Title: Single Turn, Lifes Regrets Part 6 (MAJOR SEASON 7 SPOILERS)
Author: Lynds
Author's Note: Thank you all for the kind feedback, I love it! Special
thanks to; Court, Faith, Mary, major thanks to Mary! Kiosha, thanks BIG
TIME. Kylie, Magy, Lydia, JEWEL, Lindz, Lindsey, Claire and everyone else
that sent me feedback thank you! Hope you all like this next part. Enjoy!
Summary: You know me I'm just gonna say read 1-5
Disclaimer: Same old same old. Not mine, yadayadayada.
Dedication: Kylie, thanks for eveything these past couple weeks and for
your grandfather, you're both in my thoughts and prayers. Anytime I'm here.
Thank you! This one is for you both.
"Single Turn, Lifes Regrets" Part 6
Bobby's POV
I drove home after going to the market to pick up some dinner for Lindsay
and I. I was taking Sara's advice, I picked up steak, corn, buttered
noodles, and food for a salad. I was going to call her and ask her to come
over just so we could talk. It wasn't all a lie. I did want to talk I just
left out the whole dinner and that sort of stuff. I walked in the apartment
and started unloading the food when the phone rang.
"Hello."
"Bobby, could you come over and watch Little Bobby I have to run down to
the DA's office, it's an emergency." I smiled, better than my original
plan.
"Sure, I'll be there in 5 minutes."
"Thanks so much you're a life saver."
"No problem, bye." I was still a little nervous going over after what
happened the very same day but I knew what I had to do. I loaded the food
in the bags again and walked out the door. I was at Lindsay's 5 minutes
later, I left the bags in the car so she wouldn't suspect anything. I must
say I seem to be getting smarter more and more each day. I knocked on the
door and Lindsay opened it, she looked very run down and tired. She was
running around the house getting Little Bobby his afternoon snack which
means they had just gotten home.
"Hey, thanks so much. Come on in." I walked in and saw my son sitting at
the table. "He's eating right now then he can go ahead and watch a movie or
you can play with him or whatever." She kept going on and on. Does she
remember this is my son?
"Linds, calm down I'm his father remember?"
"Oh right, I know sorry."
"It's okay, now go we'll be fine."
"Okay. Little man give mommy a kiss." He toddled over to Lindsay and went
to give her a kiss but she pulled back. "Uh uh without your snack on my
face please?" I laughed, my son had food all over his face. He walked over
to me and wiped it all over my pants. I wasn't mad I just laughed.
"Robert." I heard Lindsay yell at him, he looked at her with an 'I am
innocent' look. "Daddy's pants are not a napkin." He laughed. "Now give me
kiss." He gave Lindsay a kiss and she got up again. "Thanks again Bobby."
And she was out the door. I looked over at my son who had dug right into
his food again. That kid loved to eat that was for sure. I sat down at the
table next to him.
"Hey sport."
"Hi daddy." He said with a mouthful.
"Uh, uh, no talking with food in your mouth." I normally didn't care but it
was Lindsay's rule.
"Sowwy."
"It's okay, I just don't want mommy getting more upset at me."
"She be otay and be happy gain." He finished his snack and got up to throw
his things away. I looked at him amazed, he never used to clean up after
himself.
"You did that by yourself?"
"Uh huh, I by myself now and do fings by me own."
"Mommy doesn't do it for you?"
"I do it me own, mommy let me."
"Oh." I could see exactly what was happening with my son, he was becoming
independent in everything he had been doing lately. I know big deal he put
his garbage away but still, he'd never done that at home, come to think of
it maybe he did and I'd been too consumed in work to even know, to even
care. I turned and saw him reaching to put his glass in the sink he was on
his tip toes and still couldn't reach. I stood up and walked over to him.
"You need help?" He turned and looked at me still reaching to put the glass
in the sink.
"Yes, pwease daddy." I grabbed the glass and put it in the sink. He reached
his arms up indicating he wanted me to pick him up. "Up, up daddy." I bent
down and picked him up. He curled his arms around my neck and we went in
the living room. I sat on the couch and he curled into my lap. We sat there
quietly for a while before he looked up at me. "Daddy?"
"Yeah, buddy."
"I wan you mommy be here." How many times was he going to bring this up? It
made me tear up.
