Title: Half of my soul and all of my heart
Author: ladydewinter
Email: ladydewinter@gmx.net
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: W/K first, but I don't really like them...so W/T eventually :-) And this is becoming B/S as well, it seems.
Setting: The story takes place roughly after The Killer in Me, so spoilers up to then. And if you have no idea about Season Three of Angel you'll be spoilt as well...so don't come running to me *lol*
Disclaimer: Willow, Tara, Kennedy, Anya et. al belong to Joss Whedon and ME and - hey you know whom they belong to. The story however is mine. Oh, the title is taken from a book called "Magic's Promise" by Mercedes Lackey. The song is by Melanie Doane and called "I can't take my eyes off you" - I guess you all know it ;-) And there may be quotes from the show included in this story - I haven't really marked them, but if it sounds familiar - I mean it as an hommage, I don't wanna violate any copyright, really. Please don't sue me!
Feedback: I can't stop to thank you all for the nice feedback I get - I'm so glad you like this story. And I'm glad I started writing it. So let me say it once more, with feeling: THANKS!
Distribution: If you want it, you can have it, just let me know where it ends up.
Summary: A dream again...as you might have guessed reading the Disclaimer... I only have songs or poems in the dreams, don't I? Well, my bad ;-) But - it's different this time (a bit).
***
She was standing in a dimly lit room, watching someone - a man? - dressing in front of a mirror. As it was pretty dark she couldn't quite see who it was, but the clothes looked a bit odd. Or oldfashioned. She turned around - and wasn't really surprised that suddenly she was in another dark room, watching someone else dress in odd looking clothes. And again she couldn't see who it was.
"Hey B." Now she was a bit startled. "Faith? What-?"
"I think we're in a kinda dream. In somebody else's, I mean. Or is it your dream?" The other Slayer was standing at her side.
"I don't think so. But how-"
At that moment, someone started to speak. Buffy instantly recognized the voice.
"So dear to me
Always keep me company
Who needs to go outside..."
"Tara?" She couldn't believe it.
"What? Red's girlfriend? You dream about Red's girlfriend? Does she know about this?"
"I'm - we're not dreaming about Tara, we're just hearing her voice. Which is creepy enough,"Buffy muttered. "Where do you think we are?"
"I don't know. But - Buffy, I think - I think we're not the only ones watching." Faith pointed to Buffy's side and then to hers. They definitely weren't alone.
"Willow? Tara?" Now she started to get freaked. This wasn't just creepy, that was -
"They don't seem to hear us. Or see us. Or each other," Faith said. And it looked she was right. Willow and Tara were watching something. Suddenly Buffy noticed the scenery had changed.
"Look! It's - we seem to be in a kind of ballroom now. And there -"
"There's Red again. So - you got the hots on her? I mean, to have her in your dream twice...as in two at the same time..."
"Faith, I don't -" She turned to the other Slayer, who was grinning mischievously.
"I know. Just like to tease you, B. I know all you care about is vampires."
Buffy just sighed and turned back to watch the Willow on the dancefloor. She was dancing with some blonde guy, which was odd... she hadn't seen Willow dance with a guy for ages. Which wasn't that odd, with Willow being gay and all, she thought. Then there was a voice again, but this time it was -
"Red?"
"I will be your silent bride
I can't take my eyes off you..."
"Is this a duet or what?" Faith was a bit confused as there suddenly was Tara speaking again.
"I can't take my eyes off you..."
"Who is that guy?" Buffy asked.
"What guy?"
"They guy Willow's dancing with."
The other Slayer laughed. "What?"
"Don't you see it, B.? That isn't a guy - that's her sweetheart."
"You mean-?"
"I mean. You haven't really - you have. You thought Tara was a guy. Just - I mean, just look at her. No man's got hips like her." Faith smiled dreamily.
"I'm sorry. All the other women are wearing dresses, and Tara is not, so I thought- hey, we are we now? And what exactly do they think they are doing?" She watching them undress each other, then turned around, embarrassed. "Ew!"
"What?" Faith had been following each of their moves. She almost couldn't take her eyes off them, but turned to Buffy and saw Willow and Tara again.
