Thanks to ALL my reviewers! ^.^ You know u guys really do motivate me to
write more! ^.^ heeheehee!
Cindy Soto: thank u! ^.^;; I tried to not make u wait that long for this chapter, but eh.school work.
Azure Rosas: i THINK this chapter might make this story even sadder, but tell me what ya think. Thanks for all ur thoughts!! Yah.sometimes I find myself wanting to kill syaoran and gensoki ^.^;;
Flareons-Flare: thank u!! ur supposed to say keep. ^.~ whew im glad this story isn't horrible, because I tried hard. Yah I know what ur talking about not reading quality fanfics, I guess that's also why I attempted my own to see how hard it was.
Chibi-Goten-Angel: meh heh, all my chapters will be kinda like cliffhangers. Otherwise u wunt wanna come back to read the next chapter!! And then ill be sad ;-; but! Here's the chapter!
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Sakura closed her eyes as she walked numbly home. She had already started to regret that she gave up cheerleading.and the position of captain. After all, that was one of the few things that could have reminded her that she wasn't completely useless. But now that that was gone.what use did she have? The cards flashed, almost as if they were reading her mind and wanted to remind her that she was the Mistress of the Cards. Her Cards. For the first time in a while, a real smile.although small appeared on her face as she silently thanked her cards.
Once Sakura was in front of the door to her house, she reached up a hand to open it, but it suddenly swung open. Her protective brother, Touya stood in the door frame with a stern expression. Relief filled her heart at once at the sight of him. No matter how annoying he was at times, she always felt safe around him. But the relief lasted only a few seconds as Touya pulled her towards the motorcycle.
"We have to get to the hospital.Dad's there." Touya explained, fighting back his own tears. He knew that this day would be a bad day for her because it was the same day Syaoran had left her. What he didn't know was what had happened to her at school.he didn't know Syaoran had left her for another girl.
Sakura's eyes turned into endless void as tears came streaming out. Her body went numb as Touya placed her on top of the motorcycle and sped off towards the hospital that their father was kept. Everything was falling around her, and she wondered what she could have possibly done to deserve all this in one day.
The ride to the hospital was painfully long. Every second seemed to drag out into an hour until they finally arrived. Touya rushed Sakura into the building that smelled of death and up the stairs towards the room where their father laid. Silence was exchanged between Sakura and her older brother. Another spirit was in the room, her mother's. To Touya's surprise, he could see his mother too weeping besides their father's bed. Fujitaka was lying deathly pale in his bed, the heart monitor by his bed beeping occasionally.slower than the average rate.
Sakura walked up slowly to her father and gripped his hand in hers. "Please.please don't leave us. But if you want to return to mom.then I understand. But don't forget about us. I love you." Tears formed at the corner of her eyes, but she would not allow them to go any further. Her mother's spirit gave a sad smile as she laid one hand on her shoulder. Touya walked moved so he could stand next to her little sister and gave a small smile. "I'll take care of her." Nadeshiko nodded her appreciation towards the understanding of her son, and turned her attention back towards her lover. She knew of Sakura's depressing day, and it killed her heart to not be able to do anything about it. She couldn't even tell Touya about it because she couldn't even mutter a single word. Watching Sakura from the corner of her eye, she wondered if her heart would completely shut itself after this incident.
Indeed, Sakura's heart did completely shut itself. Before it used to be open to friends.but she decided that wasn't even worth having her as a friend. After they both stayed until the hospital closed with no response from their father, they drove him. The ride was quiet, and Sakura closed her eyes and thought about how impossible it was for a person's life to change with just one day. But obviously it was possible because it was happening to her. Her life went from perfect to a crumbling piece of nothingness in one day.
When they arrived at their home, Sakura went straight to her room ignoring Touya's worried comments and calls for dinner. She curled under her covers and silently cried herself to sleep, turning away from Kero so he wouldn't see. But he could hear the sniffles coming out from beneath the covers. Not wanting to pry, he stayed in his drawer and fell asleep listening to her sniffles.
When he awoke the next morning, he groggily floated over to Sakura's bed to wake her up.but she wasn't there. In fact none of her school stuff was in her room either.
"Sakura.what's wrong.?" he whispered to her empty room.
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Sakura sat stiffly at her desk, lost in her own reality.her own cruel reality. Each second wasted away her pitiful life away as she paid no heed. The door opened and closed, but the sound never reached her ears.it was blocked out. It was none other than Syaoran with alarm ringing through his entire body.
