Notes: Hi everyone. Have you missed me? Its been so long since i last updated hasn't it. Sorry. Promise to update much much faster this time. Ne does anyone like this format better than what i used to do. It's less messier this way.

Thanks: Thank you everyone who has reviewed and read this story and special thanks to animecartoons for always reviewing and jookiemagick and Only4yoO for reminding me that people actually read this story.

Disclaimer: this doesn't even deserve to be asked. Yeah I own Ranma ½. Thats why i'm sitting here writting fanfics and have no money. Sure i own Ranma.

Warnings: Contains refences to rape and mild cursing. Plus some bad spelling (sorry).

blah = flashbacks

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Tears of Reality: It never goes away

Chapter 8 – Whats one lie between friends?

Toji's POV

" Why'd you lie to her?"

I looked up at the boy standing at the door. He wore a yellow with black bandana on his head. At his feet his backpack rested with a red bambo umbrella. Feeling ashamed I look away. After I had told Akan that Toji was my brother she had past out again. I wonder what she would have done if I had told her the truth. The truth about me and...Toji. No, I've caused enough pain as it is. In the state she's in now she wouldn't be able to handle the truth. At least not yet.

I look away from her pale face, she really is quite beatiful ( but I guess I shouldn't expect less if Toji did what I think he did to her), to the figure huddled next to her. Sighing a little I feel relieved, he had finally fallen asleep. Looking back at Ryoga I hug myself. I wish I could hold Ryoge right now.

I remember when I had first met him. It had been a few years back but it felt like it had only happened yesterday. I had been walking down a hill when suddenly I heard a noise.........

Hearing the noise again I look around and see something lying tangled in a bush. What the...? Moving closer to it I reach out and poke it. Nothing. Poke poke poke. Still nothing. Okay now I'm worried. Picking it up gently I realize its a little black pigglet. Okay....

Running I race back to the hot springs I had just past by. Maybe if I poured some water on it it'll wake up. Sure that usually refers to cold water but you have to do with what you have right. Seeing the steam I run faster. I hope this works. Stopping to take a deep breathe I lift the black pig and throw it into the water. Nothing. Err....maybe this was a bad idea.

"Aii!!!!!"

Bursting out of the water is a naked young man. Wierd...

Smiling at the memory I stand up. Then I remember the sitution. " How could I tell her the truth? What did you expect me to say. Hey Akane Toji's my other half my yin you could say. Were kind of the same person, but I hope you won't hold his actions against me. Even though I am partly responsible. Lets be friends. Yeah she'd love that."

Pushing past him I go outside. Strange how you never really pay attention to the little things in life. Like the trees, a smile, tears. Not until you realize something to late. Can someone blame you for a crime you didn't comit yet because of you it happened? I wish so many things. Mostly to finally die. We've lived to long, Toji and I. Sigh. Now I'm talking noncence again. Stopping by a river I stare off into space. Yin and yang. I have spent my whole life chasing after my yang because of my foolish mistake, or is he my yin.

"Hello Kas."[1]

Stiffening I look down at my reflection in the water and see him grinning at me.

"It's been such a long time hasn't it. Are you still trying to save those 'poor victims' as you call them? Why don't you give up. You know as well as I that without them-"

"Shut up!"

"Foolish boy you still haven't learned yet have you. You can't save her you know. It's already to late."

Next to his face appeared Akane's sleeping one. No. He couldn't have moved this fast already. Then both images dissapeared. Falling to my knees I feel myself begin to shake. I was to late after all. Too too late.

Yin and yang. What a silly superstition. I'll show everyone. Just you wait and see.

Kas! Wait! Your not allowed to enter the ca-

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An/ Er..... I hadn't planed for this chapter to be like this. I'm just in hurry. Sorry if it doesn't make sence. I'll try to make the next chapter make more sence. Gods i'm tired these days.

[1] well i've been thinking and if i ever plan on have the two 'toji's' meet what am i going to do. Say toji number 1 and 2. Or have tojim and toji o or something. So this way you can tell them apart easier. Kas was this toji's old name before the 'incident'. *sigh* maybe i'll rewrite this chapter next time i update.

*snort*