"They - they are watching themselves...you know...don't you think it's odd?"
"Well, maybe they think it's kinky?" Faith offered and turned back. She was sorry to see they seemed to have missed the best part. Now they were lying on the bed, naked, holding each other, looking into each other's eyes.
"Nothing ever needs to be said
You send your message
right into my head
You fill me up when I'm alone
So soothing is your monotone
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you..."
Now their voices were mingled, mixed together. Faith had to swallow hard. The way they said them...so full of love, so gently...she'd never heard anything like it, not even the night she had slept with Riley...
Buffy was watching the other pair of them. They were standing there like she and Faith were, watching themselves transfixedly. They both seemed lost, and somehow in their own worlds...then she heard Willow's voice again.
"So maybe you're not as real
as the others
But I choose you over all my past lovers..."
She turned back to the DreamCouple. She watched Willow lean over to kiss her lover. She looked so happy, so - satisfied and at ease with herself. She was amazed at how much in love they were. She had never experienced anything like it. It almost broke her heart, knowing that such a pair of lovers couldn't be together anymore. Besides, she found they both were really beautiful, lying there...at that moment, Tara spoke up again. Or - well, it wasn't really them saying it, she just heard there voices. But it was a dream after all.
"For they have come and they have gone
but I can always turn you on
I can't take my eyes off you..."
"The two of them really are in their own world, aren't they?" Faith whispered.
"Yeah..."
"It's - it's beautiful."
"It is."
"I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you..."
Now they were speaking together again. It was as if time had stopped. For the first time in months, Buffy stopped worrying. It comforted her completely to see the two of them together. She realized she was crying now, but she didn't care. Faith was feeling roughly the same as the other Slayer - she just was able to stop herself from crying. For some time they all were just standing there, lost in the moment.
Then there was noise outside - footsteps, then some major banging on the door. "Open the door, you bitch, I know you're in there. I won't let this happen, you know? I'll kill you, I'll kill you both..."
"What is this?" Faith turned to Buffy.
"I don't know...but it doesn't seem to be good."
The banging stopped, and the lovers had gotten out of bed, both looking scared. They were obviously searching for a way to escape. There wasn't any. Buffy felt helpless - she wanted to help them so badly, but there was no way she would be able to interfere. She really hated dreams - nightmares. Suddenly, Tara spoke up.
"Listen, love, you have to go, I'll stall. It's ok, I won't let anything happen to me. Just...just run, right? Everything will be alright." Buffy smiled slightly when she saw she had put on her resolve face. Willow didn't seem to have a choice here.
"But-"
"Leave, I'll follow soon. You don't have to worry, nothing will happen to me...just...just run when I tell you, right?"
The two of the kissed, holding on to each other... Faith wished she could do something. She had a really bad feeling about this. And although this was just a dream, it was - it felt important. It mattered to her. Now the banging started again...it wasn't banging, though - someones was trying to break the door.
"Are you ready?" Tara asked.
Willow nodded, trying to smile reassuringly. Tara looked at her lover intently.
"I love you. Now..." Faith and Buffy both watched Tara open the door, shouting "RUN!" Willow did just that, sneaking by the guy who came stumbling through it. Tara though was just standing there, not being able to move.
"Now, bitch, I guess you could call that caught in the act... you'll regret that, and your loverbitch as well." The two Slayers noticed he was carrying a gun. That definitely wasn't good. He grabbed Tara and threw her across the room. She hit her head hard on the floor and didn't move. The man bowed over her to check if she was unconscious. When he was right above her, Tara grabbed him by his collar and pulled him down. There was a struggle, and she tried to escape. Finally, she was free, and stumbled towards the door. "NO, YOU WON'T!!!"
As she was about to escape, the man took his gun and shot her.
It was odd, really - suddenly everything seemed extra surreal. They didn't really hear the shot, all they noticed was the other Willow, wearing a white shirt, now sprinkled with blood.
"She doesn't belong to that dream..." Buffy said.
"I guess she doesn't. But, Buffy, we have to do something."
"We can't. It's a dream." She was watching helplessly as her best friend just stood there.
