shouldn't get to close!"

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Alec raced out of Asha's apartment and without thinking raced all the way down to his bike parked outside in Manticore speed. Then he got onto the bike and froze.

What was happening to him and why did he almost confess to Asha some of his deepest feelings and why couldn't he make himself move the bike onto the street so he could go and do his job and not get fired? Why did he go to see Asha of all people after the fights they had had and why did she seem so understanding about everything about him? Why were there so many things bothering him?

Alec thought to himself and he still remainded holding his Bike upright ready to move it onto the street. Then he surprised himself and he got of the bike. He began to walk back into the apartment building, back up the steps and back up to Asha's front door.

Alec knocked on the door and Asha opened it immediately and he walked back in adn sat on her couch.

He just sat and he didn't know why.