Lily's Pensive
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Disclaimer: I do not own these characters.
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They were so close. Lily's eyes fluttered closed but Snape's eyes were still open as his face inched towards her. There was a hairs breadth between them and Lily's breath tickled Snape's chin as she moved her head so close.
Snape jerked back.
His eyes were wide with shock and surprise. His hand immediately jumped to his hair and he ran his hand through those greasy locks as though embarassed at what had just almost happened. He let out a shaky sigh as though he had just had a scrape with death. Snape looked even paler than usual and Harry noticed that his hands were shaking. Snape scramble back from Lily who was still sitting in the same position, leaning towards Snape who was no longer there.
"Y-Y-You had better, er, go now. I'll just get a, er, sh-shirt. Right," Snape muttered standing up on shaky legs. He disappeared into the next room which must have been the bathroom as Harry heard running water. Harry couldn't care less what Snape was doing as he stared at his mother's expression.
Still on the floor, she looked like she had finally realised that Snape was no longer there. She sat back with a sad little expression on her face. Lily sighed too but it was a far more melancholy sigh than Snape's, rather that she had missed out on a treat rather than been saved from a horror.
But she didn't mean to kiss him surely, thought Harry. Why would she want to? By all accounts Snape was a horrid slimy, no-good Slytherin who had once called his mother a mudblood. She must just be feeling pity for him. The idiot couldn't even defend himself. He was right to think that he shouldn't be kissing Lily in the Slytherin common room, or anywhere else for that matter. She was far too good for Snape, so way above his level that he couldn't...
Snape reappeared in the room wearing a slightly crumpled, not exactly clean looking black shirt. His hands balled themselves into fists and he looked to be trying to build up the courage to talk to Lily again. Snape took several deep breaths and stepped more purposefully towards Lily.
Harry's mother looked up from the floor and saw Snape standing over her with a curious mix of anger and fear written across his features. Was he angry that Lily had seen him at his most vulnerable, crying, that she had tried to kiss him, that she was still there?
It never crossed Harry's mind that Snape would be angry for breaking up the almost-kiss.
Lily stood up and followed Snape out of the Sixth year's boy's dorm and down the winding stair case back into the empty common room. Lily looked about her as if for the last time as they slowly moved toward the exit door. Snape lead the way determined not to look back. Before they reached the door Snape whirled around and gave his mother one of those murderous stares that Harry was so familiar with.
"You will not mention anything that happened here this afternoon. You should go now as the Gryfindors will probably be looking for you now and it is only a matter of time before they think of looking here, and believe me they will. Just don't tell anyone what, er, happened." Harry gave a dry smile wondering how badly his father would have taunted Snape for almost- kissing the girl he fancied.
"It's all right, I said you could trust me," replied Lily in a small sad little voice. "I mean, I should have known you wouldn't have, er, well, you know, with me."
"I was actually talking about the marks on... well, er, but you were talking about..., but nothing happened..., just don't mention, they would think I...., I don't want anyone to..., er," Snape stuttered to an end.
"Its all right Severus. I know the rules," she sighed sadly. Lily spoke on in a slow quiet voice, "your a Slytherin, I'm a Gryfindor. Your a pure blood I'm a mud...mumph."
Harry's chin hit the floor. Snape, Severus Snape was kissing his mother. Snape had just lunged for his mothers mouth as she was about to utter that horrid and offensive word that was used to describe people with non-magical parents. Granted they were both teenagers at the time and Lily wasn't mother to anyone and Severus didn't teach but, ick. In fact from this angle it did look like he was trying to eat her rather than kiss her. His arms, however, remained tight by his side as Lily's roamed up his back as she leaned into the kiss.
Harry watched horror struck as his mother, who at first had looked so surprised that her eyes looked as if they were going to pop out of her head slowly started taking more control of the kiss. She shut her eyes and began moving her head back and forth in rhythm with Snape's. Her hands circled round his back and began explore the ridges of his shoulder blades and back bone. She moved her right hand up to the nape of his neck and twirled the ends of Snape's hair around her long fingers.
"Yerch," said Harry wrinkling his nose in disgust.
Snape slowly began moving his hands towards the body of Lily Evens. He gently placed then no her hips as if she was some magnificent bird and he did not want to crush her or hold her too tight that she would try to fly away. Slowly he moved one of his hands to the small of her back, to just underneath that brilliant auburn hair, so the ends tickled his hand.
