Title: Single Turn, Lifes Regrets Part 4
Author: Lynds
Author's Note: Hey! Thanks again for all the feedback. I love it, thank you
to Jewel, Court, Kiosha, Mary, Claire, Kylie, Faith, Lydia, Magy, Lindsey
and Knight and everyone else who sent me feedback! Thank you so much. Big
thanks to Kiosha and Mary for helping me with this part, BIG THANKS! Hope
you guys like this part... &&&&&&& means change of POV again....Please send
feedback! Enjoy!
Summary: See 1-3 I don't do summaries.
Disclaimer: Don't own any of them, only ones I make up.
Dedication: This part goes out to Kiosha for helping me so much with this
piece, seriously everyone would not be reading this without her! Thank you!
To Jewel: I'm in a nagging mood, not major nagging just a little. How's
Encore coming?? I hope well please hurry can't wait for more. Okay that's
it....for now.
"Single Turn, Lifes Regrets" Part 4
Bobby's POV
I walked up to her door and knocked on it twice. I was so nervous, I felt
like I was going on my first date. My stomach was turning, finally the door
opened. I looked up and she never looked more beautiful. She was wearing a
black strappy dress that fell right above her knees and showed those
gorgeous legs I so missed. She had her hair up like I loved it and the
diamond earings I had gotten for her. God how could I have been so stupid
and let her go the way I did.
"Hey." I sounded like a teenager on his first date. I gave her the flowers
I had in my hands. They were Red & White roses; her favorite. She smiled
and put them on the coffee table. I frowned, well she didn't like them as
much as I thought.
"Come on in, Little Bobby is almost ready." She walked back into Little
Bobby's room leaving the flowers on the table. I stood in the middle of the
room waiting.
"Daddy! Daddy!" My little guy came running down the hall dressed in little
kaki pants and a black sweater, it was a matching outfit Lindsay bought for
us both last christmas. He ran into my arms and hugged me, he was such a
loving baby.
"Hey Little man."
"Daddy, gots a showed you." He was pointing to his bedroom.
"Oh, in your new room?" He nodded. "Okay you lead the way." I put him down
and he grabbed my hand dragging me to his bedroom where his Red Sox bedroom
was all set up.
"Lookie daddy! Red Sox!" I smiled and he jumped on his bed. "Lookie!"
"I see."
"Mommy and grammpie gots it for me."
"Bobby, sweetie, you ready?" I heard her calling for our son. She walked in
and looked at the two of us.
"I ready mommy!" He jumped down and grabbed my hand again. We walked out
and down to my car. I opened the door for Lindsay and then put my son in
the backseat. The drive was quiet between Lindsay and I but Bobby and I
were chatting away. He told me all about his day at daycare yesterday and
everything in between he could think of. I kept looking over at Lindsay but
she was just looking out the window. We pulled up to the little french
resturant and I was going to open the door for Lindsay but she beat me to
it. We walked in and waited a few minutes before we were brought to our
table. It wasn't in the back but it was a little more private then the
other tables.
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So far the night was so uncomfortable, he brought me flowers. Okay, Bobby
you aren't making this easy for me. I just wanted to yell at him. We sat
down at our table, it was very beautiful. I couldn't believe he went all
out for us at this nice of a resturant.
"Bobby, what would you like to drink?" I asked my son.
"Uhh...milk." I smiled.
"You get that?" Bobby nodded his head.
"Yeah, so milk and a bottle of wine?"
"Sounds good." The waitress came by and took our drink orders. We didn't
talk, it was silent until our drinks came back. Little Bobby was too busy
talking to himself like little 2 years olds do and Bobby and I were
debating who would tell him the new living arrangment. Finally I agreed it
would be me to break my son's little heart that was filled with so much
love. I turned to him and saw him playing with his father keys, how he got
them I wouldn't even question but he was keeping busy.
"Hey pumpkin." He looked up at me smiling.
"Look mommy." He lifted the keys and showed me the keychain with a picture
of me, Bobby and Little Bobby. Great, can anything make this worse? "We
gots get nother one." He told me with his baby blue eyes glimmering in the
candle light of the resturant with the inocence of a life yet to be lived.
I smiled and started crying. His smile had left his precious little face
and he came over to sit in my lap. He lifted his hand to my cheek like the
other night and kissed it.
