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vacation, and I've done a lot of stuff and I mean a lot! Well, here it is,
hope you like it, honestly there's nothing much here, but then, there's
still a very important part of the story written here. There was supposed
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THE SOLUTION TO THE CONFUSION
The next morning was so weird. Everything was so awkward for the two of them. They tried their best to avoid each other. As usual Draco is with Pansy and Hermione's with Viktor. Draco didn't seem too pleased to see them together. She looked happy and she acts as if nothing even happened between them. She didn't even regard their kiss as something to her. And even if he's with Pansy he just couldn't avoid thinking of her. Seeing them walking hand in hand made him sick to his stomach every time.
Hermione was happy with Viktor; he's kind, understanding, and very perfect. He was the guy she had always dreamed of. At least she thought he was. She had always dreamed of having a guy like this, like Viktor to love him. She had always wanted this but now, she realized, she was wrong. This is not what she wanted. The faithful event in the storage room changed it all. She might not show it, but the kiss hadn't left her mind since. It was almost driving her crazy. She loves Draco, but that love is not true. It's not right. And she believes that if she just gives her best to throw Draco out of her mind and heart everything will be back to normal, back to where she was supposed to be.
Draco was studying in the Slytherin common room with Pansy.
"Draco do you want to go for a walk? This is too much! Let's have a short break." asked Pansy.
Draco didn't look at her "No Pansy I can't, I have to finish this, now be quiet!"
Pansy rolled her eyes and filed her nails. Jadey Wamber and Miranda Neilborns came to the common room with packages on their hands.
"Pansy look! We got our new dress robes." Shouted Miranda.
"Yeah! Look! Isn't this amazing? Crystal-glazed dress! My mother bought it for 90 galleons" Jadey giggled.
Pansy's eyes widened upon seeing the dress. "Wow! That's so beautiful!" The girls chatted and giggled.
Draco how ever was getting fed up with all the noise. He tried to read but he just can understand anything with all the screaming and giggling the girls are doing.
"Damn! I'm going!"
He stood up and stormed out of the common room to the library.
"I just hate those girls, they just can't shut their freaking mouths!" he muttered as he was walking pass the library door.
He saw that there were a lot of people studying themselves. The library was almost full; luckily he saw a vacant table in the left side corner of the room, the last vacant table in the library. He sat down, opened up his book and started to read.
He barely finished a paragraph when a voice called on his attention. "Hey! Malfoy, do you mind if we seat here? The other seats are full."
Draco looked up and saw the last two people he ever wanted to see at that very moment. Viktor Krum stood in front of him and at his back was Hermione not even looking at his direction. Though Hermione wasn't even looking at him, he can see the very awkward expression on her face, looking like she'd rather be anywhere but in here with him. Draco didn't want to share with them, he thought of blurting out "get lost you moronic idiots!" but decided to just shrug and let them share the table.
He flashed them a furious look and went to his book again. Hermione looked awfully uncomfortable but tried her best to focus on Viktor alone. From the time the two sat on the table Draco, hadn't concentrated on the book he was reading. He was merely distracted by Hermione's presence and how close she and Krum are to each other. At first it was still bearable because the two hardly talked to each other. One by one the students dispersed until they were the only ones left.
After a few minutes, Hermione Finally spoke. "Hey, Viktor! I don't get this; can you please explain it to me?" Viktor set his lesson plan aside and turned to Hermione. After explaining, he resumed back to his lesson plan.
Hermione noticed the way he's writing. "I didn't know you were left handed?" She said raising her eyebrow.
Viktor turned to her "you didn't?"
"Nope! That must be really weird. That's kinda awkward. I mean I haven't tried writing in my left hand"
"It's not awkward, it's just the same, Here, I'll teach you"
Viktor leaned closer to Hermione, placed his arms around her shoulders and held her left hand.
Draco was even more distracted by what the two as doing. What he was seeing made him feel a lurch in his stomach. He tried his best to ignore them, but he can't avoid glancing at her. She was smiling so wide giggling with her hair tossing on her shoulders.