"Sport, how many times are we going to keep talking about this?"
"When you mommy again." I hugged him tight. "Mommy has fwiend." I pulled
away after tensing.
"What?"
"Jeff."
"Whose Jeff."
"Mommy fwiend. I no like him."
"Why?"
"He not daddy." He hugged me again and I sat there straing thinking about
what my son just said. I felt him get heavier and looked down to see him
asleep. I carried him to his bed and tucked him in after changing him. I
walked out of the bedroom and down to my car to grab the food. Should I
even bother? Will it make a difference? She has a new boyfriend, I should
sign the damn divorce papers and be on my way. She didn't even have nerve
to tell me she was seeing someone else. I didn't care I was making this
dinner. I needed too. I cooked the dinner and set up the dining room with
candles, I looked in on Little Bobby who was fast asleep. I knew I was
taking a big chance doing this with our son here but I had to do it, it was
just dinner. I set the table and heard the front door open. I took a deep
breath, showtime. I walked to the living room and saw her, she looked so
run down, more than before she left for work.
"Hey, Bobby thanks so much." I nodded my head. I couldn't get past this
Jeff guy. I shouldn't be jealous but I was.
"I made us some dinner." She just looked at me.
"That's nice of you but.."
"I know you haven't eaten so come on." She just sighed and nodded her head
walking into the dining room.
"It looks wonderful Bobby."
"Sit." We sat across from each other sharing small talk about the baby. I
couldn't concentrate on anything but Jeff, what's he like, did she sleep
with him, did she love him. How could she not tell me? Okay so it's not at
all my business but it involves my son. My son, my business.
"Bobby this meal means nothing but food to me."
"I know." I said rather harsh, I couldn't help it after learning about
Jeff. There was more silence for a while and I finally grew courage to say
something. "Who's Jeff?" She looked up at me very shocked.
"None of your business."
"It is my business, my son is involved with this."
"He's a friend."
"A friend." I raised my voice.
"Keep your voice down. Little Bobby is sleeping."
"What kind of friend Lindsay." She looked down and back up.
"A sort of kind of boyfriend." She didn't dare look in my eyes.
"How long?" I felt a thousand knives stabbing into me.
"3 months." She was whispering, not because of our son, because she was
ashamed I knew Lindsay, well I thought I knew her.
"Jesus, I come here trying to make things better and you're off screwing
another man!" She looked at me with hurt.
"First of all I haven't slept with anyone! It's okay for you to screw
around though and expect me not to be mad!" I had no response. I knew I was
wrong, I did sleep with another woman, at least now we're separated we were
together when I did it. "What's wrong Bobby? To damn scared and ashamed to
admit it, to face the truth, to realize you hurt me!" I looked down again,
she was right, about all of it. "I've been moping around and sulking
because I feel sorry for myself, sorry I was such a bad wife to run my
husband into the arms of another woman! I've stopped taking care of myself.
I've focused on being a single mom and I don't care what I look like
anymore. I've done it because I missed you! I was dumb for missing you, I
am falling in love with Jeff, he is so sweet and loving and caring. He's
everything you weren't! Get out Bobby, thanks for dinner, now leave." She
walked to the door and looked at me holding it open. I walked out crying, I
lost her this time I really lost her. I drove home and laid on the couch
with a drink in my hands, all I kept thinking about when I looked around
that apartment was the damn memories of Lindsay and I.
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I couldn't believe he was mad at me for seeing another man. We weren't
together anymore. I walked in and checked on my son and he was still curled
up asleep. I walked into my bedroom and looked in the mirror of my
bathroom. I looked awful. I didn't even care before but now, now I did. I
was seeing a great man, I know it was soon after Bobby and I separated but
he was a great man. He loved me, he told me but I told him I needed time
but I was falling in love with him. He asked to come over tonight, Little
Bobby didn't know and Bobby of course didn't know. For the first time since
my separation I dressed in something I felt sexy wearing. That night with
Bobby when he took me to dinner I forced myself to feel sexy but tonight I
didn't have to force. I put make up on and did my hair all nice and pretty
when I heard the knock on the door, I smiled and walked out to the door. I
answered the door and he was there. He was so handsome. He had dark brown
locks of hair and chocolate brown eyes. He was tall and so built, just the
thought of him standing here shook my body with chills. I smiled and
reached up to kiss him.
