A/N: Well minna sorry but I put this story on the back burner for a while
aka lost my way with it. LOL ^.^ any ways then I read over it and heard an
old song that was one of my dads favorites and decided it fit this story,
and pow I got my inspiration back..
Disclaimer: Read chapter one duh!!! Plus I don't own the following song by Billy Joel.-_-
~~She can kill with a smile.~~~~~
She can wound with her eyes.
She can ruin your faith with her
Casual lies.
And she only reveals what she
Wants you to see. She hides
Like a child, but she's always
A woman to me..
She can lead you to love, she
Can take you all evening.
She can ask for the truth, but
She'll never believe. She'll
Take what you give her as
Long as its free. Yes she steals
Like a thief, but she's always
A woman to me.
Oh she takes care of herself, She
Can wait if she wants, she's ahead
Of her time. And she never gives out,
And she never gives in, she just changes
Her mind.
She'll promise you more then the garden
Of Eden. And she'll carelessly cut you
And laugh while your bleeding, but she will
Bring out the best and the worst you can be.
Blame it all on yourself cause she's always
A woman to me..
Oh she takes care of herself, she can wait if
She wants, she's ahead of her time, Oh and
She never gives out, and she never gives in.
She just changes her mind..
She's frequently kind, and suddenly cruel.
She can do as she pleases; she's nobody's fool.
And she can't be convicted, she earned her
Degree, and the most she will do is throw
Shadows at you, but she's always a women to
Me.
~~~~~~~ She's always a woman to me by: Billy Joel~~~
Chapter 2: Fire & Ice
The group had been walking for some time and was quit frankly a little more then tiered. But no one wanted to say anything to Inuyasha since he said they were going some place to take a break from shard hunting. That is all save one. Yep you guessed it. Our lovely Kagome at your service. (A/N: Nia is laughing while seeing this in her head)
Kagome turned to the others and took in there sleepy looks before turning back to inu And yelling for him to stop. Inuyasha turned around and was about to yell when he saw The coldness of her eyes. Instead he simply said: yes kagome what is it this time? (Ooooooooops wrong again dog boy) Kagome simply looked at inu for a second before a look of pure ice similar to kikyou's took over before she spoke with the same ice in her voice. "Inuyasha how much further do we have to go? Every one is worn out and quit frankly this is feeling like a jewel hunt not a break.. Inuyasha just stared for a moment before catching what she said.(a/n slow on the uptake isn't he? I know just excuse him) He then turned to everyone, and back to kagome before speaking." It's about another hour or two walk from here then we can rest for a few days." As a side note he added And I think you will like it. Then turned back to start walking again. He stopped abruptly Though when he caught Kagome's last comment " some how I doubt that highly Hanyou." The started walking again to hide the hurt that left in his very soul, and the Lone tear that traveled down his cheek. He hoped now more then ever to get there and fix this mess.
So everyone kept trudging along another hour until they reached a path that looked as though it was only used by animals. Inuyasha stopped them all at the edge of what seemed to be a clearing and waved his hand. Suddenly the scenery changed, and instead of the clearing there was a huge waterfall leading into a strange hot spring with flowers of every kind as far as the eye could see and rocks that looked like gems scattered around by the spring along with what seemed like rows of sakura trees in bloom.. The air itself was fragrant and magical.. It was truly breath taking. Everyone was in pure awe and wonder of the place, and you could feel a sense of calm and realization fill you're being the more you stood there. Finally sango found her voice enough to ask the question everyone wanted to know.." Inuyasha what is this place? And how did you know of it?" Inuyasha turned to Sango and said." This place was mine and my mother's when I was small, it was a gift from my father." And with that he headed off into the forest stating he would be back in a while so make camp. Everyone did just that before deciding to explore the place a bit. About an hour later Inuyasha returned with a deer for dinner that night and some vegetables. So Sango and Kagome set to work on the dinner while the boys gathered water and firewood. Once done the dinner went by quietly even for inu and kagome. But once clean up was done Inuyasha had decided now was the time to talk to Kagome and work on this so-called mess. He did not want to wait longer then he had to, and he was frankly sick of his heart hurting every time something transpired between them. Secretly to he was worried that he had let things go to long and had lost her, and that was something he could not accept in this lifetime or any other for that matter.