"Actually, that isn't true."
Author: ladydewinter
Email: ladydewinter@gmx.net
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: W/K first, but I don't really like them...so W/T eventually :-) And this is becoming B/S as well, it seems.
Setting: The story takes place roughly after The Killer in Me, so spoilers up to then. And if you have no idea about Season Three of Angel you'll be spoilt as well...so don't come running to me *lol*
Disclaimer: Willow, Tara, Kennedy, Anya et. al belong to Joss Whedon and ME and - hey you know whom they belong to. The story however is mine. Oh, the title is taken from a book called "Magic's Promise" by Mercedes Lackey. The song is by Melanie Doane and called "I can't take my eyes off you" - I guess you all know it ;-) And there may be quotes from the show included in this story - I haven't really marked them, but if it sounds familiar - I mean it as an hommage, I don't wanna violate any copyright, really. Please don't sue me!
Feedback: I can't stop to thank you all for the nice feedback I get - I'm so glad you like this story. And I'm glad I started writing it. So let me say it once more, with feeling: THANKS!
Distribution: If you want it, you can have it, just let me know where it ends up.
Summary: A dream again...as you might have guessed reading the Disclaimer... I only have songs or poems in the dreams, don't I? Well, my bad ;-) But - it's different this time (a bit).
***
She was standing in a dimly lit room, watching someone - a man? - dressing in front of a mirror. As it was pretty dark she couldn't quite see who it was, but the clothes looked a bit odd. Or oldfashioned. She turned around - and wasn't really surprised that suddenly she was in another dark room, watching someone else dress in odd looking clothes. And again she couldn't see who it was.
"Hey B." Now she was a bit startled. "Faith? What-?"
"I think we're in a kinda dream. In somebody else's, I mean. Or is it your dream?" The other Slayer was standing at her side.
"I don't think so. But how-"
At that moment, someone started to speak. Buffy instantly recognized the voice.
"So dear to me
Always keep me company
Who needs to go outside..."
"Tara?" She couldn't believe it.
"What? Red's girlfriend? You dream about Red's girlfriend? Does she know about this?"
"I'm - we're not dreaming about Tara, we're just hearing her voice. Which is creepy enough,"Buffy muttered. "Where do you think we are?"
"I don't know. But - Buffy, I think - I think we're not the only ones watching." Faith pointed to Buffy's side and then to hers. They definitely weren't alone.
"Willow? Tara?" Now she started to get freaked. This wasn't just creepy, that was -
"They don't seem to hear us. Or see us. Or each other," Faith said. And it looked she was right. Willow and Tara were watching something. Suddenly Buffy noticed the scenery had changed.
"Look! It's - we seem to be in a kind of ballroom now. And there -"
"There's Red again. So - you got the hots on her? I mean, to have her in your dream twice...as in two at the same time..."
"Faith, I don't -" She turned to the other Slayer, who was grinning mischievously.
"I know. Just like to tease you, B. I know all you care about is vampires."
Buffy just sighed and turned back to watch the Willow on the dancefloor. She was dancing with some blonde guy, which was odd... she hadn't seen Willow dance with a guy for ages. Which wasn't that odd, with Willow being gay and all, she thought. Then there was a voice again, but this time it was -
"Red?"
"I will be your silent bride
I can't take my eyes off you..."
"Is this a duet or what?" Faith was a bit confused as there suddenly was Tara speaking again.
"I can't take my eyes off you..."
"Who is that guy?" Buffy asked.
"What guy?"
"They guy Willow's dancing with."
The other Slayer laughed. "What?"
"Don't you see it, B.? That isn't a guy - that's her sweetheart."
"You mean-?"
"I mean. You haven't really - you have. You thought Tara was a guy. Just - I mean, just look at her. No man's got hips like her." Faith smiled dreamily.
"I'm sorry. All the other women are wearing dresses, and Tara is not, so I thought- hey, we are we now? And what exactly do they think they are doing?" She watching them undress each other, then turned around, embarrassed. "Ew!"
"What?" Faith had been following each of their moves. She almost couldn't take her eyes off them, but turned to Buffy and saw Willow and Tara again.
