When Monday came around Rogue waited till all the other students had left
for school.
She locked the door to her room and opened the window, she cleared a space in front of it and sat Indian style, letting the slight breeze brush against her neck.
She closed her eyes and concentrated, retracting into her subconscious, she saw her memories still randomly floating and occasionally surfacing.
Rogue grabbed the nearest one, it was of her and Risty, they were hanging out on a Saturday night, rebels without a cause, just talking and making fun of the preps.
She forced herself not to cry, "*Damnit, you are over that*"
She debated whether to put it in her easy access file or in her locked away cabinet, it might surface if she put it in her easy access file and thinking about Risty would lead to thinking about Mystique.
Rogue had decided in the medlab that she would think of the two as totally separate people, it would help her cope with the betrayal, Risty was a good friend that was gone now, Mystique was the psychotic foster parent that wanted to take her place.
She didn't care if Mystique had been Risty, Risty was the first person she'd ever considered a friend, even before Scott, and a friend deserved to be remembered, so she placed it in her easy access file and reached out for another memory.
It was one of her and Irene, Rogue smiled sadly, now there was someone who could be called mother, she had taken care of Rogue, they had a nice little house in the country, no one to bother them, it was like a picket fence fairytale, that had lasted a year and a half.
Then Mystique had ruined her smooth, carefree life, that evil woman had taken what was left of her innocence and broke it up into tiny little pieces, then threw it in her face.
Rogue scowled, "*That lady wrecked the precious bit of good Ah had in my life and still calls herself my mother*" anger and pain grew in a strong surge, Rogue put the memory in her easy access file before she accidentally tore it apart from her sudden pulse of fury.
A brick appeared in Rogue's hand, it was part of her destroyed barricade that would've kept these feelings at bay, she turned to see her shattered defense shields, there was one thing she could do that would help stop her mood swings and get her concentration back, rebuild her walls.
She hesitated, even in her anger she wasn't about to rush into something that might make everything worse, she looked at the brick in her hand, if she did decide to rebuild her shields, she would have to use something more durable.
A memory bumped her in the shoulder, she stood there as realization hit her, emotions, although not always predictable, could be the toughest force in the human mind.
Rogue snatched a memory, her past and present was full of emotion, she could use her memories as a reinforced shield, she would have to be careful though, if something happened while she was building her barricades back up, it might cause another break down.
She took another look around her mindscape, then realized that Kitty and Kurt's memories were there too, "*How could Ah forget?*" she would have to finish filing and organizing before she started on the walls, "*No problem, this should only take a few hours*" and she got back to work.
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Kitty passed by a group cheerleaders who were whispering stuff like "Freak" and "She doesn't belong here"
Kitty just held her head high and smiled as if to say: "I know something you don't" the cheerleaders huffed and went on their way.
As soon as they were out of sight Kitty slumped against her locker and sighed, wishing Rogue were here, the Goth always knew how to shut preps like them up, sometimes Kitty just wanted to yell at them.
"Hey, you're doing a good job so far" Kurt said as if reading her mind, he came and stood beside her, "Still, it, like, makes me so mad"
Nightcrawler smiled, "C'mon, I'll valk you to lunch" he put an arm around her shoulders, but then Amanda suddenly raced up to him and they started up a conversation.
Kitty watched as Amanda gave Kurt a kiss on the cheek, she hung her head and walked to lunch alone, she had been alone a lot lately, ever since Lance and her broke up.
*Like, one minute my life was great, and now it totally sucks*
She sat at the nearest bench and moped, her eyes wandered absently around until locking gazes with a certain avalanche making mutant, she sat a little straighter and narrowed her yes at him, she couldn't believe they had actually let the Brotherhood back in school.
She saw his hurt expression, and for a moment she sympathized, but she quickly turned her eyes away, it was his fault, she didn't need to feel sorry, she was over him.
Kitty thought back to the night after the battle and the break up, she had sobbed into her pillow when they got home, Rogue had sat on her bed and comforted her, "Lance is a jerk, it was his decision, you don't have to feel responsible for his actions" the Goth said.
