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Title: "Family that once was is no more"
Chapter Two: The reawakening of the undeniable truth.
Part Two: like many early mornings Pan sat in her bed and struggled to try and remember life before that day.That day had been the only moment in her life still vivid and clear as the sun.That day had been a day of over whelming joy and excitement,but it was those emotions that led to such a distasteful end for a young girl who wanted nothing more to be treated as an adult.
Pan remembered how happy she was and how happy he was.But she often wonders if the joy written on his face was as fake as the smile she wears today.
He gave her the night she had always wanted and even more so since it was with the man she had always wanted.
She felt so ashamed of herself and what she'd lost and what she'd become to even think about going home or even showing her face in that part of Satan city again.
"It was made so painfully clear that I would have to change in order to be part of that family." Pan thought tucking a few strands of her long black hair behind her ear, revealing a fairly large scar which she kept concealed.
"Very painfully." Pan finished placing her hand over the wound.
Pan wore that scar more mentally than physically since it was given by someone she'd thought would never ever harm her in anyway.
"An Eye for an eye,huh dad?" Pan thought.
Everyone present that evening vividly recalls the confrontation between Pan and her father but especially the terror written on Pan's face as blood trickled down her cheek and on to the collar of her shirt.
The blow was intentional,as well as the terror.
Pan remembers how many days she was confined to her room unable to leave after that.Unable to go to school until she had the baby.Unable to watch Television, she ate and drank in that room.She wasn't allowed to join her family at the dinner table or talk to her friends.What little friends she had left anyway.
Gohan and Videl had been dealt a serious blow to the trust they had in Pan completely shattering it.They had seen what had happened because they gave Pan too many chances and fewer rules.
Goten and Paris mostly kept quiet but were the only ones who once in a while accompanied Pan, talked with her a bit often trying to put a smile on her face and were often successful.
"Your pretty when you think." Erasa said brushing a few strands of hair away from Pan's face sitting at the side of Pan's bed next to her.
Pan jumped in alarm.Having been so deep in memories she had failed to hear Erasa come in.
"God Erasa don't do that!" Pan said momentarily frightened.
"Sorry Pan I just didn't want to knock in case you where sleeping." Erasa explained.
"How long have you been there?" Pan questioned wanting to know if Erasa heard anything.
"Don't worry I just came in, what ever you did or said I didn't catch it." Erasa assured her.
"You know me all too well, anyway what brings you into my insane asylum?" Pan asked lying flat on her bed now.
"Well I brought your medication so they don't put you in a real one." Erasa said holding up a small bottle with some pills in it.
"Not this again....." Pan said rolling her eyes.
"Pan the doctor said----" Erasa began.
"Yeah I know in order for me to get some mental stability back in my life , I have to drink it.Just give me the damn thing already." Pan said in disgust.
"Good girl." Erasa said unscrewing the cap.
"It'll help you get some sleep...." Erasa said giving Pan the pill and a glass of water.
"No it'll sedate me and make my brain activity slower so I don't think as much." Pan reasoned.
"Same thing..." Erasa joked as Pan drank the pill.
"See there you go that didn't kill you did it?.." Erasa asked putting the medication away.
"Give it time..." Pan said pulling the bed sheets over her body and resting her head on the pillow.
"Just sleep Pan....." Erasa said kissing Pan on the forehead.
"When's breakfast?." Pan said closing her eyes.
"Niki's not up yet so I'll have breakfast done in an hour." Erasa said walking out of the room closing the door.
"Ok...." Pan said as the sleep side affect of the medication set in.
Scene One: Erasa stood by the stove finishing what was to be this morning's meal.
"Finally I can eat and get out of the kitchen for the first time today." Erasa said placing the last pancake on to the stack.
"Looks good Erasa." Pan stated picking up her fork as Erasa sat Pan's breakfast down in front of her and then Nikita's.
"Mmmm....Syrup." Nikita stated globing down the pancakes.
"Not this again." Erasa said disgusted that Nikita had almost finished and she had barely picked up her fork.
"Nikita slow down.....God she eats like my Grandpa..." Pan said with a sigh.
"Gra-n-dpa?" Nikita said chewing her last bite.
"Baby don't talk with your mouth full I taught you better.We got plenty of time to get to the park." Pan reasoned.
"Mommy who's Grandpa?" Nikita asked curiously.
"My Grandpa Niki." Pan answered while eating her meal.
Nikita was silent for am moment then spoke.
"Mommy do I gots a Grandpa?" Nikita asked innocently.
Pan didn't know what to tell her, she knew that at least one day when she was older she would understand.But how could anyone understand that their not wanted.
"Nikita why don't you run along and get dress, I have to finish up my breakfast." Pan said changing the subject.
"Alright, but mommy why--." Nikita started but was cut off.
"Nikita please...." Pan ordered.
Nikita did as she was told asking no further questions but curious as to why her mother would not answer her question.
"Pan you alright?" Erasa asked picking up Nikita's plate.
"Yeah I'm alright its just getting to that point you know." Pan said brushing her long raven black hair away from her face.
"It'll be even worse when she asks you why she has a mommy and not a daddy." Erasa pointed out.
"Dont remind me." Pan sighed.
"Pan even though you might not think so along the line father and daughter are going to meet,either planned or by accident." Erasa said stating her own idea's.