He should have felt Sakura's aura.but he felt nothing. It disturbed his greatly, but what scared him even more was that even though he was now only standing a few feet away from her.he still could feel no aura. It was as if some dark void had sucked it away. He walked closer to her.but it felt as if she didn't even exist.
Syaoran's amber eyes warmed up towards Sakura as he gently placed a hand on her shoulder. This was probably one of the few times that they could be alone.so perhaps she would be able to speak freely.
"Sakura.are you ok?" Syaoran asked with concern.
Sakura didn't respond, she was still trapped in her own dark reality. For all she knew there was no Syaoran standing next to her. Her mind went back to last night's events.of seeing her father looking like Death had possessed him in the hospital.
Syaoran's eyebrows furrowed together when she didn't respond. He shoke her shoulder a little bit, snapping her back from her dark reality into the real reality.where there the only difference was that there was actual existence of people. Sakura's empty face turned up to look up at the person who made contact with her.
Syaoran almost gasped at what he saw. Of course Sakura was still as beautiful as ever.but her eyes.they were so haunting. So filled with loneliness, fear, hatred, and most of all.pain. The once bright emerald green had blackened into such a dark green.that one could only tell it was green when light reflected on it. But even that seemed impossible because it was as if those dark orbs that replaced her eyes absorbed any light.any hope.
The expression that she had given him was a mixture of lost confusion, as if she was trying to figure out who he was. Then her entire expression turned cold, although she forced a smile. With a hallow voice, she spoke each word with such perfect fake happiness that he almost believed it.
"I'm fine.I just had a nightmare about ghosts last night," Sakura said with no enthusiasm. "Thanks for worrying."
Syaoran was about to push Sakura for a real answer when he suddenly felt arms wrap around him. It was Gensoki. He watched Sakura's eyes carefully as he waited for her reaction.but there was no change. Her eyes were already so filled with pain that it couldn't express a more pained look. She only looked away.
Gensoki was dressed in her cheerleading uniform because there was a game that she and her squad would be cheering at. She happily greeted her morning to Syaoran, but gave a stiff and meaningless greeting to Sakura. Syaoran took no notice of this and only hugged Gensoki while returning the greeting. But her uniform caught his attention immediately.but it wasn't on Gensoki.it a thought on why Sakura wasn't in it.
"Hey, Sakura? Why aren't you wearing you uniform. I thought you were captain." Syaoran asked, directing his attention towards Sakura.
But Gensoki fumed and traced her finger along Syaoran's neck. "She's not a cheerleader. I'M the captain of the cheerleading squad.aren't you proud of me?"
Syaoran's eyes widened slightly when he heard this remark. He could have sworn that she told him that she was the cheerleading captain.that was one of the few things that she had told him since he arrived in Japan. Although that could be easily excused as a dream.he knew for a fact that Sakura had been a cheerleader since elementary school. The fact that she wasn't anymore was too absurd to his mind.
"Of course I'm proud! I knew you would be better than everybody there," Syaoran congratulated Gensoki, but as soon as those words left his mouth he realized that he didn't expect that. He had expected that Sakura would of course be better than her.but maybe this was not so.
"Oh, I don't know.I thought Sakura was better than me. She seems to have lots and lots of experience," Gensoki said in her sugar coated voice as she pretended to look awed. She moved closer to Syaoran and kissed him.
Syaoran pulled Gensoki closer as their kiss deepened. Sakura saw all this in with their reflections in the mirror. No tears came out though.her heart seemed to have adjusted to all the pain and refused to shed more tears. But the scene that played in the window's reflections just added to the heavy burden on her heart that was threatening to break at any second.
The door slid open, revealing a cheerful amethyst-eyed girl, Tomoyo. But as soon as she absorbed the scene in front of her, the door slammed shut surprising the couple out of each other's arms. Storming up to Syaoran, she shoved him away from Sakura's desk with such force that he actually stumbled backwards.
"Sakura.? Sakura? Are you ok?" Tomoyo asked as she knelt down by her desk. When Sakura didn't turn to look at her, she still continued. "Touya called me last night.and told me about your dad. I'm so sorry.if there's anything I can do, just tell me." Sakura still made no response, only a small sigh escaped her lips.
Tomoyo stood up, fury vibrating in every vein of her body. She had heard from Chiharu that Sakura quit the cheerleading squad and handed her position to Gensoki. Imaging everything Sakura went through that one day was enough to make her eyes blaze. She calmly walked towards Syaoran and slapped him, leaving a red mark on his cheek. Before Syaoran could respond, Gensoki did. She slapped Tomoyo back in the face trying to defend Syaoran, not knowing that was making things even worse.
