Title: Half of my soul and all of my heart
Author: ladydewinter
Email: ladydewinter@gmx.net
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: W/K first, but I don't really like them...so W/T eventually :-) And this is becoming B/S as well, it seems.
Setting: The story takes place roughly after The Killer in Me, so spoilers up to then.
Disclaimer: Willow, Tara, Kennedy, Anya et. al belong to Joss Whedon and ME and - hey you know whom they belong to. The story however is mine. Oh, the title is taken from a book called "Magic's Promise" by Mercedes Lackey. And there may be quotes from the show included in this story - I haven't really marked them, but if it sounds familiar - I mean it as an hommage, I don't wanna violate any copyright, really. Please don't sue me!
Feedback: Thanks again for the positive feedback. It's what keeps me going, and it makes me happy :0)
Distribution: If you want it, you can have it, just let me know where it ends up.
Summary: Tara and Buffy have a talk about what Tara learned from Giles. Contains the first part of the beginning of an explanation *lol*
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Buffy was home early that day. She couldn't wait to see if Tara had found out anything. She smiled. Yesterday had been the best day ever since Willow had been... Tara had seemed relaxed, almost happy. They had gone out for a picknick together, the whole ot of them. It had been totally beautiful. None of them really understood why Tara suddenly was so much happier, though. To dream that you die - how could that make you happy? She had talked to William about that (She couldn't bring herself to call him Spike - she didn't get it why he wanted to be called that way, it seemed to have got something to do with his work), and had expressed her worries that Tara might have suicidal thoughts. He had laughed at that.
"C'mon, you really think she hasn't had them before? All the months she's spent in bed, crying and suffering? I honestly don't think you have to worry about her commiting suicide now." He leaned towards her to kiss her.
"But why was she so - why did she behave so differently today?" Buffy needed to understand.
"Didn't she say it had something to do with the second Willow? I don't know luv, I don't think you should worry about it right now. I know a way to make you stop thinking about it though..."
Buffy smiled at the memory of how exactly he had managed that. She was so in love with him now... it had taken ages until she had allowed herself to. She had been so afraid, after the experiences she had made with her other two boyfriends. Her heart had been broken twice, and she hadn't know if she was able to survive it a third time. But William - he hadn't given up. When he had moved in with them - to help them - he had acted just as a friend, and he had always been there for her. And now it was perfect. She knew this wasn't how it would go on, she knew they would fight sometimes, but she also was determined to make it last.
At that moment, the door opened. Tara had returned from the bookshop. Buffy practically jumped up and ran to greet her. "Hey," she said casually, trying (and failing) to hide her curiosity. Tara couldn't help smiling. Buffy was just great.
"Hey," she said. "No work this afternoon?"
"No, ahm, I was - tired, yes, tired, and I had... a headache."
"Oh, shouldn't you lie down then?" Tara asked her, trying to sound serious.
"No! It's better already, I'm fine... How are you?"
"Fine, thank you." She grinned almost mischievously. "I'm pretty hungry."
"Want some cookies? I made some." Buffy said eagerly.
"You made cookies? When?" She started to like this...although Buffy wasn't the greatest of all cooks, her cookies were yummy.
"Just now. To - to get rid of my headache." Now Buffy started grinning too. This was ridiculous...but fun.
"Oh I see. Then I want some anti-headache cookies."
"You can have them all - but please tell me: how did it go?"
"Ha, I won!" Tara smiled. "You asked!"
"Yes, you won, take all my cookies, but please..." Buffy pouted.
"Okay, I'll tell you."
"It's good news, isn't it? You're all cheery."
"I don't know yet...but I think it's good. It's very odd."
"So what happened? Right from the beginning."
"Well, I went to the shop, where I met Mr Giles - he's very nice, English, and a bit peculiar. But in a good way. I told him about - about what happened last year, and about the dream of course. Then he disappeared into his office for an hour or so. When he came back, he asked he a rather odd question." Tara stopped, remembering how shocked she had been. No one had ever asked her that, there had been no need to.
"What?"
"Sorry?"
"What did he ask you?"
"Oh, he - he asked me how much I loved her."
"Why?"
"That's what I thought as well. And I guess I got a little angry. But then - I just told him. It must have sounded a bit too cheesy, but - he asked. After that, he went back into his office, but only for a minute this time. He showed me a book, here, he allowed me to borrow it."
