As Xander sat there eating with all the noisy girls around him and a
whining Andrew next to him he thought about Cordelia and Anya. He wondered
if he would be betraying Anya by going to see Cordelia and wishing she was
alive just a couple weeks after she died. As he picked up his donut he
remembered the time when everyone was singing and the comments Anya made.
He aimlessly stared out of the window when a bunny rabbit ran by. Xander
couldn't take it anymore and excused himself to go to bathroom. The girl
he loved was dead and he couldn't deal with it anymore.
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Two weeks had passed since the gang had come to LA and Buffy still hadn't mentioned brining Spike back. She thought that maybe Angel would consider it rude or something like that and she didn't have the courage to talk about what had happened. It had been almost two months since he died and she still hadn't said anything about him. She may have said phrases here and there but she had not had one full conversation with anyone about what had happened and how she felt.
"I do love you, I do," Buffy murmured in her sleep. She woke in a sweat and was breathing very hard. She had been having these nightmares ever since she had come to the hotel. Now that she knew that there was a chance to bring him back Spike was the only thing on her mind. Her friends had noticed that she had become more distant recently, more distant than before. She would just sit somewhere and stare off into space thinking of something and no one knew what it was. Faith had a pretty good idea about what it was but she had been worried with Robin. His condition had gotten worse and he was in the ICU. She spent all her waking hours at the hospital and half of her sleeping hours there.
Buffy rose from her bed and sat on the chair positioned next to the window. She sighed as she looked out the window as tears rolled down her face. She wished and even prayed that she would stop thinking about him. She knew the only way to solve this problem would be to talk to Angel about bringing him back and she knew that if he refused to help her would become obsessed in finding a way to bring him back herself. She got up from the couch and went back to her bed where she lay awake for two hours. When she couldn't take it anymore she got up, got dressed and went outside looking for a good slay. She walked around for about twenty minutes until she finally found a vampire nest, which she took out all her fury on.
A tired Buffy walked back to the hotel. As she quietly opened the door she tiptoed in not wanting to wake anyone. As she walked towards the stairs she noticed that someone was in the corner. As she walked over to the corner she realized it was Kennedy crying.
"Oh great," Buffy thought, "Here she is feeling sorry for herself. If she runs away I'm not gonna go looking for her again." As soon as she thought this Buffy shook the thought out of her head. Willow loved Kennedy so she had to do something for her.
"What's wrong," Buffy asked as she took a seat in the corner next to Kennedy.
Kennedy looked and saw Buffy sitting next to her. She had not heard anyone come in and she had been surprised. She had not wanted to be bothered and she didn't think that Buffy wanted to hear anymore of her problems.
"It's nothing," Kennedy whispered and she quickly wiped away her tears scrambling to get up. Buffy pulled her down.
"What's wrong? You're not just sitting here crying because you feel like it."
"It's nothing really, can you please just leave me alone."
Buffy was not sure whether to be offended by this comment or to just leave it. Deciding to respect Kennedy's wished Buffy got up and began walking towards the stairs. When Kennedy realized that she was actually going she called out, "Umm.actually I wouldn't mind if you stayed, I get kinda lonely when I'm here alone."
"When you're here alone? You've done this before?" Buffy asked in a surprised voice.
"Shhhh, you have to whisper or you'll wake the others up. And yea, I have done this before. Sometimes at night because of Willow."
"Willow?" Buffy asked, "Why, what does she do?"
"You're gonna think I'm sounding selfish again and that I need all the attention to myself if I told you."
"No I won't," Buffy said even though she was thinking about sprinting up the stairs to avoid having this dull conversation with her. "What's wrong? What about Willow?"
"Well during the day she's fine," Kennedy began telling her story, "you'd never think that she still misses Tara so much."
Buffy inwardly groaned now that she knew what this was about. Kennedy was still jealous. As she looked at Kennedy she wondered how a girl could be like that. Her thoughts soon changed as she heard the rest of her story.
"At night we get into bed and everything," Kennedy continued, "and than sometimes as soon as she fall asleep she turn over and put her arms around me except she won't say my name she'll say Tara's. She'll say her name over and over again. Other times she starts to cry out her name and yells how she misses her and she doesn't think she can keep living without her and that she's incomplete. She doesn't think or remember about me in her dreams. It's all Tara I don't fit in anywhere. I don't want to sound like some jealous girl who can't get over herself but I can't take it anymore," Kennedy said as she began to sob.
