Chapter three: The talk (part two)
Theresa could not believe what she just heard. Julian asking her to make peace, be friendlier and help him to be a better man! She knows now that he is serious but still, she wasn't sure completely. Who would blame her for that huh?
"Umm....well....Julian. I'm very surprised about your request. It is sure that I want little Ethan to be happy. Forgive me but it is hard for me to believe all you are saying to me. How can I trust you? This is so unbelievable coming from you..."
"I understand that Theresa but do you think you could try?" he was showing a side that Theresa never saw before, desperate like a child. Seeing that it was too much information for her and mostly because it wasn't expected coming from him, Julian adds "I know you must think that is only a sick game or something but it's not. I swear it on my mother's graves. Try to find in you heart that for once in my life I want to do well and I'm not lying about this. You think you could do that Theresa?"
She didn't know what to think about all this but there is one thing she knows, she never thought that Julian would talk to her the way he just did. ~ I wonder....could he really wants to change? ~
After a time for reflection she came to the conclusion that maybe Julian really wants to change and it will surely be a good thing for their son, well for all of them. She is willing to try to believe what Julian told her and letting him to have the chance to show her he can be good. It is very weird though because she doesn't know if he is very truthful.
The next minutes were embarrassing for both of them. Julian was the first to talk, he was nervous and ask again "So do you think we could try to be the best parents for our son and you know be more civilised when we saw each other?"
"It is sure it's totally weird because you know, I never saw you like this.....but yes Julian... I'm willing to try, for our son sake mostly but......because I know how it is to be not believed and everybody can have a chance to change for the better, I believe in that. I told myself that if you want to be good with our son you certainly can be good with others, like me or your family. I want you to know that it will be hard for me to believe you instantly, I have got to get used to this idea and with time we will see where it will bring us. Yes Julian I think I can try, slowly but I will try."
Julian was so happy to hear that! He takes her in his arms "Ah Theresa you make me a happy man today! Thank you!"
Theresa didn't move she was stunned by this. He noticed and step back. "Sorry about this but I was so afraid that you will reject all I have told you, that you will refuse....I'm so happy Theresa!" he had tears of joy in his eyes. He had his hand in his face; he could not believe that finally someone will be on his side, helping him to be better, believing him. ~ Geez I'm so relieved! Thank God she is wiling to try! ~ Julian was really happy, he feels in him and strange emotion, something he barely know. He remember felt something like this when he was with his mother, when he was a young boy. ~ Could I really feel what happiness's like? It feels like what I'm feeling now! ~ Julian taste this moment, he let that feeling sink into him, he loved that.
They didn't talk for a moment.
"Theresa?"
"Yes Julian?"
"I think about this a lot lately and I want you to know."
"What is it?"
"I want to do something for you. I know you lived a lot of things these past two years. With me, with Ethan, Gwen, Ivy and Rebecca....we all make you lived horrible times...... And now, I know you learned that Gwen is pregnant. I know it's difficult for you to know that. You know as much as I know that Ethan will take his responsibilities, we all know that...." after a while he adds "I think you should take some vacations."
She looks at him "Take some vacations??"
"I thought about something. You tell me what you think about that.....I can pay you a trip somewhere. Anywhere you want, chose a place ant it will be settle."
"Huh? Are you trying to buy me Julian?"
He look sad and say "God no but as I have said, I want to start fresh and you know, even if we were in "war" Theresa I saw you everyday, I saw you suffer. You never had a break since thanks to me, Ivy and Rebecca mostly.....we were horrible with you, I can see now, I'm sorry about that."
"Yeah I had horrible times..."
"That's why I want to do something for you. I know it will not repay you but at least you will take a couple of good days without worrying about what made you so miserable for so long. I know a trip doesn't repay anything. We act badly towards you, I know what it is, I did it often and I lived it often too. I lost something precious because of that."
"What Julian? What did you lost?"
