Chapter Nine:
Lupin walked up the stairs slowly towards the room he had been staying in. His side was being to burn with an increadible pain. He pulled himself up the stairs with his right hand on the railing, and his left cluching his side. All this stress had finally broken threw his barrier. He had finally told Harry the truth. The Truth that he was his true father, the truth that he had betrayed James so willingly.
Suddenly the pain shot through his whole body and he collaped to his knees, still holding the railing. The pain was really starting to get to him, the whole room was getting cold. Molly had been right. He had done to much when he had just awoke from being out cold for almost three weeks.
Breathing heavily he pulled himself up again, only to find himself wanting to collapse again. He would have hit the stairs again if Harry hadn't caught him. He looked at the boy that was holding him up.
"Harry I.."
Harry shook his head. "Let's get you to your room."
Lupin didn't say anything, he just alowd Harry to help him walk. They got to the room and Harry pushed the door open with his feet, and the two entered. Once Lupin was sitting down on the bed Harry began to speak.
"Is it true?" he asked
Lupin looked at him saddly. "Yes. your mother was going to tell you when you were older but then...Voldermort."
Harry watched as Lupin began to shake. There were tears cascading down his pale face.
"I could have stopped it Harry," He whispered, "I should have been there to stop it."
Harry didn't know what to say. The whole thing had come as a shock to him. He had just found out that his real father was Remus Lupin and not James Potter, and now his 'father' was crying over not being able to stop his mothers death.
"There wasn't anything you could have done." Harry said
"I could have stopped the whole ordeal Harry, if I hadn't kissed your mother."
"But then I wouldn't be here."
"No, i supose you wouldn't but then Sirius wouldn't have betrayed your father."
******
Lily looked up happily at James. He was smiling at her with great admiration. Harry had just said his first words at the anniversary party. Harry was grinning from his fathers lap, as Albus Dumbledore laughed.
Peter was sitting beside Lily sipping at his pop nerviously. Sirius was standing in the corner with Remus.
"I thought you were'nt coming?" he said.
"I decided I should put all things aside and wish them a happy anniversary." Lupin replied.
"Well your son is just like you." Sirius laughed.
Lupins expression clowded. "Please don't say that. He's really not mine. James is his father now."
"Stop putting yourself down." Sirius said, hitting him in the arm.
"Harry shouldn't even exsist."
"Shut up. Of course he's supose to exsist. One of these days your going to realise that he was created for a reason Remus."
Lupin looked up at Sirius. "Thanks. Maybe I just wish everything would work out my way."
"Cheer up Moony," Sirius grinned hitting him on the back. "This is a party."
Just then there were cheers from everyone as James walked onto the small stage in the center of the room.
"First of all I want to thank you all for coming." James said beaming.
"Take it off!" Sirius cried.
James laughed and continued. "Next I would like to say infront of you all, how much this means to us, that you took the time to put this whole thing together."
Sirius raised his glass to James, like everyone else in the room.
"I would also like to take this oppritunity to ask Sirius Black, my best friend, to be our Secret Keeper."
Sirius spit out his wine, and looked up at James and Lily. The two were smiling bak at him eagerly.
Sirius nodded to them. "Yeah, sure."
"I would also like to say that my love for Lily will always be strong no matter what." James turned towards Lily and kissed her on the cheek.
Lily blushed and followed her husband off of the stage. James talked to a few more people and then made his way towards Sirius and Remus. When he got there he was grinning like an idiot.
"You mean it?" he asked, with the look of relefe on his face.
Sirius nodded.
"That's great." James said, hugging Sirius. He was about to say something else when he noticed Remus standing there.
"What are you doing here." he asked, his expression of happyness dissapeared into hatred.
"I just wanted to wish you two an happy anniverasary." he said.
"Thanks," James said bitterly. "but i think you should just leave." Remus had almost thought James had forgiven him, but there was no such luck.
"Look, i told you I was sorry James." Remus said.
"I think you should go now!" James spat starting to walk away from him.
"Even if you don't concider me a friend anymore James, Your still my friend!" Remus cried through the crowds.
James stopped and so did the music. "Just go." he hissed.