"It's tay mommy, we don't needs one if you don'ts wan it." I cried harder.
"We jus stay happy with no thingy." He said meaning the picture.
"Well, pumpkin mommy has to talk to you." He nodded his head. "You remember
how daddy told you he made a boo boo and mommy was mad at daddy for that?"
"Yeah." I couldn't manage to choke out the right words that I knew would
break my son's heart.
"Well mommy and daddy can't get better and make the boo boo better without
being away from each other for a little while." He looked at me, he didn't
know what I was saying. "Mommy and daddy are going to live in different
homes until the boo boo can get better." He started to cry. "You know like
you friend Michael's mommy and daddy?" He caved against my chest and cried.
I didn't care about the people in the resturant, I cared about my son and I
hated the man sitting across from me who had to cause this pain on my
little boy.
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I watched Lindsay hold our son and I felt the tears in my eyes. I hurt my
son, my wife. I hurt my family. It killed me to see my wife hurting and
then to see my son hurting because of me killed even more. I didn't know
what to do, speaking now would be a bad idea. Reaching out to my son would
be a bad idea. I saw my son look at me and crawl off his mother's lap and
over to me. He never stopped crying the tears never stopped and they just
made mine worse, yes I know it's me who put my son in that crying position
but I couldn't help but cry at the sight of my family in pain. My little
boy reached his hand out and hit my leg, it wasn't one of those hits he
gives me when we fool around and it didn't hurt physically but emotionally
it tore me up. He hit me again and looked up into my eyes.
"Why you hurt my mommy?" He cried to me. I reached for my son and lifted
him in my arms trying to rock him and comfort him, a lot of good it would
do when I too needed comforting. As soon as he was scooped into my arms he
pushed away and struggled to free himself from me. The pain in my eyes
couldn't have been more clear, my son hated me. I kissed his head and told
him I loved him.
"No, no you hurt my mommy cause you don't wove us no more." He cried and
kept fighting from me. I had to get him to stop, I had to get my son and my
wife back. I had to fix what I did.
"Little man, listen to daddy, I am always going to love you. That's never
ever going to change do you understand. Daddy and mommy will always always
love our little man. And I'll always love your mommy."
"Then why you hurt mommy?" He wiped his eyes with my hand.
"Daddy didn't mean to hurt mommy but, daddy did something very wrong to
mommy, something he never should have done."
"Why you?" He asked me, by now he had calmed down a little bit and was
curled in my arms sucking on my thumb. It was a habit he picked up when he
was just months old and he'd do it less and less as he got older, in fact
the only time he did it these days was when he was hurting, or when he was
sad.
"Well, daddy doesn't know why he did it, if he could do it over he never
would have hurt you or your mommy." He looked between me and Lindsay.
"Then we be happy gain. You don't do no more, we be happy." I shook my
head.
"It's not going to work like that, you and mommy are going to live in your
new home with your new Red Sox bed, and daddy will live in your old home."
"No! No! No! I want old bed. I no like Red Sox no more, I pwomise!" I
started to cry again and so did my son. I warpped my arms around him
hugging him to me. This little guy would do anything to have Lindsay and I
together. I wish it were as easy as he made it to sound.
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I had tears running down my face at the sight of those two boys, they were
my family, now only one of them belonged to my family now. I was too
distracted in watching the sadness on my little boy's face to see the
person coming near me. She tapped my shoulder and I didn't look.
"What?" I asked.
"Excuse me, there is no salt at my table and I notcie you have two, would
you mind if I took one?" I looked at the two salt shakers on our table and
laughed. Didn't even notice it until this woman did. I picked up the salt
shaker and handed it to her. The woman's eyes traveled from the salt shaker
to Bobby and my son still wrapped in his arms. I saw Bobby look up at her
too and then I saw his eyes go right back to our son. I wondered what all
the strange looks were and then I looked up at the woman standing next to
me. Sara, Sara Barker. I looked at her just standing there, if she put on a
little bit more clothing she couldn't keep her title, the slut. I walked
over to my son and picked him up from Bobby's arms and walked out of the
resturant without a word spoken. I stood right outside the door holding my
son and just standing there. He laid his head on my shoulder.
"Mommy, who that?"
"Whose who?"
"That funny lady." I had to laugh at my son, at least he didn't share the
same taste in women as his father.
"She's daddy's new friend."
"I not like the lady mommy."
