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and I really did make that up but ANYWAY.
Authors Note: A few things I want to lay down before ya' all read the story.
I'm not a professional writer. I'm 13 years old and still working on writing so please don't be hard on me. That is what teachers are for. So when you come across mistakes and there will be many, do not yell at me because I'm human. Mucha Gracias!
I'm new to the website so I'm still working on uploading things, using the whole bold and italics thing so please be patient with me. If you know how to get italics and bold, it would be much appreciated. (
This is my first Lily and James Fic and though I have read Order of the Phoenix, I'm not going to follow that completely. I will take a few things from the book but there will be many differences. So for anyone who has read Order of the Phoenix, don't blurt out the facts that I have incorrect because there are still people who have not read Order of the Phoenix.
I start school on Monday so my chapter will either not be often or be much shorter than this. If you want me to post less frequently but with longer chapters, let me know. If you would prefer I post shorter chapters (and I'm talking between 1,000-2,000 words) but more often, let me know. Majority wins.
Last of all, I live in America and I did not grow up in the 70's so in future chapters where music is mentioned, it will be more recent music. Occasionally I might slip in American humor and I'm sorry if it goes over some people's head but I can't help. This fic is mainly Romance and Humor. The prologue may be a little sad and depressing but it's what sets the story off. There will not be Lily and James action right away so don't ask about it. If anyone asks me when they are going to get it.
So, with out further udo, I present to you, THE STORY OF MISS EVANS AND MR. POTTER.
*Aphrodite*Venus*
~~~
Prologue: The History Of It All
She sat in the dark common room, the night stars glowing through the windows. It was amazing how just looking at the night sky could calm her fears and make everything okay. It made her realize that there was still hope in the world. Hope for the innocent, hope for the deceived, hope for everyone. Even hope for her. A letter was crunched in her fist, torn and taped back together. It held the news of her mother. The horrible death she had suffered. The terrible loss. The letter was addressed to her, Lily Anne-Marie Evans.
My Dearest Lily,
I hate to tell you such a thing and especially since you are so young but I knew it would be worse if you found out from somebody else.
Your mother was killed in a head-on collision earlier today on her way home from the store. It was terrible. The driver of the car died a few hours after transported to the hospital, obviously he had been drinking and driving. Your mother was proclaimed dead at the scene. The funeral services are being held next week. I wrote to your Headmaster and had you and Melissa excused for the day. I will meet you at Kings Cross. Please take care of yourself sweetheart. Petunia isn't holding up too well. You can probably handle this better than her. I always knew you were more mature. ((Lily gave a small smile at this, tears still running down her cheek)) Be safe sweetie. I'll see you in a few days.
Love,
Dad
That had all taken place a little over a month ago. It had been precisely 33 days, 2 hours, and 21 minutes since she received the letter. It still hurt to read it but Lily had gotten over it. She knew her mum wouldn't want her to dwell on this for so long. She was 15 and had a life to live. She had school, friends, and still family. A future to look forward to. Maybe a future with a special someone.
Lily laughed to herself at the thought of this. Lily with a special someone? She didn't even want a boyfriend. Maybe in time things would change. Not now. It wouldn't be right.
Friends was something she definitely had. Lily had 7 great friends. She would do anything for them.
First, there was Melissa Maczis, practically Lily's 2nd sister. Melissa had a rough childhood. Her father left her and her mother a matter if months after Mel was born. She doesn't even remember him. Ms. Maczis blamed Mel for this. Saying that if she hadn't come alone maybe he wouldn't have left. Things were messed up since then. Mel mainly took care of herself and her little brother on her own. Mrs. Maczis was either working or out with another guy. Mike was 7 years younger than Mel and now that Mel was getting older, she treated Mike like she would take care of a son. When Mel was at school, Mike was allowed to stay at Lily's during the nights since they lived so close to each other. Mr. Evans didn't mind.