So Inuyasha casually walked over to Miroku and asked him to come with him for a minute. Inuyasha had been talking to the monk about things and frankly trusted him more then he let on. As soon as they were far enough away he asked Miroku to keep shippou out of the way while he talked to kagome alone.. Miroku agreed and wished him luck. They went back to camp to find the girls talking and shippou sleeping in Kagome's sleeping bag already it seemed.
Inuyasha walked over to Kagome and asked her to come with him for a while because he wanted to show her something. She reluctantly agreed to go. They walked towards the waterfall where Inuyasha sat down on a large rock and motioned for her to do the same. Kagome sat down beside him, and they were quit for a while watching the waterfall before Inuyasha decided it was time to speak.
Inuyasha turned to Kagome and reached for her hand, but she pulled away. He still did not stop. This was long over due and he was not going to go away without answers first. So he began with the first thought in his head over the last several months. " Kagome what is wrong with you? Why are you so cold to me?" Kagome just looked away and said nothing. He kept going. " What have I done to make you this way? Is it kikyou? Being here? What? I don't understand this change in you? Please tell me so I can fix it. I want the happy Kagome again." Still she never looked at him or answered him. He continued wanting nothing more then to break the barrier of ice she had constructed around herself. (Ironic isn't it?) " Kagome why won't you look or talk to me? At least say something? . Kagome looked at him with eyes still cold and replied with the same ice always found in her voice toward him these days." I have not answered simply because I don't think you will like what you hear, and so wont listen, and frankly I am not even sure I care anymore if you do?" To say inu was a little stunned is putting it mildly. But still he did not stop there. He looked at her and simply said " You don't know until you try right?" Kagome still did not say anything and simply turned away again. That was it for Inuyasha he had enough of this. " Kagome I simply want to know the answers to my questions and I will leave you alone the whole time you are hear if that is what you wish? But there are some things you need to know before you answer I think so hear it is. All I ask in return are the answers to what I have asked. Is that all right with you? She nodded slightly. Inuyasha took a deep breath and began to let everything that had been crushing his heart into the open. " First of all Kagome I don't love kikyou or that walking corpse. I thought I did but it was more like how did you say it once oh ya a crush. Second you do not look like or remind me of her. At first yes but not for a long time now. I don't think you are useless, stupid, ugly, or anything else like that. In Fact I think you are the smartest, most beautiful creature to walk this earth, and I am surprised no one has fully claimed you yet. (A/n notice he said fully claimed ^.^)Then he slightly chuckled and said then again you intimidate me so bad hell I am not sure what to do sometimes." This got the slightest of smiles from Kagome but it went unnoticed. He then got serious again and asked Kagome to look at him. She turned and looked up at him and he swore briefly that he saw the loving, angel he once knew there. Once again his determination grew to new heights to get her back. He took Her hand and looked her in the eye before speaking again." Kagome this is the most important thing I will ever say and I hope I don't screw it up so please listen ok?" she nodded. " Kagome you are my best friend, my first real friend really and I thought you knew that. You have taught me many things over the years and changed me for the better I think. But I have not been true to you or me in this journey, and I am afraid I have lost you because of it. I will say I have tried to be the way I have been to you to protect you from not only other demons but myself as well to the point of closing you off from me. I don't want that and never really have. SO I will tell you this from the beginning and hope you understand when I am done why I have done what I have till now." And so he did just that, and went back to the day he woke on the tree till now. (A/n don't freak I am going to only sum it up for you guys geez..)