Remus didn't say anything more, he just walked out of the hall and towards the street alone and with nothing left.
******
"How could Sirius betray my father when your my father."
Lupin looked at the seventeen year old boy who he was talking to. "James, he betrayed James for me."
"You mean as a Secret Keeper?"
Remus nodded. "He told James that he couldn't be their Secret Keeper because he wouldn't decided between his two friends. He told James that Peter could do it and Peter betrayed them. He choose to be my friend through everything, and now he's dead."
Shaking more Lupin looked up at the roof. "I just thought it would be easier never to tell you the truth, and think your father was a great man, not a man that hid from the truth."
"How can you say any of that."
"I can because it's the truth Harry, if none of this had happened, Peter wouldn't have been able to betray them. Sirius wouldn't have been in Azkaban like he was, and James and I would still be friends."
Harry looked at his feet. "You say it like I'm a problem."
"No Harry, you were never the problem. I always wanted to tell you. Everytime you grew and learned something I was so happy for you. I loved you without a doubt."
"Then why did I have to live with the Dursleys! Why couldn't I live with you and be your son!" Harry shouted at him.
"No one knew Harry. I swore to Lily that I wouldn't tell anyone. So no one ever found out about us until now."
"You let me be raised by them," Harry said saddly. "That hurts, you were protecting a promise that died when my mother died."
Lupin looked at his son in shock.
"So why was it any different that your telling me now?" Harry spat.
"Your right. Harry you don't have to be willing to accept it, but now that you know I'm willing to start."
"I'm just glad I can have the chance to at least experience it. Ron told me what it was like one time, and I just wished that I would have been able to as well."
"Then your going to let me..be your father?"
Harry thought about it for a moment. "I supose it does."
Lupin smiled at him. "I'll try my hardest for you."
Harry looked up at him. "Does that mean that I no longer have to live with the Dursleys?" he asked excited.
Lupin smiled. "Never again."
Harry grinned but it soon fadded. "I just wish that I could hurt them for what they've put me through all these years."
"Maybe we will," Lupin said grinning. "Why don' t you and I pay them a visit?"
Harry looked up at him. "That would be perfect."
Lupin walked up the stairs slowly towards the room he had been staying in. His side was being to burn with an increadible pain. He pulled himself up the stairs with his right hand on the railing, and his left cluching his side. All this stress had finally broken threw his barrier. He had finally told Harry the truth. The Truth that he was his true father, the truth that he had betrayed James so willingly.
Suddenly the pain shot through his whole body and he collaped to his knees, still holding the railing. The pain was really starting to get to him, the whole room was getting cold. Molly had been right. He had done to much when he had just awoke from being out cold for almost three weeks.
Breathing heavily he pulled himself up again, only to find himself wanting to collapse again. He would have hit the stairs again if Harry hadn't caught him. He looked at the boy that was holding him up.
"Harry I.."
Harry shook his head. "Let's get you to your room."
Lupin didn't say anything, he just alowd Harry to help him walk. They got to the room and Harry pushed the door open with his feet, and the two entered. Once Lupin was sitting down on the bed Harry began to speak.
"Is it true?" he asked
Lupin looked at him saddly. "Yes. your mother was going to tell you when you were older but then...Voldermort."
Harry watched as Lupin began to shake. There were tears cascading down his pale face.
"I could have stopped it Harry," He whispered, "I should have been there to stop it."
Harry didn't know what to say. The whole thing had come as a shock to him. He had just found out that his real father was Remus Lupin and not James Potter, and now his 'father' was crying over not being able to stop his mothers death.
"There wasn't anything you could have done." Harry said
"I could have stopped the whole ordeal Harry, if I hadn't kissed your mother."
"But then I wouldn't be here."
"No, i supose you wouldn't but then Sirius wouldn't have betrayed your father."
******
Lily looked up happily at James. He was smiling at her with great admiration. Harry had just said his first words at the anniversary party. Harry was grinning from his fathers lap, as Albus Dumbledore laughed.
Peter was sitting beside Lily sipping at his pop nerviously. Sirius was standing in the corner with Remus.
"I thought you were'nt coming?" he said.
"I decided I should put all things aside and wish them a happy anniversary." Lupin replied.