"Mommy doesn't either."
"How comes?"
"Because daddy likes that lady more than he likes mommy."
"No, daddy love you." he was quiet and then looked back to me. "Is she more
better than me?" She looked in her son's eyes.
"No, baby oh baby no, no. Nobody is more better to daddy than you." She
broke to silent tears at the thought that she could ever be more important
to Bobby than his son. Being more important to Bobby than Lindsay she can
live with but not their son. She really thought maybe her and Bobby could
try to work at their marriage just like he wanted, just like she really did
want to but didn't want to admit too. After seeing the pain he caused their
son just tonight there was no way she could do that because he had hurt
their son too much. She couldn't be with him after hurting their son, she
didn't even want to try.
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Lindsay had run out with our son and I wanted to go after her, I just had
to get rid of Sara. Why was she here? What the hell was she thinking? I'm
trying to get my wife back, it doesn't help when the women who helped cause
the mess shows up in the process. Finally I found sound in my voice.
"Sara, what the hell are you doing here and what were you thinking coming
to my table?" I tried keeping my voice down but it was hard.
"Well, I am eating dinner because this is a resturant and I didn't have
salt at my table so I saw you had two and came to borrow some." I rolled my
eyes, okay yes I am dumb because if I were smart I wouldn't be trying to
get my wife back, there would be nothing for me to get her back for, but I
am the dummy; though this time I must say I was proud. I wasn't that dumb.
"And you couldn't ask another table near your table? Or ask a waiter? They
are here for a reason, they get paid to be here did that cross your mind?"
He was getting more upset by the second. She walked closer to me and I
stepped back walking into a waiter and dropping food everywhere. I didn't
pay attention.
"Fine, I came to see you, I didn't know you'd be here but then I saw you."
"With my son and my wife!" I didn't let her finish.
"Yes, but I didn't care. I miss you, your wife asked me if I was falling in
love with you and I told her I couldn't answer her. The truth is I am
falling in love with you but I wanted you to hear it from me and not her."
I couldn't believe my ears, she couldn't be serious. I looked at her, she
was serious.
"Well too bad, I don't want to hear it from anybody, hell I don't want to
hear anything from you!
"I miss you." She came closer to me and touched my hand that was on the
table, I stepped back again and this time tripped over a chair falling. She
walked over to help me up but I screamed no, probably a little too fast. I
quickly stood up and grabbed my coat, leaving a few bills for our drinks we
never got. I looked at Sara again.
"Listen, what happened between us, was nothing, didn't mean anything. It
was one of the biggest mistakes of my life, that's my wife, my life that
I'm trying to get back and I don't need you prancing in making things worse
for me! I can't see you anymore, and I don't want to. It's over. It
happened once and that's all it will ever be. Goodbye Sara." I yelled.
"But Bobby--" I didn't let her finish and never noticed eyes staring me
down as I walked out. I ran out to find my wife, she was outside the door
with the baby in her arms, he was sleeping.
"Hey." I put my arm on her shoulder and she shrugged it off walking to my
car. I sighed and followed her silently slouching my shoulders. She put our
son in the car and got in the passengers side. The car ride was silent, I
glanced over now and then and saw the tears flowing down Lindsay's face, I
finally saw her gain the courage to speak.
"What the hell was she doing there Bobby?" I saw more and more tears fall
and just wanted to end her pain.
"I dont' know Linds. I really don't."
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How could he lie to me like that? How could he do this to me? How could he
hurt me, again!
"You lying son of a bitch!" I just screamed at him, I didn't even try to
keep my voice down, I forgot all about the baby in the back sleeping.
"I swear to you, I'm not--"
"I don't care what you have to say, your business is none of mine anymore.
You can talk to and go out with whoever you want." I couldn't keep my tears
from falling anymore.
"It's not like that."
"I told you I don't care, do what you want I don't care anymore, all I care
about is our son and his well being. And if you ever have that slut over
your house when our son is there he won't be there anymore." He pulled up
to my apartment and I got out, I didn't even speak to him I got out of the
car and got my son out of the back, he was sound asleep. I saw Bobby
getting out of the car. Wouldn't he ever learn? He walked over to me and
tried to speak again.
"I'm sorry, this night turned out awful."