Inuyasha started from the moment he woke on the tree. " Kagome remember when I thought you were kikyou? That was a lie I knew you were not her. I just was not sure what was going on or how much time had passed. I trusted no one and nothing but my own pain. But unknown to me at the time I marked you as mine with my scent by instinct alone to be my life mate when you were clinging to me on the tree before removing the arrow. I remained with you for more then just the jewel or the necklace. It was more to protect you. When I realized what I had done I was scared due to my pain and my growing attraction to you .So I did the only thing I knew and pushed you away the more I wanted you the more I pushed. That is why I fight kouga for you every time because he to has laid claim to you. But also Kagome It is because I truly love you more then life, And want you some day to be my mate for life even if it means I must be human and live in your time to have you I don't care. I don't want kikyou or the jewel and haven't almost since the beginning of the journey. I want to help you fix the jewel and get rid of naraku. The jewel is yours and I want to help you protect it if that is what you want to do. I have watched you grow to a woman warrior from a child, and seen you live with the pain of having to lives in two times. Every time you leave a chunk of my heart goes with you. Every time we fight I die a little more inside, and every time you're in danger my heart leaves me completely. It hurts me to keep you from your family, and I envy them for you and what you share. I want that too. Though I can't have the family you do if fluffy is any example, but I want to have that with you and only you. You must know you are my angel Kagome, if a demon can be truly blessed by kami and given a chance at something it would be by an angel like you. You're my light, my hope, my love, my heart, and soul and I gave them all to you long ago. My beautiful, little angel from the future. My life has been a blessing not a curse since the day I saw you. So tell me kagome will you be my angel?" With that he stopped and looked down at the ground .He did not want to see the ice in her eyes after that. Kagome was quit for a long time, and Inuyasha decided that it was to late. He stood as one lone tear fell from his eye and landed on the hand he still held. Kagome held firm once the tear fell and stated. " Where are you going? We had a deal remember? It is my turn now correct?" Inu nodded and sat back down still staring at the ground. Kagome asked if she could ask one thing before she answered him? Inu nodded again, and she took his face in her hands so he would look at her. What he saw shocked him to no end. There were tears in her eyes. It had been months since she had shed a single tear he had thought she had forgotten how. She had not cried, tantrum, ran away, or even been grossed out in almost a full year. It was almost a blessing to see thoughs tears that once hurt him so much. She looked right at him as she spoke." Inuyasha why is this coming out now of all times? Are you afraid I am going to leave you?" It was Inuyasha's turn to be silent for a while. Finally he said ." No Kagome that's not it, you just scared me so bad, and I don't want you away from me in any form anymore. I have had enough of being alone and watching you being alone with your pain as I was when I love you so much." They're where tears in his eyes now. Kagome could see his very soul in his eyes, and all her walls over the months crashed to dust as she cried. She hugged Inuyasha before she spoke softly in his ear." I have loved you for an eternity and then some my demon, and only you could break this angel's heart and rebuild it again with a simple word." She pulled away from Inu as she continued to speak. " Inuyasha you are only in part why I was that way. I have changed on the inside as well as the outside and some not for the better. You forget that things normal to you were not to me. I changed to survive and to keep from going mad from my pain and sorrow. Not only from you but my lives and all I have seen and done here, as well as the thought of you going mad in the end and me returning to my time alone, when this I feel is my true home. The fear of losing all thoughs I hold dear like so many have here that it is common place does not help. Yet I see now I have not changed as much as I thought I had. I truly thought I did not love you any more and my heart was iced toward you. I see now that could never happen. You are my soul mate inu-chan now and always no one can change that but kami himself. I don't think he wants that. Our pain is a burden we share together. And yes Inu I realize that we are two halves of one whole I am your angel and you are my demon and I wouldn't have it any other way. I will be your angel and your mate Inuyasha forever and always. So please do not change for me. I love you the way you are."Inuyasha was blown away completely. HE didn't know what to say. So instead he wrapped his arms around Kagome and kissed her trying to put all his love into it, She returned it with the same love.
After what seemed liked only seconds to them they parted, and for the first time in months they both truly smiled. Kagome was about to get up when Inuyasha grabbed her and brought her down into his lap. " Kagome lets just stay here a while ok? I just want to be with you like this after what we have been through please? I don't know when we can be like this again? And things will be harder when others find out?"Kagome nodded before stating." I know Inuyasha about the seriousness of you taking a mate not only as a Hanyou but also as a prince of the western lands. Miyoga told me everything once several months ago." Inuyasha was beyond angry at this as kagome expected so she continued. " Inuyasha he was as worried about me as you were. And frankly he loves you like a grandchild or something. You say you have no family like me but have you looked around? They may not be blood, but everyone in our group serves a role, and by the way they all love you very much."Inuyasha just smiled, and snuggled into kagome while wrapping his haori around them both as kagome drifted of to sleep with inu close behind.
Well kiddies that's it for now, sappy I know but hey .. It's a part of the plan man. Do you think Sango and Miroku will be in this fic? Is that the end of kagome the ice queen? And inu the firebrand? Do you think month of this can really change in one night? What about a lemon in the story? What about everyone else???????? Find out this and more in the next chapters..... And if anyone has a vote or comment on any of the above questions please leave them in a review.... Love ya all minna-san
Disclaimer: Read chapter one duh!!! Plus I don't own the following song by Billy Joel.-_-
~~She can kill with a smile.~~~~~
She can wound with her eyes.
