A Man Possessed - An Evangelion songfic
This fic will be based on a selection of songs from Evanescence's new album Fallen. This might have already been done, I know that someone's covering the whole album, but these songs reminded me so much of what could possibly happen in the Evangelion universe. Hell, any song off the Fallen album seems to remind me of Eva...it's bloody freaky...
I'd like to thank Amy, Ben, Francesco and Josh in advance for not suing my ass off. I also pay the same tribute to Evangelion and its creators, Hideaki Anno and Gainax Inc. It's good to hear that people like this songfic so much. To be honest it started out as a time-filling project, but seeing as people liked it so, I have continued it. I'll probably only do one more song after this, but if I can think of more ideas, I'll do more.
This chapter is based on the song Taking Over Me. Shinji reached Asuka, just as she slipped into unconsciousness. Shinji has maintained an almost constant bedside vigil, his heart as fragile as her tattered soul...
Anyway, without further ado, A Man Possessed: Taking Over Me
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[Three days...]
Shinji was seated in the only chair in the room, a hard, wooden one. Shinji, however, couldn't feel the bony spokes of the chair frame digging into his back or the cold sterility of the room in general. All that he could see was the figure lying in the bed, all he could hear was the steady, slow beep of the heart monitor, all he could feel was guilt, sorrow and a heavy form of hope.
{You don't remember me, but I remember you...}
The song that had been haunting him since the incident began playing back in his mind. His guilt overwhelmed him, reminded him that he was the one who pushed Asuka over the edge, it was his fault that she did this to herself...
{I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you...}
"Asuka..." Shinji raised his head, to see the still resting body of Asuka Sohryu, lifting a hand to stroke her head gently. He gazed into her heavenly face, eyelids closed over her azure eyes.
"...You look so peaceful when you sleep..." he said, calmly, maintaining his composure, "...I can't stop thinking about you..."
{But who can decide what they dream? And dream I do...}
[Anytime I close my eyes, yours open up...it scares me...if I don't see them again soon, I'll see them every time I close my eyes for the rest of my life...]
"I'm..." Shinji tried as hard as he could to keep his cool, but he soon broke down, tears dropping onto the pillow next to Asuka's head, as Shinji hid his face with his arms. "Damn it, it's all my fault!" he wailed, "I didn't mean what I said, Asuka, I just wanted to shut you up!"
His sobs could be heard from the hallway. "I'm...so sorry, Asuka...please...I need you..."
{I believe in you/I'll give up everything just to find you/I have to be with you to live, to breathe/you're taking over me...}
Shinji remembered the one incident that started it all, when he had finally confronted Asuka with her deepest, darkest secret, and threw another secret of hers right back into her face, a secret that she even kept from herself: that she loved Shinji.
"I had no idea you felt this way..." he said, in between whimpers, "I didn't mean to throw it in your face like that...I was angry..."
{Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?}
"Damn it, Asuka...if you weren't too proud to admit you loved me, none of this would've happened..." Shinji lowered his head. "No...it was my fault..."
[I've been here for four days...I wonder what they think at school...]
"Please...it's driving me nuts, Asuka...come back soon..." Shinji stood up to leave, and turned his head. He took one step to the door, then stopped. [I was too rough on her...]
{You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand...I knew you loved me then...}
Another step, slightly slower than the last. [Why did I have to be so violent? Why couldn't I just take it lightly...]
His next step out the door was more confident. [Because she had abused me since she knew me, despite the fact that she loved me...and I loved her...]
Another step toward the door, slower than ever. He looked up, and saw his reflection in the door. He could swear he saw his lost love's eyes stare back at him.
Shinji saw his eyes begin to water. {I look in the mirror, and see your face, if I look deep enough...}
Shinji let out a howl of despair, running back to the prone Second Child, arms wrapping around her, taking care not to disturb her injured wrists. "I'm sorry!" he cried, louder and more stricken than before, "I didn't want you to do this! I only wanted your respect! God, I'm sorry Asuka!"
He broke down once more, his body collapsing gently onto Asuka's tall frame. "I...I need you, Asuka..." he sobbed, "Please...come back...I need to see you smile again...please wake up soon, Asuka..."
He gazed into her face again. She seemed so...lifeless...as if someone had taken Asuka and left a porcelain doll.