"Oh, no I'm sure you planned for her to be there so you could just leave me
once and for all and tell me you want her. Well, if that's the way you want
it that's okay with me Bobby, go ahead be happy." I couldn't hold tears
anymore. I turned on my heel and walked away.
"I can only be happy with you!" I heard him scream but I didn't turn
around. It wasn't til I heard him near that I turned around. I got my keys
out. "Look, can we try and do this again, we can have dinner at the
apartment and we won't have to worry about Sara."
"No, Bobby tonight, I went out with you thinking maybe we could turn our
marriage around but again I was wrong!"
"Lindsay, you won't even talk about it, how can we fix something when you
won't talk."
"I don't need to talk about it, I saw everything, you probably can't get
rid of me and your son quick enough to go be with her!"
"That's not true and you know it! It's over between me and her. I told her
is was a meaningless night and I regretted it, I told her I wanted my wife
back, I told her I didn't want to see her anymore." I turned and looked at
him.
"Good for you, you can go back to her now, you won't ever get me back. You
had me once and I'm not going to be hurt again. Just go share another
meaningless night with her." I turned back and opened the door slamming it
and waking the baby who started crying. Damnit, nothing I do is going to be
right anymore. I slumped to the floor crying with my son in my arms. I knew
it for sure this time. I'd lost my husband.
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I looked at the door that was just slammed in my face. I started crying
again. I'd done more crying tonight then ever before in my life. I wish
Lindsay would know how much I wanted to be with her and not Sara. It was
over with us I just wish Lindsay could see that. My worst fear, my one
thing I feared most, had happened. Lindsay was gone. I thought we had a
chance to get back together, to work through things. Even she told me she
thought we had a chance, that had to count for something. Then I remembered
what she said. 'No, Bobby tonight, I went out with you thinking maybe we
could turn our marriage around but again I was wrong!' The words cringed
into me everywhere. With each step I took to the car it left a bad feel, a
painful feeling behind me. The truth was finally hitting me, as much as I
didn't want to come to believe it, I had to. I got into my car and drove
off home crying the whole way thinking about what I knew had just happened.
I'd lost my wife.
End of Part 4......Thanks for reading, I didn't know if part 3 was good so
I wasn't going to continue but I went ahead and wrote this part, please let
me know what you guys think. Should I keep going? Please send feedback!
Author: Lynds
Author's Note: Hey! Thanks again for all the feedback. I love it, thank you
to Jewel, Court, Kiosha, Mary, Claire, Kylie, Faith, Lydia, Magy, Lindsey
and Knight and everyone else who sent me feedback! Thank you so much. Big
thanks to Kiosha and Mary for helping me with this part, BIG THANKS! Hope
you guys like this part... &&&&&&& means change of POV again....Please send
feedback! Enjoy!
Summary: See 1-3 I don't do summaries.
Disclaimer: Don't own any of them, only ones I make up.
Dedication: This part goes out to Kiosha for helping me so much with this
piece, seriously everyone would not be reading this without her! Thank you!
To Jewel: I'm in a nagging mood, not major nagging just a little. How's
Encore coming?? I hope well please hurry can't wait for more. Okay that's
it....for now.
"Single Turn, Lifes Regrets" Part 4
Bobby's POV
I walked up to her door and knocked on it twice. I was so nervous, I felt
like I was going on my first date. My stomach was turning, finally the door
opened. I looked up and she never looked more beautiful. She was wearing a
black strappy dress that fell right above her knees and showed those
gorgeous legs I so missed. She had her hair up like I loved it and the
diamond earings I had gotten for her. God how could I have been so stupid
and let her go the way I did.
"Hey." I sounded like a teenager on his first date. I gave her the flowers
I had in my hands. They were Red & White roses; her favorite. She smiled
and put them on the coffee table. I frowned, well she didn't like them as
much as I thought.
"Come on in, Little Bobby is almost ready." She walked back into Little
Bobby's room leaving the flowers on the table. I stood in the middle of the
room waiting.
"Daddy! Daddy!" My little guy came running down the hall dressed in little
kaki pants and a black sweater, it was a matching outfit Lindsay bought for
us both last christmas. He ran into my arms and hugged me, he was such a
loving baby.
"Hey Little man."
"Daddy, gots a showed you." He was pointing to his bedroom.
"Oh, in your new room?" He nodded. "Okay you lead the way." I put him down
and he grabbed my hand dragging me to his bedroom where his Red Sox bedroom
was all set up.