Tomoyo felt like exploding at this ignorant girl for all the trouble she had caused to everybody.especially Sakura. But Syaoran held Tomoyo back as Gensoki gave a sly grin as if to say "you can't hurt me.Syaoran will protect me." Tomoyo was about to unleash all her wrath on Syaoran for restraining her instead of that girl.
"One day.one day I WILL kill you, Li Syaoran," Tomoyo hissed through her teeth as she turned around to give him a glare that would have made the sky fall. Wrenching out of his grip, she knelt down next to Sakura's desk, whispering words of comfort that couldn't even reach Sakura.
Syaoran was taken aback at Tomoyo's sudden outburst. He knew her as one of the most self-contained persons. He opened his mouth to apologize, but once again Gensoki began to whisper to him first.
"That bitch.what's HER problem?" Gensoki sneered at her as she turned concerned eyes towards her Syaoran.
Syaoran looked down at his girlfriend with a surprised expression. "She's one of my closest friends.don't say stuff like that about her."
Gensoki's mouth immediately shut as she regretted opening her mouth. Syaoran retreated into his own thoughts as he thought about what Tomoyo had said about Sakura's father. He wondered exactly what was going on in her life and why she refused to talk to him. Jealousy could easily explain all the previous events that occurred, but he wasn't so sure that it could explain that haunting look that now embedded itself into Syaoran's mind.
As Sakura sat at her desk not responding to anything, as Tomoyo knelt by her desk trying to comfort her friend, as Syaoran lost himself in his thoughts, and as Gensoki fumed with jealousy that Sakura could put on a "fake" act to gain attention, the class began to fill in with other students.
As the class assembled themselves, the teacher came in shortly afterwards making the class settle down. While he was teaching math, he called on Sakura to demonstrate a few solving processes. But Sakura didn't even look at him or give him any sort of reaction that she planned to obey the teacher. Shaking his head, he gave Sakura detention even though he really didn't want to because Sakura was usually such a good student.
The entire class turned to look at Sakura, wondering why she had suddenly turned into a rebellious silent student. But she didn't even notice the students' gazes or even any sound had occurred since she saw Syaoran and Gensoki kissing this morning. She hadn't even moved from her position that she had from the very beginning. Her mind was trapped in a dark endless void where she was all alone. She lost consciousness of the actual reality as dark memories repeated themselves over and over in her mind like a broken player.
Cindy Soto: thank u! ^.^;; I tried to not make u wait that long for this chapter, but eh.school work.
Azure Rosas: i THINK this chapter might make this story even sadder, but tell me what ya think. Thanks for all ur thoughts!! Yah.sometimes I find myself wanting to kill syaoran and gensoki ^.^;;
Flareons-Flare: thank u!! ur supposed to say keep. ^.~ whew im glad this story isn't horrible, because I tried hard. Yah I know what ur talking about not reading quality fanfics, I guess that's also why I attempted my own to see how hard it was.
Chibi-Goten-Angel: meh heh, all my chapters will be kinda like cliffhangers. Otherwise u wunt wanna come back to read the next chapter!! And then ill be sad ;-; but! Here's the chapter!
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Sakura closed her eyes as she walked numbly home. She had already started to regret that she gave up cheerleading.and the position of captain. After all, that was one of the few things that could have reminded her that she wasn't completely useless. But now that that was gone.what use did she have? The cards flashed, almost as if they were reading her mind and wanted to remind her that she was the Mistress of the Cards. Her Cards. For the first time in a while, a real smile.although small appeared on her face as she silently thanked her cards.
Once Sakura was in front of the door to her house, she reached up a hand to open it, but it suddenly swung open. Her protective brother, Touya stood in the door frame with a stern expression. Relief filled her heart at once at the sight of him. No matter how annoying he was at times, she always felt safe around him. But the relief lasted only a few seconds as Touya pulled her towards the motorcycle.
"We have to get to the hospital.Dad's there." Touya explained, fighting back his own tears. He knew that this day would be a bad day for her because it was the same day Syaoran had left her. What he didn't know was what had happened to her at school.he didn't know Syaoran had left her for another girl.
Sakura's eyes turned into endless void as tears came streaming out. Her body went numb as Touya placed her on top of the motorcycle and sped off towards the hospital that their father was kept. Everything was falling around her, and she wondered what she could have possibly done to deserve all this in one day.
The ride to the hospital was painfully long. Every second seemed to drag out into an hour until they finally arrived. Touya rushed Sakura into the building that smelled of death and up the stairs towards the room where their father laid. Silence was exchanged between Sakura and her older brother. Another spirit was in the room, her mother's. To Touya's surprise, he could see his mother too weeping besides their father's bed. Fujitaka was lying deathly pale in his bed, the heart monitor by his bed beeping occasionally.slower than the average rate.
