Chapter 8 – Heartbreak

Oh well.. Now I will write in Tsukushi's point of view in this chapter!

Tsukasa: Why?! *moans* why are you doing this to me?

Angel: *shrugs* Maybe I will give you Tsukushi later..

Rui: What about me?!

Angel: Not sure.. Does Shizuka sound appealing?

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Tsukushi's P.O.V:

I narrowed my eyes suspiciously, "Who are you?" I watched as a look of shock and disbelief formed itself on it's face, but his eyes.. They showed a sort of deep pain and longing. How I wished I could run to him and hold him in my arms. He was my best friend after all.. I could never really stand to see him suffering. But I hardened my heart. You have to be strong Tsukushi! I told myself harshly. All this was just an act. Did he really think I had forgotten him? I almost laughed at the ridiculous idea. The pain of parting still remained fresh in my mind. He had always been in my heart ever since I left Japan. I always had so much fun with him, his comical behaviours.. he was my best friend. Was I really hurting him too much by pretending I didn't know him? But no.. he was an arrogant idiot.. picking on poor innocent students. Giving red tags.. it was too much. He deserved all of this, I told myself firmly.

Finally I heard a reaction from him, "You stupid woman!" he shouted harshly, his eyes showed pure rage and anger. "I will make sure you never have a good day at Eitoku again! How dare you do this to me!"

Whatever I had been expecting was not this.. but what had I been expecting? For him to grovel and beg for my forgiveness? I smiled to myself at the prospect, that would be really out of character for Tsukasa. He never was the one who begged.. rather the opposite. He was the one in charge.. the one who gave demands.. never the one who listened to others.. except for maybe his sister, Tsubaki. Ahh.. Tsubaki, I had almost forgotten about her. She was like a second sister to me…

"You baka! Have been listening to what I've been saying?!" I heard Tsukasa shout angrily. That brought me with a thud back to reality. But seeing the way he was acting made my own anger flare up. I prided myself in keeping my temper.. but Tsukasa was another story. He always managed to make me angry. And now.. he was doing exactly that. "You idiot Doumyouji! What gives you the right to shout at me like this?"

Suddenly I saw his mood change after my words. The anger flew from his face and again it was replaced by that look of pain and longing. So like a lost little boy.. My anger softened and I had to resist the strong urge to pull him into my arms and tell him that I had not forgotten him.. that he had always been in my thoughts.. But no, that would ruin everything! So I kept a straight face and glared defiantly at him.

"Tsukushi.." he murmured softly.

Argh! That look was killing me.. he always put on that expression to get me to do what he wanted. He knew that arguing and shouting would not move me.. but that look.. I grumbled, trying hard not to give in. He deserved to be punished.. Maybe I would tell him later.. "That name is not for you to call!" I cried loudly – hoping I didn't reveal my true emotions. "Only my good friends call me Tsukushi!" I said angrily, "Even Makino is too good for you, Doumyouji! And I promise, you will NEVER make me leave Eitoku!" I shouted before turning and making my exit. I had taken extra care to call him Doumyouji instead of Tsukasa.. would he notice my formal way of greeting him? Oh well.. let him suffer for a few days then I would tell him the truth. I grinned wickedly at the thought… Yes.. a few days, and then I would reconcile with my long lost friend..

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Tsukasa slowly trudged towards his car. How could Tsukushi say that? Only her "good friends" could call her 'Tsukushi'. Then what was he? Did she even see him as a friend? Whereas he had dreamed about her everyday for the past 8 years.. she hadn't even given a thought about him. The idea angered and saddened him at the same time. Did their friendship mean nothing to her? He had treasured it all his life.. but her.. what did she think?

He had never really understood her that well, her emotions were confusing. Actually.. he regarded all females as "confusing" and "weird". What they were thinking.. why they did things.. they would always be a mystery to him. His mother, his sister and Tsukushi.. with Tsukushi being the greatest mystery of all. What was going through her head when she had said those hurtful words? The ones that had pierced his heart so many times. He had sometimes dreamed that Tsukushi would love him the way he loved her… but that was too much to hope for when she didn't even consider him a friend..