"That son of a bitch would probably deny it like he's done already.With both family's covering his ass." Pan stated.
"How could anyone deny their relation to such a sweet child, she so innocent to everything and everyone around her." Erasa expressed.
"He didn't think she was going be so sweet, he thought it was going to be this overwhelming burden placed on him and he left before she was born.The main reason I come to understand as to why he denies it is because of my age at that time." Pan explained.
"Well it makes perfect sense ,the president of one of the largest corporations in the world wouldn't want to be labeled a--." Erasa started.
"Dont say That word it makes me feel so cheap." Pan said holding her head.
"You shouldn't feel that way Pan,its him who should feel cheap.Imagine a 26 year old sleeping with a 15 year old girl." Erasa said bit angered.
"I figure he must have come to terms with my family so that this whole thing wouldn't leak out into the media or else Capsule Corp.Would of been a memory." Pan stated.
"I guess so." Erasa said agreeing.
"He never even saw his daughter so he probably doesn't even care enough to find out what happened to her." Pan explained.
Nikita stood behind the wall hearing the conversation.Then quietly departed towards her room.
"Pan I'm going ask you something and I want you to be completely honest." Erasa expressed.
"You know I'm always very honest with you." Pan answered.
"Do you still care for him?" Erasa asked.
"Who?" Pan asked.
"Trunks." Erasa stated
"How can you even ask that?" Pan asked a bit annoyed.
"Give me a straight answer yes or no." Erasa demanded.
Pan thought for a minute wagering her feelings.
"As completely retarded as this sounds.......yes I do." Pan admitted.
Erasa knew the reason why Pan said yes.Trunks was her first lover and the only man ever to say to her I love you and appear as if he meant it,and maybe he really did.
"Pan lets get dressed and get going it's going to be a fairly decent walk in about a foot of snow." Erasa said finishing her meal and discarding the plate.
"Wait why did you ask me that? now I want you to be completely honest." Pan requested.
"When we get back, the snow is really going to start piling up out there." Erasa said heading to her room.
"Yeah later, ok." Pan said doing the same.
[Minutes later in the lobby]
"Pan look at you your going out with your coat unbuttoned." Erasa said fixing Pan's coat.
"I know Mother." Pan joked.
"I cant have my little girl going out there and catching a cold." Erasa said fixing the last button.
"I told you Nikita you have to take good care of this ape mother of your's she's reckless." Erasa said which got a giggle out of Nikita.
"Not a word shorty...." Pan said to Nikita taking her by the hand exiting the building.
The snow neatly blanketed east Satan city where they lived.Making the scene very enjoyable.
"The same scenery from when I was small." Pan said admiring the winter weather.
"Remember going to the parade? when I was ten there was nothing like it, balloons of all they cartoon characters and super heros especially the great saiya-man he was my hero." Erasa said smiling.
"Believe me Erasa a lot of these heros attitudes change over the years even the great saiya-man." Pan said remembering her personal knowledge of the Great Saiya-man.
"I guess..." Erasa said as they reached the Park entrance.
"Pan you can grab a seat at a table I'll set Niki up with a couple of the other kid's over there." Erasa said taking the little girl's hand.
"Ok,now you have fun Niki and please stay out of trouble." Pan said kissing Nikita on the cheek.
"Ok Mommy." Nikita said walking over to the playground with Erasa.
Pan began to walk to the nearest table looking up at the beautiful green and red snow covered Christmas lights that hung from the tree.She approached the table and wipes off some of the collected snow and sat and waited for Erasa's return.
"Hi everyone this is Nikita she was wondering if she could join with you." Erasa said to the group of kids.
Nikita waved a bit shy.
"Hi Nikita want to help me build an igloo?" A black haired little girl asked piling up some snow.
"Ok." Nikita said happily joining the other little girl.
"Well you seem to be content.....well if anything we'll be over there, ok?" Erasa explained.
"Alright." Nikita said answered.
Erasa walked back towards Pan and sat down.
"So is she all set?" Pan asked.
"She's good." Erasa answered.
Both remained quiet for a few minutes admiring the winter wonderland atmosphere.
"Pan I'm going to go get a coffee ,you want one?" Erasa asked.
"Yeah I could use one." Pan answered.
"Be back in a few,oh but first I'll grab a quick peek at what Niki's doing." Erasa said walking off.
Erasa noticed a large figure in a long black leather coat kneeled down in the same spot Nikita and the other girl were playing in.She moved in closer to see and hear what the man was doing.
"Now to make an igloo you've got to hollow out the inside or else it will be a pile of snow, no offense to what you two are doing I'm mean it's great and all but it's a pile of snow." The man said helping the girls.
Erasa smiled at watching the man's sensitivity.Realizing his intentions were good she walked over to him.
"Hello there." Erasa said getting the man's attention.
"Hi." The man responded getting up.
"So you giving the kids a few tips on igloo making?" Erasa asked.
"Yeah they look like they could use a bit of help, but I'm no expert at it." He answered.
"Are they your kids?" He asked.
"The one with the lavender hair kind a is." Erasa explained wanting to make conversation.
"I'm Erasa." Erasa said extending her hand.
"Goten." He said shaking her hand.
"Your daughter looks a lot like someone I know, only he's a guy." Goten told her.
"Oh my, I don't know if she should take that as a compliment or an insult." Erasa joked.