Still they were kissing. It felt like they had been kissing for ages to Harry. Surely they would have to come up for air sooner or later. But they just stood there in the middle of the quiet common room the snow silently falling outside the window. Their heads moved together if their hearts beat to the same rhythm that they were dancing to. Lily's hand slowly but surely became more and more tangled in Snape's greasy locks and Snape became more sure of himself as he gripped Lily more tightly and pulled her towards him.
Harry was sure it could not be comfortable to stand like that, trying to think of anything but Snapes tounge down his mothers throat. Lily was quite a bit smaller than Snape but as he was bending over her and she had her back arched back, her feet on tip-toes and her chest pressed towards Snape. It did look like Snape was still trying to devour her. Slowly though the kissing slowed down and they both started pulling away, still leaving little kisses on their swollen lips.
At last the two faces were pulled apart. Harry could see straight into his mother face. She still had her eyes closed but was grinning in the most indecent way. Her hand still tangled in Snapes hair Lily bit her lip to suppress a giggle and leaned forward to kiss Snape again. But Snape jerked his head back and Harry could here his quickened breath.
Harry moved around the couple to see Snape's expression and was shocked to see that it held nothing but fear. Lily's eyes opened and she looked questioningly at Snape. She tried to kiss him again but he moved his head back but however made no move to remove his hands. He turned his head away from the girl in his arms so she could make no more attempts on his lips.
"Severus...I don't...," Lily began.
Suddenly he pushed her away and turned from her. He ran his hand through his hair and screwed his eyes tight shut. What on earth could he be thinking, thought Harry. It looked like he had just killed someone. Done something that he could never forgive himself, Harry didn't understand at all. By the looks of things neither did Lily.
"I don't understand Severus," she began, draping her hands over his shoulder. "I just want..."
"Oh bugger," yelled Snape throwing her hands off, "why the hell did I have to kiss you?"
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a/n
Oh dear why is Snape so angry at such a good kiss, and he is a good kisser if anyone is wondering. Well if you want to know what happens next please read and review. Thank you to all who reviewed my last chapter! Squee! I get far too over excited when I get reviews!
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters.
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They were so close. Lily's eyes fluttered closed but Snape's eyes were still open as his face inched towards her. There was a hairs breadth between them and Lily's breath tickled Snape's chin as she moved her head so close.
Snape jerked back.
His eyes were wide with shock and surprise. His hand immediately jumped to his hair and he ran his hand through those greasy locks as though embarassed at what had just almost happened. He let out a shaky sigh as though he had just had a scrape with death. Snape looked even paler than usual and Harry noticed that his hands were shaking. Snape scramble back from Lily who was still sitting in the same position, leaning towards Snape who was no longer there.
"Y-Y-You had better, er, go now. I'll just get a, er, sh-shirt. Right," Snape muttered standing up on shaky legs. He disappeared into the next room which must have been the bathroom as Harry heard running water. Harry couldn't care less what Snape was doing as he stared at his mother's expression.
Still on the floor, she looked like she had finally realised that Snape was no longer there. She sat back with a sad little expression on her face. Lily sighed too but it was a far more melancholy sigh than Snape's, rather that she had missed out on a treat rather than been saved from a horror.
But she didn't mean to kiss him surely, thought Harry. Why would she want to? By all accounts Snape was a horrid slimy, no-good Slytherin who had once called his mother a mudblood. She must just be feeling pity for him. The idiot couldn't even defend himself. He was right to think that he shouldn't be kissing Lily in the Slytherin common room, or anywhere else for that matter. She was far too good for Snape, so way above his level that he couldn't...
Snape reappeared in the room wearing a slightly crumpled, not exactly clean looking black shirt. His hands balled themselves into fists and he looked to be trying to build up the courage to talk to Lily again. Snape took several deep breaths and stepped more purposefully towards Lily.
Harry's mother looked up from the floor and saw Snape standing over her with a curious mix of anger and fear written across his features. Was he angry that Lily had seen him at his most vulnerable, crying, that she had tried to kiss him, that she was still there?
It never crossed Harry's mind that Snape would be angry for breaking up the almost-kiss.