Lily's father was young. Her mother had been too. They both had been high school sweethearts and were married as soon as they graduated. Petunia was born when they were 19 and Lily was born 2 years later. When Mr. Evans was around Mike, he acted more like a big brother rather than a father, still taking care of him of course. Petunia wasn't too fond of Mike and Melissa. Lily assumed it was because Mel was also a witch, like Lily. Petunia despised everything that had to do with witchcraft. Freaks, she called them, unnatural, demons, mutants, everything along those lines. Mel and Lily found it quite amusing.
And then there was Anna Tressler, a girl that Mel and Lily met at school. She was the only pureblood of the 3 girls and she filled the two in on everything they needed to know. She was also the only one who didn't have any family issues. She was an only child and her parents were both working in the Ministry and had a happy marriage. The only thing that Lily and Mel didn't like about Anna was that she was very high maintenance and a little too proper sometimes.
For example, last year, their 4th year at Hogwarts, Lily and Mel decided to play outside in the lake which was something most people didn't do and when they did, they went in their robes. Mel decided to be a little daring and wore a bikini since it was so hot outside. Lily wore one too. They both earned many stares from guys and disapproving looks from teachers but there was no rule against it. Anna ignored them for days saying that what they did was down right embarrassing and she was ashamed to be their friend.
One positive outcome of being friends with Anna was that she introduced them into the Marauders, the most notorious group at Hogwarts.
The leader of the pack, James Potter, was hard to classify. He was one of Lily's best friends but her favorite enemy as well. For someone who talked a lot about his girlfriends (and he did have many), the rumor was he never got much action. Lily, Mel and Anna were probably the only girls in their year who hadn't even considered being his girlfriend. His family was rich and his father was Minister of Magic which just added to his popularity.
Sirius Black was a babe-magnet. He flirted with girls non-stop but he never had a girlfriend. When anyone asked him why he always turned girls down, he always said "Relationships are too much trouble." And that was it. He was the dumb-ass of the group, always lost and confused but somehow he managed to keep good grades. Not excellent but not poor. Average. None the less, he was a great guy and very loyal when it came to friends. He never spoke of his family often.
Remus Lupin was the smart, classy, down-to-earth guys of the group. He did attract girls but not like James and Sirius did. One thing that made Remus different than the others was the fact that he was a werewolf. Only he, the guys, and Lily knew about this though. He was also very sweet and an extremely smooth talker. Remus was like a brother to Lily. She talked to him about almost everything.
Last in the group was Peter Pettigrew. Lily wondered how he got into the group because unlike the other guys who were all tall, skinny and handsome (not to mention muscular), Peter was short and stubby, very quiet, shy, and not too bright. While all the other guys played Quidditch, Peter watched from the stands. He was sweet and kind to Lily though but t took a while for him to become not so shy to the girls.
And together, they were all like family, ready to help each other through everything they were about to go through. Through the good times and bad times. Hard and easy. Better or worse. They were ready to embark on the journeys in the ever wizardry world.
As Lily's thoughts on her friends came to an end, Lily began to think about life in general. Sometimes she felt so alone. It wasn't because her mom was gone and she definitely had enough friends. She was missing something. The question was, "What?".
Too tired, to think, Lily laid down on the couch and stared into the fire. It was slowly beginning to die and it steadily grew colder. It was middle-October so of course it was already cold. Without the fire Lily began to shiver. Even her baggy sweatshirt and pajama pants didn't help her at the moment. She took a blanket and threw it over herself. With in minutes she fell asleep, into an easy sleep, dreaming of great things.
"Lily?" someone crept down the stairs and into the common room and spotted Lily laying on the couch, sound asleep. She took a pillow and set it under her friend's head.
"Goodnight Lily."
She turned to leave but stopped when she heard Lily's voice.
"G'Night Mel." Lily whispered, turning over. Mel smiled at her friend and continued up to her dormitory.
***
Lily woke the next day to the sun rising in the window. She got up and rubbed her eyes, looking to see if anyone else was up. It must have still been early because nobody was up. She looked at her watch. It was 6:45 in the morning and not to mention a Saturday. No wonder nobody was up yet.