Tsukasa speeded along the road in his sports car, the wind ruffling his hair. His whole mind was on Tsukushi.. filled with images of their childhood and their conversation only 1 hour before. His feelings were always mixed up when it came to Tsukushi.. he never knew when to feel angry, resentful, happy.. Then he noticed the annoying ring of his cell phone. He had a sudden urge to throw the phone out onto the road. But.. what if it was Tsukushi calling him to apologize?! Without even bothering the check the caller i.d. he eagerly answered the phone. "Hello?"

"Tsukasa?"

"Oh.. Akira.." Tsukasa sighed, crestfallen.

"What's the matter?" Akira asked concernedly.

"Uhh.." Tsukasa hesitated, "Nothing.. I'm fine.."

"Hmm.. well, wanna come to the pub?"

"Okay.."

"See ya!"

"Bye.." he finished dejectedly. Maybe going to the pub might cheer him up..

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Rui's P.O.V:

I glanced furtively at Tsukasa, I wondered what he was thinking. The earlier encounter with Tsukushi.. it roused my curiosity. It was often that something interested me, but this was special. I closed my eyes to think, oblivious to what was being said around me. What was there between Tsukasa and Tsukushi? Tsukasa had seemed to know her.. but Tsukushi had pushed him away. What happened after they ran out of the cafeteria? Maybe I would ask Tsukushi later.. but it wasn't as if I was good friends with her or anything.. I sighed, why did I care anyway? My mind flew back to Shizuka. Even thinking about her brought a smile to my face. A perfect goddess in my eyes, I had loved her since I was young.. but I would never know how she felt about me.. Others I could read easily, but her.. she would always be a mystery to me.

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Akira looked at Tsukasa and Rui with a hint of impatience. They both seemed to be in another world, not really focusing. Rui, he could understand, he was always like that. But Tsukasa? Okay.. so he wasn't the world's greatest playboy unlike him and Soujiro.. but it was still unusual for him to mope around and brood over nothing. He glanced over at Soujiro who was flirting shamelessly with a bunch of girls. He shook his head, what fun was their in courting girls that were brainless idiots? Soujiro had always preferred younger girls, while he, Akira liked older women.

Older meant more mature and that meant he could have more intelligent conversations with them. All the constant flirting and one night stands didn't appeal as much to him. He could never really understand Soujiro's tastes, but then again. He had to admit, he had those occasional flings with the younger ones. Having affairs were the most difficult, the woman always had to sneak out and if there was some problem with the husband, the date was cancelled.

Soujiro was undoubtedly a playboy – one that almost changed girlfriends every few days. But that Akira could understand. Who could stand having to face the same idiot for too long? Soujiro was in it for the sex and the fun, and he broke up with them harshly. But it didn't really matter with most of them anyway, since they were just playgirls. So no attachments, no nothing. Akira grinned, of course.. they all had to be pretty. All with perfect hourglass figures and the looks were so beautiful that they looked fake. He seriously wondered if anyone of them hadn't had cosmetic surgery.

His eyes wandered back to Tsukasa.. ah yes, that was what he was thinking about in the first place right? How had he gone off the track to Soujiro? Ahh.. but Tsukasa. What was his problem? He had seemed moody ever since he had gone after that Makino girl. 'What was so special about her anyway?' Akira mused. Her looks weren't really that spectacular though she didn't look that bad. Her figure was terrible compared to the girls he normally dated – a totally flat chest. So what was it that had managed to capture Tsukasa's attention?

Akira could almost swear that Tsukasa had NEVER taken any interest in the female sex whatsoever.. they had almost believed that he was gay. It was pretty obvious that him and Soujiro were not gay and Rui had Shizuka. Tsukasa had never dated anyone and had not noticed those beautiful girls who came up to him practically everyday. It was strange. He only experience he had probably had with girls was with Tsubaki, Shizuka and Kaede. Akira couldn't help but chuckle as he thought about it. Tsukasa was still a virgin and had never kissed anyone before. It was hilarious considering who he was. With those pretty girls flinging themselves at him.. how could he resist? Akira certainly didn't understand. But Tsukasa was Tsukasa.. and he was certainly not one who liked girls easily. So what was so special about Makino? Tsukasa had given red tags often enough, how was this time any different?

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Hope you liked that chapter!!!

My exam week is coming up.. and I really need to study.

I'm really really doomed…..

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* Angel *