"Sorry what I meant too say was that she's very pretty and from hearing her speak she's very intelligent." Goten expressed.
"You are a single parent?" Goten asked Erasa.
"You could say that yeah." Erasa replied.
"I hope I'm not being forward, but I was just going to get a cup of coffee, you want to join me?.I'm going get one for my friend too, I'll introduce her to you if you like?" Erasa asked.
"Sure why not." Goten replied.
"Ok sounds good." Erasa replied
"Be back in a few." Erasa said patting Nikita on the head.
"Later kids." Goten said leaving with Erasa.
Goten and Erasa walked over to where the coffee vender stood and chatted the usual chat when a boy meets a girl and there is an attraction.Asking each other's ages,where they grew up and their likes and dislikes.Remarkably Pan did not come up in the conversation.
They walked back over to were Pan was sitting until Goten's Cell phone rang and he took the call.
"Erasa I'll be a few seconds you can go ahead of me." Goten instructed as Erasa approached the table.
"Pan you wont believe what happen." Erasa spoke excitedly.
"I'll believe it, but humor me." Pan said.
"I met this wonderful guy who's really cute and funny." Erasa said happily.
"Well where is he?" Pan asked looking around.
"Right over there,I invited him over is that ok?" Erasa asked pointing to her left. Pan stared at the man Erasa pointed too she began to realize who it was.
"Oh my God-- ." Were the only words Pan could muster as her mind focus on the.
"He is cute right?" Erasa said unaware of what Pan was referring to when the word's 'oh my god' came out of her mouth.
"Great he's done talking on his phone now you can meet him." Erasa said excited.
"Oh god, no not here." Pan said nervously as she turned the opposite way.
"Pan....you ok there? you feel like having your coffee now?." Erasa asked a little uneasy because she never saw Pan act that way before.
Pan sat still but with her head turn opposite of his direction.
"Hey Goten dude sit and lets chat." Erasa said as Goten stood next to Pan about to take a seat opposite of her.
Goten stared at Pan who sat the opposite way.
"If you think I'm stupid enough to think I'm not going know who you are by turning your god damn head your are very much mistaken Pan." Goten said firmly.
"Don't give your self to much credit." Pan said as Goten grab her arm and lifted her up from her seat.
"I'm not playing one of your stupid little games Pan!" Goten yelled.
"Get your fucking hands off me!!" Pan yelled.
"What the are you doing!?" Erasa yelled at Goten.
"This doesn't concern you stay out of it!" Goten warned Erasa.
"You don't even realize how much more you've complicated things with your little disappearing act." Goten explained.
"Why don't you enlighten me then!?" Pan said struggling to break Goten's grip.
"Pan what's happening?" Erasa asked terrified.
"Your stopping this shit and your coming back so go get what ever belongings you have and---" Goten stopped as Pan broke free.
"No Goten...." Pan said as she stepped back a couple of feet.
"I'm not going back just to sit play the role of the bad guy." Pan argued.
"Remeber when you were on my side Goten? protecting me from all the comments and things people threw at me? What happened to you? what happened?" Pan said as tears began to fall.
"I got sick of your shit.Videl and Gohan shot the blame on me for the first 2 years saying that I encouraged the type of behavior that got you pregnant." Goten answered.
"But you know that's not true!" Pan yelled.
"I know that and you know that, but the other half of this fucking city doesn't know that!" Goten explained.
"Erasa ....I can't see---I don't feel my--." Pan said as she clutched her chest.
"Pan?" Erasa said as Pan stumbled a bit before dropping like a stone onto the thick snow.
"Oh God no." Erasa said as she ran towards the fallen Pan.
"What's wrong with her?" Goten said nervously as he kneeled at Pan's side and watched as Erasa lift Pan's head mildly tapping the left side of Pan's face to she if she would awake.
Blood could be seen being absorb by the cold snow behind Pan's neck.
"She hit the ground pretty hard." Erasa explained.
"Why isn't she waking up?" Goten asked as his concern grew.
"........She's not breathing." Erasa said as she tilted Pan's head back.
Scene Two:
"Pan come on sweety get up." A voice Pan heard as she was opening her eyes.
"Huh?" Pan moaned as she turned to the direction in which Erasa was.
"What am I doing home? wheres Nikita?" Pan asked as she sat up on her bed.
"Easy Mommy Nikita's in my room taking a nap, you need to take it easy you hit your head fairly hard." Erasa said pointing to the ice pack next to Pan's pillow.
"I remember a lot of shouting and stuff but then---Its all dark from that point." Pan explained.
"You passed out for some reason." Erasa explained.
"How did I get home?" Pan asked weakly.
"Goten carried you to his car and took us back to the apartment since I know for you ambulances are out of the question." Erasa said putting a damp wash cloth on Pan's forehead.
"What's that for?" Pan said asking about the cloth.
"You probably can't feel it but you got a pretty bad fever brewing." Erasa informed her.
"Is that why I'm so tried?" Pan asked closing her eyes.
"Very likely." Erasa responded.
"Where's Goten?" Pan asked.
"He's in the living room he won't leave until he knows your ok." Erasa explained.
"Want me to go get him?"
"No I'll go he probably won't leave if he see's me still in bed." Pan said climbing out of her bed.
"Hey Pan?" Erasa said getting Pan's attention.
