Ta da! I'm happy with all the reviews you guys have been sending me. I'm glad you guys liked the last chapie I didn't really like the way it was working and I had to keep going over it. For some reason it was being really hard to write.
Sorry I have been taking so long I've been working on stories for my may term class. And packing up cause school ends and I move out on wed and sat. I can't believe I only have a week left and then just my senior year and I'm out of here. And on to collage. Yippy!
Sorry again I was hoping to have this done before I moved out but that didn't seem to want to happen so I have been moving back into my house from school for the past couple of days. And my computer has yet to be hooked up to the net.
Well Lady's and Gents here you have it. The last chapter! Gasp! There will be an epilogue though. Yeah so I wrote this ending along time ago. At lest a month, I had it on notebook paper and I kept rereading it cause it is my favorite part and I am a freak.
By the way I don't own Bebop or Evanescence's song 'My Last breath' I just really really like them both.
PS. I did some work on the other parts of this story so I hope to have corrected versions with some bonus material in some of them in a few days. Like I said I don't have the net on my computer yet so I have to wait to put them on disk and put them on my mom's computer which is hooked up.
PPS. No one kill me please. I'm sorry. (If you're wondering why, just wait you'll know and if you still
don't then I know I'm safe from you.)
Chapter 11: Never lost, Ever free
They walked along the dark paths of the hallway. Spike carried Landis and Faye struggled to carry herself and the small gun she had gotten off the dead guard in front of her room. She was so tired, when this was over she just wanted to sleep for days. She tried looking around but had no idea where she was and what way was out. So she just followed Spike blindly hoping that he might have more of a sense of direction. Finally choosing a door Spike had led them back to the room where she had been lead before to meet Vicious. The room was even darker with only its candles lighting it. Faye reached forward and grabbed Spike's arm both to get his attention and to help steady herself.
"That door over there." She nodded towards it. "That's how I came in." He looked at her and nodded before continuing on towards the door. Faye kept her hand on his arm not liking the cold chill this room gave her. They had almost crossed the room.
"Well isn't this a quaint picture." His voice made her blood freeze in her veins. Spike felt his blood begin to rise.
They turned to face him each fighting back their overwhelming emotions. They wanted to run though each in a different direction. Faye wanted to get away and Spike wanted to run over and rip out Vicious' frozen heart. Faye's hand clenched Spike tighter of its own accord. They probably could have looked very 'quaint' at that moment. Faye's hand on Spike's arm him holding their sleeping son. It could have been quaint if they didn't have blood allover them and if the situation had been different. But no they were here and things didn't look quaint they looked a lot shittier then they had a few moments earlier.
Faye felt Spike shifting and almost fell over as Landis' weight was rested in her arms. She looked up at Spike his face was hard-set.
"No Spike." She was pleading with him again. And again he wasn't listening; he didn't even look at her. "Not again." She said more to herself. He took out his gun and held it loosely in his hand. She could feel herself backing up when all she really wanted to do was throw herself on him and stop him from doing this again.
Vicious slid his katana from its sheath. It glowed with fire in the reflecting candle light. They walked slowly towards each other. Each with their weapon raised. It was only a flash. They ran for each other Spike shot but Vicious moved his gun with the sword.
"Remember Spike we still have to set each other free." Vicious said through gritted teeth. This is just like before, Spike thought. It was all happening allover again.
They pushed against each other and flew apart Vicious quickly throwing his weight to catch a small slice of Spike's leg Spike responded with a mirroring shot to Vicious' own leg as he stumbled backwards. Vicious wasted no time as Spike fought to right himself he came at him swinging his blade in a death blow for his chest. Spike caught himself just in time to scoot back though not enough. He shut his eyes in anticipation. He heard a shot, the sharp bite of the sword connected with his chest, but to his surprise it did not dig deep only scratching through his flesh. He opened his eyes to see Vicious stumbling back his shoulder a bloody mess. Faye stood by the mirrored wall smoke still trailing from her gun.
