'Why is it I always seem to bring fights to people I care about? I just
don't get it..'
I sighed and buried my head in my hands as I sat on the bed in my dorm.
Everything was falling to shit, and pretty fast too. There was this new
threat and I had no idea what I was going to do. I only seemed to be
causing troubles for the rest of the group. How the hell did the guiding
forces believe I would be of any help?
'Leona.?'
I sat up when I heard Zell's voice on the other side of my door. No, he couldn't see me now. I looked over in the mirror and saw how totally drained I really was. I didn't just feel it; I looked it too.
'Leona? Come on, open the door, please kitten!'
I couldn't let him in. I don't deserve him; I don't deserve any of this. It was like a dream come true to come here but now it's quickly turning into a nightmare. I do not deserve to look any of them in the face because there is no way I could be their savior. I'm klutzy, I panic too much, I'm too emotional. no matter what battle skills I possessed and learned from them. I could never save them.
.Could never save them...
'I'm sorry Zell....' I whispered, stepping up to the door and pressing my palm against it, 'but I'm just not meant to be here. please, forgive me.' I pulled away and walked towards the window. As I climbed out and looked back, hearing Zell's frustrated yells and fists pounding my door, I felt as if I was leaving a part of myself. The tears threatened to flow down my cheeks.. But I held back, I had cried too much, I was useless; nothing more than a big cry baby.
'I'm sorry everyone. I cant be the heroine you all wish me to be..'
~*~
'What do you mean she's GONE?!' Zell roared, throwing his arms out at his sides frantically.
'She's just. gone Zell - Selphie and I went to visit her this morning at her dorm and.. It was empty. No note. no nothing. I'm sorry,' Quistis said solemnly, placing a hand on Zell's arms.
'No! She can't have gone far! I'll find her!' Zell exclaimed, practically knocking Quistis to the ground in his rush to leave.
'Zell!!' Quistis screamed, 'don't go! We need you here! The Guardian Forces predicted the attack to be some time soon, we cant afford to be scattered!'
'I don't care! We're already scattered anyhow! Leona's one of us Quistis, and I will not abandon her! We need her as much as she needs us!'
'Zell. I believe she left out of her own free will.'
Zell turned around to see Squall and Rinoa standing in the doorway, blocking his exit.
'Tch! What the hell would you know Squall?! For all we know the enemy could have captured her! Knowing she was a threat to him!' Zell exclaimed, 'No get out of my way, I have to go find her!'
Squall held his ground, and so did Rinoa.
'I know Zell, I sensed it.. she wants to go home,' Rinoa said, her voice dangerously serious. Zell stumbled back a bit and looked confused. then shook his head disbelievingly.
'NO! I wont believe that crap - Leona was happy here. she was happy with us..' Zell drifted off and turned around so his back was to the other three and shut his eyes tight, tears burning at his lids, '.. She was happy with me.'
'Zell.' Quistis said softly, coming up behind him and soothingly rubbing his back, 'She's not from our world - she's not even supposed to be here really.'
Zell turned around and looked at Quistis, his eyes red and glossy with tears.
'If she wasn't really meant to be here. why did the Guardian Forces rely on her. they believe in her, they know she's supposed to be here as much as they are.. '
Squall sighed and walked up to Zell, Rinoa following behind him.
'Look, Zell. Rinoa felt something last night.. the same feeling she felt when Rinoa arrived.' Squall explained softly. Zell looked up at Rinoa then to squall, then back to Rinoa. He was so confused.
Rinoa bit her lower lip and nodded.
'She's already gone back, Zell...'
Zell's face paled and his jaw dropped.
'NO..'
Rinoa nodded, coming closer to Zell to wrap her arms around him comfortingly but he pulled away, the tears he tried so desperately to hold back, spilling over his lids and trickling down his cheeks.
'Take me there!! Rinoa, goddamn it! Do something!! Take me to where she is; I don't care! I'm not letting her go.!! I know you did this Rinoa! You're the only one who can!!' Zell cried frantically.
'Zell I cant! I don't know how!' Rinoa cried.
'ARGH! FUCK JUST DO SOMETHING!' Zell screamed, pounding his fists onto the table.
Zell!' Squall snapped, grabbing Zell by the collar of his shirt, 'you watch your mouth and calm the fuck down. She willed it herself, it wasn't Rinoa's or anyone else's doing!'