"Yeah?" She asked standing in the door way.
"I had a chance to talk with him and I had a better idea about where he's coming from......hear him out ok? and let him getting some idea of what your going through." Erasa requested.
"I'll try." Pan said exiting her room.
Goten sat on the couch nervously tapping his foot awaiting any good sign that Pan was ok.
"Tap any harder and you'll Put a hole in my floor." Pan said getting his attention.
"Pan!" Goten said standing quickly.
"Are you--" Goten started.
"Alittle tried but I'm ok." Pan said sitting down next to Goten.
"Sit." Pan instructed pulling Goten's shirt sleeve.
"Pan I--I'm sor-I didn't mean--" Goten said trying to think of a proper apology.
"Goten listen what happened to me today wasn't you fault." Pan admitted.
"How so?..." Goten asked knowing how much the things he said and did at the park aggravated and frustrated Pan emotionally.
"You see........I haven't been---I mean ever since--" Pan began while her eyes began to drip tears.
"I'm ready to listen...." Goten said wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Since I left home.... you know, I haven't been taking the best of care of myself because that wasn't my top priority anymore." Pan admitted.
"Nikita was...." She finished.
"But what happening to you now?" Goten questioned.
"Now?" Pan said with a low chuckle.
"Now I'm obligated to keep taking these fucking pills and shit to keep my ass from bouncing off the god damn walls." Pan said in a low disgusted tone.
"I don't understand why would you have to take medication?" Goten questioned.
"Because of everything that happened I fell into a deep depression and became for a short time emotionally unstable." Pan admitted.
"I'm sorry that happened Pan and I guess the things I yelled at you today probably resurfaced old memories." Goten said.
"I think about the past everyday Goten and wonder why me and Trunks couldn't of had a life together and if he didn't really love me why did he sleep with me." Pan spoke out loud asking herself.
Goten remained quiet for a while.
"What am I Goten? I'm not Pan anymore but what am I to you." Pan said staring into his eyes.
"Your a little girl who grew up to fast." Goten said gentle running the back of his hand across Pan's cheek.
Pan sat quiet for a minute then spoke.
"Then where does this all grown up little girl go from here?" She questioned.
"She goes back to being a little girl." Goten explained.
"I don't understand...." She admitted.
"You should come back Pan, give everyone a chance to see how much they wronged you and let them see the beautiful little girl who was at the center of all this mess the one who they said was better off dead." Goten explained.
"I can't Goten I'm just to scared." Pan explained.
"Fear was the problem then and fear is the problem now, everyone was so fearful of how everyone else would react they made everything worse." He explained.
"I'm sorry I can't that's asking too much." Pan said getting up.
"Pan there something else I can do for you." Goten explained.
"Goten I really don't want to hear......." Pan began before she was cut off.
"I can make your life a whole lot easier." He said.
"I sat here and I looked at your daughter, your apartment and I get a small sense of your life and I sense that your barely getting by with little or no help." Goten expressed.
"I'll admit that living in my current status is no amusement park but what are you getting at?" Pan questioned.
"What I'm offering is that you and Nikita come live with me, I make more than enough to support the both of you so you could quit your job and spend time with Nikita as Erasa told me you really can't get around to doing on your hectic work days." Goten offered.
"Listen Goten I don't live off of anyone without pulling my own weight and besides what about Erasa? me and Erasa are really close and I'm not going leave her to find other apartment because this one is too much money for her to keep on her paycheck alone." Pan explained.
"If you feel like you need to pull your own weight Pan you could start school again and ask for Erasa she's welcome to come.I have enough room and beds for the both of you." Goten reassured her.
"I don't know Goten It still doesn't feel right, I mean what if Mom, Dad or Grandma come over to visit you?" Pan questioned.
"They won't, the main reason I got a separate apartment was to get away from them and I am always informed of whose going to come and who's not." Goten explained.
"Starting school again was an option I didn't have before you made this offer and it's something I seriously want to do for Nikita's future.But still I don't know this is just all to sudden...." Pan said rubbing the back of her head as she paced around the room.
"I'll give you time to decide, ok?" Goten said getting up and putting on his long black leather coat.
"Do you have my number?" Pan asked.
"Erasa gave it to me earlier." Goten said heading to the door.
"Can I get you something to drink before you leave?"
"No I'm fine thank you." Goten said stepping through the door.
"Goten.... this isn't a yes or a no but a thank you for caring." Pan said Goten kissing on the cheek.
"It was good seeing you again and finally seeing Nikita Pan.Even if are early encounter was anything but friendly." Goten said returning the kiss.
"It was good seeing you as well." Pan said closing the door as Goten walk away from the door to the elevator.
"Oh wait Pan I forgot here this is for you." Goten said handing Pan some money.
"Goten I--" Pan began.
"Take it, if not for your sake then for Nikita's, I hear she has a birthday around the corner." Goten said.
"Yeah the 27th......what ever I decide to do Goten ,for what its worth............. thank you." Pan said as Goten entered the elevator.
End of Chapter Two: Will Pan take Goten up on his offer? and how will Erasa react to the news.
Chapter Three: I decide to leave the prequel for chapter 4.
In this chapter Pan makes her choice after talking it over with Erasa and Nikita.Goten fills Pan in on what's been happening while she's been gone and Goten brings up the touchy issue of Trunks current relationship.
