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it takes place days later, when Adam told Jeff he loved him...Jeff's no where to be found.
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Adam say alone in his room wondering where Jeff was, as he had been doing for days. He called Matt, Shannon, and Shane, asking if they heard from Jeff every hour.
For the first time in a long time Adam felt alone. He always had someone around. Now he had millions of people around him all day long...but not Jeff...so in Adam's mind he was alone.
Jeff on the other hand, not being known, and being alone was the only time he felt happy.
After time Jeff called Adam:
"Hello?!" Adam answered quickly, as if he were waiting.
"this is what I told you about. I would fuck up and hurt you--"
Adam cut him off mid-sentence, "Jeff! Just come back, come back to me please? I'll do anything you want...just come back"
"Shut the fuck up and let me talk! I told you everything would get fucked up. I told you I wanted it. I didn't want to know you felt it. I wanted you to feel love for me.. but I didn't want to know it. I know I make no sense now...I think I'm just gonna *disappear*. Don't try and fight me. I'm through. I can't do it anymore. I've had enough fucking up...bye Adam..." Jeff didn't hang up...he didn't want to *disappear*. He just thought it would fix everything.
"Don't hang up...Jeff just tell me where you are. I'll come there. We can be together. Away from everyone, just you and me. Remember you said you wanted that? Remember? Don't fucking leave me...when i need you. Don't you get it? I need you HERE? Don't you--"
All Adam heard was the dial tone.
Jeff hung up. He sat alone. He didn't know how he was going to *disappear*. He had 10,000 thoughts in his head. He went in his pocket and pulled out his knife. He figured just cutting himself deep enough to bleed to death would be the best. That way he could watch himself die slowly. He could cause himself enough pain...to forget everything he feels inside. He could go numb, and no one would notice he was gone.
He slowly ran the blade up and down his arm. Hoping for the courage to press down. He closed his eyes...took a deep breath...and pressed down...
"Life and Death. Energy and peace...if I stopped today, it was fun, even the terrible pains that have burned me and scarred my soul. It was worth it, for having been allowed to walk were I walked. Which is to hell on earth. Heaven on earth,back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, over and above it."
it takes place days later, when Adam told Jeff he loved him...Jeff's no where to be found.
_
Adam say alone in his room wondering where Jeff was, as he had been doing for days. He called Matt, Shannon, and Shane, asking if they heard from Jeff every hour.
For the first time in a long time Adam felt alone. He always had someone around. Now he had millions of people around him all day long...but not Jeff...so in Adam's mind he was alone.
Jeff on the other hand, not being known, and being alone was the only time he felt happy.
After time Jeff called Adam:
"Hello?!" Adam answered quickly, as if he were waiting.
"this is what I told you about. I would fuck up and hurt you--"
Adam cut him off mid-sentence, "Jeff! Just come back, come back to me please? I'll do anything you want...just come back"
"Shut the fuck up and let me talk! I told you everything would get fucked up. I told you I wanted it. I didn't want to know you felt it. I wanted you to feel love for me.. but I didn't want to know it. I know I make no sense now...I think I'm just gonna *disappear*. Don't try and fight me. I'm through. I can't do it anymore. I've had enough fucking up...bye Adam..." Jeff didn't hang up...he didn't want to *disappear*. He just thought it would fix everything.
"Don't hang up...Jeff just tell me where you are. I'll come there. We can be together. Away from everyone, just you and me. Remember you said you wanted that? Remember? Don't fucking leave me...when i need you. Don't you get it? I need you HERE? Don't you--"
All Adam heard was the dial tone.
Jeff hung up. He sat alone. He didn't know how he was going to *disappear*. He had 10,000 thoughts in his head. He went in his pocket and pulled out his knife. He figured just cutting himself deep enough to bleed to death would be the best. That way he could watch himself die slowly. He could cause himself enough pain...to forget everything he feels inside. He could go numb, and no one would notice he was gone.
He slowly ran the blade up and down his arm. Hoping for the courage to press down. He closed his eyes...took a deep breath...and pressed down...
"Life and Death. Energy and peace...if I stopped today, it was fun, even the terrible pains that have burned me and scarred my soul. It was worth it, for having been allowed to walk were I walked. Which is to hell on earth. Heaven on earth,back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, over and above it."