"Hey."
"Hey sweetheart." I took his hand and brought him in the living room. "You
look beautiful."
"Thank you." I leaned against his chest as he rubbed my back. "We don't
have to be a secret anymore."
"We don't?" I heard the excitment in his voice.
"He knows."
"You told him?"
"Little Bobby must've."
"Well, I'm glad it's out I have something to ask you."
"Yes?" I felt him get out from behind me and down on his knees. Oh my god I
couldn't believe what was happening.
"Lindsay, I know you're married still, but I love you so much and you never
talk about getting back with your husband. I want to marry you, I love
you." He opened the box and there was a 4 carat diamond ring. Did I fail to
mention Jeff was rich? Oh well sorry, but that's not why I was falling for
him he really was a great guy. I had tears streaming down my face. "Marry
me?" I sat there more minutes before opening my mouth.
"I...I need time." He looked at me not hurt, there was love in his eyes.
"Okay. Well here I'll leave this on the coffee table and you and I will
talk more later, it's late and you need time to think." I just nodded.
"Okay, thanks." He kissed me which I responded to with no hesitation.
"Bye baby, love you."
"Bye." I couldn't say it, not yet. I left the ring on the table and walked
into the bedroom. I was changing when the phone rang. It was the jail, my
client needed to see me, again. I picked up the phone dialing Bobby's
number. He promised to be over in five minutes. I changed and waited for
him. When he got there he had somekind of papers in his hand which I paid
no attention to. He's Bobby, it's work.
"Thanks Bobby."
"Yeah, right no problem." I heard the hurt in his voice. I watched him sit
on the couch and stare straight ahead as if he were deep in thought. With
that I walked out the door more confused than any other time in my life.
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I was on my way back when she called my cell phone... again. I had just
left the divorce lawyers office. I picked up the papers and was on my way
to her house now. She wanted to be with someone else why trap her? I walked
into her home, dinner was still the way it was when I left. She shared
quick words with me and was out the door. To think I ever wanted to get her
back. Oh hell Bobby that's why it hurts so much because you do. I didn't
think I'd have the nerve to ever sign these papers. I sat on the couch and
reached for the remote when my hand grazed the something else. I looked
down and saw it. I froze, if I thought I couldn't believe her seeing
someone else I really couldn't believe this. I reached my shaking hands out
and picked up the box. I sat back on the couch and opened it, I gasped at
what I saw. I couldn't believe it. A 4 carat diamond ring. She is sleeping
with him, she does love him. I tried to get her back and it was all
useless. Three months, three months of keeping this relationship secret and
then I find out and he proposes? This is ridiculous. That's it she loves
him and as hurt as that is I have to accept that. All I can say is he
better be damn good to my son. I'll kill him if anything ever happens to my
son because of him. With that thought I closed the box put it on the table
and picked up the papers; signing them in the two spots needed. She wanted
a damn divorce she got it. With my last 'L' in my name signed I threw the
pen down and sat on the couch waiting for her to get here. An hour later I
heard the door open and she walked in. She looked up and smiled at me, what
a fake smile. I stood up.
"Hey thanks, sorry last minute...again."
"It's fine, look I brought the divorce papers over, I signed them and I'll
leave them here for you to sign and pick them up when I come see Little
Bobby Wednesday." I saw her freeze. "What?"
"Uh, uh nothing. Just surprised. Where are they?" I turned to the table
pointing to the papers. "Okay, okay thanks. I'll give them to you
Wednesday." She pasted on a smile.
"Okay, see you Wednesday."
"Yeah, thanks again."
"Yeah." I walked out the door, tears pricking my eyes. My world was really
over, my wife wasn't my wife, I know I'd said it before but this
time...Well this time it was true. My wife was gone.