"C'mon, Asuka, wake up...say something...call me an idiot like you always do, I don't care, just do anything!" Shinji started to shake the bed in an effort to stir her. "Please!"
{So many things inside that are just like you are taking over...}
"I know you can wake up...don't leave me, Asuka..." {I believe in you...}
"I'll do anything..." {I'll give up everything just to find you...}
"...I...love you, Asuka..." {I have to be with you...}
"I can't stop thinking about you..." {To live...}
"Please..." {To breathe...}
"{You're taking over me...}"
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Toji walked into the hospital once again, as he had done ever since his sister was admitted there. The nurses knew why he was here, why he had come here every week for the past half-year. This time he had brought flowers.
Usually he was the only one to visit, but this time he saw another name. [Shinji? This isn't his writing, though...] He casually flipped the last few pages over, and saw his friend's name, over and over again, until, five days ago, he saw his friend's name, in his writing.
[He's been here for three days!? But why? And if he's here, where's Asuka?] Toji shrugged and entered the hospital, heading up the familiar "Serious Injuries" ward. On his way, he saw nothing but empty rooms, closed doors. [Nothing unusual here...gotta find Shinji later...]
He didn't need to put much effort into it, for as he walked into his sister's wing, there were not one, but two open doors. Toji walked to the nearer one first, and poked his head into the door.
"Shinji?" The figure in the room didn't move, he remained lying over a person lying in the bed, in doing so obscuring Toji's view of who it was, but Toji knew it was he. [But who's in the bed..?]
"Shinji? Are you alright?" Shinji shifted slightly, letting a lock of red hair fall from the bed, hanging over the edge.
[Asuka!? Why is he so worried about her?] Toji backed away slightly, remembering her sister. "Listen, man, if you want to talk to someone, me and Kensuke will be there, okay?"
No reply. "I-I gotta go see my sister. You want me to come back?"
Still no reply. "G-Good bye, Shinji..." he said as he walked off.
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Sorry about the delay guys, I've been splitting my time between my other fics, Where Am I and Total Control. I'll try to hurry the next one along. In the meantime, seeya...
This fic will be based on a selection of songs from Evanescence's new album Fallen. This might have already been done, I know that someone's covering the whole album, but these songs reminded me so much of what could possibly happen in the Evangelion universe. Hell, any song off the Fallen album seems to remind me of Eva...it's bloody freaky...
I'd like to thank Amy, Ben, Francesco and Josh in advance for not suing my ass off. I also pay the same tribute to Evangelion and its creators, Hideaki Anno and Gainax Inc. It's good to hear that people like this songfic so much. To be honest it started out as a time-filling project, but seeing as people liked it so, I have continued it. I'll probably only do one more song after this, but if I can think of more ideas, I'll do more.
This chapter is based on the song Taking Over Me. Shinji reached Asuka, just as she slipped into unconsciousness. Shinji has maintained an almost constant bedside vigil, his heart as fragile as her tattered soul...
Anyway, without further ado, A Man Possessed: Taking Over Me
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----------------------------------------------
[Three days...]
Shinji was seated in the only chair in the room, a hard, wooden one. Shinji, however, couldn't feel the bony spokes of the chair frame digging into his back or the cold sterility of the room in general. All that he could see was the figure lying in the bed, all he could hear was the steady, slow beep of the heart monitor, all he could feel was guilt, sorrow and a heavy form of hope.
{You don't remember me, but I remember you...}
The song that had been haunting him since the incident began playing back in his mind. His guilt overwhelmed him, reminded him that he was the one who pushed Asuka over the edge, it was his fault that she did this to herself...
{I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you...}
"Asuka..." Shinji raised his head, to see the still resting body of Asuka Sohryu, lifting a hand to stroke her head gently. He gazed into her heavenly face, eyelids closed over her azure eyes.
"...You look so peaceful when you sleep..." he said, calmly, maintaining his composure, "...I can't stop thinking about you..."
{But who can decide what they dream? And dream I do...}
[Anytime I close my eyes, yours open up...it scares me...if I don't see them again soon, I'll see them every time I close my eyes for the rest of my life...]