Kitty had sat up and hugged her friend, Rogue had been shocked at first, but returned the hug.
*She's always there for us, but she wont let us be there for her* thinking about Rogue got her to stop thinking about Lance for the time being.
A hand was placed on Kitty's arm, the girl jumped and almost phased, but when she saw who it was, she grinned, this would brighten her mood considerably, "Peter, what are you doing here?"
The taller man smiled slightly, "I wanted to see how you were doing, that and Pyro was messing around near the stove"
Kitty giggled, "I'm, like, glad you're here" they started talking and time seemed to fly by, at least for the Valley girl.
At the other end of the campus Alvers was watching Kitty flirt big time with one of Magneto's goons, "What does she see in him anyway, he's looks old enough to be her grandfather" of course he was over exaggerating, using jealousy as an excuse to hide his pain.
"Feeling a little threatened by Kitty-Kat's new boyfriend are we?" Pietro taunted, "Can it, Maximoff" Lance shot back, standing up and balling his fists, "Carefulyouhurtmemyfatherhurtsyou" the speedster said.
Avalanche growled, tempted to bury the twerp under a few tons of rock, but he sat back down, knowing all too well what the consequence might be for that.
He continued to watch, the minutes tick by so slowly, but he couldn't force himself to look away, *Welcome to the living hell you put yourself in*
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Five hours had passed and Rogue had barely gotten through sorting a quarter of her memories, "*Maybe Ah should take a break*" she said this without any true intention of stopping, she wanted to get this done and she wanted to get it done as soon as possible.
But something pushed her back into the real world anyway, she was starving, she hadn't eaten anything since yesterday morning and her stomach was protesting the harsh treatment.
Rogue stood up to go downstairs, but she couldn't feel her numb legs from the extensive time she had been sitting in her meditating position, and almost immediately fell back down.
She slammed against her nightstand, causing her lamp to fall off and shatter into a million pieces.
Wolverine and Gambit were by her side in a flash, she guessed Logan must've busted her and Kitty's door again.
"Damnit" she groaned, warding off their attempts to help her up, "Are you-" "Ah'm fine" she answered before Remy could finish his sentence, she pushed herself onto her bed and sat up.
"What happened?" Logan asked, he couldn't smell that anyone had been up here besides Rogue, so it wasn't an attack, "Ah tripped" she said casually, biting back the pain that shot through her head.
Rogue felt the circulation returning to her legs and then the assault of pins and needles, Logan and Gambit just stood there, she was about to tell them off when she noticed their surprised expressions.
"What?" she asked, giving them a death glare, "Where's your make up, Stripes?" "Huh?" Rogue frowned, then remembered, she had wiped it off after the others left for school, "Ah didn't feel like wearing it today, got a problem with that?"
It was a while before Gambit found his voice, "You look stunning, Cher`e" Rogue furrowed her eyebrows and looked at Logan, "Yea, you should quit wearing that crap all together" he said to her questioning glance.
"Whatever, get your jaws off the floor and get out of here" *Geez, it's not like it's that big of a deal* Logan started to head out when he realized Remy was too entranced to follow him, "You heard her, Gumbo" he yanked the Cajun by the ear and through the door less exit.
Rogue tried standing up again, this time she made it without falling, she really hated the fact that she would have to wait another whole day before proceeding with her rebuilding now that she had no way to get full privacy with her door torn off.
She grinned, some part of her thought it was worth it, though, after seeing the look's on Gambit and Logan's faces, *I should've taken a picture to show Kitty, she would've died laughing*
Rogue wondered how her friend was holding up, hopefully she wasn't feeling too lonely, *I saw the way she was looking at Colossus, she's definitely over Lance*
Rogue resumed her quest for food and headed for the kitchen.
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(A/N: These chapters aren't the longest in the world, but one week five chapters, go figure;) I hope to have the next few up soon, if you can wait a day or so, hpe you've liked it so far and please RnR!)