She can ruin your faith with her
Casual lies.
And she only reveals what she
Wants you to see. She hides
Like a child, but she's always
A woman to me..
She can lead you to love, she
Can take you all evening.
She can ask for the truth, but
She'll never believe. She'll
Take what you give her as
Long as its free. Yes she steals
Like a thief, but she's always
A woman to me.
Oh she takes care of herself, She
Can wait if she wants, she's ahead
Of her time. And she never gives out,
And she never gives in, she just changes
Her mind.
She'll promise you more then the garden
Of Eden. And she'll carelessly cut you
And laugh while your bleeding, but she will
Bring out the best and the worst you can be.
Blame it all on yourself cause she's always
A woman to me..
Oh she takes care of herself, she can wait if
She wants, she's ahead of her time, Oh and
She never gives out, and she never gives in.
She just changes her mind..
She's frequently kind, and suddenly cruel.
She can do as she pleases; she's nobody's fool.
And she can't be convicted, she earned her
Degree, and the most she will do is throw
Shadows at you, but she's always a women to
Me.
~~~~~~~ She's always a woman to me by: Billy Joel~~~
Chapter 2: Fire & Ice
The group had been walking for some time and was quit frankly a little more then tiered. But no one wanted to say anything to Inuyasha since he said they were going some place to take a break from shard hunting. That is all save one. Yep you guessed it. Our lovely Kagome at your service. (A/N: Nia is laughing while seeing this in her head)
Kagome turned to the others and took in there sleepy looks before turning back to inu And yelling for him to stop. Inuyasha turned around and was about to yell when he saw The coldness of her eyes. Instead he simply said: yes kagome what is it this time? (Ooooooooops wrong again dog boy) Kagome simply looked at inu for a second before a look of pure ice similar to kikyou's took over before she spoke with the same ice in her voice. "Inuyasha how much further do we have to go? Every one is worn out and quit frankly this is feeling like a jewel hunt not a break.. Inuyasha just stared for a moment before catching what she said.(a/n slow on the uptake isn't he? I know just excuse him) He then turned to everyone, and back to kagome before speaking." It's about another hour or two walk from here then we can rest for a few days." As a side note he added And I think you will like it. Then turned back to start walking again. He stopped abruptly Though when he caught Kagome's last comment " some how I doubt that highly Hanyou." The started walking again to hide the hurt that left in his very soul, and the Lone tear that traveled down his cheek. He hoped now more then ever to get there and fix this mess.
So everyone kept trudging along another hour until they reached a path that looked as though it was only used by animals. Inuyasha stopped them all at the edge of what seemed to be a clearing and waved his hand. Suddenly the scenery changed, and instead of the clearing there was a huge waterfall leading into a strange hot spring with flowers of every kind as far as the eye could see and rocks that looked like gems scattered around by the spring along with what seemed like rows of sakura trees in bloom.. The air itself was fragrant and magical.. It was truly breath taking. Everyone was in pure awe and wonder of the place, and you could feel a sense of calm and realization fill you're being the more you stood there. Finally sango found her voice enough to ask the question everyone wanted to know.." Inuyasha what is this place? And how did you know of it?" Inuyasha turned to Sango and said." This place was mine and my mother's when I was small, it was a gift from my father." And with that he headed off into the forest stating he would be back in a while so make camp. Everyone did just that before deciding to explore the place a bit. About an hour later Inuyasha returned with a deer for dinner that night and some vegetables. So Sango and Kagome set to work on the dinner while the boys gathered water and firewood. Once done the dinner went by quietly even for inu and kagome. But once clean up was done Inuyasha had decided now was the time to talk to Kagome and work on this so-called mess. He did not want to wait longer then he had to, and he was frankly sick of his heart hurting every time something transpired between them. Secretly to he was worried that he had let things go to long and had lost her, and that was something he could not accept in this lifetime or any other for that matter.
