Thank you for all your reviews. Okay, I admit it, her and Legolas were destined from the beginning. Kidding! No way. Sorry to everyone who writes stories like that but they aren't really my piece of cake. I was planning to hook her and Tobias up in the end and don't worry about her throwing a hissy in front of some elves. I will try to keep this as close to instincts of elves as possible because I know they'd kill a human chick in weird clothes without a second thought if she marched up and demanded to see her father. Perhaps I should add in Orlando Bloom for shits and giggles? Nah.... And this is one of the final chapters. Once again thank you to everyone who reviewed so nicely.
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Chapter 10: Impulsive
Alright, so running out of my house after screaming at Tobias wasn't the coolest thing to do. But honestly, I have been through hell. I just figured out Middle Earth is right here in England, my father ran off to go have elf babies with Galadriel, I may or may not have a concussion from slipping on the kitchen floor, and did I forget to mention that I don't even know what I'm doing considering I don't even believe in Middle Earth and am probably gonna kill myself trying to find it? Edith was right. I am an impulsive moron.
So here I was, in my car, without the radio on because my head was still throbbing from my fall on the kitchen floor and I'm thinking what the hell am I doing? I pulled to a complete stop and got to the side of the road. This is unfair I though. Completely unfair! I banged my fists on the steering wheel for a moment. Why did this stuff have to happen to me? I'm a good person. I pay my bills, I'm still a virgin, I did okay in High School and I've never once had impure thoughts about men. Well....unless you count those times when I was obssessed with Hayden Christensen and bought four copies of Life as a House just like that? Damn Edith. I knew I was impulsive....but why did she have to rub it in my face like that?
I got out of the car for a moment, breathing in the cool air. It was foggy and wet, and I could feel the water sticking to my face. My breath came out in clouds and I could hear a little thunder off in the distance. Damn England and all the rain. The coast was going to be insane with weather.
I sat on the hood of my car for a moment, thinking silently to myself. I'm so not impulsive, I thought. I'm just angry and lonely and I WANT MY DADDY! So now I'm childish too. Great. I can't blieve how losing your father can make you react. I'm sitting in the freezing cold on the hood of my car crying for a father who left me for no apparant reason and wishing that there was some hole I could just crawl to and die. No, I thought, not until he dies. Not until he knows how much he hurt me.
Oh shut up Delaney! My mind said to me. He's gone okay? Big deal! You said yourself he didn't deserve to have a family! So please just shut up!
I wanted to lock out what my own mind was telling me. I wanted my father to know that what he had done was painful and that for the past 15 years I was weeping for him and by not opening his books for that length of time I was punishing him. And by the looks of it, I was doing a terrible job. My father has not been in my life for 15 years. WHY TRY TO GET HIM BACK NOW?!
I think I sat there for at least an hour. By the time I even thought about getting up my hands were numb and I couldn't feel the majority of my toes. At the time when I even thought about getting up, head lights were moving down the street and coming for me. Strangely I looked up, my pupils growing smaller with the approaching light. The car came to a stop next to mine, and the door opened.
Tobias looked at me as he got out of the car. He walked over to me, looking at me with his brown eyes. God, I thought. You're so adorable and clueless it's all great and I would love you right now if you hugged me. I pushes my knees down the car and waited for him to say something. He didn't. He walked over and hugged me.
I hugged back, burying my head into his shoulder. You know he smelled fantastic that night? He was wearing some really nice colongue or something because I swear, it was nice. But before I could enjoy it I started balling again, right there into his shoulder. He patted me on the back. My stomach was in a knot. I love you....I thought to myself. I love you because you're the male version of Edith...well....almost. You're a lot taller. And you have less fluffy hair. And you probably don't own a psycho dog that's twice your size. But I still love you.
He let me go a moment later. I just looked at him. I hadn't noticed the resemblance between him and young Sean Connery before. He had a sort of Bond look to him.
"Hey." He said to me, and I sniffled a little, looking up at him. "Come on, I'll take you home."
I could only nod. He helped me off the roof of my car and took me over to his passenger door, opening it for me. I slid into the car. It was a nice car, I had to say that. Leather interior, black steering wheel, red exterior. It was sweet. If I hadn't been so depressed at that moment I would have made some commetns about it, but quite frankly all I wanted to do was go to bed. Or beat the crap out of my father. I think it was more like beating up my father and then curling into my bed. Tobias got into the driver's seat and glanced over at me for a moment. I didn't say anything. Tobias sighed.
"I'm sorry." I said. He shook his head.
"I shouldn't have hung up on you." He replied. "And I shouldn't have said that about your father." I shook my head. I couldn't believe I shook my head, but there was 'Sensible Delaney' present now. She...I started my little rant.
"You had every right to say that." I said, not agreeing completely with myself, but still accepting that it was true. "When my father died I didn't even look at the books anymore because they reminded me of him. Christ they even smelled like him." I took a moment. "My father was the biggest part of my life, and the second I found out he was gone I went insane. I was an overachiever and I buried myself in my room and in my work. And then I just kept the books there." I looked at him sincerely. "You were right Tobias. I do keep them all like a decoration."
