Misguided Emotions Chapter 8: Dealing With It, a speed racer fanfic

Chapter 8: Dealing With it

It was a beautiful morning, not a cloud in the sky, and Mom Racer was preparing for a big lunch. The meal would consist of a roasted chicken, mashed potatoes, corn on the cob and warm bread rolls. Spritle and Chim Chim were running around the house playing Hide and Go Seek, Pops was working away in the garage, but there was no sign of Speed and it was already nearing 11:00. Wondering why he was still in his bed, Mom Racer decided to take a break from her cooking as she made sure that all was safe and secure in the kitchen.

After walking into her den, Spritle ran to her and asked, "Did ya see Chim Chim? He must have found a good hiding place."

"Sorry, Honey. I didn't. I'll help you find him after I check on your brother."

"Me and Chim Chim tried to wake Speedy up, but he only moaned," Spritle said looking worried.

"I'll go see what's wrong," Mom Racer said easing Spritle's mind. The child simply looked up to Speed so much and she didn't want him to worry.

In bed the night before, Speed had truly experienced a nightmare even though he had been wide-awake. After tormenting himself over and over by seeing in his head the kiss between Trixie and Jessie, he then had countless thoughts of things he and Trixie had experienced together. Each memory made him realize that he had made a huge mistake by wanting to see other people. He feared that he had really lost Trixie forever and it hurt him tremendously. All he had managed to do most of the night was to toss and turn.

Seeing him lying on his back with the sheets up to his chin, Mom Racer said softly, "Speed. It's time to get up."

Upon hearing her voice, he opened his eyes and began to stare up at the ceiling. Accepting a new day was the last thing he felt like doing.

Mom Racer walked to the side of his bed and sat down on the end of it as she put her hand on his forehead and asked, "Are you sick, Honey?"

If his heart hurting meant he was sick, then he was beyond sick, he thought feeling very sorry for himself.

"Honey," she said in a kind voice as she moved her hand away from his forehead - glad that he didn't feel warm, "Let's just forget that last night you told Ms. Patty that she looked pregnant. She was laughing again by the time she left."

Speed had forgotten all about that and wished he hadn't been reminded as he turned his face to the opposite direction of his mother's.

She soon knew something else was wrong, but just didn't know what. "Speed. Come on, Honey. Why don't you get up, call Trixie, and see if she wants to come over for lunch." Mom had known all too well that Trixie had always been the one to lift his spirits when he had been down about something.

Turning his face to his mother's, Speed said in a hoarse voice, "She won't want to come over."

"What? Why would you think that?" Mom Racer asked knowing that Trixie loved to come over though she hadn't been around lately.

Speed slowly began to sit up and the sheets fell off as he did.

Mom Racer was surprised to see him still in his clothes from the day before. "Speed. Why aren't you in your PJ's?" she asked now wanting to get the shower ready for him.

"I just wanted to fall asleep as fast as possible last night," he said drearily as he recalled taking his shoes off, falling on to his bed, and then shoving his face into his pillow trying to force himself to forget that the world existed.

"Honey. What's going on?" Mom asked pushing his hair out of his face and seeing the sorrow in his sky blue eyes. "You said that Trixie wouldn't want to come over today. Why? What happened?"

Speed turned his face away from his mother's again and said hopelessly, "She's crazy for someone else."

Knowing that she had to have heard Speed wrong, Mom repeated his words, "She's crazy for someone else?"

"Jessie," Speed said with a callous expression appearing on his face as he lifted his hand, made a fist, and then pounded it down on the bed beside him.

"Wait a minute," Mom Racer said shaking her head in disbelief. "Are you saying that Trixie has feelings for some guy named Jessie?"

Turning back to his mother, Speed nodded his head yes as flashes of the kiss he had seen between Trixie and Jessie ran through his mind once again. "I want to kill him!" Speed bellowed, tempted to get up and shower just to go find Jessie to let him have it.

"I can't believe that Trixie, our Trixie, would betray you," Mom Racer said stunned just before standing up in frustration. She had thought that Trixie would always be loyal to Speed because her adoration of him had always been so very obvious. Plus, Mom loved Trixie as if she had been her own daughter.