Buffy leaned over and hugged the crying girl while this registered in her mind. She hadn't known that Willow wasn't over Tara; she was under the impression that she was. She knew that someone needed to talk to Willow and let her know what this was doing to Kennedy but Buffy didn't want to be the one that did that. How do you tell your best friend that she yells out her dead girlfriends name in her sleep and she makes her current one cry? There was only one way to solve this problem. Have Xander talk to her.
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"Come on Xander, she'll listen to you! Remember the yellow crayon talk? You know how to talk to her!" Buffy protested. She had just asked Xander to talk to Willow and he refused.
"Come on Buffy, I don't know what to say to her. Besides this is girl talk stuff isn't it? You know the whole girlfriend thing," Xander fought back.
"The whole girlfriend thing? Are you sayin' that I've had a girlfriend?" Buffy asked.
"No-no-no," Xander said quickly trying to cover up his mistake, "I mean like pretend you're talking about your boyfriend or something like that. I just can't do it Buff, I'm sorry," Xander said as he walked away.
Buffy sighed. Now what was she supposed to do. She didn't know what to say to Willow. "Hey Willow, I just thought I'd let you know that you're crying your dead girlfriends name in your sleep and its no big deal I just think that Kennedy's gonna run away again." This would just have to do.
"Hey Willow," Buffy said in an uneasy voice as she entered Willow's room.
"Hey Buffy, what's up?" Willow replied in an enthusiastic voice, not noticing how uncomfortable Buffy had become.
"Oh nothing you know. Will I gotta talk to you about something," Buffy said as she gathered up the courage.
As she opened her mouth to speak Willow said, "Is this about bringing Spike back? You know you have to talk to Angel sooner or later. You're not going to bring him back by just standing around."
Happy that Willow changed the subject Buffy agreed with her, "Yep, that's what this is about, bringing Spike back. Thanks for that pep talk," Buffy said as she got up, "I'll be going now, I think I'll have a talk with Angel."
As Buffy walked out of the room she went to look for Kennedy. She told Kennedy that the only way to solve this problem would be for her to talk to Willow. At first Kennedy opposed the idea. She didn't know what she would say to her. After a half hour of being pressured by Buffy she finally agreed that she would talk to Willow the next day or the day after that. She needed to gather her courage.
That night as Kennedy got into bed she braced herself for another night of torture. She watched as Willow drifted off and tried to fall asleep herself. A few hours later she was awoken by the sound of Willow's voice.
"I'll ring you back Tara. Tomorrow I'll bring you back. I can't live anymore without you," Willow screamed out as she began to shake in her sleep. Kennedy thought about this for a moment before she woke Willow up. What had she meant by bringing her back tomorrow? Was she possible thinking of using magic to bring her back? This couldn't be real. It was just a dream Kennedy consoled with herself knowing full well that it wasn't.
Kennedy leaned over and shook Willow, telling her to wake up. "Willow, Willow, wake up! You're having a nightmare. Willow wake up," Kennedy said in an almost pained voice. She didn't know if she'd be able to talk to her after this.
Willow gasped as she woke up. When she saw Kennedy looking at her with a concerned look on her face she leaned over to her and gave her a hug. "Thanks for waking me up. I had a horrible dream where the first killed us all," Willow said while quickly making up a story in her head. She couldn't let anything destroy her plans. She had worked to long and too hard to stop her from carrying out her plans the next day.
Kennedy just listened with a far off look on her face. She knew Willow was making up this story but she couldn't figure out why. Was it to keep from hurting Willow or to cover up her plans for the next day? She knew that she would have to keep an eye on Willow the next day and not leave her alone for a second. She would have to tell Buffy and she would also have to finally talk to Willow.
What confused Kennedy the most was the treatment she was getting. She couldn't figure out what was going on. After everything she had done for Willow this was the thanks she was getting. She couldn't help but feel sorry for herself for a minute but quickly shook that thought away. She had to help Willow get over Tara and she would.