She pushed the blanket off of her and looked out the window to the rising sun. She knew her hair was a mess and she probably had horrible morning breath but it was too early to head up to the dormitory. She would wake the other girls. That's when she heard somebody coming down the stairs. It was James Potter.
"Hey James." Lily said. He obviously did not notice her there at first. He jumped 2 feet in the air and looked around frantically, whipping out his wand. Lily began to laugh as James spotted her.
All-mighty James was scared just by a simple "Hey" from a friend. Not to mention it was hysterical to see him in a baggy t-shirt and boxers instead of his usual jeans and tight muscle shirts which showed off his fit stomach.
"Damn it Lily. I was about to hex you into next week." James panted, sitting next to Lily. She stopped laughing hard and just smiled, amused. "What's so funny?"
"Just surprised at your reaction to a simple greeting and not to mention your appearance is god awful." Said Lily.
"Well, Miss High and Mighty, you don't look so great yourself." James said, looking at her messy hair and make-up smeared face. Shoot, she thought, I feel asleep with my make-up on.
"Bite me." She said quietly, laying her head back onto her pillow.
"Thanks for the offer but I'll pass." Said James. That's when her noticed the empty cups of coffee and hot chocolate on the table along with many books. "Were you up all night studying?"
Lily nodded, closing her eyes, hoping to fall back asleep. "O.W.L.s this year. What do you expect?"
"O.W.L.s are in about 7 or 8 months." Said James. Lily shook her head.
"So?" she protested. "It's not my fault I care about my grades. Anyway, I'm studying again today if you care to join me. You might want to watch your grades if you want to be a prefect next year again."
"Maybe another day Lils. Today, you are going to hang with the gang." Said James, pulling Lily off the couch. He was unsucceful and she simply rolled off the couch and onto the ground with a groan.
"Ow." She rubbed her head where she had hit the table. "You made me fall."
"Oops. My bad." James said innocently, pulling her up to her feet. She tried to balance herself but was too tired. She collapsed onto the couch again.
"James." She moaned. "I got about 4 hours of sleep. Let me sleep some more!"
"No." he said simply. He threw one of her arms around his neck and pulled her up. At first her feet dragged on the ground in attempt to stop him but once this proved unsuccessful she began to walk and she pulled her arm back to her side, glaring at James.
"Don't give me that look." James said. Lily continued to glare. She walked upstairs and straight for her dormitory but James stopped her.
"Get dressed and do something about your breath. Then meet me back here. We're going to go for a walk to wake you up." Said James and before Lily could slap him, he rushed into his dormitory. With in 10 minutes they were one their way out of Gryffindor Tower.
"So where are we going?" Lily asked. James just shrugged his shoulders.
"How about we go for a swim?" he asked. Lily shook her head.
"The lake is freezing." She said, James muttered something that sounded a lot like "Chicken".
"Shut it Potter." Lily snapped, suddenly getting very cold. They entered the Entrance Hall and she looked outside. It was beginning to snow!
"James, look!" she exclaimed, rushing over to the open doors and looked up at the sky. "It's not even November yet."
"Strange." Said James. Lily ran out into the snow, catching snowflakes in her mouth and just laying down on the cold, hard ground, her eyes closed and mouth open. James did the same.
"So how are things going?" asked James.
"Pretty good."
"You getting along with your dad?" he asked.
"Yeah. It was never dad that I had the problem. It's Petunia." Said Lily.
James nodded. "She can be quite the bi-"
"James." Lily warned. "True but mean. Lets just say she can be rude."
"That's an understatement." Said James. Lily laughed. "So other than her, everything's going good?"
"Yeah. Pretty well." Lily said simply. "Why?"
"Just wondering. I couldn't imagine losing my mum." Said James. Lily nodded. "It would be terrible. Not that I don't like my dad but my mum was the one who raised me. My dad is always gone and my mum is the one who is always there."