Lily stood up and followed Snape out of the Sixth year's boy's dorm and down the winding stair case back into the empty common room. Lily looked about her as if for the last time as they slowly moved toward the exit door. Snape lead the way determined not to look back. Before they reached the door Snape whirled around and gave his mother one of those murderous stares that Harry was so familiar with.
"You will not mention anything that happened here this afternoon. You should go now as the Gryfindors will probably be looking for you now and it is only a matter of time before they think of looking here, and believe me they will. Just don't tell anyone what, er, happened." Harry gave a dry smile wondering how badly his father would have taunted Snape for almost- kissing the girl he fancied.
"It's all right, I said you could trust me," replied Lily in a small sad little voice. "I mean, I should have known you wouldn't have, er, well, you know, with me."
"I was actually talking about the marks on... well, er, but you were talking about..., but nothing happened..., just don't mention, they would think I...., I don't want anyone to..., er," Snape stuttered to an end.
"Its all right Severus. I know the rules," she sighed sadly. Lily spoke on in a slow quiet voice, "your a Slytherin, I'm a Gryfindor. Your a pure blood I'm a mud...mumph."
Harry's chin hit the floor. Snape, Severus Snape was kissing his mother. Snape had just lunged for his mothers mouth as she was about to utter that horrid and offensive word that was used to describe people with non-magical parents. Granted they were both teenagers at the time and Lily wasn't mother to anyone and Severus didn't teach but, ick. In fact from this angle it did look like he was trying to eat her rather than kiss her. His arms, however, remained tight by his side as Lily's roamed up his back as she leaned into the kiss.
Harry watched horror struck as his mother, who at first had looked so surprised that her eyes looked as if they were going to pop out of her head slowly started taking more control of the kiss. She shut her eyes and began moving her head back and forth in rhythm with Snape's. Her hands circled round his back and began explore the ridges of his shoulder blades and back bone. She moved her right hand up to the nape of his neck and twirled the ends of Snape's hair around her long fingers.
"Yerch," said Harry wrinkling his nose in disgust.
Snape slowly began moving his hands towards the body of Lily Evens. He gently placed then no her hips as if she was some magnificent bird and he did not want to crush her or hold her too tight that she would try to fly away. Slowly he moved one of his hands to the small of her back, to just underneath that brilliant auburn hair, so the ends tickled his hand.
Still they were kissing. It felt like they had been kissing for ages to Harry. Surely they would have to come up for air sooner or later. But they just stood there in the middle of the quiet common room the snow silently falling outside the window. Their heads moved together if their hearts beat to the same rhythm that they were dancing to. Lily's hand slowly but surely became more and more tangled in Snape's greasy locks and Snape became more sure of himself as he gripped Lily more tightly and pulled her towards him.
Harry was sure it could not be comfortable to stand like that, trying to think of anything but Snapes tounge down his mothers throat. Lily was quite a bit smaller than Snape but as he was bending over her and she had her back arched back, her feet on tip-toes and her chest pressed towards Snape. It did look like Snape was still trying to devour her. Slowly though the kissing slowed down and they both started pulling away, still leaving little kisses on their swollen lips.
At last the two faces were pulled apart. Harry could see straight into his mother face. She still had her eyes closed but was grinning in the most indecent way. Her hand still tangled in Snapes hair Lily bit her lip to suppress a giggle and leaned forward to kiss Snape again. But Snape jerked his head back and Harry could here his quickened breath.
Harry moved around the couple to see Snape's expression and was shocked to see that it held nothing but fear. Lily's eyes opened and she looked questioningly at Snape. She tried to kiss him again but he moved his head back but however made no move to remove his hands. He turned his head away from the girl in his arms so she could make no more attempts on his lips.
"Severus...I don't...," Lily began.
Suddenly he pushed her away and turned from her. He ran his hand through his hair and screwed his eyes tight shut. What on earth could he be thinking, thought Harry. It looked like he had just killed someone. Done something that he could never forgive himself, Harry didn't understand at all. By the looks of things neither did Lily.
"I don't understand Severus," she began, draping her hands over his shoulder. "I just want..."
"Oh bugger," yelled Snape throwing her hands off, "why the hell did I have to kiss you?"
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a/n
Oh dear why is Snape so angry at such a good kiss, and he is a good kisser if anyone is wondering. Well if you want to know what happens next please read and review. Thank you to all who reviewed my last chapter! Squee! I get far too over excited when I get reviews!