Julian took a pause, he didn't know if he could tell Theresa this, one part wanted to and the other part didn't want. He finally says "I want you to keep it for yourself; I really want you to keep it for yourself what I'm going to tell you Theresa. I'm gonna say to you things I kept buried for years, I want it to remain secret please."
She nodded "All right, I can do that."
He took a deep breath and say "Believe it or not... I had a great love. I was fool enough to let it go. I had many women in my bed but this woman was amazing. My father didn't see it that way for some reasons and as you know Alistair, he threatened me and I had to let it go. I regretted it since...I know what I have lost would never be replaced with anything. Father gave me all I want but it never repays what I have lost. By giving you this trip Theresa I know perfectly it will not erase all the pain I have caused you but if I can do anything to at least help you to have a break of all of us, all the pain and misery you lived because of you, I will be more than glad to do it."
Theresa wondered about who was his great love "You really loved a woman Julian? With all of your heart?"
"Yes Theresa, very deeply. She rocks my world when I first saw her. If I could stand up like a man for her I would surely be with her now and be happy....."he said with sadness.
Theresa saw in Julian's eyes the same love she feel for Ethan. She saw all the pain he carried over the years about his lost love. She felt bad for him ~ Poor him, I know what it feels like...~ "Who she is Julian?" she asked.
"I can't tell Theresa. I mean I prefer not to, it is painful to talk about this. I still love her you know, she was my true love and I lost her...I know how you feel Theresa, you lose Ethan, I completely understand you.
He got up, took a ball and gives it to his son. He turns to Theresa again "I want you to rest a little that is why I'm offering you a trip wherever you want. This is not a trick, if you want to bring Ethan-Martin with you, it is ok with me."
She was tempted.
"Look, think about it and let me know." he said.
"It could be a good idea Julian." she thought about all those horrible times "I really need some quiet time that's for sure....and I could bring our son with me and it will not bothers you?"
"Of course not you are his mother."
"How much time you offered me?"
"What I'm proposing to you is maybe you can take a week with Ethan-Martin and after, a week for yourself to do whatever you want. You know, thinking about yourself only as a woman and not a mother. What do you think? The week you will not have little Ethan he will stay with your mother and I will visit him that way you will not be worried. If you need more than two weeks it's fine too, I mean you take the time you need, just let me know. I will make the arrangements. I think it could be a fresh start for you too, what do you think?"
"Well, this is very tempting Julian....."
He knows why she is hesitant and adds "You will not owe me anything Theresa if you are scared of that. I'm saying the truth, trust me Theresa."
She was now very excited "Well a week with our son in Jamaica would be great!" she said with enthusiasm.
"Jamaica huh? You have taste and plus we have a place there near the beach, you will be comfortable."
"Well Julian I think I will accept your proposition. One week with our son and another week for myself." she was now giggling.
Julian was glad to see her that happy "Oh! By the way, I'm thinking of it. There is an event that you surely not want to miss it in Europe. It's a fashion Show in England with great designers. I will make sure you will not miss it!"
Her eyes was wide open"Are you kidding me!!? This is the most important fashion Show of the year in England! I know it, I dream of it for years!!! Thanks Julian!" she was now trying to calm down a little ~ Ok Theresa relax! Just try to breathe and calm down. ~ "A trip would definitely be a thing for me, thanks again."
Julian look seriously Theresa "I know it will not make your pain go away about Ethan but you need to distract yourself, feel yourself again. Who knows what might happen when you will be back on you feet."
"You are right." she said.
"The only thing I'm asking for Theresa is to be honest with me and keeping our little chat between us. You can say it to your mom if you want about what's concerning our son. I doubt she will understand though.....but concerning my lost love I prefer you will not tell anyone as I asked you. I will have to ask you to not telling anything to Alistair, obviously, except that we have an arrangement for the sake of little Ethan nothing more."
She nodded.
He adds "I will make the arrangements for your trip, you will have anything you need don't worry, cell phone, credit cards etc..I ask one favour though."
She looks at him a little worried.