"'Myths'," Buffy read out the title. "What's in there?"
"Myths," Tara answered. "More or less."
"My, and isn't that an original title." She opened the book and started leafing through it. "Vampires, demons, Slayers...there doesn't seem to be a particular order, does it? What's that...'Into each generation a Slayer is born, one girl in all the world, a Chosen One. She alone will stand against the vampires, the demons and the forces of darkness.' Interesting. And although this certainly makes a nice reading before bedtime, how does this concern you? There weren't any Slayers in your dream, were there?"
Tara laughed. "No, there weren't. Let me see..." She took the book from Buffy, turned a couple of pages and then handed it back to her. "Here, read this."
"'True soulmates'. Well, this is more to my liking... all romantic and lovey... 'True soulmates are rarely to be found.' Why's that? Why is it that there are Slayers and demons in each generation, but true soulmates are rare? Seems quite unfair to me... 'The Powers do not usually interfere with love. Love is something best left alone. However, sometimes a soulpair is connected so that they may recognize each other when they meet in life.' Huh?"
"It's - well, the premise so to speak is that before we live, our souls are in a - well, he said 'salon', but also that he didn't know what it's like. Anyway, before we live, our souls are able to meet each other. But that doesn't mean that we recognize the souls we met as soon as we live... I know it's confusing, and I didn't quite understand it. What I understand is this: The Powers that Be seem to be the - well, I get the feeling it's something like a politically correct term for God. But they seem to be nicer. And don't seem to have as much power as God's supposed to have."
"Skip the theology lesson, please." Buffy interrupted her.
"What? Oh, sorry.. where was I? The souls. Right, it seems as if sometimes the Powers can be pretty romantic. For no apparent reason, they connect ,so they will recognize each other in life. It's a bit like this thing with the coin in the cake - or was it pudding? Personally, I haven't ever heard of either the pudding or the cake, but that's how Mr Giles explained it. Maybe it's an English thing. Back to the eample.... each soul gets one half of the 'coin', and when they meet in their human form, they are attracted to each other like - magnets."
"I see. Or well, I don't, but let's just pretend I do. No - what does this all mean?"
"Mr Giles believes - and I - I want to agree with him - that Willow and I are such true soulmates." Tara said hesitatingly.
"Oh. You mean you're like - destined to be together?" Tara nodded. "Wow, that's - that's Wow. Don't you think so? I mean, you are really special, not that I didn't know it, but now it's kinda - official. Do you know what I mean?"
"Sure I do. But - Buffy, the thing is - we were kinda special. Willow is dead," Tara reminded her.
" She is, I know that. But I also know you - you wouldn't be so cheerful if that was all. Or would you?"
"No, you're right. There is another thing. But it's just - it sounds totally fantastic."
"What is it? Tell me. I wanna know. I like fantastic. See? Like the book with the Slayer."
Tara smiled. "Okay, I'll tell you what Mr Giles told me. He said - the first thing he said was that the book you like so much doesn't belong to this world."
"Huh?"
"That's about what I said, too. He said that our world was just one of many, that there were billions of another ones, just as real as ours. Some very similar to this, some totally different. But no world - or dimension, as he called it - was exactly the same, for if it were, it wouldn't be another world. I think he wanted to explain all this by taking examples from quantum theory, but I could stop him before it got serious. And according to him, this book obviously belonged to another dimension. A dimension were there are witches, vampires, demons and Slayers. And loads of other stuff he didn't want to tell me about."
"So - how come this book got here? When it originally belongs to this other world?" Buffy asked. She had to admit she was a bit confused, and she didn't really believe what Tara was telling her. Different dimensions...that sounded almost too fantastic. No. It definetely sounded too fantastic.
"There seem to be some who are able to travel between the different dimensions. And there are spells to cross dimensions. And-"
"Wait," Buffy interjected, thinking she had realized something. "Does that mean you can't be soulmates after all? Because what's true in another dimension doesn't need to be true in this?"
"No, the soulmate thing seems to be cross-dimensional. Actually, we are coming closer to the reason why I was so cheerful." Tara looked intently at Buffy. "I know this all sounds totally fantastic, and I'm not sure if I can believe it myself, but what I know is that I desperately want to believe it. Because..." she trailed off.
"Because?" Buffy waited for her friend to finish the sentence.
"Because there seems to be a chance for me to see Willow again."