"Well your son is just like you." Sirius laughed.
Lupins expression clowded. "Please don't say that. He's really not mine. James is his father now."
"Stop putting yourself down." Sirius said, hitting him in the arm.
"Harry shouldn't even exsist."
"Shut up. Of course he's supose to exsist. One of these days your going to realise that he was created for a reason Remus."
Lupin looked up at Sirius. "Thanks. Maybe I just wish everything would work out my way."
"Cheer up Moony," Sirius grinned hitting him on the back. "This is a party."
Just then there were cheers from everyone as James walked onto the small stage in the center of the room.
"First of all I want to thank you all for coming." James said beaming.
"Take it off!" Sirius cried.
James laughed and continued. "Next I would like to say infront of you all, how much this means to us, that you took the time to put this whole thing together."
Sirius raised his glass to James, like everyone else in the room.
"I would also like to take this oppritunity to ask Sirius Black, my best friend, to be our Secret Keeper."
Sirius spit out his wine, and looked up at James and Lily. The two were smiling bak at him eagerly.
Sirius nodded to them. "Yeah, sure."
"I would also like to say that my love for Lily will always be strong no matter what." James turned towards Lily and kissed her on the cheek.
Lily blushed and followed her husband off of the stage. James talked to a few more people and then made his way towards Sirius and Remus. When he got there he was grinning like an idiot.
"You mean it?" he asked, with the look of relefe on his face.
Sirius nodded.
"That's great." James said, hugging Sirius. He was about to say something else when he noticed Remus standing there.
"What are you doing here." he asked, his expression of happyness dissapeared into hatred.
"I just wanted to wish you two an happy anniverasary." he said.
"Thanks," James said bitterly. "but i think you should just leave." Remus had almost thought James had forgiven him, but there was no such luck.
"Look, i told you I was sorry James." Remus said.
"I think you should go now!" James spat starting to walk away from him.
"Even if you don't concider me a friend anymore James, Your still my friend!" Remus cried through the crowds.
James stopped and so did the music. "Just go." he hissed.
Remus didn't say anything more, he just walked out of the hall and towards the street alone and with nothing left.
******
"How could Sirius betray my father when your my father."
Lupin looked at the seventeen year old boy who he was talking to. "James, he betrayed James for me."
"You mean as a Secret Keeper?"
Remus nodded. "He told James that he couldn't be their Secret Keeper because he wouldn't decided between his two friends. He told James that Peter could do it and Peter betrayed them. He choose to be my friend through everything, and now he's dead."
Shaking more Lupin looked up at the roof. "I just thought it would be easier never to tell you the truth, and think your father was a great man, not a man that hid from the truth."
"How can you say any of that."
"I can because it's the truth Harry, if none of this had happened, Peter wouldn't have been able to betray them. Sirius wouldn't have been in Azkaban like he was, and James and I would still be friends."
Harry looked at his feet. "You say it like I'm a problem."
"No Harry, you were never the problem. I always wanted to tell you. Everytime you grew and learned something I was so happy for you. I loved you without a doubt."
"Then why did I have to live with the Dursleys! Why couldn't I live with you and be your son!" Harry shouted at him.
"No one knew Harry. I swore to Lily that I wouldn't tell anyone. So no one ever found out about us until now."
"You let me be raised by them," Harry said saddly. "That hurts, you were protecting a promise that died when my mother died."
Lupin looked at his son in shock.
"So why was it any different that your telling me now?" Harry spat.
"Your right. Harry you don't have to be willing to accept it, but now that you know I'm willing to start."
"I'm just glad I can have the chance to at least experience it. Ron told me what it was like one time, and I just wished that I would have been able to as well."
"Then your going to let me..be your father?"
Harry thought about it for a moment. "I supose it does."
Lupin smiled at him. "I'll try my hardest for you."
Harry looked up at him. "Does that mean that I no longer have to live with the Dursleys?" he asked excited.
Lupin smiled. "Never again."
Harry grinned but it soon fadded. "I just wish that I could hurt them for what they've put me through all these years."
"Maybe we will," Lupin said grinning. "Why don' t you and I pay them a visit?"
Harry looked up at him. "That would be perfect."