Lily kept her eyes shut. She knew if she opened them, she would begin to cry and all hell would break lose. In 5 years at the school, no one had ever seen her cry. She didn't cry in front of anyone when she received the letter. She didn't cry during the funeral. Only when she was alone. Mel had never seen her cry. Her father had never seen her cry. Petunia had never seen her cry. When Lily fell off her broom in the first Quidditch game in 2nd year, she didn't cry no matter how badly bruised she was.
"I can't imagine how much it hurts. If you need to talk Lily, I'm here." James said, sitting up. Lily just nodded, biting her lip and not opening her eyes. James smiled.
"Sit up Lily." James said quietly. Lily sat up but still didn't open her eyes. "Open your eyes."
She didn't know why, but she did. Then she lost it. She began to cry, and cry hard. She never could cry in front of anyone else. She kept her feelings to herself. Even if it had been a month, it still hurt and it was sinking in. Her mother was gone, for good. Not coming back. Lost forever.
"God James." Lily said, looking up at the sky. It was barely snowing. "She didn't do anything. Just minding her own business. Why, though she was wearing her seat belt, did she die on the spot but the drunk man whom was not wearing a seat belt was spared a few hours. It was all my fault too. If I hadn't been so fucking demanding."
"Calm down Lil. What do you mean it was your fault?"
Lily was in complete despair and it was hard for James to understand what she was saying. "She was in the accident on the way from the store. Well, she was at the store picking up a brand new pair of dance shoes for my birthday. Because I begged her for them. Because I pleaded and bargained and literally was down on my knees for them. She died for my brand new shoes. Damn it if I just asked for some money she wouldn't been out there on the road."
"Lily, look at me." James said. She looked up from the ground. "It's not your fault she died. It was bound to happen. People die, Lils. It's the circle of life. It's not your fault your mum just happened to be dealt an unlucky card."
Lily lost all control she had then and began to sob harder than she ever had before. But once she was done and smiling at James' stupid jokes, walking back to the common room, she felt better than she ever had before. She knew everything was okay now.
***
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Authors Note: A few things I want to lay down before ya' all read the story.
I'm not a professional writer. I'm 13 years old and still working on writing so please don't be hard on me. That is what teachers are for. So when you come across mistakes and there will be many, do not yell at me because I'm human. Mucha Gracias!
I'm new to the website so I'm still working on uploading things, using the whole bold and italics thing so please be patient with me. If you know how to get italics and bold, it would be much appreciated. (
This is my first Lily and James Fic and though I have read Order of the Phoenix, I'm not going to follow that completely. I will take a few things from the book but there will be many differences. So for anyone who has read Order of the Phoenix, don't blurt out the facts that I have incorrect because there are still people who have not read Order of the Phoenix.
I start school on Monday so my chapter will either not be often or be much shorter than this. If you want me to post less frequently but with longer chapters, let me know. If you would prefer I post shorter chapters (and I'm talking between 1,000-2,000 words) but more often, let me know. Majority wins.
Last of all, I live in America and I did not grow up in the 70's so in future chapters where music is mentioned, it will be more recent music. Occasionally I might slip in American humor and I'm sorry if it goes over some people's head but I can't help. This fic is mainly Romance and Humor. The prologue may be a little sad and depressing but it's what sets the story off. There will not be Lily and James action right away so don't ask about it. If anyone asks me when they are going to get it.
So, with out further udo, I present to you, THE STORY OF MISS EVANS AND MR. POTTER.
*Aphrodite*Venus*
~~~
Prologue: The History Of It All
She sat in the dark common room, the night stars glowing through the windows. It was amazing how just looking at the night sky could calm her fears and make everything okay. It made her realize that there was still hope in the world. Hope for the innocent, hope for the deceived, hope for everyone. Even hope for her. A letter was crunched in her fist, torn and taped back together. It held the news of her mother. The horrible death she had suffered. The terrible loss. The letter was addressed to her, Lily Anne-Marie Evans.
