Spot's POV
I understand that he wanted to know why exactly I needed him, but did he really have to touch me? Or make me look at him? I mean, I have good self control, have for years, but my self control was pretty much fading fast that that point, so I closed my eyes to make it easier on myself. And concentrated on not letting my body show him any signs of my love for him. I'm not sure how well it worked. I can't remember. Because all of a sudden something warm and soft was pressed against my lips.
Slowly I opened my eyes and saw Jack's mouth attached to mine, his own eyes closed tightly. Upon seeing this I am happy to say that I neither fainted or died. Although I was sure at that point that I was most definitely in some earth version of heaven.
I felt like I was in some sort of a dream so, to test my theory I brought my hands up to head and ran them through his hair. (which was a silky as I believed it would be) and tentatively kissed him back. Running my tongue along his bottom lip, not really seeking entrance, just kinda testing the waters I suppose. But, to my surprise, Jack opened his mouth for me. I wasn't looking for it, but why pass up an opportunity like that?
I'm not sure exactly how long the kiss lasted, I really didn't have coherent thoughts during the whole thing. After all, it was what I had wanted for, well, too long so I didn't think, I reacted. Not thinking about a reason as to why he may have kissed me or any problems that might come through afterwards. I didn't care at the time.
He broke the kiss obviously, letting his hands drop from my back and he took a giant step backwards from me, as if what had just happened scared him. Or repulsed him. Or both. I think it hit me then that Jack had done this for a reason other then pleasure or spontaneous-ness and that he had expected me to actually kiss him back, especially so enthusiastically. Of course knowing this, I pretended along and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand but didn't dare look up at him. I was panting for breath and I'm quite certain that my desire wouldn't be hid behind my eyes this time.
Like I said, stupid.
"Spot. . .I. . . what the hell was that?" He asked me from what I think he considered a safe distance.
"Shouldn't you know Jack-boy? Yer da one who started it," Oh god, denial is my worst enemy, why play on it anymore then I have too?
"But, I was only trying to get your attention 'cause ya wouldn't look at me and all. . ." He trailed off and ran a hand through his hair.
Trying to get my attention? That's why he had kissed me? Made me feel exactly what I always wanted too? Make me feel like I'm set on fire? For my attention? Jesus. Well, I applaud you Jack, because you got my attention alright.
"Well, youse got me attention now," I said, still panting internally.
"I noticed."
I snapped my head in his direction, but not quite meeting his eyes. "What's dat suppose to mean?"
He shrugged and took a couple steps closer to me. Why me? Why him? Why anything? Can't he see I'm still recovering from the last time he was close to me? Maybe he's almost as stupid as me.
"What I mean is dat youse seemed awful. . . okay wit me kissin you. You know, like youse didn't mind it. Dat's all," He said in a nonchalant voice.
Well, no shit. I'm only in love with you.
Suddenly he took a couple steps away from me again, his eyes had widened a few sizes and he actually had his mouth hanging open in surprise. I just stared at him. He paled so much I looked behind me to make sure no one was around, or no ghosts were floating by me. But he was staring directly at me with this horror filled look. What could I have possibly have done now? I hadn't done or said anything.
"Jack?" I asked slowly, trying to prompt him into telling me what made his so scared of me all of a sudden. Normally I like it when people look at me with fear in their eyes. But not Jack. Never Jack.
"You, what did you just say?" His voice was a little higher then normal from the shock on his face had, I guess, sank into his vocal cords.
"Jack," I repeated not understanding why that would upset him so much.
"No, no, no. What did you say before that?" He asked hurriedly giving me the most intense stare I've ever seen from anyone ever, period.
I thought back over my words. I said that he had my attention, and then he said he noticed. So I asked what he meant when he said that, and he said that I seemed to like kissing him a little too much or something like that. Then he backed away and threw me the look that's still masking his features, searching my eyes and face. I hadn't said anything, maybe he just thought I did, or saw something in my face that made him believe something. Either way it didn't matter because I hadn't SAID anything to him. But I obviously did something because he looked like seriously panicked.
"Um, Jack, I don't exactly remember what I'se said to ya," I replied slowly, not quite understanding the situation that was unfolding around me.
He sighed, his eyes fluttering closed and took a deep breath. But he didn't answer me, or tell me what I had said to make him so shocked or upset or whatever he was feeling, I couldn't be too sure of anything anymore though. I was too confused.
"Just tell me what I said to ya Jack. Honestly, I don't know," I tried again, pleading with him. I needed to know. He opened his eyes again and looked straight into my eyes. Holding his gaze and not breaking it. He looked like he was searching for the truth but I wasn't going to give it to him.
"Believe me when I say you wouldn't want to remember what you said to me," He said finally, slumping his shoulders slightly.
I just watched him as the silence and the cold night air surrounded us.
And I waited.
A/N: WOO HOO!!! ANOTHER PART DONE!!!! Sorry, I'm way tired and tired equals hyper for me. Woo Hoo, lol. Anyways, Thank you to the following people:
SpotLover421: Thank you for the review, Jack/Spot is my fav too, though I'm not sure why. All I know is they would be good together!
Ravan46: Breathe!!!!! It's going to be okay! LOL. Anyway, thanks for the sparkling review I appreciate the encouragement. (woo, big word for me)
DucanAndTheSpork: If people consistently give me reviews like yours I'm going to get too big a head for my computer room doorway! But thank you! *bows to the applause* Oh, and I guess I'll see you next fall huh? Watch for the stairs! (ha! Talk about corny!)
TheCrazyUnknown: Open doors? I'm bad but not that bad. . . j/k. I once walked into a phone pole because I was wearing sunglasses at night. And a bunch of little kids laughed at me! * depressing * Anyways, thank for the review! I am eternally grateful!