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I stood there after he left shocked. I wasn't ready to do this, I loved
Bobby, there was no doubt. I could never love anyone like Bobby. Then there
is Jeff; Jeff is amazing, he loves and adores me as much as I'll let him
without letting it get too far. He understands me, he was willing to take
time for me to get back on track. I was falling so hard for this man but
there was another problem. Bobby Donnell, soon to be former husband. Is
that what I wanted? Did I want him to be Bobby Donnell, ex- husband? or did
I want Bobby Donnell, husband and father? I didn't know, why did he have to
do this in the first place? Why wasn't it okay to be a happy normal married
couple? I can't go through this stage of confusion again. I'm going to
through it with way too many things and I don't need to add weight to my
shoulders. Being with Bobby would make my life wonderful....enventually,
that's the problem...eventually. I'd have to go down a whole other road of
confusion and I wasn't ready for that, I wasn't strong enough emotionally
for that. I never take the easy way out but this time, this time I am. Jeff
makes me happy, three short months and I already was falling for him, but I
fell for Bobby the moment I saw him. Two days is took me to fall for him,
two days of working by his side. Argh...Lindsay stop beating yourself up,
stop thinking about Bobby, it's done, it's over. I walked to the couch and
sat down. Why would Bobby change his mind just like that, I know me being
with Jeff wouldn't do that it would usually make him fight more. That's
that thing about Bobby these days, he's changed so much. I don't know who
he is anymore. I saw the ring still on the coffee table. I opened my eyes
wide in shock. 'That's what he saw' Bobby must've seen the ring. That's
why, but he had the papers before he knew anything about the ring. I took
the pen in one hand and ring in the other, I looked between the ring and
those papers sitting in front of me. I turned to the two pages that needed
signing, with one more look of the ring I closed the box hiding it under
the couch cushion and signed my name on the two dotted lines next to my
soon to be ex-husbands name. I had tears streaming down my face I flipped
the page back to the front and put the pen down. I turned the lights off
and walked in Little Bobby's room, I checked on him, he was sleeping
peaceful. He wouldn't be after he knew his mommy and daddy really wouldn't
be living together anymore. I wiped my tears and went into my room, changed
into Bobby's sweats and t-shirt and curled up into a ball on my bed holding
the pillow of Bobby's I had taken while packing stuff out of my old home.
My old home, how pathetic it sounded. My old home! It shouldn't be my old
home! How could he do this to me, too us! To our son! I cried myself to
sleep hugging his pillow. I lost him, my life, my husband. I fell asleep
thinking about the two things that were confusing me most right now; the
ring and six page packet with four dotted lines, each with signed names on
them.
End Of Part 6.............Well????????????? Think I should keep going? Let
me know. Please send feedback! You know I love it...Thanks!
Author: Lynds
Author's Note: Thank you all for the kind feedback, I love it! Special
thanks to; Court, Faith, Mary, major thanks to Mary! Kiosha, thanks BIG
TIME. Kylie, Magy, Lydia, JEWEL, Lindz, Lindsey, Claire and everyone else
that sent me feedback thank you! Hope you all like this next part. Enjoy!
Summary: You know me I'm just gonna say read 1-5
Disclaimer: Same old same old. Not mine, yadayadayada.
Dedication: Kylie, thanks for eveything these past couple weeks and for
your grandfather, you're both in my thoughts and prayers. Anytime I'm here.
Thank you! This one is for you both.
"Single Turn, Lifes Regrets" Part 6
Bobby's POV
I drove home after going to the market to pick up some dinner for Lindsay
and I. I was taking Sara's advice, I picked up steak, corn, buttered
noodles, and food for a salad. I was going to call her and ask her to come
over just so we could talk. It wasn't all a lie. I did want to talk I just
left out the whole dinner and that sort of stuff. I walked in the apartment
and started unloading the food when the phone rang.
"Hello."
"Bobby, could you come over and watch Little Bobby I have to run down to
the DA's office, it's an emergency." I smiled, better than my original
plan.
"Sure, I'll be there in 5 minutes."
"Thanks so much you're a life saver."
"No problem, bye." I was still a little nervous going over after what
happened the very same day but I knew what I had to do. I loaded the food
in the bags again and walked out the door. I was at Lindsay's 5 minutes
later, I left the bags in the car so she wouldn't suspect anything. I must
say I seem to be getting smarter more and more each day. I knocked on the
door and Lindsay opened it, she looked very run down and tired. She was
running around the house getting Little Bobby his afternoon snack which
means they had just gotten home.
"Hey, thanks so much. Come on in." I walked in and saw my son sitting at
the table. "He's eating right now then he can go ahead and watch a movie or
you can play with him or whatever." She kept going on and on. Does she
remember this is my son?
"Linds, calm down I'm his father remember?"
"Oh right, I know sorry."