Title: "Family that once was is no more"
Chapter Two: The reawakening of the undeniable truth.
Part Two: like many early mornings Pan sat in her bed and struggled to try and remember life before that day.That day had been the only moment in her life still vivid and clear as the sun.That day had been a day of over whelming joy and excitement,but it was those emotions that led to such a distasteful end for a young girl who wanted nothing more to be treated as an adult.
Pan remembered how happy she was and how happy he was.But she often wonders if the joy written on his face was as fake as the smile she wears today.
He gave her the night she had always wanted and even more so since it was with the man she had always wanted.
She felt so ashamed of herself and what she'd lost and what she'd become to even think about going home or even showing her face in that part of Satan city again.
"It was made so painfully clear that I would have to change in order to be part of that family." Pan thought tucking a few strands of her long black hair behind her ear, revealing a fairly large scar which she kept concealed.
"Very painfully." Pan finished placing her hand over the wound.
Pan wore that scar more mentally than physically since it was given by someone she'd thought would never ever harm her in anyway.
"An Eye for an eye,huh dad?" Pan thought.
Everyone present that evening vividly recalls the confrontation between Pan and her father but especially the terror written on Pan's face as blood trickled down her cheek and on to the collar of her shirt.
The blow was intentional,as well as the terror.
Pan remembers how many days she was confined to her room unable to leave after that.Unable to go to school until she had the baby.Unable to watch Television, she ate and drank in that room.She wasn't allowed to join her family at the dinner table or talk to her friends.What little friends she had left anyway.
Gohan and Videl had been dealt a serious blow to the trust they had in Pan completely shattering it.They had seen what had happened because they gave Pan too many chances and fewer rules.
Goten and Paris mostly kept quiet but were the only ones who once in a while accompanied Pan, talked with her a bit often trying to put a smile on her face and were often successful.
"Your pretty when you think." Erasa said brushing a few strands of hair away from Pan's face sitting at the side of Pan's bed next to her.
Pan jumped in alarm.Having been so deep in memories she had failed to hear Erasa come in.
"God Erasa don't do that!" Pan said momentarily frightened.
"Sorry Pan I just didn't want to knock in case you where sleeping." Erasa explained.
"How long have you been there?" Pan questioned wanting to know if Erasa heard anything.
"Don't worry I just came in, what ever you did or said I didn't catch it." Erasa assured her.
"You know me all too well, anyway what brings you into my insane asylum?" Pan asked lying flat on her bed now.
"Well I brought your medication so they don't put you in a real one." Erasa said holding up a small bottle with some pills in it.
"Not this again....." Pan said rolling her eyes.
"Pan the doctor said----" Erasa began.
"Yeah I know in order for me to get some mental stability back in my life , I have to drink it.Just give me the damn thing already." Pan said in disgust.
"Good girl." Erasa said unscrewing the cap.
"It'll help you get some sleep...." Erasa said giving Pan the pill and a glass of water.
"No it'll sedate me and make my brain activity slower so I don't think as much." Pan reasoned.
"Same thing..." Erasa joked as Pan drank the pill.
"See there you go that didn't kill you did it?.." Erasa asked putting the medication away.
"Give it time..." Pan said pulling the bed sheets over her body and resting her head on the pillow.
"Just sleep Pan....." Erasa said kissing Pan on the forehead.
"When's breakfast?." Pan said closing her eyes.
"Niki's not up yet so I'll have breakfast done in an hour." Erasa said walking out of the room closing the door.
"Ok...." Pan said as the sleep side affect of the medication set in.
Scene One: Erasa stood by the stove finishing what was to be this morning's meal.
"Finally I can eat and get out of the kitchen for the first time today." Erasa said placing the last pancake on to the stack.
"Looks good Erasa." Pan stated picking up her fork as Erasa sat Pan's breakfast down in front of her and then Nikita's.
"Mmmm....Syrup." Nikita stated globing down the pancakes.
"Not this again." Erasa said disgusted that Nikita had almost finished and she had barely picked up her fork.
"Nikita slow down.....God she eats like my Grandpa..." Pan said with a sigh.
"Gra-n-dpa?" Nikita said chewing her last bite.
"Baby don't talk with your mouth full I taught you better.We got plenty of time to get to the park." Pan reasoned.
"Mommy who's Grandpa?" Nikita asked curiously.
"My Grandpa Niki." Pan answered while eating her meal.
Nikita was silent for am moment then spoke.
"Mommy do I gots a Grandpa?" Nikita asked innocently.
Pan didn't know what to tell her, she knew that at least one day when she was older she would understand.But how could anyone understand that their not wanted.
"Nikita why don't you run along and get dress, I have to finish up my breakfast." Pan said changing the subject.
"Alright, but mommy why--." Nikita started but was cut off.
"Nikita please...." Pan ordered.
Nikita did as she was told asking no further questions but curious as to why her mother would not answer her question.
"Pan you alright?" Erasa asked picking up Nikita's plate.
"Yeah I'm alright its just getting to that point you know." Pan said brushing her long raven black hair away from her face.
"It'll be even worse when she asks you why she has a mommy and not a daddy." Erasa pointed out.
"Dont remind me." Pan sighed.
"Pan even though you might not think so along the line father and daughter are going to meet,either planned or by accident." Erasa said stating her own idea's.
