By Mystical Star
A Kitty-Chan Production
Disclaimer: Sadly, I don't own Inuyasha. If I did, Kagome and Inuyasha would have been together looong before the second movie! X3
Author's Note: This story will switch between first person and omniscient narration (probably only when the chapter changes) so please be aware so you won't be extremely confused. I know I would ^^;
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Inuyasha – Transformation of Love
As we're flying in the air on Kirara's back, I can't help but notice my stomach turn over. I can't decide if it's because I can't protect Kagome, or if it's because of the poison. Maybe both.
I don't care how it happened. All I know is that now, Kagome could be dying and there's nothing I can do. I hate feeling so helpless.
She probably thinks I'm blaming her for this right now.
She's wrong.
Kagome will never know how I feel about her. She'd never understand. And it's just a guess, but she'd probably think that the reason I care for her is because she looks like Kikyou.
She's wrong again.
Kagome and Kikyou are nothing alike. Especially now.
Kikyou was kindhearted and loving. And sad. I couldn't help but being drawn to her somehow. Yes, it's true, I did love Kikyou. But now that she's back from the dead, things are very different.
Jealousy has eaten her soul. Hate is what she thrives on, along with the souls of other women. The Kikyou I knew would steal souls for herself. She's cold and uncaring now. I still worry for her, but whatever love I had for her is tainted. I will love her until the day that I die. The bond that Kikyou and I shared will never be broken. But I don't love her the way I used to anymore.
Kagome is not Kikyou. This I can understand. It's not difficult. Kagome's much more vivacious that Kikyou ever was. And Kikyou certainly never put a necklace around my neck and told me to get back at me.
But Kagome's different in other ways too. Kagome is not quiet like Kikyou was. She's loud and obnoxious and horribly stubborn, sometimes downright annoying. But I cannot hold that against her. However hard I try, I can't feel any sort of resentment towards her. She worries about me, it's obvious. But she doesn't have to. I'm used to taking care of myself.
I'm worried about her.
After my second fight with Sesshoumaru, I've thought of nothing but her safety. She's so stupid. Running around in this era, endangering herself. Why can't she just stay home and be safe!
Are you alright? I ask her.
I'm okay, I think. How about you?
But how can I want her to stay home when I want her near me so?
I think I should be okay for a while. Demon blood isn't poisoned so easily,
I'm lying. My stomach is killing me. I feel like getting sick, but she doesn't need to know that.
Kagome, you're not going to die, are you? Shippou asks her. Kagome smiles at him and pats his head.
No, Shippou-chan. She said. I won't leave you, or Inuyasha or the others,
Kagome
Inuyasha, I'm so sorry about this, she says. I wish she'd quit feeling so damn guilty!
Don't worry, Kagome. I should have smelled the danger,
I should have known better!
Quit blaming yourself! I don't care! All I want is you here by my side!
Kagome, don't worry about me. I'll be okay as long as you are, I say. I can't believe I said that.
Arigatou, Inuyasha, She whispers. My hand on her shoulder feels the abnormal warmth that her body is radiating. She has a fever.
Her scent changes. Normally, her scent reminds me of a feeling. Like the feeling one might get walking through a grove of cherry trees when they're flowering. But now, she now smells sick, horribly sick. She clutches her stomach.
I feel her muscles loosen and I turn her to face me. She's pale and sweaty. Her eyes are vacant. She's dying.
The effects of the poison are taking a stronger hold over my body now. I can't see straight and Kagome's body is becoming fuzzy. Shippou shouts something. His words are lost on the wind.
Kagome
Is this going to end? Will we both die here?
I can't let you die. Not without knowing how I feel, Kagome. I won't let you leave me! I won't die either, not until I tell you, Kagome. I won't.