"You will have to get in touch with me everyday while you will be with Ethan-Martin because of Alistair. We will let him believe that I have the "control" you know. The only thing I really want is to be with Ethan-Martin and you the last day of his vacation there before bringing him back to Harmony. I want to have a family vacation day there with you two. "
"I understand it."
"I will bring Pilar and Phyllis with me to not worrying you. Are you comfortable with that Theresa? Is it too much to ask or you are ok with it?" he ask.
"Well, I think it's fair and realisable but I do have to say that having a family day all together will be.....well.....how can I say it...hmm...strange.....It's hard for me to picture it sorry."
"Yeah I know, I understand but you will see, you will not regret it."
"I have one request Julian; I don't want anybody to know about all this especially Ivy and Rebecca."
"Yeah of course and if you want to bring some friends its fine by me, just inform me first, you know, because of Alistair. I don't want him to discover something, neither Ivy nor Rebecca."
"No problem Julian." she started to laugh. He looks at her wondering what was funny.
"What?" he asks.
"I don't know, it's like a secret mission." she laugh again
"Thinking of it haha! It looks like it," he was still laughing and adds "I think we will have a good partnership Theresa. It's weird to say but it's what I feel."
"Yeah, kinda weird huh? Let's call it "The secret of a weird and unusual partnership" haha! SWUP!"
They are both laughing now.
Theresa was more serious now "Thanks Julian. I didn't expected it at all, for a couple of minutes, you were able to make me think about something else than Ethan and believe me, I would never expecting it could be for peace between us." she smiled at him.
"You know Theresa; I didn't expect it would turn this way. Frankly, I was more prepared for the worst but I'm relieved and happy that it turns good. I never hate you but when my robot program is on, it make me said and do mean things sometimes. I'm no excuse, I'm a jerk. I know that but I want to change, be good."
Theresa said with a smile "You will see Julian how good you will feel. Good things will happen to you believe me."
"I want to believe you spirited woman!" Julian was so relieved ~ I'm gonna try hard to be a good man, not continue to be what Alistair want me to be. I will find a way ~
They woke up and join little Ethan. She takes him in her arms, kisses him and gave him to Julian. She was smiling at him "I leave the two of you alone, have a great little time together." She walked away. Julian was touched by her gesture. She turn around and say "Be a good boy with Daddy little Ethan." She look at Julian "I know you will leave for work soon, have a good time with our little man." she smiled again and disappear in the mansion. She wanted them to spend a little time together. She goes in a room where nobody goes; she took a chair and staring at the man with his son by the window. ~ I'm curious to see him with our son. ~ They were playing around. Little Ethan didn't notice that his dad was nervous but Theresa noticed. For the first time of her life, she saw Julian's vulnerability and sensibility. Julian wasn't sure around his son but he was wiling to try anything to have closure with this little man of his. Something he never had with his previous children. Something he never had the chance to share with his own father...
Theresa was really surprised with Julian's decision. She have listened every word he said but still.....this is so unexpected coming from a man like him. ~He must be really hurt by life.....~ She thought about Alistair, cold hearted man. ~What did you do to your children Alistair? ~ She remembered when Julian told her about being a robot, controlled by Alistair. ~ What a shame... ~ She really is surprised by Julian talk, she still has some fear but she is wiling to give him a chance to be a good father for Ethan-Martin. ~ Don't blow it Julian.... ~ she was sincere she really wants him to change for the better.
Julian gives a hug to his son; it was time for him to leave to work. Theresa decided to not tell anyone about this talk, she will let her mom know about the trip but not the rest yet ~ she would not understand.....who will understand the SWUP!? , it is better to keep it secret. ~ She smiled remembering the SWUP thing and leaves the room. &&&
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Theresa was now almost ready to leave now. "Mama I have finished packing. Do you think we could leave in thirty minutes?"
"It will be soon a little Theresa; you will wait too much at the airport."
"Well I want it that way; the sooner I go to the airport, the better."
"Ok mija, we will leave soon as you want."
"Thanks mama, that's what I want, I can't wait to be gone."
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A/N: What do you think far? Please R&R I want to know if you like it or not, what you have to say, thanks!