Hermione, although thoroughly understanding what Viktor was teaching her was secretly glancing at Draco. He saw him there sitting so still, reading his book not even looking bothered by their little sweet writing-on-left- hand lesson. She wondered what he was thinking now, after all that had happened with the two of them. She didn't want to make too much expression or anything that can make everything on her mind readable, she didn't want to look so obviously affected by their kiss. She didn't know why she was enjoying her lesson with Viktor more when Draco is around to watch it. It had crossed her mind that maybe she likes to make him jealous, but shook the thought of. It was weird, she planted in her mind that she didn't want anything to do with him anymore.
Draco just can't concentrate, clandestinely, he watched as Viktor's hands touched hers. He could see how close he is to her and how she was happy with him. He couldn't take it anymore. He was so fed up of seeing them together like this. He just can't focus on anything anymore. So, He stood up rather noisily, took his book and stormed out of the library feeling awfully pissed. Viktor and Hermione looked after him; Hermione bit her lip, thinking if they're the reason why he ran off. She wondered if he was jealous of Viktor without even knowing why that idea hit her mind. She rubbed her eyes and shook off the thought and continued on with what Viktor was teaching her.
Somehow, for some strange reason, after Draco left, the room and their lesson doesn't feel that inviting and motivating anymore.
It was one week before the dance and Hermione was all prepared. She was happy because Krum was there, he was always there. That's why she had planted on her mind that he should be the one she'll love. She was still confused with all of the things that had happened. Her mind was still spinning from everything that she had experience for the past weeks. It felt like she was hurled up in a whirlwind. She didn't know what to think anymore. She knew the right thing would be to be with Viktor but she can't get Draco out of her mind, his thoughts were hunting her, even on her sleep she dreams about their passionate kiss, it was driving her mad. Even though, she still resisted and denied the fact that she was not fine, and her mind was not made up, but shattered with all the confusion tugging on it like war waging on every strand of her brain, but this time, it wasn't only her mind who's screaming in agony, but her heart too! It was in so much pain, but because it was so suppressed it felt as though it would explode. Her mind was racing as she utter these words firmly.
"I can't feel this way, I mean. It can't be!"
Her thoughts were filled with unanswered questions and doubtful things. She can't feel this way, she knew she loves him, but she must not nurture it, not continue it and forget about it! How can she love the most unlovable person she had ever known? How can she love someone so cruel, someone who made her cry almost a hundred times? How can she love someone who'll never love her back? For the first time in her life she knew how it felt to be in love and for the first in her life too that she realized how painful it is to love someone who can't love you back, some she thought doesn't know how to love, someone like Draco Malfoy.
She felt like bursting into tears, she was a very though girl, but ever since this thing with Draco started and she started feeling all these things for him, she had been so vulnerable and so touchy. She felt like all the energy was drained from her body. It was tiring, she just felt like breaking down. But she gained control of herself and gained her composure; she took a deep breath and sighed to herself.
"It's stupidity I know, Hermione, stop this, you can't get through this, don't be so limp, and so helpless you are more than that. I need to stop this, I just don't know how."
She was carefully placing the last of her newly washed dress robes in her trunk, when Ginny entered the twenty second, Seventh years' girls Dormitory where Hermione and the others are sleeping.
"Hey! What are you doing? I just finished all my home works!"
Hermione tried her best not to let Ginny notice her reddened face and smiled at her weakly. "Me too! I just finished them last night. I'm fixing my dress robes, and getting ready for the dance." She explained
Ginny smiled ate her. "Well, that's good! At least for once you worry about something that's not academically related. Right?"
They both laughed although Hermione's was still faltering. Ginny asked Hermione if they want to go for a walk, Hermione gladly agreed, she thought a walk might be a great way to help her relax her mind and stop thinking about Draco for once, or even for a moment, and just clear her mind of all the problems that had been invading it and plaguing her thoughts like heaven just met a deadly end. Hermione changed for a while and they went out of the common room together.
While walking in the quiet corridors of Hogwarts, Hermione suddenly asked Ginny something that she didn't mean to ask nor she had any intention of ever asking her at all,
"Ginny, how do you know if you really love a person? I mean, when did you decide that Harry was really the one and that you really loved him?"
