Disclaimer: I don't own X-men. Darn.
A/N: This chapter is written in Logan's point of view and the song is Zoe Jane by Staind.
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-Well I want you to notice
To notice when I'm not around
and I know that your eyes see straight through me
and speak to me without a sound-
Madison is starin' at me, her eyebrows furrowed in thought an' I can tell she's reading my mind again. She recoils slightly, most likely due ta all the noise in my head, and then stands up leavin' the room. Rogue finishes my haircut in silence, cleaning up the scraps of hair when she's done.
"You should go talk ta her." She tells me as I pull on my shirt an' run a hand through my hair.
"I know." The sound of my voice sounds foreign to me.
I shake away the feeling as I walk out o' the room straight ta the T.V room where I find Madison sitting in the middle of the room with the T.V off. She looks up at me as I enter, I can immediately smell the fear and sadness drifting from her.
"You really are sick," She whispers staring me in the eye, "And I don't know how I can help."
I notice the shine in her eyes from unshed tears and I begin to feel guilty.
"You just bein' here helps." I try ta smile but it comes out lopsided.
She looks away tryin' ta hide her tears that were now rollin' down her cheeks, "You've always been there for me…" She trailed off as I knelt down besides her pulling her into a hug, "I'm scared... dad"
I squeeze my eyes shut, "I know darlin', me too."
-I want to hold
you
protect you from all of the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all
of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way that a father should love his daughter-
One Week Later…Switched medication again, this one seems to work better than the others. I don't hear the voices anymore and I haven't seen James, either of 'em, or Rose and the nightmares are almost gone. Fer once in almost a month I feel like I'm almost back ta normal.
Almost.
My mind is numb most o' the time, I can hardly think when it happens and then I get frustrated. So I stopped takin' 'em this mornin', just left 'em in the nightstand by my bed and didn't give 'em a second thought.
It's late, almost one in the mornin' and I've snuck out, keys in one hand helmet in the other. I've been under house arrest since
Chuck figured out my problem an' it's been drivin' me up the wall.
-When I walked
out this morning
I cried as I walked to the door
I cried about how long I'd be away for
I cried about leaving you all alone-
"Hey der Wolvie."
Standing there leaning up against my bike is the Cajun smiling brazenly with a cigarette in hand.
"Gumbo…" I growl baring my teeth trying ta look as menacing as I can.
Gambit simply chuckles stepping away from my bike while taking a drag from his cigarette, "Remy t'inks de Wolvie is tryin' ta leave."
"What gave ya yer first clue?" I replied sarcastically folding my arms across my chest allowing my helmet to dangle off my fingers, "Now get out ta my way."
"Remy don't t'ink dat's a good idea," He dropped his cigarette onto the ground and stepped on it, "'cause you-"
A new voice cuts him off and I turn around finding Madison standing in the doorway leading into the mansion.
'This is just great…' I think to myself covering my face with my hand in annoyance.
"Hello der petite." Remy flashed Madison with one of his smiles and I sent a glare his way, which he ignored.
Madison smiled back stepping into the garage her eyes falling onto me, "You can leave Remy." She told him keeping her eyes on me.
"But Chere…" Gambit protested but then sighed in defeat, "Oui, Remy will leave." Shoving his hands into his pockets he left the same way Madison came in.
"Where were you going?" She asked as Remy shut the door behind himself.
I shrugged, "I was just goin' ta go her a ride." I sighed knowing that that wasn' gonna happen now.
"Can I go to?"
I hadn't expected that.
I smirked at her and nodded, "Grab a helmet darlin'."
-I want to hold
you
protect you from all of the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all
of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way that a
father should love his daughter-
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The ride was awesome, for the first time in a year I felt alive and free as I sped down empty roads just listening to the hum of my bike and Madison's laughter.
"This is so fun!" She laughed as I pulled up into the mansion's garage and turned off the engine, "Can we do it again sometime?"
"Sure darlin'." I chuckled hanging up our helmets on the bike's handlebars.
-So I wanted to
say this
'Cause I wouldn't know where to begin
to explain to you what I have been through
to explain where your daddy has been-
I turn back to her finding her staring thoughtfully at the floor, "What's wrong?" I lifted an eyebrow curiously.
She looked up at me, "I want to know," She frowned tilting her head to the side slightly, "what happened to you."
I'm suddenly overcome by flashbacks from both Weapon X and Trask; I do my best to hide it figuring that the medication had stopped working.
"I was locked in a… in a…" I trailed off once again hit by another memory, "a pitch black room strapped to a bed or somethin'," I'm suddenly there but I fight back the panic and keep on talking, "They pulled the adimantium from my bones…" I'm back in the tank filled with what looks like green water wires and things stuck all over me. I gasp when suddenly I find myself back in the garage sitting on the ground with Madison kneeling down by my side with her arms wrapped around my neck.
"I'm sorry." She whispers.
I don't know what to say instead I wrap my arm around her back returning the embrace starting to hear the voices return. It's then that I made the hardest decision in my life…
-I want to hold you
protect you from all of the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all
of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way that a father should love his daughter-
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A/N: I hope I did Remy's accent okay, if not I'm sorry I haven't ever tried it. Please Review and tell me what ya thought of it, (The Chapter lol.) ^_^