Squall let Zell go, Zell collapsing to the floor on his knees, his head in his hands. His shoulders shook violently, the tears hot and stinging. Hyne. he had never cried this hard before in his life. Had he truly fallen in love with Leona? Of course he had.. And now she was gone.. Gone..
'Hey. Zell. come on Man, you knew it wasn't meant to be. she didn't belong here.' Squall said softly. Zell drew in a quivering breath and suddenly stood up, squaring his shoulders and walked to the door. He turned around and grinned fiercely at them.
'She did. and I don't care what I have to do, I'm going to get her back.'
Zell! Don't be crazy!' Quistis yelled, following Zell out of the room. She practically had to urn to keep up with his pace, even though he was walking, albeit briskly.
'If Leona can get back to her world. maybe I can too.' Zell said, slowing down a bit, turning around to face Quistis, 'Quisty. if you have ANY idea of how I could get there. please, help me.'
'I don't think there is a way, Zell. The reason she was able to get back was because she originally is from there. You may have a chance. but it must be close to impossible.'
'Can you not think of anything?' Zell asked desperately.
Quistis sighed and held her hands out, palms up.
'I guess. I guess you could go speak to Edea. perhaps she knows something.. I don't know though Zell.'
Zell walked up and hugged Quistis and smiled at her.
'Don't worry. I'm gonna be fine. and I'm going to get Leona back.'
Zell let go of Quistis and started to walk out of Balamb Garden when she cried out to him again. Zell turned around and looked at her curiously.
'What is it Quisty?'
'Um. when. when you find Leona. just tell her. I'm sorry; I didn't mean what I said. And I'm sorry to you too Zell, it's my fault she's left.'
Zell sighed and walked back to Quistis and comfortingly placed his hand on her arm.
'Quistis. I bet Rinoa's right, maybe she just wanted to go home. I'll find her; don't worry. Tell the others I wont be long and both Leona and I will be back in time to fight whatever the hells coming.'
'Right,' Quistis said, nodding her head. Zell grinned and ran off, Quistis watching him, 'I just hope you don't get stuck in her world Zell..
A/N: NNNNAAAAAHHH!! ^^;;; *gets the biggest sweat drop known to anime kind* good god I had a wicked bad case of writers! I would like to thank cute - kitty who recently reviewed and reminded me of this story! You rock my socks! It got my ass back in gear and my writer's block gone! I'm only warning now though, my workload from school has increased so it will be hard to update. but I have a wicked awesome plan for this fic!
Thanks everyone!
'Leona.?'
I sat up when I heard Zell's voice on the other side of my door. No, he couldn't see me now. I looked over in the mirror and saw how totally drained I really was. I didn't just feel it; I looked it too.
'Leona? Come on, open the door, please kitten!'
I couldn't let him in. I don't deserve him; I don't deserve any of this. It was like a dream come true to come here but now it's quickly turning into a nightmare. I do not deserve to look any of them in the face because there is no way I could be their savior. I'm klutzy, I panic too much, I'm too emotional. no matter what battle skills I possessed and learned from them. I could never save them.
.Could never save them...
'I'm sorry Zell....' I whispered, stepping up to the door and pressing my palm against it, 'but I'm just not meant to be here. please, forgive me.' I pulled away and walked towards the window. As I climbed out and looked back, hearing Zell's frustrated yells and fists pounding my door, I felt as if I was leaving a part of myself. The tears threatened to flow down my cheeks.. But I held back, I had cried too much, I was useless; nothing more than a big cry baby.
'I'm sorry everyone. I cant be the heroine you all wish me to be..'
~*~
'What do you mean she's GONE?!' Zell roared, throwing his arms out at his sides frantically.
'She's just. gone Zell - Selphie and I went to visit her this morning at her dorm and.. It was empty. No note. no nothing. I'm sorry,' Quistis said solemnly, placing a hand on Zell's arms.
'No! She can't have gone far! I'll find her!' Zell exclaimed, practically knocking Quistis to the ground in his rush to leave.
'Zell!!' Quistis screamed, 'don't go! We need you here! The Guardian Forces predicted the attack to be some time soon, we cant afford to be scattered!'
'I don't care! We're already scattered anyhow! Leona's one of us Quistis, and I will not abandon her! We need her as much as she needs us!'
'Zell. I believe she left out of her own free will.'
Zell turned around to see Squall and Rinoa standing in the doorway, blocking his exit.
'Tch! What the hell would you know Squall?! For all we know the enemy could have captured her! Knowing she was a threat to him!' Zell exclaimed, 'No get out of my way, I have to go find her!'