Sorry about waiting so long to review!! My computer was broke.haha.I'll try and get another chapter tomorrow I should have a lot of time on my hands. I promise from now on I'll try to get in at least 2 or maybe 3 chapters a week.I'm trying to think of a way to keep this story going but I'll let you know that a couple will be reunited in about 2 chapters after this W/K thing finishes. Thanks for the reviews for those of you who are reviewing but some more would be appreciated. Reviews button's down there!!
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Two weeks had passed since the gang had come to LA and Buffy still hadn't mentioned brining Spike back. She thought that maybe Angel would consider it rude or something like that and she didn't have the courage to talk about what had happened. It had been almost two months since he died and she still hadn't said anything about him. She may have said phrases here and there but she had not had one full conversation with anyone about what had happened and how she felt.
"I do love you, I do," Buffy murmured in her sleep. She woke in a sweat and was breathing very hard. She had been having these nightmares ever since she had come to the hotel. Now that she knew that there was a chance to bring him back Spike was the only thing on her mind. Her friends had noticed that she had become more distant recently, more distant than before. She would just sit somewhere and stare off into space thinking of something and no one knew what it was. Faith had a pretty good idea about what it was but she had been worried with Robin. His condition had gotten worse and he was in the ICU. She spent all her waking hours at the hospital and half of her sleeping hours there.
Buffy rose from her bed and sat on the chair positioned next to the window. She sighed as she looked out the window as tears rolled down her face. She wished and even prayed that she would stop thinking about him. She knew the only way to solve this problem would be to talk to Angel about bringing him back and she knew that if he refused to help her would become obsessed in finding a way to bring him back herself. She got up from the couch and went back to her bed where she lay awake for two hours. When she couldn't take it anymore she got up, got dressed and went outside looking for a good slay. She walked around for about twenty minutes until she finally found a vampire nest, which she took out all her fury on.
A tired Buffy walked back to the hotel. As she quietly opened the door she tiptoed in not wanting to wake anyone. As she walked towards the stairs she noticed that someone was in the corner. As she walked over to the corner she realized it was Kennedy crying.
"Oh great," Buffy thought, "Here she is feeling sorry for herself. If she runs away I'm not gonna go looking for her again." As soon as she thought this Buffy shook the thought out of her head. Willow loved Kennedy so she had to do something for her.
"What's wrong," Buffy asked as she took a seat in the corner next to Kennedy.
Kennedy looked and saw Buffy sitting next to her. She had not heard anyone come in and she had been surprised. She had not wanted to be bothered and she didn't think that Buffy wanted to hear anymore of her problems.
"It's nothing," Kennedy whispered and she quickly wiped away her tears scrambling to get up. Buffy pulled her down.
"What's wrong? You're not just sitting here crying because you feel like it."
"It's nothing really, can you please just leave me alone."
Buffy was not sure whether to be offended by this comment or to just leave it. Deciding to respect Kennedy's wished Buffy got up and began walking towards the stairs. When Kennedy realized that she was actually going she called out, "Umm.actually I wouldn't mind if you stayed, I get kinda lonely when I'm here alone."
"When you're here alone? You've done this before?" Buffy asked in a surprised voice.
"Shhhh, you have to whisper or you'll wake the others up. And yea, I have done this before. Sometimes at night because of Willow."
"Willow?" Buffy asked, "Why, what does she do?"
"You're gonna think I'm sounding selfish again and that I need all the attention to myself if I told you."
"No I won't," Buffy said even though she was thinking about sprinting up the stairs to avoid having this dull conversation with her. "What's wrong? What about Willow?"
"Well during the day she's fine," Kennedy began telling her story, "you'd never think that she still misses Tara so much."
Buffy inwardly groaned now that she knew what this was about. Kennedy was still jealous. As she looked at Kennedy she wondered how a girl could be like that. Her thoughts soon changed as she heard the rest of her story.
"At night we get into bed and everything," Kennedy continued, "and than sometimes as soon as she fall asleep she turn over and put her arms around me except she won't say my name she'll say Tara's. She'll say her name over and over again. Other times she starts to cry out her name and yells how she misses her and she doesn't think she can keep living without her and that she's incomplete. She doesn't think or remember about me in her dreams. It's all Tara I don't fit in anywhere. I don't want to sound like some jealous girl who can't get over herself but I can't take it anymore," Kennedy said as she began to sob.