Ginny widened her eyes at her and answered. "Well, there are a lot of things, there's the way he looks at me that really really melted my heart every time, there's what I feel when we're together, there were never a time that I didn't feel nervous around him, well, I can say that not actually nervousness but excitement too. But there's this one thing that I is really proven for knowing if you really love the person. This thing that would make you feel if you truly love someone.
"And what's that?" Hermione asked rather hastily.
"Try kissing him!!" Ginny smiled
"Wha-kiss him?" Hermione choked.
"Yeah! Kiss him, when you kiss him and you felt this great tingling sensation and you felt like there're fireworks all over you, you'll know you really love him. I dunno. But that works for me! I mean, it was the most wonderful feeling ever!"
Hermione bit her lower lip, she wasn't sure if she should believe Ginny. She tried to shrug off the thought and changed the topic as to avoid Ginny from asking too many questions.
"So, how's you day?"
Ginny started telling her about her day, and about Collin who slept in their history of Magic class and was snoring loudly. Hermione was laughing hard because of Ginny's funny way of impersonating him making hilarious snoring sounds, and for a moment, she had forgotten about Malfoy. Then when they tuned into a corner, Viktor saw them, he was with Harry and Ron.
"Hey! You're here!" said Viktor then gave her a soft peck on the cheek.
Harry on the other hand placed his arms around Ginny.
"Ehem, if you'll excuse us, I'm going to show my honey, something!"
"Where are we going Harry?" Ginny asked, but Harry just gave her a maliciously weird smile and stirred her away from the three.
Ron stayed with Krum and Hermione. They stayed in the Defense against the Dark Arts classroom and they talked about so many stuff. Hermione's mind was on Ron's funny stories but subconsciously her mind still was thinking about what she's got to do to put an end to all her woes. She kept on thinking if she really does love Krum. It was weird, she felt guilty for doubting her feelings for him. She really does like him, but something inside her isn't sure of what she really feels. Then, Ginny's Idea came back in her mind. It struck her like lighting that she twitched a little. Luckily, the two guys didn't notice it. Her heart was racing, maybe Ginny was right, maybe it was the kiss, when she kissed Draco she felt sensations she had never felt before in her entire life, Fire broke out of her, the fire that only he could conjure. She thought if she could kiss Viktor, She would know.
"Maybe," she thought "When I kiss Viktor, it'll feel the same, or it'll feel much much more intense."
After a few moments, her trail of thought was broken by a knock on the door. Cho poked her head in.
"Is Ron there? Oh! There you are! I've been looking all over for you. I thought you'll meet me at the Great Hall" she said as she entered the room.
Ron Gasped and banged his hands on his temple. "Oh! Damn! Sorry sweetie I forgot! I was just telling them how we got together! Remember when we were in Three Broomsticks, and out of nowhere you just blurted out the word. That was so funny and memorable too! I remembered how I almost chocked and I accidentally spat butterbeer on Rosmerta's newly polished silvers, did you remember the look on her face when she saw it?"
Cho raised her eyebrows smiling "I can't believe you're telling them about this!" then she turned to Viktor and Hermione "And I can't believe you're listening to this!"
Cho lowered her eyebrow and laughed while shaking her head with disbelief "I really can't believe you three, anyway, so are you coming or not?" She turned to Ron.
"oh-yes, of course!" he said as he stood up hastily and said goodbye to the two of them.
"He's a really funny guy!" Krum said as Ron and Cho left the room.
"Yeah!" Hermione said "He's lucky because Cho really loves her and having a girl like Cho is a true Gem!"
Viktor suddenly held her on the chin and slowly lifted it for their eyes to meet.
"Yes, He might be really lucky for having Cho, but not as lucky as me for having you!" he whispered.
Hermione knew it was time, this was it, and she'll have to know. She just has to know, if she's really taking the right path. She'll do it. She will kiss Viktor Krum today even if she's not the type of girl who gets aggressive on someone. She will kiss him and free her self of all these confusion surrounding her!