So Inuyasha casually walked over to Miroku and asked him to come with him for a minute. Inuyasha had been talking to the monk about things and frankly trusted him more then he let on. As soon as they were far enough away he asked Miroku to keep shippou out of the way while he talked to kagome alone.. Miroku agreed and wished him luck. They went back to camp to find the girls talking and shippou sleeping in Kagome's sleeping bag already it seemed.
Inuyasha walked over to Kagome and asked her to come with him for a while because he wanted to show her something. She reluctantly agreed to go. They walked towards the waterfall where Inuyasha sat down on a large rock and motioned for her to do the same. Kagome sat down beside him, and they were quit for a while watching the waterfall before Inuyasha decided it was time to speak.
Inuyasha turned to Kagome and reached for her hand, but she pulled away. He still did not stop. This was long over due and he was not going to go away without answers first. So he began with the first thought in his head over the last several months. " Kagome what is wrong with you? Why are you so cold to me?" Kagome just looked away and said nothing. He kept going. " What have I done to make you this way? Is it kikyou? Being here? What? I don't understand this change in you? Please tell me so I can fix it. I want the happy Kagome again." Still she never looked at him or answered him. He continued wanting nothing more then to break the barrier of ice she had constructed around herself. (Ironic isn't it?) " Kagome why won't you look or talk to me? At least say something? . Kagome looked at him with eyes still cold and replied with the same ice always found in her voice toward him these days." I have not answered simply because I don't think you will like what you hear, and so wont listen, and frankly I am not even sure I care anymore if you do?" To say inu was a little stunned is putting it mildly. But still he did not stop there. He looked at her and simply said " You don't know until you try right?" Kagome still did not say anything and simply turned away again. That was it for Inuyasha he had enough of this. " Kagome I simply want to know the answers to my questions and I will leave you alone the whole time you are hear if that is what you wish? But there are some things you need to know before you answer I think so hear it is. All I ask in return are the answers to what I have asked. Is that all right with you? She nodded slightly. Inuyasha took a deep breath and began to let everything that had been crushing his heart into the open. " First of all Kagome I don't love kikyou or that walking corpse. I thought I did but it was more like how did you say it once oh ya a crush. Second you do not look like or remind me of her. At first yes but not for a long time now. I don't think you are useless, stupid, ugly, or anything else like that. In Fact I think you are the smartest, most beautiful creature to walk this earth, and I am surprised no one has fully claimed you yet. (A/n notice he said fully claimed ^.^)Then he slightly chuckled and said then again you intimidate me so bad hell I am not sure what to do sometimes." This got the slightest of smiles from Kagome but it went unnoticed. He then got serious again and asked Kagome to look at him. She turned and looked up at him and he swore briefly that he saw the loving, angel he once knew there. Once again his determination grew to new heights to get her back. He took Her hand and looked her in the eye before speaking again." Kagome this is the most important thing I will ever say and I hope I don't screw it up so please listen ok?" she nodded. " Kagome you are my best friend, my first real friend really and I thought you knew that. You have taught me many things over the years and changed me for the better I think. But I have not been true to you or me in this journey, and I am afraid I have lost you because of it. I will say I have tried to be the way I have been to you to protect you from not only other demons but myself as well to the point of closing you off from me. I don't want that and never really have. SO I will tell you this from the beginning and hope you understand when I am done why I have done what I have till now." And so he did just that, and went back to the day he woke on the tree till now. (A/n don't freak I am going to only sum it up for you guys geez..)