Knowing he had to set the record straight, Speed said calmly, "Mom. I broke up with her a couple of weeks ago."

"You broke up with her because you found out about Jessie?" Mom Racer asked putting her hands on her hips while becoming very angry at Trixie. She couldn't believe that Trixie would fall for this Jessie person since Speed had always been so protective of her and at times, very loving towards her as well.

Speed wanted to sink back down into his bed and just pull the sheets over his head, but he faced his Mom instead and said, "It's all my fault. I really hurt her, Mom! I wanted to see other people so I broke up with her."

Mom had to adjust to the fact that Speed had been the one to want to break things off. In a soft voice she said, "I thought you were happy with Trixie."

"I was and now I know I'm a Jackass for what I did," Speed declared troubled as he got out of his bed. He started pacing as he continued to talk to his mother. "I decided to break up with her because of all the girls that always seem interested in me. For some stupid reason I began to think that Trixie and I were moving too fast and that...the grass might be greener on the other side."

"Oh...Speed," Mom said almost sounding disappointed as she sat back down on the bed knowing that poor Trixie probably cried her eyes out for days.

"I wanted to stay friends, but she said no because it would hurt her to see me with someone else. At the time I didn't get it, but now I do after seeing her with him last night," Speed said heatedly as he made a fist wanting to punch something. He then sat back down on the bed and buried his face in his hands as he leaned over and again felt sorry for himself.

Being her calm and collected self again, Mom Racer asked, "You really are surprised at how much it hurt you to see her with someone else. Aren't you?"

Speed lifted his face out of his hands and looked at his mother as he said, "I know you won't believe me, but I was already missing her before I saw her with Jessie last night. You're right though. It hurt. More than I would have ever thought it could."

Mom Racer hoped that it really wasn't over for Speed and Trixie. She had always thought they were ideal for each other. There had never been a reason for her to doubt Trixie's love for her son as a person where as most other girls were only interested in his looks and fame. "So even if it weren't for Jessie, you'd still wish you hadn't broken up with her?"

"Yes!" Speed said wanting her to keep believing that what Trixie and he had together was very real. "You're not going to want to hear this, but I've been out with a different girl almost every night the last couple of weeks, and I found out that none of them compare to Trixie." Speed stood up again and said thunderously, "I can't believe that she had to meet that stupid jerk Jessie, just when I realized that I shouldn't have broken up with her! And you should see this guy! He just met her and he's acting like she's the love of his life!"

Mom wasn't about to remind Speed that he too had fallen for Trixie pretty quickly when they first met.

"I really screwed up, Mom," Speed said making her hear the pain in his voice. "I think Trixie might really be falling for this guy."

"Well...then I guess it wasn't meant to be for you and Trixie, no matter how much she fit in around here."

"I'm sorry, Mom," Speed said knowing how much she cared for Trixie.

"Speed. You're my son and I love my boys more than anything, but you made your bed and now you must lie in it. Trixie's a special girl that a number of guys would love to be with. I'm guessing you were thinking with something else rather than your brain when you decided to break up with her."

"Fine. You're right," he admitted remembering the fun he thought he was going to have with other girls. He wished he could turn back the clock. If he could, Trixie would be coming over for lunch, then they would go out for a drive, have one of their special talks and then end it with a passionate kiss.

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Trixie and Jessie had been going out for a week now and were together every possible moment since he had decided to stay in town because his tour hadn't started yet. Trixie had fun getting to know him, and he had made his feelings very obvious to her. He had told her over and over how beautiful she was and that he was going to make her the happiest woman on earth. The innocence in her green eyes easily entranced him, making her a breath of fresh air to him.

To Trixie, Jessie was a sweet guy, as big as a teddy bear, who truly treated her like a queen. To top off how sweet he was, he was extremely good looking. She couldn't believe how loving the lyrics were in some of his songs and to find out that he wrote them had impressed her immensely. When they spoke, he listened intently and completely ignored the other girls who wanted his attention. She really had him wrapped around her finger without even trying.

