A/N: Well, I didn't get as many reviews as I would have liked to.But I
would like to give two VERY special shout outs to two VERY faithful
reviewers..Number one: Teenage Slayer With Attitude.You've been there since
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Spike looked at Eliza, guilt plastered all over his face. Eliza just didn't understand it.the kiss they shared was amazing, she never felt such fire or passion or.dare she say it.caring.in her life. But she couldn't help but feel the pain that Spike felt.She would have given everything she ever had to make him feel the same fireworks she felt as they kissed. But it just doesn't happen the way you want to all the time.
"Spike." Eliza started, studying the ground. "I'm so sorry that--" She was cut of by the sound of Spike's voice.
"No, don't be sorry love. I'm the one that's sorry. I'm sorry for kissing you. One great big mistake." He tried to give her a weak smile, but he was too busy mentally slapping himself for making things difficult for the young lass. "I mean, I guess I just got caught in the moment and I took advantage of you.you're young and impressionable and I--" Spike had abruptly stopped when he heard Eliza exhale deeply, and obviously annoyed. He slightly tilted his head sideways.
Eliza looked at the expression on Spike's face.confusion. The Slayer ran a hand through her thick blonde hair and gave an exasperated chuckle. "You are so completely self centered. Yes, yes you are gorgeous, but you're not that gorgeous! I wouldn't have kissed you if I didn't want to!" She shouted at him.
Still, the vampire continued to stare in amazement, but also gave a frown. "You didn't want to kiss me." He said calmly, trying to convince himself.
"Yes, yes I did!! That's all I could think about doing ever since I met you!"
"That was two bloody days ago!"
"It doesn't matter! All I could think about, dream about, was kissing you! I'm drowning in you! Every time I looked into your annoyingly gorgeous blue eyes and I saw you looking back, I just wanted to grab you and.and.and.Well do things that just aren't right!!" She got closer to Spike, her anger fuming. Spike's mouth made a nice o shape after realizing the familiarity in her voice. She's using the voice he often used with Buffy in the beginning.
"You're just confused; you don't know what you want." He said softly.
Eliza backhanded him, tossing the bleached vamp onto the ground, knocking him hard into the wall. "I know what I want better than you do." She sniffed and turned around taking a few steps out the door, but stopped."Do you want to know what I was going to apologize for?" She asked, not looking at him, and not waiting for his answer. "I'm sorry that I'm not Buffy." And with that she left him there.
As Spike watched the girl go, he held back a scream. He was pissed at himself for never letting anyone in. Although he did not let her in, it didn't mean that he didn't want her.But Eliza wouldn't understand that.Going on everyday having to know that it was him who let his only love's life slip away.He lived with that guilt and didn't want it to ever happen again.so he was emotionally shut off from the rest of the world. Spike growled deeply in the back of his throat and cocked his fist back, slamming it into the wall, shattering pieces of wood into his knuckles.
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Eliza stomped down the stairs angrily. "God damn him!" She screamed, kicking her foot into the wall. She hated him, she hated everything about him. The way he looked, the way he smelled, the way he smiled the way he made her laugh. Suddenly, in the midst of her tantrum, she heard a loud crash erupting from the bedroom upstairs, following by British cursing.
"Bollicks!!! Bloody hell!! Damn that silly lil lass! Damn her!"
Another crash came from upstairs and Eliza sat herself on the stool in the kitchen, forcing herself not to go upstairs to see how he was doing. Win the fight.she coached herself.win.win..win..win..win.GOD DAMN HIM!!!! Eliza ran up the stairs and peered into the room, just to check on Spike, who was now huddled on the bed, his knees were up to his chin and he had locked his arms around his legs.
Eliza looked down his arms to his hands.Blood was smeared across his knuckles. She cringed at all of it. The crimson color covered up his pale skin, so all that was left was red. "Spike, what did you do?" She asked, shaking her head.
"Leave." He said sternly, not looking up from his defensive position.
"Gladly, but first I gotta clean you up."