Inuyasha started from the moment he woke on the tree. " Kagome remember when I thought you were kikyou? That was a lie I knew you were not her. I just was not sure what was going on or how much time had passed. I trusted no one and nothing but my own pain. But unknown to me at the time I marked you as mine with my scent by instinct alone to be my life mate when you were clinging to me on the tree before removing the arrow. I remained with you for more then just the jewel or the necklace. It was more to protect you. When I realized what I had done I was scared due to my pain and my growing attraction to you .So I did the only thing I knew and pushed you away the more I wanted you the more I pushed. That is why I fight kouga for you every time because he to has laid claim to you. But also Kagome It is because I truly love you more then life, And want you some day to be my mate for life even if it means I must be human and live in your time to have you I don't care. I don't want kikyou or the jewel and haven't almost since the beginning of the journey. I want to help you fix the jewel and get rid of naraku. The jewel is yours and I want to help you protect it if that is what you want to do. I have watched you grow to a woman warrior from a child, and seen you live with the pain of having to lives in two times. Every time you leave a chunk of my heart goes with you. Every time we fight I die a little more inside, and every time you're in danger my heart leaves me completely. It hurts me to keep you from your family, and I envy them for you and what you share. I want that too. Though I can't have the family you do if fluffy is any example, but I want to have that with you and only you. You must know you are my angel Kagome, if a demon can be truly blessed by kami and given a chance at something it would be by an angel like you. You're my light, my hope, my love, my heart, and soul and I gave them all to you long ago. My beautiful, little angel from the future. My life has been a blessing not a curse since the day I saw you. So tell me kagome will you be my angel?" With that he stopped and looked down at the ground .He did not want to see the ice in her eyes after that. Kagome was quit for a long time, and Inuyasha decided that it was to late. He stood as one lone tear fell from his eye and landed on the hand he still held. Kagome held firm once the tear fell and stated. " Where are you going? We had a deal remember? It is my turn now correct?" Inu nodded and sat back down still staring at the ground. Kagome asked if she could ask one thing before she answered him? Inu nodded again, and she took his face in her hands so he would look at her. What he saw shocked him to no end. There were tears in her eyes. It had been months since she had shed a single tear he had thought she had forgotten how. She had not cried, tantrum, ran away, or even been grossed out in almost a full year. It was almost a blessing to see thoughs tears that once hurt him so much. She looked right at him as she spoke." Inuyasha why is this coming out now of all times? Are you afraid I am going to leave you?" It was Inuyasha's turn to be silent for a while. Finally he said ." No Kagome that's not it, you just scared me so bad, and I don't want you away from me in any form anymore. I have had enough of being alone and watching you being alone with your pain as I was when I love you so much." They're where tears in his eyes now. Kagome could see his very soul in his eyes, and all her walls over the months crashed to dust as she cried. She hugged Inuyasha before she spoke softly in his ear." I have loved you for an eternity and then some my demon, and only you could break this angel's heart and rebuild it again with a simple word." She pulled away from Inu as she continued to speak. " Inuyasha you are only in part why I was that way. I have changed on the inside as well as the outside and some not for the better. You forget that things normal to you were not to me. I changed to survive and to keep from going mad from my pain and sorrow. Not only from you but my lives and all I have seen and done here, as well as the thought of you going mad in the end and me returning to my time alone, when this I feel is my true home. The fear of losing all thoughs I hold dear like so many have here that it is common place does not help. Yet I see now I have not changed as much as I thought I had. I truly thought I did not love you any more and my heart was iced toward you. I see now that could never happen. You are my soul mate inu-chan now and always no one can change that but kami himself. I don't think he wants that. Our pain is a burden we share together. And yes Inu I realize that we are two halves of one whole I am your angel and you are my demon and I wouldn't have it any other way. I will be your angel and your mate Inuyasha forever and always. So please do not change for me. I love you the way you are."Inuyasha was blown away completely. HE didn't know what to say. So instead he wrapped his arms around Kagome and kissed her trying to put all his love into it, She returned it with the same love.
After what seemed liked only seconds to them they parted, and for the first time in months they both truly smiled. Kagome was about to get up when Inuyasha grabbed her and brought her down into his lap. " Kagome lets just stay here a while ok? I just want to be with you like this after what we have been through please? I don't know when we can be like this again? And things will be harder when others find out?"Kagome nodded before stating." I know Inuyasha about the seriousness of you taking a mate not only as a Hanyou but also as a prince of the western lands. Miyoga told me everything once several months ago." Inuyasha was beyond angry at this as kagome expected so she continued. " Inuyasha he was as worried about me as you were. And frankly he loves you like a grandchild or something. You say you have no family like me but have you looked around? They may not be blood, but everyone in our group serves a role, and by the way they all love you very much."Inuyasha just smiled, and snuggled into kagome while wrapping his haori around them both as kagome drifted of to sleep with inu close behind.
Well kiddies that's it for now, sappy I know but hey .. It's a part of the plan man. Do you think Sango and Miroku will be in this fic? Is that the end of kagome the ice queen? And inu the firebrand? Do you think month of this can really change in one night? What about a lemon in the story? What about everyone else???????? Find out this and more in the next chapters..... And if anyone has a vote or comment on any of the above questions please leave them in a review.... Love ya all minna-san