Theresa could not believe what she just heard. Julian asking her to make peace, be friendlier and help him to be a better man! She knows now that he is serious but still, she wasn't sure completely. Who would blame her for that huh?
"Umm....well....Julian. I'm very surprised about your request. It is sure that I want little Ethan to be happy. Forgive me but it is hard for me to believe all you are saying to me. How can I trust you? This is so unbelievable coming from you..."
"I understand that Theresa but do you think you could try?" he was showing a side that Theresa never saw before, desperate like a child. Seeing that it was too much information for her and mostly because it wasn't expected coming from him, Julian adds "I know you must think that is only a sick game or something but it's not. I swear it on my mother's graves. Try to find in you heart that for once in my life I want to do well and I'm not lying about this. You think you could do that Theresa?"
She didn't know what to think about all this but there is one thing she knows, she never thought that Julian would talk to her the way he just did. ~ I wonder....could he really wants to change? ~
After a time for reflection she came to the conclusion that maybe Julian really wants to change and it will surely be a good thing for their son, well for all of them. She is willing to try to believe what Julian told her and letting him to have the chance to show her he can be good. It is very weird though because she doesn't know if he is very truthful.
The next minutes were embarrassing for both of them. Julian was the first to talk, he was nervous and ask again "So do you think we could try to be the best parents for our son and you know be more civilised when we saw each other?"
"It is sure it's totally weird because you know, I never saw you like this.....but yes Julian... I'm willing to try, for our son sake mostly but......because I know how it is to be not believed and everybody can have a chance to change for the better, I believe in that. I told myself that if you want to be good with our son you certainly can be good with others, like me or your family. I want you to know that it will be hard for me to believe you instantly, I have got to get used to this idea and with time we will see where it will bring us. Yes Julian I think I can try, slowly but I will try."
Julian was so happy to hear that! He takes her in his arms "Ah Theresa you make me a happy man today! Thank you!"
Theresa didn't move she was stunned by this. He noticed and step back. "Sorry about this but I was so afraid that you will reject all I have told you, that you will refuse....I'm so happy Theresa!" he had tears of joy in his eyes. He had his hand in his face; he could not believe that finally someone will be on his side, helping him to be better, believing him. ~ Geez I'm so relieved! Thank God she is wiling to try! ~ Julian was really happy, he feels in him and strange emotion, something he barely know. He remember felt something like this when he was with his mother, when he was a young boy. ~ Could I really feel what happiness's like? It feels like what I'm feeling now! ~ Julian taste this moment, he let that feeling sink into him, he loved that.
They didn't talk for a moment.
"Theresa?"
"Yes Julian?"
"I think about this a lot lately and I want you to know."
"What is it?"
"I want to do something for you. I know you lived a lot of things these past two years. With me, with Ethan, Gwen, Ivy and Rebecca....we all make you lived horrible times...... And now, I know you learned that Gwen is pregnant. I know it's difficult for you to know that. You know as much as I know that Ethan will take his responsibilities, we all know that...." after a while he adds "I think you should take some vacations."
She looks at him "Take some vacations??"
"I thought about something. You tell me what you think about that.....I can pay you a trip somewhere. Anywhere you want, chose a place ant it will be settle."
"Huh? Are you trying to buy me Julian?"
He look sad and say "God no but as I have said, I want to start fresh and you know, even if we were in "war" Theresa I saw you everyday, I saw you suffer. You never had a break since thanks to me, Ivy and Rebecca mostly.....we were horrible with you, I can see now, I'm sorry about that."
"Yeah I had horrible times..."
"That's why I want to do something for you. I know it will not repay you but at least you will take a couple of good days without worrying about what made you so miserable for so long. I know a trip doesn't repay anything. We act badly towards you, I know what it is, I did it often and I lived it often too. I lost something precious because of that."
"What Julian? What did you lost?"
Julian took a pause, he didn't know if he could tell Theresa this, one part wanted to and the other part didn't want. He finally says "I want you to keep it for yourself; I really want you to keep it for yourself what I'm going to tell you Theresa. I'm gonna say to you things I kept buried for years, I want it to remain secret please."