My Dearest Lily,
I hate to tell you such a thing and especially since you are so young but I knew it would be worse if you found out from somebody else.
Your mother was killed in a head-on collision earlier today on her way home from the store. It was terrible. The driver of the car died a few hours after transported to the hospital, obviously he had been drinking and driving. Your mother was proclaimed dead at the scene. The funeral services are being held next week. I wrote to your Headmaster and had you and Melissa excused for the day. I will meet you at Kings Cross. Please take care of yourself sweetheart. Petunia isn't holding up too well. You can probably handle this better than her. I always knew you were more mature. ((Lily gave a small smile at this, tears still running down her cheek)) Be safe sweetie. I'll see you in a few days.
Love,
Dad
That had all taken place a little over a month ago. It had been precisely 33 days, 2 hours, and 21 minutes since she received the letter. It still hurt to read it but Lily had gotten over it. She knew her mum wouldn't want her to dwell on this for so long. She was 15 and had a life to live. She had school, friends, and still family. A future to look forward to. Maybe a future with a special someone.
Lily laughed to herself at the thought of this. Lily with a special someone? She didn't even want a boyfriend. Maybe in time things would change. Not now. It wouldn't be right.
Friends was something she definitely had. Lily had 7 great friends. She would do anything for them.
First, there was Melissa Maczis, practically Lily's 2nd sister. Melissa had a rough childhood. Her father left her and her mother a matter if months after Mel was born. She doesn't even remember him. Ms. Maczis blamed Mel for this. Saying that if she hadn't come alone maybe he wouldn't have left. Things were messed up since then. Mel mainly took care of herself and her little brother on her own. Mrs. Maczis was either working or out with another guy. Mike was 7 years younger than Mel and now that Mel was getting older, she treated Mike like she would take care of a son. When Mel was at school, Mike was allowed to stay at Lily's during the nights since they lived so close to each other. Mr. Evans didn't mind.
Lily's father was young. Her mother had been too. They both had been high school sweethearts and were married as soon as they graduated. Petunia was born when they were 19 and Lily was born 2 years later. When Mr. Evans was around Mike, he acted more like a big brother rather than a father, still taking care of him of course. Petunia wasn't too fond of Mike and Melissa. Lily assumed it was because Mel was also a witch, like Lily. Petunia despised everything that had to do with witchcraft. Freaks, she called them, unnatural, demons, mutants, everything along those lines. Mel and Lily found it quite amusing.
And then there was Anna Tressler, a girl that Mel and Lily met at school. She was the only pureblood of the 3 girls and she filled the two in on everything they needed to know. She was also the only one who didn't have any family issues. She was an only child and her parents were both working in the Ministry and had a happy marriage. The only thing that Lily and Mel didn't like about Anna was that she was very high maintenance and a little too proper sometimes.
For example, last year, their 4th year at Hogwarts, Lily and Mel decided to play outside in the lake which was something most people didn't do and when they did, they went in their robes. Mel decided to be a little daring and wore a bikini since it was so hot outside. Lily wore one too. They both earned many stares from guys and disapproving looks from teachers but there was no rule against it. Anna ignored them for days saying that what they did was down right embarrassing and she was ashamed to be their friend.
One positive outcome of being friends with Anna was that she introduced them into the Marauders, the most notorious group at Hogwarts.
The leader of the pack, James Potter, was hard to classify. He was one of Lily's best friends but her favorite enemy as well. For someone who talked a lot about his girlfriends (and he did have many), the rumor was he never got much action. Lily, Mel and Anna were probably the only girls in their year who hadn't even considered being his girlfriend. His family was rich and his father was Minister of Magic which just added to his popularity.
Sirius Black was a babe-magnet. He flirted with girls non-stop but he never had a girlfriend. When anyone asked him why he always turned girls down, he always said "Relationships are too much trouble." And that was it. He was the dumb-ass of the group, always lost and confused but somehow he managed to keep good grades. Not excellent but not poor. Average. None the less, he was a great guy and very loyal when it came to friends. He never spoke of his family often.