Squall held his ground, and so did Rinoa.
'I know Zell, I sensed it.. she wants to go home,' Rinoa said, her voice dangerously serious. Zell stumbled back a bit and looked confused. then shook his head disbelievingly.
'NO! I wont believe that crap - Leona was happy here. she was happy with us..' Zell drifted off and turned around so his back was to the other three and shut his eyes tight, tears burning at his lids, '.. She was happy with me.'
'Zell.' Quistis said softly, coming up behind him and soothingly rubbing his back, 'She's not from our world - she's not even supposed to be here really.'
Zell turned around and looked at Quistis, his eyes red and glossy with tears.
'If she wasn't really meant to be here. why did the Guardian Forces rely on her. they believe in her, they know she's supposed to be here as much as they are.. '
Squall sighed and walked up to Zell, Rinoa following behind him.
'Look, Zell. Rinoa felt something last night.. the same feeling she felt when Rinoa arrived.' Squall explained softly. Zell looked up at Rinoa then to squall, then back to Rinoa. He was so confused.
Rinoa bit her lower lip and nodded.
'She's already gone back, Zell...'
Zell's face paled and his jaw dropped.
'NO..'
Rinoa nodded, coming closer to Zell to wrap her arms around him comfortingly but he pulled away, the tears he tried so desperately to hold back, spilling over his lids and trickling down his cheeks.
'Take me there!! Rinoa, goddamn it! Do something!! Take me to where she is; I don't care! I'm not letting her go.!! I know you did this Rinoa! You're the only one who can!!' Zell cried frantically.
'Zell I cant! I don't know how!' Rinoa cried.
'ARGH! FUCK JUST DO SOMETHING!' Zell screamed, pounding his fists onto the table.
Zell!' Squall snapped, grabbing Zell by the collar of his shirt, 'you watch your mouth and calm the fuck down. She willed it herself, it wasn't Rinoa's or anyone else's doing!'
Squall let Zell go, Zell collapsing to the floor on his knees, his head in his hands. His shoulders shook violently, the tears hot and stinging. Hyne. he had never cried this hard before in his life. Had he truly fallen in love with Leona? Of course he had.. And now she was gone.. Gone..
'Hey. Zell. come on Man, you knew it wasn't meant to be. she didn't belong here.' Squall said softly. Zell drew in a quivering breath and suddenly stood up, squaring his shoulders and walked to the door. He turned around and grinned fiercely at them.
'She did. and I don't care what I have to do, I'm going to get her back.'
Zell! Don't be crazy!' Quistis yelled, following Zell out of the room. She practically had to urn to keep up with his pace, even though he was walking, albeit briskly.
'If Leona can get back to her world. maybe I can too.' Zell said, slowing down a bit, turning around to face Quistis, 'Quisty. if you have ANY idea of how I could get there. please, help me.'
'I don't think there is a way, Zell. The reason she was able to get back was because she originally is from there. You may have a chance. but it must be close to impossible.'
'Can you not think of anything?' Zell asked desperately.
Quistis sighed and held her hands out, palms up.
'I guess. I guess you could go speak to Edea. perhaps she knows something.. I don't know though Zell.'
Zell walked up and hugged Quistis and smiled at her.
'Don't worry. I'm gonna be fine. and I'm going to get Leona back.'
Zell let go of Quistis and started to walk out of Balamb Garden when she cried out to him again. Zell turned around and looked at her curiously.
'What is it Quisty?'
'Um. when. when you find Leona. just tell her. I'm sorry; I didn't mean what I said. And I'm sorry to you too Zell, it's my fault she's left.'
Zell sighed and walked back to Quistis and comfortingly placed his hand on her arm.
'Quistis. I bet Rinoa's right, maybe she just wanted to go home. I'll find her; don't worry. Tell the others I wont be long and both Leona and I will be back in time to fight whatever the hells coming.'
'Right,' Quistis said, nodding her head. Zell grinned and ran off, Quistis watching him, 'I just hope you don't get stuck in her world Zell..
A/N: NNNNAAAAAHHH!! ^^;;; *gets the biggest sweat drop known to anime kind* good god I had a wicked bad case of writers! I would like to thank cute - kitty who recently reviewed and reminded me of this story! You rock my socks! It got my ass back in gear and my writer's block gone! I'm only warning now though, my workload from school has increased so it will be hard to update. but I have a wicked awesome plan for this fic!
Thanks everyone!