"It's okay, now go we'll be fine."
"Okay. Little man give mommy a kiss." He toddled over to Lindsay and went
to give her a kiss but she pulled back. "Uh uh without your snack on my
face please?" I laughed, my son had food all over his face. He walked over
to me and wiped it all over my pants. I wasn't mad I just laughed.
"Robert." I heard Lindsay yell at him, he looked at her with an 'I am
innocent' look. "Daddy's pants are not a napkin." He laughed. "Now give me
kiss." He gave Lindsay a kiss and she got up again. "Thanks again Bobby."
And she was out the door. I looked over at my son who had dug right into
his food again. That kid loved to eat that was for sure. I sat down at the
table next to him.
"Hey sport."
"Hi daddy." He said with a mouthful.
"Uh, uh, no talking with food in your mouth." I normally didn't care but it
was Lindsay's rule.
"Sowwy."
"It's okay, I just don't want mommy getting more upset at me."
"She be otay and be happy gain." He finished his snack and got up to throw
his things away. I looked at him amazed, he never used to clean up after
himself.
"You did that by yourself?"
"Uh huh, I by myself now and do fings by me own."
"Mommy doesn't do it for you?"
"I do it me own, mommy let me."
"Oh." I could see exactly what was happening with my son, he was becoming
independent in everything he had been doing lately. I know big deal he put
his garbage away but still, he'd never done that at home, come to think of
it maybe he did and I'd been too consumed in work to even know, to even
care. I turned and saw him reaching to put his glass in the sink he was on
his tip toes and still couldn't reach. I stood up and walked over to him.
"You need help?" He turned and looked at me still reaching to put the glass
in the sink.
"Yes, pwease daddy." I grabbed the glass and put it in the sink. He reached
his arms up indicating he wanted me to pick him up. "Up, up daddy." I bent
down and picked him up. He curled his arms around my neck and we went in
the living room. I sat on the couch and he curled into my lap. We sat there
quietly for a while before he looked up at me. "Daddy?"
"Yeah, buddy."
"I wan you mommy be here." How many times was he going to bring this up? It
made me tear up.
"Sport, how many times are we going to keep talking about this?"
"When you mommy again." I hugged him tight. "Mommy has fwiend." I pulled
away after tensing.
"What?"
"Jeff."
"Whose Jeff."
"Mommy fwiend. I no like him."
"Why?"
"He not daddy." He hugged me again and I sat there straing thinking about
what my son just said. I felt him get heavier and looked down to see him
asleep. I carried him to his bed and tucked him in after changing him. I
walked out of the bedroom and down to my car to grab the food. Should I
even bother? Will it make a difference? She has a new boyfriend, I should
sign the damn divorce papers and be on my way. She didn't even have nerve
to tell me she was seeing someone else. I didn't care I was making this
dinner. I needed too. I cooked the dinner and set up the dining room with
candles, I looked in on Little Bobby who was fast asleep. I knew I was
taking a big chance doing this with our son here but I had to do it, it was
just dinner. I set the table and heard the front door open. I took a deep
breath, showtime. I walked to the living room and saw her, she looked so
run down, more than before she left for work.
"Hey, Bobby thanks so much." I nodded my head. I couldn't get past this
Jeff guy. I shouldn't be jealous but I was.
"I made us some dinner." She just looked at me.
"That's nice of you but.."
"I know you haven't eaten so come on." She just sighed and nodded her head
walking into the dining room.
"It looks wonderful Bobby."
"Sit." We sat across from each other sharing small talk about the baby. I
couldn't concentrate on anything but Jeff, what's he like, did she sleep
with him, did she love him. How could she not tell me? Okay so it's not at
all my business but it involves my son. My son, my business.
"Bobby this meal means nothing but food to me."
"I know." I said rather harsh, I couldn't help it after learning about
Jeff. There was more silence for a while and I finally grew courage to say
something. "Who's Jeff?" She looked up at me very shocked.
"None of your business."
"It is my business, my son is involved with this."
"He's a friend."
"A friend." I raised my voice.
"Keep your voice down. Little Bobby is sleeping."
"What kind of friend Lindsay." She looked down and back up.
"A sort of kind of boyfriend." She didn't dare look in my eyes.
"How long?" I felt a thousand knives stabbing into me.