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THE SOLUTION TO THE CONFUSION
The next morning was so weird. Everything was so awkward for the two of them. They tried their best to avoid each other. As usual Draco is with Pansy and Hermione's with Viktor. Draco didn't seem too pleased to see them together. She looked happy and she acts as if nothing even happened between them. She didn't even regard their kiss as something to her. And even if he's with Pansy he just couldn't avoid thinking of her. Seeing them walking hand in hand made him sick to his stomach every time.
Hermione was happy with Viktor; he's kind, understanding, and very perfect. He was the guy she had always dreamed of. At least she thought he was. She had always dreamed of having a guy like this, like Viktor to love him. She had always wanted this but now, she realized, she was wrong. This is not what she wanted. The faithful event in the storage room changed it all. She might not show it, but the kiss hadn't left her mind since. It was almost driving her crazy. She loves Draco, but that love is not true. It's not right. And she believes that if she just gives her best to throw Draco out of her mind and heart everything will be back to normal, back to where she was supposed to be.
Draco was studying in the Slytherin common room with Pansy.
"Draco do you want to go for a walk? This is too much! Let's have a short break." asked Pansy.
Draco didn't look at her "No Pansy I can't, I have to finish this, now be quiet!"
Pansy rolled her eyes and filed her nails. Jadey Wamber and Miranda Neilborns came to the common room with packages on their hands.
"Pansy look! We got our new dress robes." Shouted Miranda.
"Yeah! Look! Isn't this amazing? Crystal-glazed dress! My mother bought it for 90 galleons" Jadey giggled.
Pansy's eyes widened upon seeing the dress. "Wow! That's so beautiful!" The girls chatted and giggled.
Draco how ever was getting fed up with all the noise. He tried to read but he just can understand anything with all the screaming and giggling the girls are doing.
"Damn! I'm going!"
He stood up and stormed out of the common room to the library.
"I just hate those girls, they just can't shut their freaking mouths!" he muttered as he was walking pass the library door.
He saw that there were a lot of people studying themselves. The library was almost full; luckily he saw a vacant table in the left side corner of the room, the last vacant table in the library. He sat down, opened up his book and started to read.
He barely finished a paragraph when a voice called on his attention. "Hey! Malfoy, do you mind if we seat here? The other seats are full."
Draco looked up and saw the last two people he ever wanted to see at that very moment. Viktor Krum stood in front of him and at his back was Hermione not even looking at his direction. Though Hermione wasn't even looking at him, he can see the very awkward expression on her face, looking like she'd rather be anywhere but in here with him. Draco didn't want to share with them, he thought of blurting out "get lost you moronic idiots!" but decided to just shrug and let them share the table.
He flashed them a furious look and went to his book again. Hermione looked awfully uncomfortable but tried her best to focus on Viktor alone. From the time the two sat on the table Draco, hadn't concentrated on the book he was reading. He was merely distracted by Hermione's presence and how close she and Krum are to each other. At first it was still bearable because the two hardly talked to each other. One by one the students dispersed until they were the only ones left.
After a few minutes, Hermione Finally spoke. "Hey, Viktor! I don't get this; can you please explain it to me?" Viktor set his lesson plan aside and turned to Hermione. After explaining, he resumed back to his lesson plan.
Hermione noticed the way he's writing. "I didn't know you were left handed?" She said raising her eyebrow.
Viktor turned to her "you didn't?"
"Nope! That must be really weird. That's kinda awkward. I mean I haven't tried writing in my left hand"
"It's not awkward, it's just the same, Here, I'll teach you"
Viktor leaned closer to Hermione, placed his arms around her shoulders and held her left hand.
Draco was even more distracted by what the two as doing. What he was seeing made him feel a lurch in his stomach. He tried his best to ignore them, but he can't avoid glancing at her. She was smiling so wide giggling with her hair tossing on her shoulders.