She had just gotten Spike back she wasn't going to lose him again not for some God damn male pride thing. And she didn't care if Spike was pissed she just wanted to get the hell out of here.
Spiked looked at Faye, Man she looks pissed. I'm glad she's on my side. Wait that's it. That's the difference. This time he wasn't alone; he had forgotten that. He turned back to Vicious who looked somewhat shocked.
"No Vicious."
Confusion passed through Vicious' features as Spike raised his gun.
"I am Free." Spike reached out and grabbed Faye's hands removing them from the gun they held. Letting it fall to the ground. The thud of the gun was followed by the quick echo of Spike's gun firing.
Blood seeped from the corner of Vicious' mouth as he fell to a kneel clutching his middle. Spike allowed himself to slouch partially giving into the pain of his injuries. Faye stood next to him in shock. He had chosen her over his past. The one thing she thought she would always dwell in the shadow of. He chose a future, and her. She watched him knowing that whether or not he wanted it she was going to help him out of this nightmare. She squeezed his hand tighter to her own she needed to feel that he was still real that this was all truly happening. She lifted her other hand to his arm and he was, as always, warm to the touch and so soothing to feel. She held tightly to his arm. Making sure that her fingers would not suddenly slip through his smooth flesh.
He shuddered slightly at her cool touch and their eyes met. He could see her, all of her, all that she had been all that she had become. He could see her as a young girl running to the open arms of her family. Hear her as she moaned softly when he had her pressed against the wall. Feel her hand as she stopped him from entering her house on that fateful day. He could see her hopes her fears. Her greatest fear, the one she had fought for so long her fear of waking up as she did that first day. Alone. He wanted to tell her that she didn't have to fear that he would never leave her; that she would never be alone again. Only he couldn't get the words to come out of his mouth. Of all the times for his inability to communicate to flare up. He took her chin in his hand, It was then that he saw the glint but it was too late.
She felt like she was drowning in a pool of warmth. His eyes that had always refused to tell her anything were open, they were open so freely. He looked like he was conflicting with saying something but he didn't have to his eyes told her everything; she would never be alone again. He held her face bringing it towards his own when suddenly his eyes flashed with warning and she felt the blade.
Spike didn't have to think he just shot Vicious through the throat. Throwing him unmoving to the ground; Faye's hands slipped from Spike as the tip of the katana smashed through her chest. The world slowed to a crawl and she starred through him shock and pain flowing through her eyes. She took in a breath trying to speak but only small wheezing sounds came from her lips. Clumsily she reached out for him. He grabbed her arms but instead of pulling her to him like she had wanted he walked behind her. He gripped her arm bracing himself as much as her for his next move. He moved quickly pulling out the sword and ready to catch her as her knees gave out. He eased her to the floor and ripped off parts of his jacket to make a makeshift bandage for her wounds. She has lost so much blood already. Hold on Faye.
Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
Faye clutched at Spike's arms. Feeling what bit of her life was left pouring out of the holes in her body. She tried to speak but still it proved too difficult.
All I wanted to say was 'I love you' and 'I'm not afraid'
Do you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
She continued trying; her mind screaming. Spike! Spike please, hold me tighter don't let me go I'm slipping. I can't feel you, I'm losing you, can you feel me?
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
She put her hand to his face. She could see the pain in his face in his eyes, both of them. Faye could feel the tears forming in her eyes and for once she was not ashamed or angry when they freed themselves from her eyes. She knew that she should have been scared. That she should have feared this end. She would miss things, yes. It wasn't fair, of this she was certain. But afraid. Afraid was something she was not she had too many other things on her mind to be afraid.
"Don't worry Faye you'll be all right." He told her. She tried to smile at him.
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
She would never see Landis grow up. Watch him play baseball again. See him get his 5th degree black belt. She wouldn't be around to fight with him when he became a teenager, and what arguments they would be. She'd never see him go on a date, or get married. She would never hold her grandchildren in her arms. And Spike, the man that had brought new meaning to her life in more ways then one. The only man she had ever truly loved. She fought against the pool of blood that was filling her throat trying so hard to speak. Spike moved his hand from her chest and helped her to lift her head allowing some of the blood to drain out. She saw him flinch at this.