One afternoon, Jessie and Trixie were sitting in John's apartment waiting for him to return with the food he was picking up for the three of them. Wanting to please Trixie, Jessie let her flip through the stations on the TV as he had his arm draped around her shoulders. "You really do like racing," Jessie said finding it amusing that she was really getting into some clips of a race on a sport's station she had stopped on.

Without thinking she said with a smile as she stared at the TV, "Yeah. That was an old race that Speed had won awhile back."

"Speed?" Jessie asked enjoying the sporty side of her.

"Uh...yes. Speed Racer," she said wishing she hadn't brought him up as she leaned and turned the TV off.

"The way you said Speed, I'd swear that you know the guy," Jessie said putting his hand on her chin to turn her face to his to give her a soft kiss.

After the quick kiss, Trixie decided that now was as good a time as ever to tell him who her ex was. It was a miracle that the press hadn't run wild with the news yet. Leaning again to put the TV back on, she pointed to the Mach 5 as it raced passed other cars. "Look closer," she said turning to see how Jessie would react.

Jessie looked and was quite shocked to see that Trixie was in the passenger side of the Mach 5. "You raced with him?" Jessie asked stunned.

"He's my ex-boyfriend," Trixie said still finding it hard to believe that that part of her life was over.

"Wait a minute," Jessie said wondering if he was the boyfriend that had made her look so depressed while singing in John's Bar. "That Racer guy is the guy who broke up with you just before we met?"

"Yes," Trixie said calmly while forcing herself not to look sad.

"To break up with you he had to be a complete fool," Jessie said truthfully. With a smile he added, "I kind of like him though."

"You what?" Trixie asked surprised as Jessie grinned back at her.

"I like him because he broke up with you and now I've got you," he said squeezing her shoulder. Taking her hand, he looked back at the TV to see Speed accepting an award. "Stupid guy probably never won any other races besides this one."

Trixie folded her arms and with a smirk on her face she said, "You definitely aren't into the racing world are you?"

"Why?" Jessie asked preferring football.

"Nothing," Trixie said thinking it smarter not to tell him that Speed won almost every race he had entered.

"Well, I wonder if he knows you're with me now," Jessie said possessively, but making Trixie like it a bit since she didn't have to question how Jessie felt about her.

"I don't think Speed would care that I'm with you," she said not feeling as hurt as she had been now that she was staring into Jessie's beautiful, adoring eyes.

"I just don't get it," Jessie said, shaking his head with an expression of puzzlement on his face, "You should have been in the music world, not the sport's world."

"Jessie," she said hating to keep repeating herself. "You know that I never wanted to be a professional singer. My singing is something I love to do, but just for me, except for an occasional karaoke night. I really love to fly!" she said as her green eyes lit up. She didn't admit how much she loved racing and helping others in the process.

"Well, you're going to have to take me up into the air in your helicopter to show me why," he said not caring what they did as long as they were together.

"Really!" Trixie asked excitedly.

"Sure. Why not?" he said glad that he had made her happy.

The next day Trixie and Jessie were all set to go up in her helicopter. As Trixie began to lift the helicopter into the air, Jessie was quite impressed. She began to whirl the helicopter around making Jessie hold on to his seat tightly. It was so different from being in a big plane. He felt himself getting extremely nervous, but he didn't want Trixie to know.

Trixie was so happy that Jessie had wanted her to take him up, because it proved that he truly was interesting in her adventurous side as well.

After about five minutes in the air, Trixie realized that Jessie was being very quiet.

"Are you okay?" she asked putting a hand on his shoulder.

"Sure, Baby," he said trying to act tough, but she saw right through it.

She bit back her lip to keep from laughing at his act. "You know what?" she finally asked.

"What?" he asked turning his head to look at her as he continued to hold on to his seat.

"You are just too funny," she said giggling.

"Uh...I'm really enjoying myself," he said hoping she really wasn't catching on to how scared he was.

"Just relax and trust me," she said trying to sound serious.

"Oh, Baby. You don't know how much I trust my life in your hands right now," he said feeling himself start to sweat as he continued to hold on for dear life.