"Lookie daddy! Red Sox!" I smiled and he jumped on his bed. "Lookie!"
"I see."
"Mommy and grammpie gots it for me."
"Bobby, sweetie, you ready?" I heard her calling for our son. She walked in
and looked at the two of us.
"I ready mommy!" He jumped down and grabbed my hand again. We walked out
and down to my car. I opened the door for Lindsay and then put my son in
the backseat. The drive was quiet between Lindsay and I but Bobby and I
were chatting away. He told me all about his day at daycare yesterday and
everything in between he could think of. I kept looking over at Lindsay but
she was just looking out the window. We pulled up to the little french
resturant and I was going to open the door for Lindsay but she beat me to
it. We walked in and waited a few minutes before we were brought to our
table. It wasn't in the back but it was a little more private then the
other tables.
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So far the night was so uncomfortable, he brought me flowers. Okay, Bobby
you aren't making this easy for me. I just wanted to yell at him. We sat
down at our table, it was very beautiful. I couldn't believe he went all
out for us at this nice of a resturant.
"Bobby, what would you like to drink?" I asked my son.
"Uhh...milk." I smiled.
"You get that?" Bobby nodded his head.
"Yeah, so milk and a bottle of wine?"
"Sounds good." The waitress came by and took our drink orders. We didn't
talk, it was silent until our drinks came back. Little Bobby was too busy
talking to himself like little 2 years olds do and Bobby and I were
debating who would tell him the new living arrangment. Finally I agreed it
would be me to break my son's little heart that was filled with so much
love. I turned to him and saw him playing with his father keys, how he got
them I wouldn't even question but he was keeping busy.
"Hey pumpkin." He looked up at me smiling.
"Look mommy." He lifted the keys and showed me the keychain with a picture
of me, Bobby and Little Bobby. Great, can anything make this worse? "We
gots get nother one." He told me with his baby blue eyes glimmering in the
candle light of the resturant with the inocence of a life yet to be lived.
I smiled and started crying. His smile had left his precious little face
and he came over to sit in my lap. He lifted his hand to my cheek like the
other night and kissed it.
"It's tay mommy, we don't needs one if you don'ts wan it." I cried harder.
"We jus stay happy with no thingy." He said meaning the picture.
"Well, pumpkin mommy has to talk to you." He nodded his head. "You remember
how daddy told you he made a boo boo and mommy was mad at daddy for that?"
"Yeah." I couldn't manage to choke out the right words that I knew would
break my son's heart.
"Well mommy and daddy can't get better and make the boo boo better without
being away from each other for a little while." He looked at me, he didn't
know what I was saying. "Mommy and daddy are going to live in different
homes until the boo boo can get better." He started to cry. "You know like
you friend Michael's mommy and daddy?" He caved against my chest and cried.
I didn't care about the people in the resturant, I cared about my son and I
hated the man sitting across from me who had to cause this pain on my
little boy.
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I watched Lindsay hold our son and I felt the tears in my eyes. I hurt my
son, my wife. I hurt my family. It killed me to see my wife hurting and
then to see my son hurting because of me killed even more. I didn't know
what to do, speaking now would be a bad idea. Reaching out to my son would
be a bad idea. I saw my son look at me and crawl off his mother's lap and
over to me. He never stopped crying the tears never stopped and they just
made mine worse, yes I know it's me who put my son in that crying position
but I couldn't help but cry at the sight of my family in pain. My little
boy reached his hand out and hit my leg, it wasn't one of those hits he
gives me when we fool around and it didn't hurt physically but emotionally
it tore me up. He hit me again and looked up into my eyes.
"Why you hurt my mommy?" He cried to me. I reached for my son and lifted
him in my arms trying to rock him and comfort him, a lot of good it would
do when I too needed comforting. As soon as he was scooped into my arms he
pushed away and struggled to free himself from me. The pain in my eyes
couldn't have been more clear, my son hated me. I kissed his head and told
him I loved him.
"No, no you hurt my mommy cause you don't wove us no more." He cried and
kept fighting from me. I had to get him to stop, I had to get my son and my
wife back. I had to fix what I did.
"Little man, listen to daddy, I am always going to love you. That's never
ever going to change do you understand. Daddy and mommy will always always
love our little man. And I'll always love your mommy."
"Then why you hurt mommy?" He wiped his eyes with my hand.
