Chapter Four
I'm Sorry
Some people may not like this chapter, it contains sex in it. So if you don't like that, don't read. And make sure to keep in mind that I'm not planning on making this story very long, it's more of like a mini-series thing, so this part is very important and I wanted it to happen from the get-go. So if you don't like reading sex, (it's not too gritty) then don't read! Simple as that!
When the final bell had rung for the day, Craig and I walked to his house. I felt guilty for going over, I knew he only invited me because of how messed up I was that day, but despite all this, I was happy to have his company, nonetheless.
"Here we are," he said, opening his door to the house. "Joey doesn't come home until seven and Angela's at Emma's house today, she had to baby sit again."
I nodded. My heart fluttered. Alone with Craig, it was too good to be true. I shook my head, what was I thinking? Craig didn't like me, and even if he did, he wouldn't want to do anything with me, I was just feeling sore and needed some kind of comfort.
We walked in his house and sat down on the couch, I putting my stuff down beside me. I waited for him to start talking, the awkward silence getting to me. Finally, when I glanced over at him and he was playing with the remote, I sighed and opened my mouth.
"So."
Craig looked up at me and grinned. "So."
"What's new, Craig?"
He grinned, causing myself to smile and I wanted so badly to fling my arms around him, to hug him tightly, to love him, to kiss him, to touch him. It was almost unbearable, but I shook the thought out of my head once again and waited for his answer. To my surprise he leaned in closer to me.
"Listen, Cadence I have to tell you something, and I know it may not be the like, I dunno, best time but seeing as what happened to you yesterday, I just don't want it to be too late."
I was confused. "What is it?"
He took a deep breath. "Well, see, there's this girl, right..and I really like her." My heart sank. I knew he didn't like me. It was just too good to be true. I listened on some more. "And, I don't know how she feels and, I dunno, I really, really like her. She's funny and nice and smart-" Okay now I knew it was definitely not me, I mean, he tutors me! "And pretty. I dunno, how am I supposed to tell her?"
I diverted my eyes from his. "Just tell her. The worst that could happen is that she doesn't like you back."
Craig looked deep into my eyes. "Okay. Well, Cadence." My heart stopped. I peered at him uncertainly. "I like you."
I couldn't help but burst out laughing. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's just me? Craig, that like sounded totally lame and movie-ish. We need to help you with better lines." I started cracking up again and I heard him laugh too. But before I knew it I tasted his lips on mine, and I wasn't sure what was happening. This was just too weird, how could Craig like me? Especially when I like him? But I didn't want the kiss to end, so I wrapped my arms around his neck, and put everything I had into the kiss. All the pain I had felt that morning, all the sadness, all the love I had never had my whole life. Even though this seemed so unreal I didn't want it to end.
What was I doing? Craig picked me up as we continued to kiss, I wrapping my legs around his waist. He was fairly strong carrying me up all those steps, I wasn't a petite girl. I don't know why we were doing what we were as he laid me on his bed and continued kissing me as I took off his shirt. I knew I wasn't ready to do what we were about to, but his simple touch left me wanting more. I don't know if it was the curiosity of never being kissed before, and never feeling these things before that kept me wanting more, or let Craig take off my shirt, but I knew he wasn't going to hurt me. He was too kind, too sincere. I thought about how my sister just had revealed she was pregnant, and part of me wanted to stop as Craig eased himself into me, but the ecstasy I felt mixed with the pain of losing my virginity, I didn't want it to stop. Unsure of why I was doing this, I knew I liked Craig, but did I love him? Did he love me?
When I look back on it now, it seemed I was only using Craig for the love I had been deprived of all my life...what was he using me for? All I knew was that I was caught up in the moment, and I didn't want it to end.
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End of Chapter Four. This story may seem as if it's rushing a bit, but I'm not planning on making this story very long, only a couple of more chapters, so I want to get to the climax of the story. Also keep in mind that they have known each other for about 2 years, and they are both going to be seventeen. If you didn't like this chapter, I'm sorry, but I have had it in mind since the beginning.
