Yesterday's Letter

WWE

Series: Winds Of Change

Disc: You know the drill. None of the characters you recognize belong to me. Song is 'Yesterday's Letter' by 98 Degrees.

Rating: PG

Note: 4th in series.

Pairing: Bubba/Trish

Part 1/1

I wrote a letter yesterday
Just trying to explain
Couldn't find the words to say
Cause you are so far away, so far away

I wrote a letter yesterday
It's so hard for me to face
That it had to end this way
But my love will never change, will never change

He stared at the monitor, ignoring the friendly banter between his brothers. The match going on was nothing special, just a little time filler before the main event. He wasn't interested in the match though – his attention was currently focused on the blonde diva crying out in pain in the ring.

Bubba stared at Trish, aware that he probably had a wistful expression on his face. He shrugged internally – D'Von and Spike knew what his feelings for Trish were, would always be.

To tell the truth, Bubba wasn't quite sure when things had changed between the two of them. It seemed like one day they were completely in love and the next it had been over.

Maybe he had just been blind. Maybe.


When I search my soul to find the truth
About the love we shared
I wonder why you're no longer here

You can just walk away
But I don't feel the same
My heart still beats for you
Craves for you
Sings for you
And those feelings will never fade
I can't hide my pain
I can never hide the way I feel for you

He wasn't ashamed of the fact that everyone knew how hung up he still was on the blonde diva. He knew that she was hiding something from him, but somehow couldn't seem to bring himself to confront her. God knows he'd tried enough times. The words had just gotten stuck in his throat, unable to leave.

He would be content with loving her from afar, would make himself be content. Bubba smiled instinctively as Trish won the match, Stephanie writhing in the ring, all pretences of her pregnancy long gone.


I've been talking in my sleep
About the way it used to be
Girl I pray that you hear me
Then I'll see you in my dreams
Oh, in my dreams

Well I can't forget the words you said
To pull away from my life
And no matter what I'll carry you inside

He finally looked away from the monitor, realizing that his brother's had left at some point in his inner musings. He closed his eyes, dreaming of her even while he was awake.

He sighed, trying to forget what she had said that last time, the defiant way she had glared at him, the hateful glances she kept throwing at him, but knowing that he wouldn't.

Still, he couldn't stop loving her; no more than Lita could stop loving Hunter or Jericho forget Ivory. Hell, even Test couldn't ignore his feelings for Stephanie, even though he seemed to be doing pretty well with Stacy.

He knew that it confused some people – the way that he accepted that Trish would always be a part of him, always with him. Actually, Bubba thought that the roster had enough people happily living in self-denial without adding himself to the mix.

Sooner or later your gonna realize
That this type of love happens once in your life
So open your eyes girl
And see what we could be

He guessed that part of it was because somewhere inside him, he still hoped that she'd come back to him. That she would say it was all a big mistake, that she hadn't meant it when she said that she didn't love him.

Yeah, that was why he accepted it so easily. He just wasn't sure if he loved or hated that part of himself.

You can just walk away
But I don't feel the same
My heart still beats for you, breaks for you, sinks for you
And those feelings will never fade
I can't hide my pain
I can never hide the way I feel for you

He remembered how tense her shoulders had been, remembered having to fight the urge to rub her shoulders.

The fact that she'd just broken up with him hadn't really sunk in for a while. And by the time it had? She'd already walked away…

And he'd accepted the fact that it was impossible for him to do the same.

End Yesterday's Letter