"Daddy didn't mean to hurt mommy but, daddy did something very wrong to
mommy, something he never should have done."
"Why you?" He asked me, by now he had calmed down a little bit and was
curled in my arms sucking on my thumb. It was a habit he picked up when he
was just months old and he'd do it less and less as he got older, in fact
the only time he did it these days was when he was hurting, or when he was
sad.
"Well, daddy doesn't know why he did it, if he could do it over he never
would have hurt you or your mommy." He looked between me and Lindsay.
"Then we be happy gain. You don't do no more, we be happy." I shook my
head.
"It's not going to work like that, you and mommy are going to live in your
new home with your new Red Sox bed, and daddy will live in your old home."
"No! No! No! I want old bed. I no like Red Sox no more, I pwomise!" I
started to cry again and so did my son. I warpped my arms around him
hugging him to me. This little guy would do anything to have Lindsay and I
together. I wish it were as easy as he made it to sound.
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I had tears running down my face at the sight of those two boys, they were
my family, now only one of them belonged to my family now. I was too
distracted in watching the sadness on my little boy's face to see the
person coming near me. She tapped my shoulder and I didn't look.
"What?" I asked.
"Excuse me, there is no salt at my table and I notcie you have two, would
you mind if I took one?" I looked at the two salt shakers on our table and
laughed. Didn't even notice it until this woman did. I picked up the salt
shaker and handed it to her. The woman's eyes traveled from the salt shaker
to Bobby and my son still wrapped in his arms. I saw Bobby look up at her
too and then I saw his eyes go right back to our son. I wondered what all
the strange looks were and then I looked up at the woman standing next to
me. Sara, Sara Barker. I looked at her just standing there, if she put on a
little bit more clothing she couldn't keep her title, the slut. I walked
over to my son and picked him up from Bobby's arms and walked out of the
resturant without a word spoken. I stood right outside the door holding my
son and just standing there. He laid his head on my shoulder.
"Mommy, who that?"
"Whose who?"
"That funny lady." I had to laugh at my son, at least he didn't share the
same taste in women as his father.
"She's daddy's new friend."
"I not like the lady mommy."
"Mommy doesn't either."
"How comes?"
"Because daddy likes that lady more than he likes mommy."
"No, daddy love you." he was quiet and then looked back to me. "Is she more
better than me?" She looked in her son's eyes.
"No, baby oh baby no, no. Nobody is more better to daddy than you." She
broke to silent tears at the thought that she could ever be more important
to Bobby than his son. Being more important to Bobby than Lindsay she can
live with but not their son. She really thought maybe her and Bobby could
try to work at their marriage just like he wanted, just like she really did
want to but didn't want to admit too. After seeing the pain he caused their
son just tonight there was no way she could do that because he had hurt
their son too much. She couldn't be with him after hurting their son, she
didn't even want to try.
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Lindsay had run out with our son and I wanted to go after her, I just had
to get rid of Sara. Why was she here? What the hell was she thinking? I'm
trying to get my wife back, it doesn't help when the women who helped cause
the mess shows up in the process. Finally I found sound in my voice.
"Sara, what the hell are you doing here and what were you thinking coming
to my table?" I tried keeping my voice down but it was hard.
"Well, I am eating dinner because this is a resturant and I didn't have
salt at my table so I saw you had two and came to borrow some." I rolled my
eyes, okay yes I am dumb because if I were smart I wouldn't be trying to
get my wife back, there would be nothing for me to get her back for, but I
am the dummy; though this time I must say I was proud. I wasn't that dumb.
"And you couldn't ask another table near your table? Or ask a waiter? They
are here for a reason, they get paid to be here did that cross your mind?"
He was getting more upset by the second. She walked closer to me and I
stepped back walking into a waiter and dropping food everywhere. I didn't
pay attention.
"Fine, I came to see you, I didn't know you'd be here but then I saw you."
"With my son and my wife!" I didn't let her finish.
"Yes, but I didn't care. I miss you, your wife asked me if I was falling in
love with you and I told her I couldn't answer her. The truth is I am
falling in love with you but I wanted you to hear it from me and not her."
I couldn't believe my ears, she couldn't be serious. I looked at her, she
was serious.
"Well too bad, I don't want to hear it from anybody, hell I don't want to
hear anything from you!