She nodded "All right, I can do that."
He took a deep breath and say "Believe it or not... I had a great love. I was fool enough to let it go. I had many women in my bed but this woman was amazing. My father didn't see it that way for some reasons and as you know Alistair, he threatened me and I had to let it go. I regretted it since...I know what I have lost would never be replaced with anything. Father gave me all I want but it never repays what I have lost. By giving you this trip Theresa I know perfectly it will not erase all the pain I have caused you but if I can do anything to at least help you to have a break of all of us, all the pain and misery you lived because of you, I will be more than glad to do it."
Theresa wondered about who was his great love "You really loved a woman Julian? With all of your heart?"
"Yes Theresa, very deeply. She rocks my world when I first saw her. If I could stand up like a man for her I would surely be with her now and be happy....."he said with sadness.
Theresa saw in Julian's eyes the same love she feel for Ethan. She saw all the pain he carried over the years about his lost love. She felt bad for him ~ Poor him, I know what it feels like...~ "Who she is Julian?" she asked.
"I can't tell Theresa. I mean I prefer not to, it is painful to talk about this. I still love her you know, she was my true love and I lost her...I know how you feel Theresa, you lose Ethan, I completely understand you.
He got up, took a ball and gives it to his son. He turns to Theresa again "I want you to rest a little that is why I'm offering you a trip wherever you want. This is not a trick, if you want to bring Ethan-Martin with you, it is ok with me."
She was tempted.
"Look, think about it and let me know." he said.
"It could be a good idea Julian." she thought about all those horrible times "I really need some quiet time that's for sure....and I could bring our son with me and it will not bothers you?"
"Of course not you are his mother."
"How much time you offered me?"
"What I'm proposing to you is maybe you can take a week with Ethan-Martin and after, a week for yourself to do whatever you want. You know, thinking about yourself only as a woman and not a mother. What do you think? The week you will not have little Ethan he will stay with your mother and I will visit him that way you will not be worried. If you need more than two weeks it's fine too, I mean you take the time you need, just let me know. I will make the arrangements. I think it could be a fresh start for you too, what do you think?"
"Well, this is very tempting Julian....."
He knows why she is hesitant and adds "You will not owe me anything Theresa if you are scared of that. I'm saying the truth, trust me Theresa."
She was now very excited "Well a week with our son in Jamaica would be great!" she said with enthusiasm.
"Jamaica huh? You have taste and plus we have a place there near the beach, you will be comfortable."
"Well Julian I think I will accept your proposition. One week with our son and another week for myself." she was now giggling.
Julian was glad to see her that happy "Oh! By the way, I'm thinking of it. There is an event that you surely not want to miss it in Europe. It's a fashion Show in England with great designers. I will make sure you will not miss it!"
Her eyes was wide open"Are you kidding me!!? This is the most important fashion Show of the year in England! I know it, I dream of it for years!!! Thanks Julian!" she was now trying to calm down a little ~ Ok Theresa relax! Just try to breathe and calm down. ~ "A trip would definitely be a thing for me, thanks again."
Julian look seriously Theresa "I know it will not make your pain go away about Ethan but you need to distract yourself, feel yourself again. Who knows what might happen when you will be back on you feet."
"You are right." she said.
"The only thing I'm asking for Theresa is to be honest with me and keeping our little chat between us. You can say it to your mom if you want about what's concerning our son. I doubt she will understand though.....but concerning my lost love I prefer you will not tell anyone as I asked you. I will have to ask you to not telling anything to Alistair, obviously, except that we have an arrangement for the sake of little Ethan nothing more."
She nodded.
He adds "I will make the arrangements for your trip, you will have anything you need don't worry, cell phone, credit cards etc..I ask one favour though."
She looks at him a little worried.