"I'm..." Shinji tried as hard as he could to keep his cool, but he soon broke down, tears dropping onto the pillow next to Asuka's head, as Shinji hid his face with his arms. "Damn it, it's all my fault!" he wailed, "I didn't mean what I said, Asuka, I just wanted to shut you up!"
His sobs could be heard from the hallway. "I'm...so sorry, Asuka...please...I need you..."
{I believe in you/I'll give up everything just to find you/I have to be with you to live, to breathe/you're taking over me...}
Shinji remembered the one incident that started it all, when he had finally confronted Asuka with her deepest, darkest secret, and threw another secret of hers right back into her face, a secret that she even kept from herself: that she loved Shinji.
"I had no idea you felt this way..." he said, in between whimpers, "I didn't mean to throw it in your face like that...I was angry..."
{Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?}
"Damn it, Asuka...if you weren't too proud to admit you loved me, none of this would've happened..." Shinji lowered his head. "No...it was my fault..."
[I've been here for four days...I wonder what they think at school...]
"Please...it's driving me nuts, Asuka...come back soon..." Shinji stood up to leave, and turned his head. He took one step to the door, then stopped. [I was too rough on her...]
{You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand...I knew you loved me then...}
Another step, slightly slower than the last. [Why did I have to be so violent? Why couldn't I just take it lightly...]
His next step out the door was more confident. [Because she had abused me since she knew me, despite the fact that she loved me...and I loved her...]
Another step toward the door, slower than ever. He looked up, and saw his reflection in the door. He could swear he saw his lost love's eyes stare back at him.
Shinji saw his eyes begin to water. {I look in the mirror, and see your face, if I look deep enough...}
Shinji let out a howl of despair, running back to the prone Second Child, arms wrapping around her, taking care not to disturb her injured wrists. "I'm sorry!" he cried, louder and more stricken than before, "I didn't want you to do this! I only wanted your respect! God, I'm sorry Asuka!"
He broke down once more, his body collapsing gently onto Asuka's tall frame. "I...I need you, Asuka..." he sobbed, "Please...come back...I need to see you smile again...please wake up soon, Asuka..."
He gazed into her face again. She seemed so...lifeless...as if someone had taken Asuka and left a porcelain doll.
"C'mon, Asuka, wake up...say something...call me an idiot like you always do, I don't care, just do anything!" Shinji started to shake the bed in an effort to stir her. "Please!"
{So many things inside that are just like you are taking over...}
"I know you can wake up...don't leave me, Asuka..." {I believe in you...}
"I'll do anything..." {I'll give up everything just to find you...}
"...I...love you, Asuka..." {I have to be with you...}
"I can't stop thinking about you..." {To live...}
"Please..." {To breathe...}
"{You're taking over me...}"
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Toji walked into the hospital once again, as he had done ever since his sister was admitted there. The nurses knew why he was here, why he had come here every week for the past half-year. This time he had brought flowers.
Usually he was the only one to visit, but this time he saw another name. [Shinji? This isn't his writing, though...] He casually flipped the last few pages over, and saw his friend's name, over and over again, until, five days ago, he saw his friend's name, in his writing.
[He's been here for three days!? But why? And if he's here, where's Asuka?] Toji shrugged and entered the hospital, heading up the familiar "Serious Injuries" ward. On his way, he saw nothing but empty rooms, closed doors. [Nothing unusual here...gotta find Shinji later...]
He didn't need to put much effort into it, for as he walked into his sister's wing, there were not one, but two open doors. Toji walked to the nearer one first, and poked his head into the door.
"Shinji?" The figure in the room didn't move, he remained lying over a person lying in the bed, in doing so obscuring Toji's view of who it was, but Toji knew it was he. [But who's in the bed..?]
"Shinji? Are you alright?" Shinji shifted slightly, letting a lock of red hair fall from the bed, hanging over the edge.
[Asuka!? Why is he so worried about her?] Toji backed away slightly, remembering her sister. "Listen, man, if you want to talk to someone, me and Kensuke will be there, okay?"
No reply. "I-I gotta go see my sister. You want me to come back?"
Still no reply. "G-Good bye, Shinji..." he said as he walked off.
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Sorry about the delay guys, I've been splitting my time between my other fics, Where Am I and Total Control. I'll try to hurry the next one along. In the meantime, seeya...