Remus Lupin was the smart, classy, down-to-earth guys of the group. He did attract girls but not like James and Sirius did. One thing that made Remus different than the others was the fact that he was a werewolf. Only he, the guys, and Lily knew about this though. He was also very sweet and an extremely smooth talker. Remus was like a brother to Lily. She talked to him about almost everything.
Last in the group was Peter Pettigrew. Lily wondered how he got into the group because unlike the other guys who were all tall, skinny and handsome (not to mention muscular), Peter was short and stubby, very quiet, shy, and not too bright. While all the other guys played Quidditch, Peter watched from the stands. He was sweet and kind to Lily though but t took a while for him to become not so shy to the girls.
And together, they were all like family, ready to help each other through everything they were about to go through. Through the good times and bad times. Hard and easy. Better or worse. They were ready to embark on the journeys in the ever wizardry world.
As Lily's thoughts on her friends came to an end, Lily began to think about life in general. Sometimes she felt so alone. It wasn't because her mom was gone and she definitely had enough friends. She was missing something. The question was, "What?".
Too tired, to think, Lily laid down on the couch and stared into the fire. It was slowly beginning to die and it steadily grew colder. It was middle-October so of course it was already cold. Without the fire Lily began to shiver. Even her baggy sweatshirt and pajama pants didn't help her at the moment. She took a blanket and threw it over herself. With in minutes she fell asleep, into an easy sleep, dreaming of great things.
"Lily?" someone crept down the stairs and into the common room and spotted Lily laying on the couch, sound asleep. She took a pillow and set it under her friend's head.
"Goodnight Lily."
She turned to leave but stopped when she heard Lily's voice.
"G'Night Mel." Lily whispered, turning over. Mel smiled at her friend and continued up to her dormitory.
***
Lily woke the next day to the sun rising in the window. She got up and rubbed her eyes, looking to see if anyone else was up. It must have still been early because nobody was up. She looked at her watch. It was 6:45 in the morning and not to mention a Saturday. No wonder nobody was up yet.
She pushed the blanket off of her and looked out the window to the rising sun. She knew her hair was a mess and she probably had horrible morning breath but it was too early to head up to the dormitory. She would wake the other girls. That's when she heard somebody coming down the stairs. It was James Potter.
"Hey James." Lily said. He obviously did not notice her there at first. He jumped 2 feet in the air and looked around frantically, whipping out his wand. Lily began to laugh as James spotted her.
All-mighty James was scared just by a simple "Hey" from a friend. Not to mention it was hysterical to see him in a baggy t-shirt and boxers instead of his usual jeans and tight muscle shirts which showed off his fit stomach.
"Damn it Lily. I was about to hex you into next week." James panted, sitting next to Lily. She stopped laughing hard and just smiled, amused. "What's so funny?"
"Just surprised at your reaction to a simple greeting and not to mention your appearance is god awful." Said Lily.
"Well, Miss High and Mighty, you don't look so great yourself." James said, looking at her messy hair and make-up smeared face. Shoot, she thought, I feel asleep with my make-up on.
"Bite me." She said quietly, laying her head back onto her pillow.
"Thanks for the offer but I'll pass." Said James. That's when her noticed the empty cups of coffee and hot chocolate on the table along with many books. "Were you up all night studying?"
Lily nodded, closing her eyes, hoping to fall back asleep. "O.W.L.s this year. What do you expect?"
"O.W.L.s are in about 7 or 8 months." Said James. Lily shook her head.
"So?" she protested. "It's not my fault I care about my grades. Anyway, I'm studying again today if you care to join me. You might want to watch your grades if you want to be a prefect next year again."
"Maybe another day Lils. Today, you are going to hang with the gang." Said James, pulling Lily off the couch. He was unsucceful and she simply rolled off the couch and onto the ground with a groan.
"Ow." She rubbed her head where she had hit the table. "You made me fall."
"Oops. My bad." James said innocently, pulling her up to her feet. She tried to balance herself but was too tired. She collapsed onto the couch again.
