My Immortal
I can't count how many times I've come here. This too familiar place haunts me, and I know I can't help it. I sink to the ground in the same fashion, weeping atop his cold resting place as I grip the cold, wet grass. The tears flow endlessly; I can't accept he's gone. Seven years together. Seven. And then gone. The tears drip down my face as I grip the grass harder, dirt collecting under my usually clean nails. I'm alone as ever now. Alone like I have been all along. Alone and scared. Scared for my child's life, for my life. It's not fair. I punch the ground and mud splatters me. Sobbing harder, I gasp for breath. I want happiness. I need happiness. I stand to leave, pretending that this is the end of my grief, but I turn and stop. My path is blocked by John Doggett. I open my mouth to question him. Exactly what is he doing here? But I find myself overwhelmed by tears again, and I collapse into his arms. Sobbing into his chest, his arms holding me close, I feel peace wash over me. He soothes me softly, stroking my hair. He's here for me, I realize. He's here for me to hold, he's tangible. I know he cares for me; he has practically since we met, and this is the first time I've let him know that I care too. I've stopped crying now, and I know I'm not pretending anymore. I *am* ready to move on. I lean back enough to look into john's eyes. His glacial gaze shows nothing but compassion, and I smile slightly. "Let's go home," I whisper and he leads me back to my car. He'll follow me the entire way then meet me at my apartment. I open the car door and pause to watch John get into his truck. I guess I'm not as alone as I thought I was. I have John, I've always had him. I just never realized it.no, I knew it, I never allowed it. And despite the current state my beloved partner is in, I have him. I always will. Always there for eternity. A faint smile reaches my lips. Always my strength, my weakness, and my love.
Always my immortal.
-end
"You used to captivate me/By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind/Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams/Your voice it chased away/All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal/This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though your still with me/I've been alone all along"
Evanescence "My Immortal"
I can't count how many times I've come here. This too familiar place haunts me, and I know I can't help it. I sink to the ground in the same fashion, weeping atop his cold resting place as I grip the cold, wet grass. The tears flow endlessly; I can't accept he's gone. Seven years together. Seven. And then gone. The tears drip down my face as I grip the grass harder, dirt collecting under my usually clean nails. I'm alone as ever now. Alone like I have been all along. Alone and scared. Scared for my child's life, for my life. It's not fair. I punch the ground and mud splatters me. Sobbing harder, I gasp for breath. I want happiness. I need happiness. I stand to leave, pretending that this is the end of my grief, but I turn and stop. My path is blocked by John Doggett. I open my mouth to question him. Exactly what is he doing here? But I find myself overwhelmed by tears again, and I collapse into his arms. Sobbing into his chest, his arms holding me close, I feel peace wash over me. He soothes me softly, stroking my hair. He's here for me, I realize. He's here for me to hold, he's tangible. I know he cares for me; he has practically since we met, and this is the first time I've let him know that I care too. I've stopped crying now, and I know I'm not pretending anymore. I *am* ready to move on. I lean back enough to look into john's eyes. His glacial gaze shows nothing but compassion, and I smile slightly. "Let's go home," I whisper and he leads me back to my car. He'll follow me the entire way then meet me at my apartment. I open the car door and pause to watch John get into his truck. I guess I'm not as alone as I thought I was. I have John, I've always had him. I just never realized it.no, I knew it, I never allowed it. And despite the current state my beloved partner is in, I have him. I always will. Always there for eternity. A faint smile reaches my lips. Always my strength, my weakness, and my love.
Always my immortal.
-end
"You used to captivate me/By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind/Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams/Your voice it chased away/All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal/This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though your still with me/I've been alone all along"
Evanescence "My Immortal"