"Ummm where are we going Carter?" Jamie playfully smiled up at me when she
realized we weren't going to the hotel we'd picked out when I'd first asked
her to marry me.
I grinned wildly and shot back, "I'd tell ya but then I'd have to kill you."
We both burst out laughing remembering the time I asked her for a ride home from play practice.
Jamie leaned her head on my shoulder, "Thank God for forty two," she said.
Just when I thought I'd burst with excitement, we pulled up to a small yellow house with white shutters.
"What's going on?" Jamie asked still confused "Where are we?"
"Home." I answered casually.
For a moment she still looked confused, then it hit her. She ran straight into my arms. That's what I loved most about surprising her.
"But how did you.when did you." she stammered.
"Remember that little errand I had to run on Friday."
She kissed me gently. "I love you, thank you."
"You don't have to thank me, Jamie. I love you too." I said brushing her hair behind her ear.
I loved her more and more every minute. I wouldn't, no I couldn't, lose her. Not ever. I kissed her hard and long. Then remembering what Reverend Sullivan said I suddenly pulled back.
Jamie looked at me with deep concern, "What's wrong?"
"Nothing," I said turning away from her.
"Landon-" she started.
But I cut her off. If I told her what was bothering me, what her father said, then I'd have to think about her leaving me. I couldn't. It hurt too much. "Uhh I'm gonna go get a glass of water."
I did and when I came back, Jamie was out on the balcony, where her father and I had put her telescope. I placed my hands on her shoulders and turned her towards me. She was crying. I had made Jamie cry!! At that moment I felt lower than pond scum. I hung my head and stared down at my feet.
"I guess they were right," she said so low I could barely hear her. "Daddy and your mom, when they thought you were marrying me out of pity." A tear rolled down her soft cheek.
My head shot up. That's what she thought! After everything we'd been through together! Didn't she know that she was my whole world that I'd die if.
"Jamie," I said taken her face in my hands and forcing her to look at me, "I love you." She still looked like she doubted it. "Jamie, I'm scared." I said finally telling her my deepest emotion. I had been keeping it to myself since her hospitalization.
"Scared?" Jamie questioned trying to calm down.
"Yeah. Jamie, you're already so sick I don't want to do anything to hurt you, to lessen your chances of getting to stay here with me longer." I sank down on the bed and started to sob uncontrollably.
"Oh Landon," her tone was soft and caring now, "I'm going to die, you have to face that sooner or later and there is nothing we can or can't do to change that."
I shook my head, "You can't die, you can't. I'll die without you. You're my life Jamie my whole world."
"Look at me Landon." I couldn't. "Please," she said, gently lifting my chin and forcing me to look into her beautiful eyes. I was almost relieved to see her eyes filling with tears too. "Do you think I wanna die? I'd give anything to stay here with you forever. But I can't. You'll go on and have a full life, who knows." she took a deep breath ".you may even have children someday."
"I could never love anyone but you," I protested.
She smiled, "Then love me now," she pleaded, "make love to me Landon."
"I need you, Jamie," I said taking her in my arms. I didn't want to disobey Reverend Sullivan but I couldn't hold back my love for Jamie anymore. I needed to become one with her, to bond her to me forever. At least no one could take tonight from us. As long as I lived, I would always have tonight.
I grinned wildly and shot back, "I'd tell ya but then I'd have to kill you."
We both burst out laughing remembering the time I asked her for a ride home from play practice.
Jamie leaned her head on my shoulder, "Thank God for forty two," she said.
Just when I thought I'd burst with excitement, we pulled up to a small yellow house with white shutters.
"What's going on?" Jamie asked still confused "Where are we?"
"Home." I answered casually.
For a moment she still looked confused, then it hit her. She ran straight into my arms. That's what I loved most about surprising her.
"But how did you.when did you." she stammered.
"Remember that little errand I had to run on Friday."
She kissed me gently. "I love you, thank you."
"You don't have to thank me, Jamie. I love you too." I said brushing her hair behind her ear.
I loved her more and more every minute. I wouldn't, no I couldn't, lose her. Not ever. I kissed her hard and long. Then remembering what Reverend Sullivan said I suddenly pulled back.
Jamie looked at me with deep concern, "What's wrong?"
"Nothing," I said turning away from her.
"Landon-" she started.
But I cut her off. If I told her what was bothering me, what her father said, then I'd have to think about her leaving me. I couldn't. It hurt too much. "Uhh I'm gonna go get a glass of water."
I did and when I came back, Jamie was out on the balcony, where her father and I had put her telescope. I placed my hands on her shoulders and turned her towards me. She was crying. I had made Jamie cry!! At that moment I felt lower than pond scum. I hung my head and stared down at my feet.
"I guess they were right," she said so low I could barely hear her. "Daddy and your mom, when they thought you were marrying me out of pity." A tear rolled down her soft cheek.
My head shot up. That's what she thought! After everything we'd been through together! Didn't she know that she was my whole world that I'd die if.
"Jamie," I said taken her face in my hands and forcing her to look at me, "I love you." She still looked like she doubted it. "Jamie, I'm scared." I said finally telling her my deepest emotion. I had been keeping it to myself since her hospitalization.
"Scared?" Jamie questioned trying to calm down.
"Yeah. Jamie, you're already so sick I don't want to do anything to hurt you, to lessen your chances of getting to stay here with me longer." I sank down on the bed and started to sob uncontrollably.
"Oh Landon," her tone was soft and caring now, "I'm going to die, you have to face that sooner or later and there is nothing we can or can't do to change that."
I shook my head, "You can't die, you can't. I'll die without you. You're my life Jamie my whole world."
"Look at me Landon." I couldn't. "Please," she said, gently lifting my chin and forcing me to look into her beautiful eyes. I was almost relieved to see her eyes filling with tears too. "Do you think I wanna die? I'd give anything to stay here with you forever. But I can't. You'll go on and have a full life, who knows." she took a deep breath ".you may even have children someday."
"I could never love anyone but you," I protested.
She smiled, "Then love me now," she pleaded, "make love to me Landon."
"I need you, Jamie," I said taking her in my arms. I didn't want to disobey Reverend Sullivan but I couldn't hold back my love for Jamie anymore. I needed to become one with her, to bond her to me forever. At least no one could take tonight from us. As long as I lived, I would always have tonight.