Over in the garage by the track, Speed and Sparky were working under the hood of the Mach 5. For the last week, Speed had forced himself to concentrate only on the races ahead. The Mach 5 soon began to mean even more to him since he was trying to forget the horrible mistake he had made. Besides losing Trixie as his girlfriend, he had also lost her as his navigator. Sparky happily agreed to be the new one though he wished that Speed had been more excited about it. The all work and no play side of Speed wasn't much fun and Sparky knew it was a result from finding out about Trixie and Jessie together.

Unfortunately earlier in the week, Sparky used the 'I told you so' line letting Speed know that he shouldn't have thrown someone as special as Trixie away. Speed admitted that he took full blame for what had happened between Trixie and him. Feeling badly, Sparky suggested that Speed talk to her, but Speed confessed that he was too scared to talk to her just yet, since she had stressed that she'd never take him back.

"Listen. It's a helicopter," Speed said to Sparky while pulling his head from under the hood of the car.

"Buddy. You need a vacation," Sparky said knowing that Speed thought it was Trixie. "That could be anybody up there."

Speed then ran to the window and looked up at the helicopter above. "Sparky! It's her.! Call her on the radio and get her to come down here!" Speed exclaimed full of nervous energy.

"What?" Sparky asked now pulling completely from under the Mach 5's hood. "I thought you couldn't face Trixie yet."

"I don't care what I said," Speed said as he began to pull Sparky over to the side of the car so he could speak into the radio. "I can't take it anymore. I just want her back," Speed said desperately like a mad man.

"Speed. Get a grip," Sparky said as his racer friend handed him the radio.

"Make up something to get her down here. Please, Sparky," Speed said ready to get down on his knees to start begging him.

"Man, Speed. I knew you still had it bad for her, but this is ridiculous," Sparky said about to speak into the radio. Taking a breath, he said, "Trixie. Come in, Trixie." Both Speed and Sparky waited patiently for a reply.

"Sparky?" Trixie asked happy to hear his voice.

"Yeah. It's me, Trixie," Sparky said as Speed took in her beautiful voice.

"How have you been?" Trixie asked happily.

"Why don't you come down here and see," Sparky said knowing Speed would kill him if he didn't convince her to come down.

"I don't know," she said thinking that it might not be a good idea.

"Come on. You have a few things here that are yours," Sparky said hoping she'd believe him.

Hesitantly, Trixie asked, "Is Speed there?"

Because of the nervousness in her voice, Speed shook his head no at Sparky.

"No," Sparky said hating to lie, but hating more how Speed would act if Trixie didn't come down.

"Okay. I'm coming down," she said knowing that Jessie would surely appreciate being on the ground again no matter where they were. "Is that okay with you?" Trixie asked smiling at Jessie. "Sparky has really helped me a lot since my break up with you know who."

"I thought I did," Jessie said trying to pout, but still looking scared.

"You did help me to forget...you know who," she said leaning to brush his cheek with a kiss.

"I don't mind at all if you land," Jessie said wanting his feet on the ground as soon as possible.

"She's getting ready to land!" Speed said excitedly. "I'm going to hide and then I'll just pop out."

"You're what?" Sparky asked, but Speed disappeared in a flash. Damn it, Sparky thought hoping Trixie wouldn't kill him when Speed popped out.

Sparky walked out of the garage to see Trixie exiting her helicopter. He had missed her and again thought how stupid Speed was to break up with her in the first place. He watched as she walked around her helicopter and then leaned in. His mouth fell wide open when he saw Jessie come out.

"Oh man," Sparky said turning around, looking for Speed, but not seeing him anywhere. He turned back to the helicopter to see Trixie approaching fast as she pulled Jessie by his hand behind her.

"Sparky," Trixie said releasing Jessie's hand. She then threw her arms around her mechanic friend. "I have missed you so much!"

Only hearing Trixie, Speed popped out of the garage and said smiling, "Don't you miss me too?" His smile however, instantly disappeared when he saw Jessie.

Right away, Jessie put his arm protectively around Trixie's shoulders.

Speed was so disappointed to see Jessie as Trixie felt her heart began to pump her blood very fast. Feeling very jealous, Jessie watched closely as Speed and Trixie stared at each other.