"I'm a bloody vamp, I can deal."
The helpful and sorry smile disappeared off of Eliza's thick pink lips, and a flicker of danger flashed across her eyes. A fire lit in the pit of Eliza's stomach at his stubbornness. "God damn you Spike, God damn you to hell." She shouted.
"What do you want Slayer?" Spike asked, with no feeling but pure hatred. He looked up at her, with a cold glare. "Did you just come up here to bust my balls?"
"I tried to help and apologize! I didn't know you'd piss me off so bad just because we kissed!"
"I WENT AGAINST EVERYTHING I'VE EVER PROMISED MYSELF.AND PROMISED BUFFY!!! THAT'S WHY I'M PISSED, NOT AT YOU NOT AT BUFFY NOT AT ANYONE BUT MYSELF! BUGGER OFF!!!"
A look of pain stung across Eliza's face. Tears struck her eyes. "Damn you." She whispered yet again.
"Heard that tune before love. Now add in a go to hell and we've got ourselves a broken record."
Eliza was hurt and pissed at the same time. She opened up and got spit back out. She felt walked all over. The ghostly pale green of her eyes faded, almost like there was nothing there at all except maybe ice. The effect was so startling that Spike blinked a couple times and then looked away. "Like I said doll.Bugger off."
Before Eliza knew what was happening, she charged at him like a bull, bringing all her fury and pain with her. She stood about two inches away from him and jabbed her index finger into his ribs. "Don't you ever.EVER.talk to me like that again, DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME YOU ABSOLUTE WASTE OF AN EXISTANCE?!"
Spike slapped her finger away. "Yeah yeah, I hear you." He rolled his eyes and turned around on his bed.
"Listen to me you bastard!" She grabbed him by the arm and pulled him around. Spike snarled and before he could help it, his eyes flashed gold and he vamped out. Eliza punched Spike in his wrinkled nose, hearing a loud crack. "I opened up to you." She punched him again. "I cared about you!" She kicked him in his side. Spike grabbed her wrist as she tried to punch him again. He flipped her over onto her back and strattled her. The vampire cocked back a fist and clocked the side of her face. Eliza winced at the pain. "I've known you for only two days and you did this to me." She spit in his eyes and rolled backwards, breaking free of Spike's hold.
Eliza ran downstairs to the kitchen, Spike following closely behind. The blonde Slayer made it to the knives before Spike got to. When he reached the kitchen, Eliza was hovered over the table, sobbing slightly. "I can't do this." She said slowly, shaking her head.
"Whoa.Liza.Put the knife away love.We can work this out.Just a bit of a tussle." Spike said apologeticly.
"No! I can't do this! Living day after day! Knowing if I was just half a second earlier, I could have saved William! And now I'm not even living in pain like I should be! I'm here trying to win you over from your dead girlfriend!" Eliza said through her teeth. She gripped the black end of the knife, her sweaty palms greasing the sides of it.
"Love.He would want you to be happy."
Eliza smiled. "But I'm not.I'll say hi to Buffy for you." She said, right before she took the knife and plunged it into her heart.
Spike screamed and ran for her. "Love, no!" He took Eliza into his arms. "Stay with me love.stay with me." Tears flowed down his face. "Stay with me."
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Behind the dead slayer and the vampire, an apparition appeared. "Forever." She said. Buffy looked down at the two. Another apparition appeared to the side of her. "What did I tell you Eliza.You can't come back.I'm sorry." She hugged the girl and kissed both of her cheeks.
"I want to! I don't' want to be here! I don't want to live!" Eliza sobbed.
All Buffy could do was cry with the young girl. Buffy reached her arm up and pet the back of her head. "I know, I know, I'm so sorry. Spike will take care of you.I promise." Buffy kissed both of the crying girl's eyes. "I'm always here my warrior." A light shone down into the kitchen and Buffy looked up. She tilted her ear towards it, as if listening to an unheard voice. "Coming mom!" Buffy shouted up. She smiled and disappeared into the light. Eliza blinked once and when she opened her eyes, she was in the arms of a very surprised Spike.