"You will have to get in touch with me everyday while you will be with Ethan-Martin because of Alistair. We will let him believe that I have the "control" you know. The only thing I really want is to be with Ethan-Martin and you the last day of his vacation there before bringing him back to Harmony. I want to have a family vacation day there with you two. "
"I understand it."
"I will bring Pilar and Phyllis with me to not worrying you. Are you comfortable with that Theresa? Is it too much to ask or you are ok with it?" he ask.
"Well, I think it's fair and realisable but I do have to say that having a family day all together will be.....well.....how can I say it...hmm...strange.....It's hard for me to picture it sorry."
"Yeah I know, I understand but you will see, you will not regret it."
"I have one request Julian; I don't want anybody to know about all this especially Ivy and Rebecca."
"Yeah of course and if you want to bring some friends its fine by me, just inform me first, you know, because of Alistair. I don't want him to discover something, neither Ivy nor Rebecca."
"No problem Julian." she started to laugh. He looks at her wondering what was funny.
"What?" he asks.
"I don't know, it's like a secret mission." she laugh again
"Thinking of it haha! It looks like it," he was still laughing and adds "I think we will have a good partnership Theresa. It's weird to say but it's what I feel."
"Yeah, kinda weird huh? Let's call it "The secret of a weird and unusual partnership" haha! SWUP!"
They are both laughing now.
Theresa was more serious now "Thanks Julian. I didn't expected it at all, for a couple of minutes, you were able to make me think about something else than Ethan and believe me, I would never expecting it could be for peace between us." she smiled at him.
"You know Theresa; I didn't expect it would turn this way. Frankly, I was more prepared for the worst but I'm relieved and happy that it turns good. I never hate you but when my robot program is on, it make me said and do mean things sometimes. I'm no excuse, I'm a jerk. I know that but I want to change, be good."
Theresa said with a smile "You will see Julian how good you will feel. Good things will happen to you believe me."
"I want to believe you spirited woman!" Julian was so relieved ~ I'm gonna try hard to be a good man, not continue to be what Alistair want me to be. I will find a way ~
They woke up and join little Ethan. She takes him in her arms, kisses him and gave him to Julian. She was smiling at him "I leave the two of you alone, have a great little time together." She walked away. Julian was touched by her gesture. She turn around and say "Be a good boy with Daddy little Ethan." She look at Julian "I know you will leave for work soon, have a good time with our little man." she smiled again and disappear in the mansion. She wanted them to spend a little time together. She goes in a room where nobody goes; she took a chair and staring at the man with his son by the window. ~ I'm curious to see him with our son. ~ They were playing around. Little Ethan didn't notice that his dad was nervous but Theresa noticed. For the first time of her life, she saw Julian's vulnerability and sensibility. Julian wasn't sure around his son but he was wiling to try anything to have closure with this little man of his. Something he never had with his previous children. Something he never had the chance to share with his own father...
Theresa was really surprised with Julian's decision. She have listened every word he said but still.....this is so unexpected coming from a man like him. ~He must be really hurt by life.....~ She thought about Alistair, cold hearted man. ~What did you do to your children Alistair? ~ She remembered when Julian told her about being a robot, controlled by Alistair. ~ What a shame... ~ She really is surprised by Julian talk, she still has some fear but she is wiling to give him a chance to be a good father for Ethan-Martin. ~ Don't blow it Julian.... ~ she was sincere she really wants him to change for the better.
Julian gives a hug to his son; it was time for him to leave to work. Theresa decided to not tell anyone about this talk, she will let her mom know about the trip but not the rest yet ~ she would not understand.....who will understand the SWUP!? , it is better to keep it secret. ~ She smiled remembering the SWUP thing and leaves the room. &&&
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Theresa was now almost ready to leave now. "Mama I have finished packing. Do you think we could leave in thirty minutes?"
"It will be soon a little Theresa; you will wait too much at the airport."
"Well I want it that way; the sooner I go to the airport, the better."
"Ok mija, we will leave soon as you want."
"Thanks mama, that's what I want, I can't wait to be gone."
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A/N: What do you think far? Please R&R I want to know if you like it or not, what you have to say, thanks!