"James." She moaned. "I got about 4 hours of sleep. Let me sleep some more!"
"No." he said simply. He threw one of her arms around his neck and pulled her up. At first her feet dragged on the ground in attempt to stop him but once this proved unsuccessful she began to walk and she pulled her arm back to her side, glaring at James.
"Don't give me that look." James said. Lily continued to glare. She walked upstairs and straight for her dormitory but James stopped her.
"Get dressed and do something about your breath. Then meet me back here. We're going to go for a walk to wake you up." Said James and before Lily could slap him, he rushed into his dormitory. With in 10 minutes they were one their way out of Gryffindor Tower.
"So where are we going?" Lily asked. James just shrugged his shoulders.
"How about we go for a swim?" he asked. Lily shook her head.
"The lake is freezing." She said, James muttered something that sounded a lot like "Chicken".
"Shut it Potter." Lily snapped, suddenly getting very cold. They entered the Entrance Hall and she looked outside. It was beginning to snow!
"James, look!" she exclaimed, rushing over to the open doors and looked up at the sky. "It's not even November yet."
"Strange." Said James. Lily ran out into the snow, catching snowflakes in her mouth and just laying down on the cold, hard ground, her eyes closed and mouth open. James did the same.
"So how are things going?" asked James.
"Pretty good."
"You getting along with your dad?" he asked.
"Yeah. It was never dad that I had the problem. It's Petunia." Said Lily.
James nodded. "She can be quite the bi-"
"James." Lily warned. "True but mean. Lets just say she can be rude."
"That's an understatement." Said James. Lily laughed. "So other than her, everything's going good?"
"Yeah. Pretty well." Lily said simply. "Why?"
"Just wondering. I couldn't imagine losing my mum." Said James. Lily nodded. "It would be terrible. Not that I don't like my dad but my mum was the one who raised me. My dad is always gone and my mum is the one who is always there."
Lily kept her eyes shut. She knew if she opened them, she would begin to cry and all hell would break lose. In 5 years at the school, no one had ever seen her cry. She didn't cry in front of anyone when she received the letter. She didn't cry during the funeral. Only when she was alone. Mel had never seen her cry. Her father had never seen her cry. Petunia had never seen her cry. When Lily fell off her broom in the first Quidditch game in 2nd year, she didn't cry no matter how badly bruised she was.
"I can't imagine how much it hurts. If you need to talk Lily, I'm here." James said, sitting up. Lily just nodded, biting her lip and not opening her eyes. James smiled.
"Sit up Lily." James said quietly. Lily sat up but still didn't open her eyes. "Open your eyes."
She didn't know why, but she did. Then she lost it. She began to cry, and cry hard. She never could cry in front of anyone else. She kept her feelings to herself. Even if it had been a month, it still hurt and it was sinking in. Her mother was gone, for good. Not coming back. Lost forever.
"God James." Lily said, looking up at the sky. It was barely snowing. "She didn't do anything. Just minding her own business. Why, though she was wearing her seat belt, did she die on the spot but the drunk man whom was not wearing a seat belt was spared a few hours. It was all my fault too. If I hadn't been so fucking demanding."
"Calm down Lil. What do you mean it was your fault?"
Lily was in complete despair and it was hard for James to understand what she was saying. "She was in the accident on the way from the store. Well, she was at the store picking up a brand new pair of dance shoes for my birthday. Because I begged her for them. Because I pleaded and bargained and literally was down on my knees for them. She died for my brand new shoes. Damn it if I just asked for some money she wouldn't been out there on the road."
"Lily, look at me." James said. She looked up from the ground. "It's not your fault she died. It was bound to happen. People die, Lils. It's the circle of life. It's not your fault your mum just happened to be dealt an unlucky card."
Lily lost all control she had then and began to sob harder than she ever had before. But once she was done and smiling at James' stupid jokes, walking back to the common room, she felt better than she ever had before. She knew everything was okay now.
***
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