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Spike looked at Eliza, guilt plastered all over his face. Eliza just didn't understand it.the kiss they shared was amazing, she never felt such fire or passion or.dare she say it.caring.in her life. But she couldn't help but feel the pain that Spike felt.She would have given everything she ever had to make him feel the same fireworks she felt as they kissed. But it just doesn't happen the way you want to all the time.
"Spike." Eliza started, studying the ground. "I'm so sorry that--" She was cut of by the sound of Spike's voice.
"No, don't be sorry love. I'm the one that's sorry. I'm sorry for kissing you. One great big mistake." He tried to give her a weak smile, but he was too busy mentally slapping himself for making things difficult for the young lass. "I mean, I guess I just got caught in the moment and I took advantage of you.you're young and impressionable and I--" Spike had abruptly stopped when he heard Eliza exhale deeply, and obviously annoyed. He slightly tilted his head sideways.
Eliza looked at the expression on Spike's face.confusion. The Slayer ran a hand through her thick blonde hair and gave an exasperated chuckle. "You are so completely self centered. Yes, yes you are gorgeous, but you're not that gorgeous! I wouldn't have kissed you if I didn't want to!" She shouted at him.
Still, the vampire continued to stare in amazement, but also gave a frown. "You didn't want to kiss me." He said calmly, trying to convince himself.
"Yes, yes I did!! That's all I could think about doing ever since I met you!"
"That was two bloody days ago!"
"It doesn't matter! All I could think about, dream about, was kissing you! I'm drowning in you! Every time I looked into your annoyingly gorgeous blue eyes and I saw you looking back, I just wanted to grab you and.and.and.Well do things that just aren't right!!" She got closer to Spike, her anger fuming. Spike's mouth made a nice o shape after realizing the familiarity in her voice. She's using the voice he often used with Buffy in the beginning.
"You're just confused; you don't know what you want." He said softly.
Eliza backhanded him, tossing the bleached vamp onto the ground, knocking him hard into the wall. "I know what I want better than you do." She sniffed and turned around taking a few steps out the door, but stopped."Do you want to know what I was going to apologize for?" She asked, not looking at him, and not waiting for his answer. "I'm sorry that I'm not Buffy." And with that she left him there.
As Spike watched the girl go, he held back a scream. He was pissed at himself for never letting anyone in. Although he did not let her in, it didn't mean that he didn't want her.But Eliza wouldn't understand that.Going on everyday having to know that it was him who let his only love's life slip away.He lived with that guilt and didn't want it to ever happen again.so he was emotionally shut off from the rest of the world. Spike growled deeply in the back of his throat and cocked his fist back, slamming it into the wall, shattering pieces of wood into his knuckles.
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Eliza stomped down the stairs angrily. "God damn him!" She screamed, kicking her foot into the wall. She hated him, she hated everything about him. The way he looked, the way he smelled, the way he smiled the way he made her laugh. Suddenly, in the midst of her tantrum, she heard a loud crash erupting from the bedroom upstairs, following by British cursing.
"Bollicks!!! Bloody hell!! Damn that silly lil lass! Damn her!"
Another crash came from upstairs and Eliza sat herself on the stool in the kitchen, forcing herself not to go upstairs to see how he was doing. Win the fight.she coached herself.win.win..win..win..win.GOD DAMN HIM!!!! Eliza ran up the stairs and peered into the room, just to check on Spike, who was now huddled on the bed, his knees were up to his chin and he had locked his arms around his legs.
Eliza looked down his arms to his hands.Blood was smeared across his knuckles. She cringed at all of it. The crimson color covered up his pale skin, so all that was left was red. "Spike, what did you do?" She asked, shaking her head.
"Leave." He said sternly, not looking up from his defensive position.
"Gladly, but first I gotta clean you up."
"I'm a bloody vamp, I can deal."