Hermione, although thoroughly understanding what Viktor was teaching her was secretly glancing at Draco. He saw him there sitting so still, reading his book not even looking bothered by their little sweet writing-on-left- hand lesson. She wondered what he was thinking now, after all that had happened with the two of them. She didn't want to make too much expression or anything that can make everything on her mind readable, she didn't want to look so obviously affected by their kiss. She didn't know why she was enjoying her lesson with Viktor more when Draco is around to watch it. It had crossed her mind that maybe she likes to make him jealous, but shook the thought of. It was weird, she planted in her mind that she didn't want anything to do with him anymore.
Draco just can't concentrate, clandestinely, he watched as Viktor's hands touched hers. He could see how close he is to her and how she was happy with him. He couldn't take it anymore. He was so fed up of seeing them together like this. He just can't focus on anything anymore. So, He stood up rather noisily, took his book and stormed out of the library feeling awfully pissed. Viktor and Hermione looked after him; Hermione bit her lip, thinking if they're the reason why he ran off. She wondered if he was jealous of Viktor without even knowing why that idea hit her mind. She rubbed her eyes and shook off the thought and continued on with what Viktor was teaching her.
Somehow, for some strange reason, after Draco left, the room and their lesson doesn't feel that inviting and motivating anymore.
It was one week before the dance and Hermione was all prepared. She was happy because Krum was there, he was always there. That's why she had planted on her mind that he should be the one she'll love. She was still confused with all of the things that had happened. Her mind was still spinning from everything that she had experience for the past weeks. It felt like she was hurled up in a whirlwind. She didn't know what to think anymore. She knew the right thing would be to be with Viktor but she can't get Draco out of her mind, his thoughts were hunting her, even on her sleep she dreams about their passionate kiss, it was driving her mad. Even though, she still resisted and denied the fact that she was not fine, and her mind was not made up, but shattered with all the confusion tugging on it like war waging on every strand of her brain, but this time, it wasn't only her mind who's screaming in agony, but her heart too! It was in so much pain, but because it was so suppressed it felt as though it would explode. Her mind was racing as she utter these words firmly.
"I can't feel this way, I mean. It can't be!"
Her thoughts were filled with unanswered questions and doubtful things. She can't feel this way, she knew she loves him, but she must not nurture it, not continue it and forget about it! How can she love the most unlovable person she had ever known? How can she love someone so cruel, someone who made her cry almost a hundred times? How can she love someone who'll never love her back? For the first time in her life she knew how it felt to be in love and for the first in her life too that she realized how painful it is to love someone who can't love you back, some she thought doesn't know how to love, someone like Draco Malfoy.
She felt like bursting into tears, she was a very though girl, but ever since this thing with Draco started and she started feeling all these things for him, she had been so vulnerable and so touchy. She felt like all the energy was drained from her body. It was tiring, she just felt like breaking down. But she gained control of herself and gained her composure; she took a deep breath and sighed to herself.
"It's stupidity I know, Hermione, stop this, you can't get through this, don't be so limp, and so helpless you are more than that. I need to stop this, I just don't know how."
She was carefully placing the last of her newly washed dress robes in her trunk, when Ginny entered the twenty second, Seventh years' girls Dormitory where Hermione and the others are sleeping.
"Hey! What are you doing? I just finished all my home works!"
Hermione tried her best not to let Ginny notice her reddened face and smiled at her weakly. "Me too! I just finished them last night. I'm fixing my dress robes, and getting ready for the dance." She explained
Ginny smiled ate her. "Well, that's good! At least for once you worry about something that's not academically related. Right?"
They both laughed although Hermione's was still faltering. Ginny asked Hermione if they want to go for a walk, Hermione gladly agreed, she thought a walk might be a great way to help her relax her mind and stop thinking about Draco for once, or even for a moment, and just clear her mind of all the problems that had been invading it and plaguing her thoughts like heaven just met a deadly end. Hermione changed for a while and they went out of the common room together.
While walking in the quiet corridors of Hogwarts, Hermione suddenly asked Ginny something that she didn't mean to ask nor she had any intention of ever asking her at all,
"Ginny, how do you know if you really love a person? I mean, when did you decide that Harry was really the one and that you really loved him?"
