Ok someone says that there are a lot of plot holes I WILL FILL THEM IN! PLEASE BE PATIENT! All I will say is that it will take about three chapters for you to understand it all. SO PLEASE KEEP READING AND REVIEWING! So here is the ninth chapter.

"Tears of Blood"

Chapter 9: Secrets

Gendo was acting strange. He was sleeping most of the day. 'The angels have all been defeated.' Fuyutsuki walked in the room as Gendo collapsed. "Commander!" He called the NERV recovery team. (Hours later): "So what happened to him?" Ritsuko sat down. An angel. When we fought with one of the angels something happened and part of it went in him. He controlled the angels. He knew they would come and he was afraid so when he had a bad day and thought of one coming. . .it came. He did not know he was doing it though. Now that we have defeated all of the angels. . .he is going to die.

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*House on the outskirts of Tokyo 3*

Misato rushed into Shinji's room. "Shinji I have bad news. . .Do you remember when the angel got into part of NERV? Well it possessed Gendo. He drew the angels to us. But he did not know he was doing it. And now we have defeated the angels and. . .he is going to die. Shinji was confused and angry. "Let him die! He probably knew it all along! He just wanted us to fight!" Misato slapped Shinji on the face hard and from Shinji's room, Rei could hear the slap. "You think Gendo would do that? He may be mean and selfish, but he would never do that. You're a fool if you think he would do that!" Shinji ran to his room. "You know that he did Misato, but you are too blind to see it." Shinji went into his room as Rei walked out. "What has happened?" Rei did not like the Commander anymore, but she was curious. Misato sat down and explained everything to Rei. Rei had to admit she was upset, but she knew she was not even half as bad as Shinji. She went into his room and found him on his bed crying. "Ikari?" Rei put her hand on his shoulder. "What is wrong. You told Major Katsuragi you were happy the Commander was dying." Shinji turned to face Rei. "I don't hate my father. I love him, but he doesn't even care. To him, I am just another toy for his evas." Rei sat on Shinji's bed and held him for a long time before she broke the silence. "You should not have held all of this in. It can only create more stress." "I know, but I didn't know how to tell him and everyone else." "You were the same when we first met." Shinji's eyes got very wide. "You knew I was looking at you for a while?" Rei gave a slight smile. "It was not to hard to figure out when you are constantly staring at me." Shinji thought for a moment. 'Yea I guess my eyes were always only two inches from her all the time.' "Um sorry about that." "It is fine." Shinji held Rei tighter than he had ever done before.

Ok this is a short chapter, but the next one is going to be a song fic based on linkin park's meteora cd's Breaking the Habit and you will see why in the next chapter.