"3 months." She was whispering, not because of our son, because she was
ashamed I knew Lindsay, well I thought I knew her.
"Jesus, I come here trying to make things better and you're off screwing
another man!" She looked at me with hurt.
"First of all I haven't slept with anyone! It's okay for you to screw
around though and expect me not to be mad!" I had no response. I knew I was
wrong, I did sleep with another woman, at least now we're separated we were
together when I did it. "What's wrong Bobby? To damn scared and ashamed to
admit it, to face the truth, to realize you hurt me!" I looked down again,
she was right, about all of it. "I've been moping around and sulking
because I feel sorry for myself, sorry I was such a bad wife to run my
husband into the arms of another woman! I've stopped taking care of myself.
I've focused on being a single mom and I don't care what I look like
anymore. I've done it because I missed you! I was dumb for missing you, I
am falling in love with Jeff, he is so sweet and loving and caring. He's
everything you weren't! Get out Bobby, thanks for dinner, now leave." She
walked to the door and looked at me holding it open. I walked out crying, I
lost her this time I really lost her. I drove home and laid on the couch
with a drink in my hands, all I kept thinking about when I looked around
that apartment was the damn memories of Lindsay and I.
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I couldn't believe he was mad at me for seeing another man. We weren't
together anymore. I walked in and checked on my son and he was still curled
up asleep. I walked into my bedroom and looked in the mirror of my
bathroom. I looked awful. I didn't even care before but now, now I did. I
was seeing a great man, I know it was soon after Bobby and I separated but
he was a great man. He loved me, he told me but I told him I needed time
but I was falling in love with him. He asked to come over tonight, Little
Bobby didn't know and Bobby of course didn't know. For the first time since
my separation I dressed in something I felt sexy wearing. That night with
Bobby when he took me to dinner I forced myself to feel sexy but tonight I
didn't have to force. I put make up on and did my hair all nice and pretty
when I heard the knock on the door, I smiled and walked out to the door. I
answered the door and he was there. He was so handsome. He had dark brown
locks of hair and chocolate brown eyes. He was tall and so built, just the
thought of him standing here shook my body with chills. I smiled and
reached up to kiss him.
"Hey."
"Hey sweetheart." I took his hand and brought him in the living room. "You
look beautiful."
"Thank you." I leaned against his chest as he rubbed my back. "We don't
have to be a secret anymore."
"We don't?" I heard the excitment in his voice.
"He knows."
"You told him?"
"Little Bobby must've."
"Well, I'm glad it's out I have something to ask you."
"Yes?" I felt him get out from behind me and down on his knees. Oh my god I
couldn't believe what was happening.
"Lindsay, I know you're married still, but I love you so much and you never
talk about getting back with your husband. I want to marry you, I love
you." He opened the box and there was a 4 carat diamond ring. Did I fail to
mention Jeff was rich? Oh well sorry, but that's not why I was falling for
him he really was a great guy. I had tears streaming down my face. "Marry
me?" I sat there more minutes before opening my mouth.
"I...I need time." He looked at me not hurt, there was love in his eyes.
"Okay. Well here I'll leave this on the coffee table and you and I will
talk more later, it's late and you need time to think." I just nodded.
"Okay, thanks." He kissed me which I responded to with no hesitation.
"Bye baby, love you."
"Bye." I couldn't say it, not yet. I left the ring on the table and walked
into the bedroom. I was changing when the phone rang. It was the jail, my
client needed to see me, again. I picked up the phone dialing Bobby's
number. He promised to be over in five minutes. I changed and waited for
him. When he got there he had somekind of papers in his hand which I paid
no attention to. He's Bobby, it's work.
"Thanks Bobby."
"Yeah, right no problem." I heard the hurt in his voice. I watched him sit
on the couch and stare straight ahead as if he were deep in thought. With
that I walked out the door more confused than any other time in my life.