I understand that he wanted to know why exactly I needed him, but did he really have to touch me? Or make me look at him? I mean, I have good self control, have for years, but my self control was pretty much fading fast that that point, so I closed my eyes to make it easier on myself. And concentrated on not letting my body show him any signs of my love for him. I'm not sure how well it worked. I can't remember. Because all of a sudden something warm and soft was pressed against my lips.
Slowly I opened my eyes and saw Jack's mouth attached to mine, his own eyes closed tightly. Upon seeing this I am happy to say that I neither fainted or died. Although I was sure at that point that I was most definitely in some earth version of heaven.
I felt like I was in some sort of a dream so, to test my theory I brought my hands up to head and ran them through his hair. (which was a silky as I believed it would be) and tentatively kissed him back. Running my tongue along his bottom lip, not really seeking entrance, just kinda testing the waters I suppose. But, to my surprise, Jack opened his mouth for me. I wasn't looking for it, but why pass up an opportunity like that?
I'm not sure exactly how long the kiss lasted, I really didn't have coherent thoughts during the whole thing. After all, it was what I had wanted for, well, too long so I didn't think, I reacted. Not thinking about a reason as to why he may have kissed me or any problems that might come through afterwards. I didn't care at the time.
He broke the kiss obviously, letting his hands drop from my back and he took a giant step backwards from me, as if what had just happened scared him. Or repulsed him. Or both. I think it hit me then that Jack had done this for a reason other then pleasure or spontaneous-ness and that he had expected me to actually kiss him back, especially so enthusiastically. Of course knowing this, I pretended along and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand but didn't dare look up at him. I was panting for breath and I'm quite certain that my desire wouldn't be hid behind my eyes this time.
Like I said, stupid.
"Spot. . .I. . . what the hell was that?" He asked me from what I think he considered a safe distance.
"Shouldn't you know Jack-boy? Yer da one who started it," Oh god, denial is my worst enemy, why play on it anymore then I have too?
"But, I was only trying to get your attention 'cause ya wouldn't look at me and all. . ." He trailed off and ran a hand through his hair.
Trying to get my attention? That's why he had kissed me? Made me feel exactly what I always wanted too? Make me feel like I'm set on fire? For my attention? Jesus. Well, I applaud you Jack, because you got my attention alright.
"Well, youse got me attention now," I said, still panting internally.
"I noticed."
I snapped my head in his direction, but not quite meeting his eyes. "What's dat suppose to mean?"
He shrugged and took a couple steps closer to me. Why me? Why him? Why anything? Can't he see I'm still recovering from the last time he was close to me? Maybe he's almost as stupid as me.
"What I mean is dat youse seemed awful. . . okay wit me kissin you. You know, like youse didn't mind it. Dat's all," He said in a nonchalant voice.
Well, no shit. I'm only in love with you.
Suddenly he took a couple steps away from me again, his eyes had widened a few sizes and he actually had his mouth hanging open in surprise. I just stared at him. He paled so much I looked behind me to make sure no one was around, or no ghosts were floating by me. But he was staring directly at me with this horror filled look. What could I have possibly have done now? I hadn't done or said anything.
"Jack?" I asked slowly, trying to prompt him into telling me what made his so scared of me all of a sudden. Normally I like it when people look at me with fear in their eyes. But not Jack. Never Jack.
"You, what did you just say?" His voice was a little higher then normal from the shock on his face had, I guess, sank into his vocal cords.
"Jack," I repeated not understanding why that would upset him so much.
"No, no, no. What did you say before that?" He asked hurriedly giving me the most intense stare I've ever seen from anyone ever, period.
I thought back over my words. I said that he had my attention, and then he said he noticed. So I asked what he meant when he said that, and he said that I seemed to like kissing him a little too much or something like that. Then he backed away and threw me the look that's still masking his features, searching my eyes and face. I hadn't said anything, maybe he just thought I did, or saw something in my face that made him believe something. Either way it didn't matter because I hadn't SAID anything to him. But I obviously did something because he looked like seriously panicked.
"Um, Jack, I don't exactly remember what I'se said to ya," I replied slowly, not quite understanding the situation that was unfolding around me.
He sighed, his eyes fluttering closed and took a deep breath. But he didn't answer me, or tell me what I had said to make him so shocked or upset or whatever he was feeling, I couldn't be too sure of anything anymore though. I was too confused.
"Just tell me what I said to ya Jack. Honestly, I don't know," I tried again, pleading with him. I needed to know. He opened his eyes again and looked straight into my eyes. Holding his gaze and not breaking it. He looked like he was searching for the truth but I wasn't going to give it to him.
"Believe me when I say you wouldn't want to remember what you said to me," He said finally, slumping his shoulders slightly.
I just watched him as the silence and the cold night air surrounded us.
And I waited.
A/N: WOO HOO!!! ANOTHER PART DONE!!!! Sorry, I'm way tired and tired equals hyper for me. Woo Hoo, lol. Anyways, Thank you to the following people:
SpotLover421: Thank you for the review, Jack/Spot is my fav too, though I'm not sure why. All I know is they would be good together!
Ravan46: Breathe!!!!! It's going to be okay! LOL. Anyway, thanks for the sparkling review I appreciate the encouragement. (woo, big word for me)
DucanAndTheSpork: If people consistently give me reviews like yours I'm going to get too big a head for my computer room doorway! But thank you! *bows to the applause* Oh, and I guess I'll see you next fall huh? Watch for the stairs! (ha! Talk about corny!)
TheCrazyUnknown: Open doors? I'm bad but not that bad. . . j/k. I once walked into a phone pole because I was wearing sunglasses at night. And a bunch of little kids laughed at me! * depressing * Anyways, thank for the review! I am eternally grateful!