"They - they are watching themselves...you know...don't you think it's odd?"
"Well, maybe they think it's kinky?" Faith offered and turned back. She was sorry to see they seemed to have missed the best part. Now they were lying on the bed, naked, holding each other, looking into each other's eyes.
"Nothing ever needs to be said
You send your message
right into my head
You fill me up when I'm alone
So soothing is your monotone
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you..."
Now their voices were mingled, mixed together. Faith had to swallow hard. The way they said them...so full of love, so gently...she'd never heard anything like it, not even the night she had slept with Riley...
Buffy was watching the other pair of them. They were standing there like she and Faith were, watching themselves transfixedly. They both seemed lost, and somehow in their own worlds...then she heard Willow's voice again.
"So maybe you're not as real
as the others
But I choose you over all my past lovers..."
She turned back to the DreamCouple. She watched Willow lean over to kiss her lover. She looked so happy, so - satisfied and at ease with herself. She was amazed at how much in love they were. She had never experienced anything like it. It almost broke her heart, knowing that such a pair of lovers couldn't be together anymore. Besides, she found they both were really beautiful, lying there...at that moment, Tara spoke up again. Or - well, it wasn't really them saying it, she just heard there voices. But it was a dream after all.
"For they have come and they have gone
but I can always turn you on
I can't take my eyes off you..."
"The two of them really are in their own world, aren't they?" Faith whispered.
"Yeah..."
"It's - it's beautiful."
"It is."
"I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you..."
Now they were speaking together again. It was as if time had stopped. For the first time in months, Buffy stopped worrying. It comforted her completely to see the two of them together. She realized she was crying now, but she didn't care. Faith was feeling roughly the same as the other Slayer - she just was able to stop herself from crying. For some time they all were just standing there, lost in the moment.
Then there was noise outside - footsteps, then some major banging on the door. "Open the door, you bitch, I know you're in there. I won't let this happen, you know? I'll kill you, I'll kill you both..."
"What is this?" Faith turned to Buffy.
"I don't know...but it doesn't seem to be good."
The banging stopped, and the lovers had gotten out of bed, both looking scared. They were obviously searching for a way to escape. There wasn't any. Buffy felt helpless - she wanted to help them so badly, but there was no way she would be able to interfere. She really hated dreams - nightmares. Suddenly, Tara spoke up.
"Listen, love, you have to go, I'll stall. It's ok, I won't let anything happen to me. Just...just run, right? Everything will be alright." Buffy smiled slightly when she saw she had put on her resolve face. Willow didn't seem to have a choice here.
"But-"
"Leave, I'll follow soon. You don't have to worry, nothing will happen to me...just...just run when I tell you, right?"
The two of the kissed, holding on to each other... Faith wished she could do something. She had a really bad feeling about this. And although this was just a dream, it was - it felt important. It mattered to her. Now the banging started again...it wasn't banging, though - someones was trying to break the door.
"Are you ready?" Tara asked.
Willow nodded, trying to smile reassuringly. Tara looked at her lover intently.
"I love you. Now..." Faith and Buffy both watched Tara open the door, shouting "RUN!" Willow did just that, sneaking by the guy who came stumbling through it. Tara though was just standing there, not being able to move.
"Now, bitch, I guess you could call that caught in the act... you'll regret that, and your loverbitch as well." The two Slayers noticed he was carrying a gun. That definitely wasn't good. He grabbed Tara and threw her across the room. She hit her head hard on the floor and didn't move. The man bowed over her to check if she was unconscious. When he was right above her, Tara grabbed him by his collar and pulled him down. There was a struggle, and she tried to escape. Finally, she was free, and stumbled towards the door. "NO, YOU WON'T!!!"
As she was about to escape, the man took his gun and shot her.
It was odd, really - suddenly everything seemed extra surreal. They didn't really hear the shot, all they noticed was the other Willow, wearing a white shirt, now sprinkled with blood.
"She doesn't belong to that dream..." Buffy said.
"I guess she doesn't. But, Buffy, we have to do something."
"We can't. It's a dream." She was watching helplessly as her best friend just stood there.
"Actually, that isn't true."