Ginny widened her eyes at her and answered. "Well, there are a lot of things, there's the way he looks at me that really really melted my heart every time, there's what I feel when we're together, there were never a time that I didn't feel nervous around him, well, I can say that not actually nervousness but excitement too. But there's this one thing that I is really proven for knowing if you really love the person. This thing that would make you feel if you truly love someone.
"And what's that?" Hermione asked rather hastily.
"Try kissing him!!" Ginny smiled
"Wha-kiss him?" Hermione choked.
"Yeah! Kiss him, when you kiss him and you felt this great tingling sensation and you felt like there're fireworks all over you, you'll know you really love him. I dunno. But that works for me! I mean, it was the most wonderful feeling ever!"
Hermione bit her lower lip, she wasn't sure if she should believe Ginny. She tried to shrug off the thought and changed the topic as to avoid Ginny from asking too many questions.
"So, how's you day?"
Ginny started telling her about her day, and about Collin who slept in their history of Magic class and was snoring loudly. Hermione was laughing hard because of Ginny's funny way of impersonating him making hilarious snoring sounds, and for a moment, she had forgotten about Malfoy. Then when they tuned into a corner, Viktor saw them, he was with Harry and Ron.
"Hey! You're here!" said Viktor then gave her a soft peck on the cheek.
Harry on the other hand placed his arms around Ginny.
"Ehem, if you'll excuse us, I'm going to show my honey, something!"
"Where are we going Harry?" Ginny asked, but Harry just gave her a maliciously weird smile and stirred her away from the three.
Ron stayed with Krum and Hermione. They stayed in the Defense against the Dark Arts classroom and they talked about so many stuff. Hermione's mind was on Ron's funny stories but subconsciously her mind still was thinking about what she's got to do to put an end to all her woes. She kept on thinking if she really does love Krum. It was weird, she felt guilty for doubting her feelings for him. She really does like him, but something inside her isn't sure of what she really feels. Then, Ginny's Idea came back in her mind. It struck her like lighting that she twitched a little. Luckily, the two guys didn't notice it. Her heart was racing, maybe Ginny was right, maybe it was the kiss, when she kissed Draco she felt sensations she had never felt before in her entire life, Fire broke out of her, the fire that only he could conjure. She thought if she could kiss Viktor, She would know.
"Maybe," she thought "When I kiss Viktor, it'll feel the same, or it'll feel much much more intense."
After a few moments, her trail of thought was broken by a knock on the door. Cho poked her head in.
"Is Ron there? Oh! There you are! I've been looking all over for you. I thought you'll meet me at the Great Hall" she said as she entered the room.
Ron Gasped and banged his hands on his temple. "Oh! Damn! Sorry sweetie I forgot! I was just telling them how we got together! Remember when we were in Three Broomsticks, and out of nowhere you just blurted out the word. That was so funny and memorable too! I remembered how I almost chocked and I accidentally spat butterbeer on Rosmerta's newly polished silvers, did you remember the look on her face when she saw it?"
Cho raised her eyebrows smiling "I can't believe you're telling them about this!" then she turned to Viktor and Hermione "And I can't believe you're listening to this!"
Cho lowered her eyebrow and laughed while shaking her head with disbelief "I really can't believe you three, anyway, so are you coming or not?" She turned to Ron.
"oh-yes, of course!" he said as he stood up hastily and said goodbye to the two of them.
"He's a really funny guy!" Krum said as Ron and Cho left the room.
"Yeah!" Hermione said "He's lucky because Cho really loves her and having a girl like Cho is a true Gem!"
Viktor suddenly held her on the chin and slowly lifted it for their eyes to meet.
"Yes, He might be really lucky for having Cho, but not as lucky as me for having you!" he whispered.
Hermione knew it was time, this was it, and she'll have to know. She just has to know, if she's really taking the right path. She'll do it. She will kiss Viktor Krum today even if she's not the type of girl who gets aggressive on someone. She will kiss him and free her self of all these confusion surrounding her!
A/N: did you enjoy it? Please tell me what you think. Email me or review my fic!! thanx!