"That son of a bitch would probably deny it like he's done already.With both family's covering his ass." Pan stated.
"How could anyone deny their relation to such a sweet child, she so innocent to everything and everyone around her." Erasa expressed.
"He didn't think she was going be so sweet, he thought it was going to be this overwhelming burden placed on him and he left before she was born.The main reason I come to understand as to why he denies it is because of my age at that time." Pan explained.
"Well it makes perfect sense ,the president of one of the largest corporations in the world wouldn't want to be labeled a--." Erasa started.
"Dont say That word it makes me feel so cheap." Pan said holding her head.
"You shouldn't feel that way Pan,its him who should feel cheap.Imagine a 26 year old sleeping with a 15 year old girl." Erasa said bit angered.
"I figure he must have come to terms with my family so that this whole thing wouldn't leak out into the media or else Capsule Corp.Would of been a memory." Pan stated.
"I guess so." Erasa said agreeing.
"He never even saw his daughter so he probably doesn't even care enough to find out what happened to her." Pan explained.
Nikita stood behind the wall hearing the conversation.Then quietly departed towards her room.
"Pan I'm going ask you something and I want you to be completely honest." Erasa expressed.
"You know I'm always very honest with you." Pan answered.
"Do you still care for him?" Erasa asked.
"Who?" Pan asked.
"Trunks." Erasa stated
"How can you even ask that?" Pan asked a bit annoyed.
"Give me a straight answer yes or no." Erasa demanded.
Pan thought for a minute wagering her feelings.
"As completely retarded as this sounds.......yes I do." Pan admitted.
Erasa knew the reason why Pan said yes.Trunks was her first lover and the only man ever to say to her I love you and appear as if he meant it,and maybe he really did.
"Pan lets get dressed and get going it's going to be a fairly decent walk in about a foot of snow." Erasa said finishing her meal and discarding the plate.
"Wait why did you ask me that? now I want you to be completely honest." Pan requested.
"When we get back, the snow is really going to start piling up out there." Erasa said heading to her room.
"Yeah later, ok." Pan said doing the same.
[Minutes later in the lobby]
"Pan look at you your going out with your coat unbuttoned." Erasa said fixing Pan's coat.
"I know Mother." Pan joked.
"I cant have my little girl going out there and catching a cold." Erasa said fixing the last button.
"I told you Nikita you have to take good care of this ape mother of your's she's reckless." Erasa said which got a giggle out of Nikita.
"Not a word shorty...." Pan said to Nikita taking her by the hand exiting the building.
The snow neatly blanketed east Satan city where they lived.Making the scene very enjoyable.
"The same scenery from when I was small." Pan said admiring the winter weather.
"Remember going to the parade? when I was ten there was nothing like it, balloons of all they cartoon characters and super heros especially the great saiya-man he was my hero." Erasa said smiling.
"Believe me Erasa a lot of these heros attitudes change over the years even the great saiya-man." Pan said remembering her personal knowledge of the Great Saiya-man.
"I guess..." Erasa said as they reached the Park entrance.
"Pan you can grab a seat at a table I'll set Niki up with a couple of the other kid's over there." Erasa said taking the little girl's hand.
"Ok,now you have fun Niki and please stay out of trouble." Pan said kissing Nikita on the cheek.
"Ok Mommy." Nikita said walking over to the playground with Erasa.
Pan began to walk to the nearest table looking up at the beautiful green and red snow covered Christmas lights that hung from the tree.She approached the table and wipes off some of the collected snow and sat and waited for Erasa's return.
"Hi everyone this is Nikita she was wondering if she could join with you." Erasa said to the group of kids.
Nikita waved a bit shy.
"Hi Nikita want to help me build an igloo?" A black haired little girl asked piling up some snow.
"Ok." Nikita said happily joining the other little girl.
"Well you seem to be content.....well if anything we'll be over there, ok?" Erasa explained.
"Alright." Nikita said answered.
Erasa walked back towards Pan and sat down.
"So is she all set?" Pan asked.
"She's good." Erasa answered.
Both remained quiet for a few minutes admiring the winter wonderland atmosphere.
"Pan I'm going to go get a coffee ,you want one?" Erasa asked.
"Yeah I could use one." Pan answered.
"Be back in a few,oh but first I'll grab a quick peek at what Niki's doing." Erasa said walking off.
Erasa noticed a large figure in a long black leather coat kneeled down in the same spot Nikita and the other girl were playing in.She moved in closer to see and hear what the man was doing.
"Now to make an igloo you've got to hollow out the inside or else it will be a pile of snow, no offense to what you two are doing I'm mean it's great and all but it's a pile of snow." The man said helping the girls.
Erasa smiled at watching the man's sensitivity.Realizing his intentions were good she walked over to him.
"Hello there." Erasa said getting the man's attention.
"Hi." The man responded getting up.
"So you giving the kids a few tips on igloo making?" Erasa asked.
"Yeah they look like they could use a bit of help, but I'm no expert at it." He answered.
"Are they your kids?" He asked.
"The one with the lavender hair kind a is." Erasa explained wanting to make conversation.
"I'm Erasa." Erasa said extending her hand.
"Goten." He said shaking her hand.
"Your daughter looks a lot like someone I know, only he's a guy." Goten told her.
"Oh my, I don't know if she should take that as a compliment or an insult." Erasa joked.