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I was on my way back when she called my cell phone... again. I had just
left the divorce lawyers office. I picked up the papers and was on my way
to her house now. She wanted to be with someone else why trap her? I walked
into her home, dinner was still the way it was when I left. She shared
quick words with me and was out the door. To think I ever wanted to get her
back. Oh hell Bobby that's why it hurts so much because you do. I didn't
think I'd have the nerve to ever sign these papers. I sat on the couch and
reached for the remote when my hand grazed the something else. I looked
down and saw it. I froze, if I thought I couldn't believe her seeing
someone else I really couldn't believe this. I reached my shaking hands out
and picked up the box. I sat back on the couch and opened it, I gasped at
what I saw. I couldn't believe it. A 4 carat diamond ring. She is sleeping
with him, she does love him. I tried to get her back and it was all
useless. Three months, three months of keeping this relationship secret and
then I find out and he proposes? This is ridiculous. That's it she loves
him and as hurt as that is I have to accept that. All I can say is he
better be damn good to my son. I'll kill him if anything ever happens to my
son because of him. With that thought I closed the box put it on the table
and picked up the papers; signing them in the two spots needed. She wanted
a damn divorce she got it. With my last 'L' in my name signed I threw the
pen down and sat on the couch waiting for her to get here. An hour later I
heard the door open and she walked in. She looked up and smiled at me, what
a fake smile. I stood up.
"Hey thanks, sorry last minute...again."
"It's fine, look I brought the divorce papers over, I signed them and I'll
leave them here for you to sign and pick them up when I come see Little
Bobby Wednesday." I saw her freeze. "What?"
"Uh, uh nothing. Just surprised. Where are they?" I turned to the table
pointing to the papers. "Okay, okay thanks. I'll give them to you
Wednesday." She pasted on a smile.
"Okay, see you Wednesday."
"Yeah, thanks again."
"Yeah." I walked out the door, tears pricking my eyes. My world was really
over, my wife wasn't my wife, I know I'd said it before but this
time...Well this time it was true. My wife was gone.
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I stood there after he left shocked. I wasn't ready to do this, I loved
Bobby, there was no doubt. I could never love anyone like Bobby. Then there
is Jeff; Jeff is amazing, he loves and adores me as much as I'll let him
without letting it get too far. He understands me, he was willing to take
time for me to get back on track. I was falling so hard for this man but
there was another problem. Bobby Donnell, soon to be former husband. Is
that what I wanted? Did I want him to be Bobby Donnell, ex- husband? or did
I want Bobby Donnell, husband and father? I didn't know, why did he have to
do this in the first place? Why wasn't it okay to be a happy normal married
couple? I can't go through this stage of confusion again. I'm going to
through it with way too many things and I don't need to add weight to my
shoulders. Being with Bobby would make my life wonderful....enventually,
that's the problem...eventually. I'd have to go down a whole other road of
confusion and I wasn't ready for that, I wasn't strong enough emotionally
for that. I never take the easy way out but this time, this time I am. Jeff
makes me happy, three short months and I already was falling for him, but I
fell for Bobby the moment I saw him. Two days is took me to fall for him,
two days of working by his side. Argh...Lindsay stop beating yourself up,
stop thinking about Bobby, it's done, it's over. I walked to the couch and
sat down. Why would Bobby change his mind just like that, I know me being
with Jeff wouldn't do that it would usually make him fight more. That's
that thing about Bobby these days, he's changed so much. I don't know who
he is anymore. I saw the ring still on the coffee table. I opened my eyes
wide in shock. 'That's what he saw' Bobby must've seen the ring. That's
why, but he had the papers before he knew anything about the ring. I took
the pen in one hand and ring in the other, I looked between the ring and
those papers sitting in front of me. I turned to the two pages that needed
signing, with one more look of the ring I closed the box hiding it under
the couch cushion and signed my name on the two dotted lines next to my
soon to be ex-husbands name. I had tears streaming down my face I flipped
the page back to the front and put the pen down. I turned the lights off
and walked in Little Bobby's room, I checked on him, he was sleeping
peaceful. He wouldn't be after he knew his mommy and daddy really wouldn't
be living together anymore. I wiped my tears and went into my room, changed
into Bobby's sweats and t-shirt and curled up into a ball on my bed holding
the pillow of Bobby's I had taken while packing stuff out of my old home.
My old home, how pathetic it sounded. My old home! It shouldn't be my old
home! How could he do this to me, too us! To our son! I cried myself to
sleep hugging his pillow. I lost him, my life, my husband. I fell asleep
thinking about the two things that were confusing me most right now; the
ring and six page packet with four dotted lines, each with signed names on
them.
End Of Part 6.............Well????????????? Think I should keep going? Let
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