She locked the door to her room and opened the window, she cleared a space in front of it and sat Indian style, letting the slight breeze brush against her neck.
She closed her eyes and concentrated, retracting into her subconscious, she saw her memories still randomly floating and occasionally surfacing.
Rogue grabbed the nearest one, it was of her and Risty, they were hanging out on a Saturday night, rebels without a cause, just talking and making fun of the preps.
She forced herself not to cry, "*Damnit, you are over that*"
She debated whether to put it in her easy access file or in her locked away cabinet, it might surface if she put it in her easy access file and thinking about Risty would lead to thinking about Mystique.
Rogue had decided in the medlab that she would think of the two as totally separate people, it would help her cope with the betrayal, Risty was a good friend that was gone now, Mystique was the psychotic foster parent that wanted to take her place.
She didn't care if Mystique had been Risty, Risty was the first person she'd ever considered a friend, even before Scott, and a friend deserved to be remembered, so she placed it in her easy access file and reached out for another memory.
It was one of her and Irene, Rogue smiled sadly, now there was someone who could be called mother, she had taken care of Rogue, they had a nice little house in the country, no one to bother them, it was like a picket fence fairytale, that had lasted a year and a half.
Then Mystique had ruined her smooth, carefree life, that evil woman had taken what was left of her innocence and broke it up into tiny little pieces, then threw it in her face.
Rogue scowled, "*That lady wrecked the precious bit of good Ah had in my life and still calls herself my mother*" anger and pain grew in a strong surge, Rogue put the memory in her easy access file before she accidentally tore it apart from her sudden pulse of fury.
A brick appeared in Rogue's hand, it was part of her destroyed barricade that would've kept these feelings at bay, she turned to see her shattered defense shields, there was one thing she could do that would help stop her mood swings and get her concentration back, rebuild her walls.
She hesitated, even in her anger she wasn't about to rush into something that might make everything worse, she looked at the brick in her hand, if she did decide to rebuild her shields, she would have to use something more durable.
A memory bumped her in the shoulder, she stood there as realization hit her, emotions, although not always predictable, could be the toughest force in the human mind.
Rogue snatched a memory, her past and present was full of emotion, she could use her memories as a reinforced shield, she would have to be careful though, if something happened while she was building her barricades back up, it might cause another break down.
She took another look around her mindscape, then realized that Kitty and Kurt's memories were there too, "*How could Ah forget?*" she would have to finish filing and organizing before she started on the walls, "*No problem, this should only take a few hours*" and she got back to work.
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Kitty passed by a group cheerleaders who were whispering stuff like "Freak" and "She doesn't belong here"
Kitty just held her head high and smiled as if to say: "I know something you don't" the cheerleaders huffed and went on their way.
As soon as they were out of sight Kitty slumped against her locker and sighed, wishing Rogue were here, the Goth always knew how to shut preps like them up, sometimes Kitty just wanted to yell at them.
"Hey, you're doing a good job so far" Kurt said as if reading her mind, he came and stood beside her, "Still, it, like, makes me so mad"
Nightcrawler smiled, "C'mon, I'll valk you to lunch" he put an arm around her shoulders, but then Amanda suddenly raced up to him and they started up a conversation.
Kitty watched as Amanda gave Kurt a kiss on the cheek, she hung her head and walked to lunch alone, she had been alone a lot lately, ever since Lance and her broke up.
*Like, one minute my life was great, and now it totally sucks*
She sat at the nearest bench and moped, her eyes wandered absently around until locking gazes with a certain avalanche making mutant, she sat a little straighter and narrowed her yes at him, she couldn't believe they had actually let the Brotherhood back in school.
She saw his hurt expression, and for a moment she sympathized, but she quickly turned her eyes away, it was his fault, she didn't need to feel sorry, she was over him.
Kitty thought back to the night after the battle and the break up, she had sobbed into her pillow when they got home, Rogue had sat on her bed and comforted her, "Lance is a jerk, it was his decision, you don't have to feel responsible for his actions" the Goth said.