"I miss you." She came closer to me and touched my hand that was on the
table, I stepped back again and this time tripped over a chair falling. She
walked over to help me up but I screamed no, probably a little too fast. I
quickly stood up and grabbed my coat, leaving a few bills for our drinks we
never got. I looked at Sara again.
"Listen, what happened between us, was nothing, didn't mean anything. It
was one of the biggest mistakes of my life, that's my wife, my life that
I'm trying to get back and I don't need you prancing in making things worse
for me! I can't see you anymore, and I don't want to. It's over. It
happened once and that's all it will ever be. Goodbye Sara." I yelled.
"But Bobby--" I didn't let her finish and never noticed eyes staring me
down as I walked out. I ran out to find my wife, she was outside the door
with the baby in her arms, he was sleeping.
"Hey." I put my arm on her shoulder and she shrugged it off walking to my
car. I sighed and followed her silently slouching my shoulders. She put our
son in the car and got in the passengers side. The car ride was silent, I
glanced over now and then and saw the tears flowing down Lindsay's face, I
finally saw her gain the courage to speak.
"What the hell was she doing there Bobby?" I saw more and more tears fall
and just wanted to end her pain.
"I dont' know Linds. I really don't."
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How could he lie to me like that? How could he do this to me? How could he
hurt me, again!
"You lying son of a bitch!" I just screamed at him, I didn't even try to
keep my voice down, I forgot all about the baby in the back sleeping.
"I swear to you, I'm not--"
"I don't care what you have to say, your business is none of mine anymore.
You can talk to and go out with whoever you want." I couldn't keep my tears
from falling anymore.
"It's not like that."
"I told you I don't care, do what you want I don't care anymore, all I care
about is our son and his well being. And if you ever have that slut over
your house when our son is there he won't be there anymore." He pulled up
to my apartment and I got out, I didn't even speak to him I got out of the
car and got my son out of the back, he was sound asleep. I saw Bobby
getting out of the car. Wouldn't he ever learn? He walked over to me and
tried to speak again.
"I'm sorry, this night turned out awful."
"Oh, no I'm sure you planned for her to be there so you could just leave me
once and for all and tell me you want her. Well, if that's the way you want
it that's okay with me Bobby, go ahead be happy." I couldn't hold tears
anymore. I turned on my heel and walked away.
"I can only be happy with you!" I heard him scream but I didn't turn
around. It wasn't til I heard him near that I turned around. I got my keys
out. "Look, can we try and do this again, we can have dinner at the
apartment and we won't have to worry about Sara."
"No, Bobby tonight, I went out with you thinking maybe we could turn our
marriage around but again I was wrong!"
"Lindsay, you won't even talk about it, how can we fix something when you
won't talk."
"I don't need to talk about it, I saw everything, you probably can't get
rid of me and your son quick enough to go be with her!"
"That's not true and you know it! It's over between me and her. I told her
is was a meaningless night and I regretted it, I told her I wanted my wife
back, I told her I didn't want to see her anymore." I turned and looked at
him.
"Good for you, you can go back to her now, you won't ever get me back. You
had me once and I'm not going to be hurt again. Just go share another
meaningless night with her." I turned back and opened the door slamming it
and waking the baby who started crying. Damnit, nothing I do is going to be
right anymore. I slumped to the floor crying with my son in my arms. I knew
it for sure this time. I'd lost my husband.
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I looked at the door that was just slammed in my face. I started crying
again. I'd done more crying tonight then ever before in my life. I wish
Lindsay would know how much I wanted to be with her and not Sara. It was
over with us I just wish Lindsay could see that. My worst fear, my one
thing I feared most, had happened. Lindsay was gone. I thought we had a
chance to get back together, to work through things. Even she told me she
thought we had a chance, that had to count for something. Then I remembered
what she said. 'No, Bobby tonight, I went out with you thinking maybe we
could turn our marriage around but again I was wrong!' The words cringed
into me everywhere. With each step I took to the car it left a bad feel, a
painful feeling behind me. The truth was finally hitting me, as much as I
didn't want to come to believe it, I had to. I got into my car and drove
off home crying the whole way thinking about what I knew had just happened.
I'd lost my wife.
End of Part 4......Thanks for reading, I didn't know if part 3 was good so
I wasn't going to continue but I went ahead and wrote this part, please let
me know what you guys think. Should I keep going? Please send feedback!