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Author: ladydewinter
Email: ladydewinter@gmx.net
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: W/K first, but I don't really like them...so W/T eventually :-) And this is becoming B/S as well, it seems.
Setting: The story takes place roughly after The Killer in Me, so spoilers up to then.
Disclaimer: Willow, Tara, Kennedy, Anya et. al belong to Joss Whedon and ME and - hey you know whom they belong to. The story however is mine. Oh, the title is taken from a book called "Magic's Promise" by Mercedes Lackey. And there may be quotes from the show included in this story - I haven't really marked them, but if it sounds familiar - I mean it as an hommage, I don't wanna violate any copyright, really. Please don't sue me!
Feedback: Thanks again for the positive feedback. It's what keeps me going, and it makes me happy :0)
Distribution: If you want it, you can have it, just let me know where it ends up.
Summary: Tara and Buffy have a talk about what Tara learned from Giles. Contains the first part of the beginning of an explanation *lol*
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Buffy was home early that day. She couldn't wait to see if Tara had found out anything. She smiled. Yesterday had been the best day ever since Willow had been... Tara had seemed relaxed, almost happy. They had gone out for a picknick together, the whole ot of them. It had been totally beautiful. None of them really understood why Tara suddenly was so much happier, though. To dream that you die - how could that make you happy? She had talked to William about that (She couldn't bring herself to call him Spike - she didn't get it why he wanted to be called that way, it seemed to have got something to do with his work), and had expressed her worries that Tara might have suicidal thoughts. He had laughed at that.
"C'mon, you really think she hasn't had them before? All the months she's spent in bed, crying and suffering? I honestly don't think you have to worry about her commiting suicide now." He leaned towards her to kiss her.
"But why was she so - why did she behave so differently today?" Buffy needed to understand.
"Didn't she say it had something to do with the second Willow? I don't know luv, I don't think you should worry about it right now. I know a way to make you stop thinking about it though..."
Buffy smiled at the memory of how exactly he had managed that. She was so in love with him now... it had taken ages until she had allowed herself to. She had been so afraid, after the experiences she had made with her other two boyfriends. Her heart had been broken twice, and she hadn't know if she was able to survive it a third time. But William - he hadn't given up. When he had moved in with them - to help them - he had acted just as a friend, and he had always been there for her. And now it was perfect. She knew this wasn't how it would go on, she knew they would fight sometimes, but she also was determined to make it last.
At that moment, the door opened. Tara had returned from the bookshop. Buffy practically jumped up and ran to greet her. "Hey," she said casually, trying (and failing) to hide her curiosity. Tara couldn't help smiling. Buffy was just great.
"Hey," she said. "No work this afternoon?"
"No, ahm, I was - tired, yes, tired, and I had... a headache."
"Oh, shouldn't you lie down then?" Tara asked her, trying to sound serious.
"No! It's better already, I'm fine... How are you?"
"Fine, thank you." She grinned almost mischievously. "I'm pretty hungry."
"Want some cookies? I made some." Buffy said eagerly.
"You made cookies? When?" She started to like this...although Buffy wasn't the greatest of all cooks, her cookies were yummy.
"Just now. To - to get rid of my headache." Now Buffy started grinning too. This was ridiculous...but fun.
"Oh I see. Then I want some anti-headache cookies."
"You can have them all - but please tell me: how did it go?"
"Ha, I won!" Tara smiled. "You asked!"
"Yes, you won, take all my cookies, but please..." Buffy pouted.
"Okay, I'll tell you."
"It's good news, isn't it? You're all cheery."
"I don't know yet...but I think it's good. It's very odd."
"So what happened? Right from the beginning."
"Well, I went to the shop, where I met Mr Giles - he's very nice, English, and a bit peculiar. But in a good way. I told him about - about what happened last year, and about the dream of course. Then he disappeared into his office for an hour or so. When he came back, he asked he a rather odd question." Tara stopped, remembering how shocked she had been. No one had ever asked her that, there had been no need to.
"What?"
"Sorry?"
"What did he ask you?"
"Oh, he - he asked me how much I loved her."
"Why?"
"That's what I thought as well. And I guess I got a little angry. But then - I just told him. It must have sounded a bit too cheesy, but - he asked. After that, he went back into his office, but only for a minute this time. He showed me a book, here, he allowed me to borrow it."