"Sorry what I meant too say was that she's very pretty and from hearing her speak she's very intelligent." Goten expressed.
"You are a single parent?" Goten asked Erasa.
"You could say that yeah." Erasa replied.
"I hope I'm not being forward, but I was just going to get a cup of coffee, you want to join me?.I'm going get one for my friend too, I'll introduce her to you if you like?" Erasa asked.
"Sure why not." Goten replied.
"Ok sounds good." Erasa replied
"Be back in a few." Erasa said patting Nikita on the head.
"Later kids." Goten said leaving with Erasa.
Goten and Erasa walked over to where the coffee vender stood and chatted the usual chat when a boy meets a girl and there is an attraction.Asking each other's ages,where they grew up and their likes and dislikes.Remarkably Pan did not come up in the conversation.
They walked back over to were Pan was sitting until Goten's Cell phone rang and he took the call.
"Erasa I'll be a few seconds you can go ahead of me." Goten instructed as Erasa approached the table.
"Pan you wont believe what happen." Erasa spoke excitedly.
"I'll believe it, but humor me." Pan said.
"I met this wonderful guy who's really cute and funny." Erasa said happily.
"Well where is he?" Pan asked looking around.
"Right over there,I invited him over is that ok?" Erasa asked pointing to her left. Pan stared at the man Erasa pointed too she began to realize who it was.
"Oh my God-- ." Were the only words Pan could muster as her mind focus on the.
"He is cute right?" Erasa said unaware of what Pan was referring to when the word's 'oh my god' came out of her mouth.
"Great he's done talking on his phone now you can meet him." Erasa said excited.
"Oh god, no not here." Pan said nervously as she turned the opposite way.
"Pan....you ok there? you feel like having your coffee now?." Erasa asked a little uneasy because she never saw Pan act that way before.
Pan sat still but with her head turn opposite of his direction.
"Hey Goten dude sit and lets chat." Erasa said as Goten stood next to Pan about to take a seat opposite of her.
Goten stared at Pan who sat the opposite way.
"If you think I'm stupid enough to think I'm not going know who you are by turning your god damn head your are very much mistaken Pan." Goten said firmly.
"Don't give your self to much credit." Pan said as Goten grab her arm and lifted her up from her seat.
"I'm not playing one of your stupid little games Pan!" Goten yelled.
"Get your fucking hands off me!!" Pan yelled.
"What the are you doing!?" Erasa yelled at Goten.
"This doesn't concern you stay out of it!" Goten warned Erasa.
"You don't even realize how much more you've complicated things with your little disappearing act." Goten explained.
"Why don't you enlighten me then!?" Pan said struggling to break Goten's grip.
"Pan what's happening?" Erasa asked terrified.
"Your stopping this shit and your coming back so go get what ever belongings you have and---" Goten stopped as Pan broke free.
"No Goten...." Pan said as she stepped back a couple of feet.
"I'm not going back just to sit play the role of the bad guy." Pan argued.
"Remeber when you were on my side Goten? protecting me from all the comments and things people threw at me? What happened to you? what happened?" Pan said as tears began to fall.
"I got sick of your shit.Videl and Gohan shot the blame on me for the first 2 years saying that I encouraged the type of behavior that got you pregnant." Goten answered.
"But you know that's not true!" Pan yelled.
"I know that and you know that, but the other half of this fucking city doesn't know that!" Goten explained.
"Erasa ....I can't see---I don't feel my--." Pan said as she clutched her chest.
"Pan?" Erasa said as Pan stumbled a bit before dropping like a stone onto the thick snow.
"Oh God no." Erasa said as she ran towards the fallen Pan.
"What's wrong with her?" Goten said nervously as he kneeled at Pan's side and watched as Erasa lift Pan's head mildly tapping the left side of Pan's face to she if she would awake.
Blood could be seen being absorb by the cold snow behind Pan's neck.
"She hit the ground pretty hard." Erasa explained.
"Why isn't she waking up?" Goten asked as his concern grew.
"........She's not breathing." Erasa said as she tilted Pan's head back.
Scene Two:
"Pan come on sweety get up." A voice Pan heard as she was opening her eyes.
"Huh?" Pan moaned as she turned to the direction in which Erasa was.
"What am I doing home? wheres Nikita?" Pan asked as she sat up on her bed.
"Easy Mommy Nikita's in my room taking a nap, you need to take it easy you hit your head fairly hard." Erasa said pointing to the ice pack next to Pan's pillow.
"I remember a lot of shouting and stuff but then---Its all dark from that point." Pan explained.
"You passed out for some reason." Erasa explained.
"How did I get home?" Pan asked weakly.
"Goten carried you to his car and took us back to the apartment since I know for you ambulances are out of the question." Erasa said putting a damp wash cloth on Pan's forehead.
"What's that for?" Pan said asking about the cloth.
"You probably can't feel it but you got a pretty bad fever brewing." Erasa informed her.
"Is that why I'm so tried?" Pan asked closing her eyes.
"Very likely." Erasa responded.
"Where's Goten?" Pan asked.
"He's in the living room he won't leave until he knows your ok." Erasa explained.
"Want me to go get him?"
"No I'll go he probably won't leave if he see's me still in bed." Pan said climbing out of her bed.
"Hey Pan?" Erasa said getting Pan's attention.