Kitty had sat up and hugged her friend, Rogue had been shocked at first, but returned the hug.
*She's always there for us, but she wont let us be there for her* thinking about Rogue got her to stop thinking about Lance for the time being.
A hand was placed on Kitty's arm, the girl jumped and almost phased, but when she saw who it was, she grinned, this would brighten her mood considerably, "Peter, what are you doing here?"
The taller man smiled slightly, "I wanted to see how you were doing, that and Pyro was messing around near the stove"
Kitty giggled, "I'm, like, glad you're here" they started talking and time seemed to fly by, at least for the Valley girl.
At the other end of the campus Alvers was watching Kitty flirt big time with one of Magneto's goons, "What does she see in him anyway, he's looks old enough to be her grandfather" of course he was over exaggerating, using jealousy as an excuse to hide his pain.
"Feeling a little threatened by Kitty-Kat's new boyfriend are we?" Pietro taunted, "Can it, Maximoff" Lance shot back, standing up and balling his fists, "Carefulyouhurtmemyfatherhurtsyou" the speedster said.
Avalanche growled, tempted to bury the twerp under a few tons of rock, but he sat back down, knowing all too well what the consequence might be for that.
He continued to watch, the minutes tick by so slowly, but he couldn't force himself to look away, *Welcome to the living hell you put yourself in*
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Five hours had passed and Rogue had barely gotten through sorting a quarter of her memories, "*Maybe Ah should take a break*" she said this without any true intention of stopping, she wanted to get this done and she wanted to get it done as soon as possible.
But something pushed her back into the real world anyway, she was starving, she hadn't eaten anything since yesterday morning and her stomach was protesting the harsh treatment.
Rogue stood up to go downstairs, but she couldn't feel her numb legs from the extensive time she had been sitting in her meditating position, and almost immediately fell back down.
She slammed against her nightstand, causing her lamp to fall off and shatter into a million pieces.
Wolverine and Gambit were by her side in a flash, she guessed Logan must've busted her and Kitty's door again.
"Damnit" she groaned, warding off their attempts to help her up, "Are you-" "Ah'm fine" she answered before Remy could finish his sentence, she pushed herself onto her bed and sat up.
"What happened?" Logan asked, he couldn't smell that anyone had been up here besides Rogue, so it wasn't an attack, "Ah tripped" she said casually, biting back the pain that shot through her head.
Rogue felt the circulation returning to her legs and then the assault of pins and needles, Logan and Gambit just stood there, she was about to tell them off when she noticed their surprised expressions.
"What?" she asked, giving them a death glare, "Where's your make up, Stripes?" "Huh?" Rogue frowned, then remembered, she had wiped it off after the others left for school, "Ah didn't feel like wearing it today, got a problem with that?"
It was a while before Gambit found his voice, "You look stunning, Cher`e" Rogue furrowed her eyebrows and looked at Logan, "Yea, you should quit wearing that crap all together" he said to her questioning glance.
"Whatever, get your jaws off the floor and get out of here" *Geez, it's not like it's that big of a deal* Logan started to head out when he realized Remy was too entranced to follow him, "You heard her, Gumbo" he yanked the Cajun by the ear and through the door less exit.
Rogue tried standing up again, this time she made it without falling, she really hated the fact that she would have to wait another whole day before proceeding with her rebuilding now that she had no way to get full privacy with her door torn off.
She grinned, some part of her thought it was worth it, though, after seeing the look's on Gambit and Logan's faces, *I should've taken a picture to show Kitty, she would've died laughing*
Rogue wondered how her friend was holding up, hopefully she wasn't feeling too lonely, *I saw the way she was looking at Colossus, she's definitely over Lance*
Rogue resumed her quest for food and headed for the kitchen.
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(A/N: These chapters aren't the longest in the world, but one week five chapters, go figure;) I hope to have the next few up soon, if you can wait a day or so, hpe you've liked it so far and please RnR!)