The helpful and sorry smile disappeared off of Eliza's thick pink lips, and a flicker of danger flashed across her eyes. A fire lit in the pit of Eliza's stomach at his stubbornness. "God damn you Spike, God damn you to hell." She shouted.
"What do you want Slayer?" Spike asked, with no feeling but pure hatred. He looked up at her, with a cold glare. "Did you just come up here to bust my balls?"
"I tried to help and apologize! I didn't know you'd piss me off so bad just because we kissed!"
"I WENT AGAINST EVERYTHING I'VE EVER PROMISED MYSELF.AND PROMISED BUFFY!!! THAT'S WHY I'M PISSED, NOT AT YOU NOT AT BUFFY NOT AT ANYONE BUT MYSELF! BUGGER OFF!!!"
A look of pain stung across Eliza's face. Tears struck her eyes. "Damn you." She whispered yet again.
"Heard that tune before love. Now add in a go to hell and we've got ourselves a broken record."
Eliza was hurt and pissed at the same time. She opened up and got spit back out. She felt walked all over. The ghostly pale green of her eyes faded, almost like there was nothing there at all except maybe ice. The effect was so startling that Spike blinked a couple times and then looked away. "Like I said doll.Bugger off."
Before Eliza knew what was happening, she charged at him like a bull, bringing all her fury and pain with her. She stood about two inches away from him and jabbed her index finger into his ribs. "Don't you ever.EVER.talk to me like that again, DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME YOU ABSOLUTE WASTE OF AN EXISTANCE?!"
Spike slapped her finger away. "Yeah yeah, I hear you." He rolled his eyes and turned around on his bed.
"Listen to me you bastard!" She grabbed him by the arm and pulled him around. Spike snarled and before he could help it, his eyes flashed gold and he vamped out. Eliza punched Spike in his wrinkled nose, hearing a loud crack. "I opened up to you." She punched him again. "I cared about you!" She kicked him in his side. Spike grabbed her wrist as she tried to punch him again. He flipped her over onto her back and strattled her. The vampire cocked back a fist and clocked the side of her face. Eliza winced at the pain. "I've known you for only two days and you did this to me." She spit in his eyes and rolled backwards, breaking free of Spike's hold.
Eliza ran downstairs to the kitchen, Spike following closely behind. The blonde Slayer made it to the knives before Spike got to. When he reached the kitchen, Eliza was hovered over the table, sobbing slightly. "I can't do this." She said slowly, shaking her head.
"Whoa.Liza.Put the knife away love.We can work this out.Just a bit of a tussle." Spike said apologeticly.
"No! I can't do this! Living day after day! Knowing if I was just half a second earlier, I could have saved William! And now I'm not even living in pain like I should be! I'm here trying to win you over from your dead girlfriend!" Eliza said through her teeth. She gripped the black end of the knife, her sweaty palms greasing the sides of it.
"Love.He would want you to be happy."
Eliza smiled. "But I'm not.I'll say hi to Buffy for you." She said, right before she took the knife and plunged it into her heart.
Spike screamed and ran for her. "Love, no!" He took Eliza into his arms. "Stay with me love.stay with me." Tears flowed down his face. "Stay with me."
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Behind the dead slayer and the vampire, an apparition appeared. "Forever." She said. Buffy looked down at the two. Another apparition appeared to the side of her. "What did I tell you Eliza.You can't come back.I'm sorry." She hugged the girl and kissed both of her cheeks.
"I want to! I don't' want to be here! I don't want to live!" Eliza sobbed.
All Buffy could do was cry with the young girl. Buffy reached her arm up and pet the back of her head. "I know, I know, I'm so sorry. Spike will take care of you.I promise." Buffy kissed both of the crying girl's eyes. "I'm always here my warrior." A light shone down into the kitchen and Buffy looked up. She tilted her ear towards it, as if listening to an unheard voice. "Coming mom!" Buffy shouted up. She smiled and disappeared into the light. Eliza blinked once and when she opened her eyes, she was in the arms of a very surprised Spike.