"Don't worry Faye you'll be ok." He repeated more for himself this time.
"Spike." She gargled out a whisper.
"Don't talk." He smoothed her hair. "Jet should have called the police by now and someone is coming."
"Spike."
"Shhh." He wiped at the blood on the corner of her mouth causing her to cough up more.
It was getting harder to breath if she didn't get it out soon she never would.
"Spike I…" She coughed again and he lifted her head higher.
They locked eyes. She saw that the final barrier of his eyes had been broken; hot tears flowed down his face running past her fingers and leaving them incased in warm liquid. They rolled to his chin where they collected and fell onto her lips.
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
Faye wiped at the tears on his face and he grabbed her hand holding it to him. She realized that now she had seen all of him. After all this time of hiding he was exposed. Exposed to her as she had always felt to him. Her heart ached with this new wave of love that she was experiencing. Why does it have to end? It's just not fair.
"Spike…Landis."
He stared at her.
"You need to…" she was forced to pause and try to find a breath that quickly seeped away from her. "Take care…"
"No Faye."
"When I'm…"
"No, Faye don't even say it. Your going to be fine just stop, don't even think it. Besides you know I wouldn't know the first thing about taking care of a kid. So I know you won't leave me here you don't trust me enough." Spike tried to lighten the mood hoping to ease both their pains. And to change from this unthinkable subject, but Faye would have none of it.
"Promise."
"Stop it Faye." His voice cracked slightly with pain.
She coughed again pleading with her eyes. "Please."
He couldn't answer the lump in his dry throat refused to budge, but slowly painfully slowly he nodded the tears balancing on his eyes again.
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No ones there
Her eyes thanked him. He couldn't bare to look at her, not like this. Please God, or whoever. Not like this. I can't do this not again, this can't be happening again. Julia's words came to him. 'Its all a dream isn't it.' Yes, that's what this was, a dream a bad dream soon he would wake and Faye would be ok and everything would be back to normal.
"It's a dream." He whispered to himself. "This isn't happening."
"No Spike." Her voice broke his meditation. "Don't run from this."
He opened his eyes and looked at her again.
"You're not dreaming." She gargled and coughed again.
He was awake. He was awake. He had woken up and found the vary thing he, like Faye, had been running from. He was alone. He had slept away his chance, his chance to be with her. He'd been lost for so long in his dream world. No, it couldn't… it couldn't belike this. Please no, his mind screamed, don't go, don't leave me here.
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
"Faye don't leave me here alone."
She tried to smile but only succeeded in coughing up blood.
"I'm not going any ware," she breathed deeply causing a small bubbling sound. "I waited for you too long Spike Spiegel to just let you slip away from me." She let her words comfort him for a moment before she continued. "I may not be here, but I will always be here." Using what little strength she had left she brought her lips to his. The metallic and salty taste of blood and tears mixing in their mouths. He held her head up to his own wishing the moment never to end.
Their lips parted and Faye's lids drooped closer to shut.
"Faye, no!"
Calling me
Calling me
As you fade to black
"Faye! Faye!" Her hand began to slip from him but he held it there with his own.
"Spike." Her voice was no more then soft breath. Her body fought the release of precious air, but she had to say it she knew it was the only thing that would give her peace. "Spike, I love you."
He leaned over and held his face to hers.
"I love you Faye."
Say goodnight
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Holding
Are all my thoughts of you
Calling me Calling me
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
Her heart felt lifted, she was free. She had told him. Her eyes fluttered shut.
"FAYE!"
You're gonna carry that weight…
End.
Sorry. Sorry. Eep don't hurt me. There will be an epilogue but I don't know how long it will take me to do with me still moving in and unpacking and trying to get a job and not having the net in here yet.