"Yeah?" She asked standing in the door way.
"I had a chance to talk with him and I had a better idea about where he's coming from......hear him out ok? and let him getting some idea of what your going through." Erasa requested.
"I'll try." Pan said exiting her room.
Goten sat on the couch nervously tapping his foot awaiting any good sign that Pan was ok.
"Tap any harder and you'll Put a hole in my floor." Pan said getting his attention.
"Pan!" Goten said standing quickly.
"Are you--" Goten started.
"Alittle tried but I'm ok." Pan said sitting down next to Goten.
"Sit." Pan instructed pulling Goten's shirt sleeve.
"Pan I--I'm sor-I didn't mean--" Goten said trying to think of a proper apology.
"Goten listen what happened to me today wasn't you fault." Pan admitted.
"How so?..." Goten asked knowing how much the things he said and did at the park aggravated and frustrated Pan emotionally.
"You see........I haven't been---I mean ever since--" Pan began while her eyes began to drip tears.
"I'm ready to listen...." Goten said wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Since I left home.... you know, I haven't been taking the best of care of myself because that wasn't my top priority anymore." Pan admitted.
"Nikita was...." She finished.
"But what happening to you now?" Goten questioned.
"Now?" Pan said with a low chuckle.
"Now I'm obligated to keep taking these fucking pills and shit to keep my ass from bouncing off the god damn walls." Pan said in a low disgusted tone.
"I don't understand why would you have to take medication?" Goten questioned.
"Because of everything that happened I fell into a deep depression and became for a short time emotionally unstable." Pan admitted.
"I'm sorry that happened Pan and I guess the things I yelled at you today probably resurfaced old memories." Goten said.
"I think about the past everyday Goten and wonder why me and Trunks couldn't of had a life together and if he didn't really love me why did he sleep with me." Pan spoke out loud asking herself.
Goten remained quiet for a while.
"What am I Goten? I'm not Pan anymore but what am I to you." Pan said staring into his eyes.
"Your a little girl who grew up to fast." Goten said gentle running the back of his hand across Pan's cheek.
Pan sat quiet for a minute then spoke.
"Then where does this all grown up little girl go from here?" She questioned.
"She goes back to being a little girl." Goten explained.
"I don't understand...." She admitted.
"You should come back Pan, give everyone a chance to see how much they wronged you and let them see the beautiful little girl who was at the center of all this mess the one who they said was better off dead." Goten explained.
"I can't Goten I'm just to scared." Pan explained.
"Fear was the problem then and fear is the problem now, everyone was so fearful of how everyone else would react they made everything worse." He explained.
"I'm sorry I can't that's asking too much." Pan said getting up.
"Pan there something else I can do for you." Goten explained.
"Goten I really don't want to hear......." Pan began before she was cut off.
"I can make your life a whole lot easier." He said.
"I sat here and I looked at your daughter, your apartment and I get a small sense of your life and I sense that your barely getting by with little or no help." Goten expressed.
"I'll admit that living in my current status is no amusement park but what are you getting at?" Pan questioned.
"What I'm offering is that you and Nikita come live with me, I make more than enough to support the both of you so you could quit your job and spend time with Nikita as Erasa told me you really can't get around to doing on your hectic work days." Goten offered.
"Listen Goten I don't live off of anyone without pulling my own weight and besides what about Erasa? me and Erasa are really close and I'm not going leave her to find other apartment because this one is too much money for her to keep on her paycheck alone." Pan explained.
"If you feel like you need to pull your own weight Pan you could start school again and ask for Erasa she's welcome to come.I have enough room and beds for the both of you." Goten reassured her.
"I don't know Goten It still doesn't feel right, I mean what if Mom, Dad or Grandma come over to visit you?" Pan questioned.
"They won't, the main reason I got a separate apartment was to get away from them and I am always informed of whose going to come and who's not." Goten explained.
"Starting school again was an option I didn't have before you made this offer and it's something I seriously want to do for Nikita's future.But still I don't know this is just all to sudden...." Pan said rubbing the back of her head as she paced around the room.
"I'll give you time to decide, ok?" Goten said getting up and putting on his long black leather coat.
"Do you have my number?" Pan asked.
"Erasa gave it to me earlier." Goten said heading to the door.
"Can I get you something to drink before you leave?"
"No I'm fine thank you." Goten said stepping through the door.
"Goten.... this isn't a yes or a no but a thank you for caring." Pan said Goten kissing on the cheek.
"It was good seeing you again and finally seeing Nikita Pan.Even if are early encounter was anything but friendly." Goten said returning the kiss.
"It was good seeing you as well." Pan said closing the door as Goten walk away from the door to the elevator.
"Oh wait Pan I forgot here this is for you." Goten said handing Pan some money.
"Goten I--" Pan began.
"Take it, if not for your sake then for Nikita's, I hear she has a birthday around the corner." Goten said.
"Yeah the 27th......what ever I decide to do Goten ,for what its worth............. thank you." Pan said as Goten entered the elevator.
End of Chapter Two: Will Pan take Goten up on his offer? and how will Erasa react to the news.
Chapter Three: I decide to leave the prequel for chapter 4.
In this chapter Pan makes her choice after talking it over with Erasa and Nikita.Goten fills Pan in on what's been happening while she's been gone and Goten brings up the touchy issue of Trunks current relationship.