There was a moment where neither of us said nothing. Tobias didn't even pull the car out of the lane. He looked at the road. I thought about what he had said to me on the phone.
"There's one thing I want to know though." I looked at him again. "How did you know?" Tobias gave a weak grin and turned to face me.
"Edith." He said to me laughing. "She called me actually after you told her and we got talking. She's a very nice person. Very easy to talk to..." He thought about something for a moment. "Does she always change the topic back to how hot Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp are?" I gave a weak grin and nodded.
"Yes she likes to do that." I laughed a little. Tobias giggled. He actually giggled. I never knew men could giggle. "So what else did she tell you?"
"That you've never officially had a good relationship with a guy and that you are impulsive and tall." I groaned. Edith will die. She really will. "But that you're a good friend and kind of like Samwise." I smiled. Later, I thought. Edith can die later. Perhaps tomorrow. Or next week? Or after my father I can kill Edith. Yes, that sounds good.
"She said that?" I asked him. He nodded. I couldn't help but smile. "Edith and I have been friends for years. I don't think there's a bad thing I can say about her...say for the whole 'I love Orlando Bloom thing." Tobias laughed.
"Look, Delaney, I uh...." He kind of paused for a moment. "I um..."
"What?" I asked. He looked to me and then the road and then back at me suddenly leaning forward and pecking me on the lips. I stopped for a moment and looked at him confused. I giggled nervously a little, and Tobias pulled back. I smiled and blushed, leaning back. He looked confused.
"What?" He asked. I grinned, beaming.
"Well...." I said. Tobias still looked confused. I looked back at him. He laughed. "What?" He asked me. I smiled at him again and gave a nervous laugh.
"Nothing." I replied.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"WHAT!?" He was honestly confused about why I was laughing I genuinely did not want to admit what I was about to, but I did it anyways.
"That was my first kiss." I snapped back. Tobias looked at me seriously. "I've never been kissed before okay?" This time Tobias gave a weak laugh.
"You have never been kissed before?" I shook my head no. "That's insane! You, the almighty and powerful Delaney Marks have never been kissed before?"
"Well you don't need to laugh about it." I said. Tobias leaned over and kissed me again. And this time I mean really kissed. I mean time standing slow, fireworks, heart-pounding, 'I'll love you forever and never ever leave you', Backstreet Boys serenading, end of movie kiss. I just sat there like a moron, not knowing what to do. Tobias pulled back to the driver's seat. He sighed.
"Mine too." He said, and started the car. I gaped. That was the nicest kiss I've ever had (granted the only one). He drove forward and was just about to make a U-Turn when I stopped him.
"Keep going." I said. He looked over at me. "I still have one more thing to do."
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Just as I had suspected the coast was hell. The waves were bouncing off the coast and creating white foam along the shoreline. It had taken us until dawn's first light stretched over the horizon to get there, and I damn well wasn't leaving. I looked over the coast. The portal to Lothlorien was here. And I needed Tobias to find it.
"So...you're going to find your father...and then what?" I shrugged.
"I hadn't thought that far ahead yet." I replied. "I had figured seeing him again might trigger some unwanted emotions."
"You're gonna kill him aren't you?" He asked. I shrugged.
"Depends. I could go for something like that."
"Have you even thought about how you're gonna find him?" He asked. "The second you show up in Lothlorien you're gonna be shot by the millions of Elves armed with bows and arrows!"
I stopped, having a brief vision of me as a pin cushion due to Legolas and his other pansy elf friends. Wait...Legolas lived in Mirkwood.
"I'll cross that bridge when I come to it." I said, walking to the rocky coast. Tobias shook his head, mumbling something about me being impulsive and insane.
"Yes I'm sure they'll be very happy to listen to the insane girl shouting about her father and hopw he left her all those years ago." Tobias retorted. "That'll be one hell of a bridge to cross."
"Hey, I never said I had the whole reunion figure out." I replied sadistically. "I said I was going to find my father."
"You have no idea what kind of protections there are on Lothlorien do you?" He replied. I shook my head. "You're hopeless."
"Hopeless yes, Giving up no." I said, walking down the side of a particularly nasty slope. My shoes were twisting over the rocky surface of the ground. Damn me for wearing heels. I bent down and steadied myself with my hand, moving slowly over the rocks and dirt. Tobias followed and we were both moving down the cliffs on the coast of England. I could feel my fingers moving over something smooth suddenly, and then rough. I looked at what I was touching. There were markings. I got to the ground and looked at it. A message on the rock face.
"J.M. Was here." There was an arrow pounting into the cave next to it. I looked inside. It was hollow and low. I had to crawl inside, and I could hear Tobias follow. I looked around as the cave suddenly became tall enough to stand in. It wasn't big, maybe three feet wide. I walked inside it, seeing all over the walls elvish markings off kinds. That was when I saw the signature on the opposite wall. "J.R.R.Tolkien."
"Look." I said, and then the cave was filled with echoing from the waves. Immediately after the cave was full of water to my knees. Tobias looked at the places where we had come in. Water was filling the cave. And just as we were going to crawl out, the entrance closed to a slit, and continued to fill with water.
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