Review!
Some people may not like this chapter, it contains sex in it. So if you don't like that, don't read. And make sure to keep in mind that I'm not planning on making this story very long, it's more of like a mini-series thing, so this part is very important and I wanted it to happen from the get-go. So if you don't like reading sex, (it's not too gritty) then don't read! Simple as that!
When the final bell had rung for the day, Craig and I walked to his house. I felt guilty for going over, I knew he only invited me because of how messed up I was that day, but despite all this, I was happy to have his company, nonetheless.
"Here we are," he said, opening his door to the house. "Joey doesn't come home until seven and Angela's at Emma's house today, she had to baby sit again."
I nodded. My heart fluttered. Alone with Craig, it was too good to be true. I shook my head, what was I thinking? Craig didn't like me, and even if he did, he wouldn't want to do anything with me, I was just feeling sore and needed some kind of comfort.
We walked in his house and sat down on the couch, I putting my stuff down beside me. I waited for him to start talking, the awkward silence getting to me. Finally, when I glanced over at him and he was playing with the remote, I sighed and opened my mouth.
"So."
Craig looked up at me and grinned. "So."
"What's new, Craig?"
He grinned, causing myself to smile and I wanted so badly to fling my arms around him, to hug him tightly, to love him, to kiss him, to touch him. It was almost unbearable, but I shook the thought out of my head once again and waited for his answer. To my surprise he leaned in closer to me.
"Listen, Cadence I have to tell you something, and I know it may not be the like, I dunno, best time but seeing as what happened to you yesterday, I just don't want it to be too late."
I was confused. "What is it?"
He took a deep breath. "Well, see, there's this girl, right..and I really like her." My heart sank. I knew he didn't like me. It was just too good to be true. I listened on some more. "And, I don't know how she feels and, I dunno, I really, really like her. She's funny and nice and smart-" Okay now I knew it was definitely not me, I mean, he tutors me! "And pretty. I dunno, how am I supposed to tell her?"
I diverted my eyes from his. "Just tell her. The worst that could happen is that she doesn't like you back."
Craig looked deep into my eyes. "Okay. Well, Cadence." My heart stopped. I peered at him uncertainly. "I like you."
I couldn't help but burst out laughing. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's just me? Craig, that like sounded totally lame and movie-ish. We need to help you with better lines." I started cracking up again and I heard him laugh too. But before I knew it I tasted his lips on mine, and I wasn't sure what was happening. This was just too weird, how could Craig like me? Especially when I like him? But I didn't want the kiss to end, so I wrapped my arms around his neck, and put everything I had into the kiss. All the pain I had felt that morning, all the sadness, all the love I had never had my whole life. Even though this seemed so unreal I didn't want it to end.
What was I doing? Craig picked me up as we continued to kiss, I wrapping my legs around his waist. He was fairly strong carrying me up all those steps, I wasn't a petite girl. I don't know why we were doing what we were as he laid me on his bed and continued kissing me as I took off his shirt. I knew I wasn't ready to do what we were about to, but his simple touch left me wanting more. I don't know if it was the curiosity of never being kissed before, and never feeling these things before that kept me wanting more, or let Craig take off my shirt, but I knew he wasn't going to hurt me. He was too kind, too sincere. I thought about how my sister just had revealed she was pregnant, and part of me wanted to stop as Craig eased himself into me, but the ecstasy I felt mixed with the pain of losing my virginity, I didn't want it to stop. Unsure of why I was doing this, I knew I liked Craig, but did I love him? Did he love me?
When I look back on it now, it seemed I was only using Craig for the love I had been deprived of all my life...what was he using me for? All I knew was that I was caught up in the moment, and I didn't want it to end.
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End of Chapter Four. This story may seem as if it's rushing a bit, but I'm not planning on making this story very long, only a couple of more chapters, so I want to get to the climax of the story. Also keep in mind that they have known each other for about 2 years, and they are both going to be seventeen. If you didn't like this chapter, I'm sorry, but I have had it in mind since the beginning.
Review!