Sakura walked up slowly to her father and gripped his hand in hers. "Please.please don't leave us. But if you want to return to mom.then I understand. But don't forget about us. I love you." Tears formed at the corner of her eyes, but she would not allow them to go any further. Her mother's spirit gave a sad smile as she laid one hand on her shoulder. Touya walked moved so he could stand next to her little sister and gave a small smile. "I'll take care of her." Nadeshiko nodded her appreciation towards the understanding of her son, and turned her attention back towards her lover. She knew of Sakura's depressing day, and it killed her heart to not be able to do anything about it. She couldn't even tell Touya about it because she couldn't even mutter a single word. Watching Sakura from the corner of her eye, she wondered if her heart would completely shut itself after this incident.
Indeed, Sakura's heart did completely shut itself. Before it used to be open to friends.but she decided that wasn't even worth having her as a friend. After they both stayed until the hospital closed with no response from their father, they drove him. The ride was quiet, and Sakura closed her eyes and thought about how impossible it was for a person's life to change with just one day. But obviously it was possible because it was happening to her. Her life went from perfect to a crumbling piece of nothingness in one day.
When they arrived at their home, Sakura went straight to her room ignoring Touya's worried comments and calls for dinner. She curled under her covers and silently cried herself to sleep, turning away from Kero so he wouldn't see. But he could hear the sniffles coming out from beneath the covers. Not wanting to pry, he stayed in his drawer and fell asleep listening to her sniffles.
When he awoke the next morning, he groggily floated over to Sakura's bed to wake her up.but she wasn't there. In fact none of her school stuff was in her room either.
"Sakura.what's wrong.?" he whispered to her empty room.
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Sakura sat stiffly at her desk, lost in her own reality.her own cruel reality. Each second wasted away her pitiful life away as she paid no heed. The door opened and closed, but the sound never reached her ears.it was blocked out. It was none other than Syaoran with alarm ringing through his entire body.
He should have felt Sakura's aura.but he felt nothing. It disturbed his greatly, but what scared him even more was that even though he was now only standing a few feet away from her.he still could feel no aura. It was as if some dark void had sucked it away. He walked closer to her.but it felt as if she didn't even exist.
Syaoran's amber eyes warmed up towards Sakura as he gently placed a hand on her shoulder. This was probably one of the few times that they could be alone.so perhaps she would be able to speak freely.
"Sakura.are you ok?" Syaoran asked with concern.
Sakura didn't respond, she was still trapped in her own dark reality. For all she knew there was no Syaoran standing next to her. Her mind went back to last night's events.of seeing her father looking like Death had possessed him in the hospital.
Syaoran's eyebrows furrowed together when she didn't respond. He shoke her shoulder a little bit, snapping her back from her dark reality into the real reality.where there the only difference was that there was actual existence of people. Sakura's empty face turned up to look up at the person who made contact with her.
Syaoran almost gasped at what he saw. Of course Sakura was still as beautiful as ever.but her eyes.they were so haunting. So filled with loneliness, fear, hatred, and most of all.pain. The once bright emerald green had blackened into such a dark green.that one could only tell it was green when light reflected on it. But even that seemed impossible because it was as if those dark orbs that replaced her eyes absorbed any light.any hope.
The expression that she had given him was a mixture of lost confusion, as if she was trying to figure out who he was. Then her entire expression turned cold, although she forced a smile. With a hallow voice, she spoke each word with such perfect fake happiness that he almost believed it.
"I'm fine.I just had a nightmare about ghosts last night," Sakura said with no enthusiasm. "Thanks for worrying."
Syaoran was about to push Sakura for a real answer when he suddenly felt arms wrap around him. It was Gensoki. He watched Sakura's eyes carefully as he waited for her reaction.but there was no change. Her eyes were already so filled with pain that it couldn't express a more pained look. She only looked away.
Gensoki was dressed in her cheerleading uniform because there was a game that she and her squad would be cheering at. She happily greeted her morning to Syaoran, but gave a stiff and meaningless greeting to Sakura. Syaoran took no notice of this and only hugged Gensoki while returning the greeting. But her uniform caught his attention immediately.but it wasn't on Gensoki.it a thought on why Sakura wasn't in it.
"Hey, Sakura? Why aren't you wearing you uniform. I thought you were captain." Syaoran asked, directing his attention towards Sakura.