Buffy leaned over and hugged the crying girl while this registered in her mind. She hadn't known that Willow wasn't over Tara; she was under the impression that she was. She knew that someone needed to talk to Willow and let her know what this was doing to Kennedy but Buffy didn't want to be the one that did that. How do you tell your best friend that she yells out her dead girlfriends name in her sleep and she makes her current one cry? There was only one way to solve this problem. Have Xander talk to her.
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"Come on Xander, she'll listen to you! Remember the yellow crayon talk? You know how to talk to her!" Buffy protested. She had just asked Xander to talk to Willow and he refused.
"Come on Buffy, I don't know what to say to her. Besides this is girl talk stuff isn't it? You know the whole girlfriend thing," Xander fought back.
"The whole girlfriend thing? Are you sayin' that I've had a girlfriend?" Buffy asked.
"No-no-no," Xander said quickly trying to cover up his mistake, "I mean like pretend you're talking about your boyfriend or something like that. I just can't do it Buff, I'm sorry," Xander said as he walked away.
Buffy sighed. Now what was she supposed to do. She didn't know what to say to Willow. "Hey Willow, I just thought I'd let you know that you're crying your dead girlfriends name in your sleep and its no big deal I just think that Kennedy's gonna run away again." This would just have to do.
"Hey Willow," Buffy said in an uneasy voice as she entered Willow's room.
"Hey Buffy, what's up?" Willow replied in an enthusiastic voice, not noticing how uncomfortable Buffy had become.
"Oh nothing you know. Will I gotta talk to you about something," Buffy said as she gathered up the courage.
As she opened her mouth to speak Willow said, "Is this about bringing Spike back? You know you have to talk to Angel sooner or later. You're not going to bring him back by just standing around."
Happy that Willow changed the subject Buffy agreed with her, "Yep, that's what this is about, bringing Spike back. Thanks for that pep talk," Buffy said as she got up, "I'll be going now, I think I'll have a talk with Angel."
As Buffy walked out of the room she went to look for Kennedy. She told Kennedy that the only way to solve this problem would be for her to talk to Willow. At first Kennedy opposed the idea. She didn't know what she would say to her. After a half hour of being pressured by Buffy she finally agreed that she would talk to Willow the next day or the day after that. She needed to gather her courage.
That night as Kennedy got into bed she braced herself for another night of torture. She watched as Willow drifted off and tried to fall asleep herself. A few hours later she was awoken by the sound of Willow's voice.
"I'll ring you back Tara. Tomorrow I'll bring you back. I can't live anymore without you," Willow screamed out as she began to shake in her sleep. Kennedy thought about this for a moment before she woke Willow up. What had she meant by bringing her back tomorrow? Was she possible thinking of using magic to bring her back? This couldn't be real. It was just a dream Kennedy consoled with herself knowing full well that it wasn't.
Kennedy leaned over and shook Willow, telling her to wake up. "Willow, Willow, wake up! You're having a nightmare. Willow wake up," Kennedy said in an almost pained voice. She didn't know if she'd be able to talk to her after this.
Willow gasped as she woke up. When she saw Kennedy looking at her with a concerned look on her face she leaned over to her and gave her a hug. "Thanks for waking me up. I had a horrible dream where the first killed us all," Willow said while quickly making up a story in her head. She couldn't let anything destroy her plans. She had worked to long and too hard to stop her from carrying out her plans the next day.
Kennedy just listened with a far off look on her face. She knew Willow was making up this story but she couldn't figure out why. Was it to keep from hurting Willow or to cover up her plans for the next day? She knew that she would have to keep an eye on Willow the next day and not leave her alone for a second. She would have to tell Buffy and she would also have to finally talk to Willow.
What confused Kennedy the most was the treatment she was getting. She couldn't figure out what was going on. After everything she had done for Willow this was the thanks she was getting. She couldn't help but feel sorry for herself for a minute but quickly shook that thought away. She had to help Willow get over Tara and she would.
Sorry about waiting so long to review!! My computer was broke.haha.I'll try and get another chapter tomorrow I should have a lot of time on my hands. I promise from now on I'll try to get in at least 2 or maybe 3 chapters a week.I'm trying to think of a way to keep this story going but I'll let you know that a couple will be reunited in about 2 chapters after this W/K thing finishes. Thanks for the reviews for those of you who are reviewing but some more would be appreciated. Reviews button's down there!!
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