"'Myths'," Buffy read out the title. "What's in there?"
"Myths," Tara answered. "More or less."
"My, and isn't that an original title." She opened the book and started leafing through it. "Vampires, demons, Slayers...there doesn't seem to be a particular order, does it? What's that...'Into each generation a Slayer is born, one girl in all the world, a Chosen One. She alone will stand against the vampires, the demons and the forces of darkness.' Interesting. And although this certainly makes a nice reading before bedtime, how does this concern you? There weren't any Slayers in your dream, were there?"
Tara laughed. "No, there weren't. Let me see..." She took the book from Buffy, turned a couple of pages and then handed it back to her. "Here, read this."
"'True soulmates'. Well, this is more to my liking... all romantic and lovey... 'True soulmates are rarely to be found.' Why's that? Why is it that there are Slayers and demons in each generation, but true soulmates are rare? Seems quite unfair to me... 'The Powers do not usually interfere with love. Love is something best left alone. However, sometimes a soulpair is connected so that they may recognize each other when they meet in life.' Huh?"
"It's - well, the premise so to speak is that before we live, our souls are in a - well, he said 'salon', but also that he didn't know what it's like. Anyway, before we live, our souls are able to meet each other. But that doesn't mean that we recognize the souls we met as soon as we live... I know it's confusing, and I didn't quite understand it. What I understand is this: The Powers that Be seem to be the - well, I get the feeling it's something like a politically correct term for God. But they seem to be nicer. And don't seem to have as much power as God's supposed to have."
"Skip the theology lesson, please." Buffy interrupted her.
"What? Oh, sorry.. where was I? The souls. Right, it seems as if sometimes the Powers can be pretty romantic. For no apparent reason, they connect ,so they will recognize each other in life. It's a bit like this thing with the coin in the cake - or was it pudding? Personally, I haven't ever heard of either the pudding or the cake, but that's how Mr Giles explained it. Maybe it's an English thing. Back to the eample.... each soul gets one half of the 'coin', and when they meet in their human form, they are attracted to each other like - magnets."
"I see. Or well, I don't, but let's just pretend I do. No - what does this all mean?"
"Mr Giles believes - and I - I want to agree with him - that Willow and I are such true soulmates." Tara said hesitatingly.
"Oh. You mean you're like - destined to be together?" Tara nodded. "Wow, that's - that's Wow. Don't you think so? I mean, you are really special, not that I didn't know it, but now it's kinda - official. Do you know what I mean?"
"Sure I do. But - Buffy, the thing is - we were kinda special. Willow is dead," Tara reminded her.
" She is, I know that. But I also know you - you wouldn't be so cheerful if that was all. Or would you?"
"No, you're right. There is another thing. But it's just - it sounds totally fantastic."
"What is it? Tell me. I wanna know. I like fantastic. See? Like the book with the Slayer."
Tara smiled. "Okay, I'll tell you what Mr Giles told me. He said - the first thing he said was that the book you like so much doesn't belong to this world."
"Huh?"
"That's about what I said, too. He said that our world was just one of many, that there were billions of another ones, just as real as ours. Some very similar to this, some totally different. But no world - or dimension, as he called it - was exactly the same, for if it were, it wouldn't be another world. I think he wanted to explain all this by taking examples from quantum theory, but I could stop him before it got serious. And according to him, this book obviously belonged to another dimension. A dimension were there are witches, vampires, demons and Slayers. And loads of other stuff he didn't want to tell me about."
"So - how come this book got here? When it originally belongs to this other world?" Buffy asked. She had to admit she was a bit confused, and she didn't really believe what Tara was telling her. Different dimensions...that sounded almost too fantastic. No. It definetely sounded too fantastic.
"There seem to be some who are able to travel between the different dimensions. And there are spells to cross dimensions. And-"
"Wait," Buffy interjected, thinking she had realized something. "Does that mean you can't be soulmates after all? Because what's true in another dimension doesn't need to be true in this?"
"No, the soulmate thing seems to be cross-dimensional. Actually, we are coming closer to the reason why I was so cheerful." Tara looked intently at Buffy. "I know this all sounds totally fantastic, and I'm not sure if I can believe it myself, but what I know is that I desperately want to believe it. Because..." she trailed off.
"Because?" Buffy waited for her friend to finish the sentence.
"Because there seems to be a chance for me to see Willow again."
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