But Gensoki fumed and traced her finger along Syaoran's neck. "She's not a cheerleader. I'M the captain of the cheerleading squad.aren't you proud of me?"
Syaoran's eyes widened slightly when he heard this remark. He could have sworn that she told him that she was the cheerleading captain.that was one of the few things that she had told him since he arrived in Japan. Although that could be easily excused as a dream.he knew for a fact that Sakura had been a cheerleader since elementary school. The fact that she wasn't anymore was too absurd to his mind.
"Of course I'm proud! I knew you would be better than everybody there," Syaoran congratulated Gensoki, but as soon as those words left his mouth he realized that he didn't expect that. He had expected that Sakura would of course be better than her.but maybe this was not so.
"Oh, I don't know.I thought Sakura was better than me. She seems to have lots and lots of experience," Gensoki said in her sugar coated voice as she pretended to look awed. She moved closer to Syaoran and kissed him.
Syaoran pulled Gensoki closer as their kiss deepened. Sakura saw all this in with their reflections in the mirror. No tears came out though.her heart seemed to have adjusted to all the pain and refused to shed more tears. But the scene that played in the window's reflections just added to the heavy burden on her heart that was threatening to break at any second.
The door slid open, revealing a cheerful amethyst-eyed girl, Tomoyo. But as soon as she absorbed the scene in front of her, the door slammed shut surprising the couple out of each other's arms. Storming up to Syaoran, she shoved him away from Sakura's desk with such force that he actually stumbled backwards.
"Sakura.? Sakura? Are you ok?" Tomoyo asked as she knelt down by her desk. When Sakura didn't turn to look at her, she still continued. "Touya called me last night.and told me about your dad. I'm so sorry.if there's anything I can do, just tell me." Sakura still made no response, only a small sigh escaped her lips.
Tomoyo stood up, fury vibrating in every vein of her body. She had heard from Chiharu that Sakura quit the cheerleading squad and handed her position to Gensoki. Imaging everything Sakura went through that one day was enough to make her eyes blaze. She calmly walked towards Syaoran and slapped him, leaving a red mark on his cheek. Before Syaoran could respond, Gensoki did. She slapped Tomoyo back in the face trying to defend Syaoran, not knowing that was making things even worse.
Tomoyo felt like exploding at this ignorant girl for all the trouble she had caused to everybody.especially Sakura. But Syaoran held Tomoyo back as Gensoki gave a sly grin as if to say "you can't hurt me.Syaoran will protect me." Tomoyo was about to unleash all her wrath on Syaoran for restraining her instead of that girl.
"One day.one day I WILL kill you, Li Syaoran," Tomoyo hissed through her teeth as she turned around to give him a glare that would have made the sky fall. Wrenching out of his grip, she knelt down next to Sakura's desk, whispering words of comfort that couldn't even reach Sakura.
Syaoran was taken aback at Tomoyo's sudden outburst. He knew her as one of the most self-contained persons. He opened his mouth to apologize, but once again Gensoki began to whisper to him first.
"That bitch.what's HER problem?" Gensoki sneered at her as she turned concerned eyes towards her Syaoran.
Syaoran looked down at his girlfriend with a surprised expression. "She's one of my closest friends.don't say stuff like that about her."
Gensoki's mouth immediately shut as she regretted opening her mouth. Syaoran retreated into his own thoughts as he thought about what Tomoyo had said about Sakura's father. He wondered exactly what was going on in her life and why she refused to talk to him. Jealousy could easily explain all the previous events that occurred, but he wasn't so sure that it could explain that haunting look that now embedded itself into Syaoran's mind.
As Sakura sat at her desk not responding to anything, as Tomoyo knelt by her desk trying to comfort her friend, as Syaoran lost himself in his thoughts, and as Gensoki fumed with jealousy that Sakura could put on a "fake" act to gain attention, the class began to fill in with other students.
As the class assembled themselves, the teacher came in shortly afterwards making the class settle down. While he was teaching math, he called on Sakura to demonstrate a few solving processes. But Sakura didn't even look at him or give him any sort of reaction that she planned to obey the teacher. Shaking his head, he gave Sakura detention even though he really didn't want to because Sakura was usually such a good student.
The entire class turned to look at Sakura, wondering why she had suddenly turned into a rebellious silent student. But she didn't even notice the students' gazes or even any sound had occurred since she saw Syaoran and Gensoki kissing this morning. She hadn't even moved from her position that she had from the very beginning. Her mind was trapped in a dark endless void where she was all alone. She lost consciousness of the actual reality as dark memories repeated themselves over and over in her mind like a broken player.