My Heart Will Go On
Author's Note: I orginally planned I Know You By Heart to be a one off, demonstrating what would happen to Joey when the ineveitable happened. But I liked it so much that I decided to continue to show how Rachel felt. This ends with a cliffhanger, and another chapter will follow. And, as if I need to tell you, the song here is My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion, the love theme from the film Titanic.
UPDATED - If you don't like this, don't review. Bad reviews are pointless. I welcome criticism but there's no need to insult me. I know I've made Ross rather harsh, so don't tell me that, I know. But it was needed for the purpose of this story, so it happened.
Premise: Rachel might not be as happy as Joey thinks.
Disclaimer: I do not own Rachel, Joey, Ross or Emma (unfortunately).
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Rachel sat in the darkness, like she did every night. Ross and Emma were asleep, but Rachel needed to think. Like she did every night.
She'd tried to forget him, she really had. But she couldn't. He was always there, in her mind.
She never saw him anymore - Ross wouldn't let her. She couldn't even see him on the television anymore, because he'd been fired for his 'slipping work'.
She knew exactly why his work was slipping. And it gave her a strange comfort, knowing he was missing her too.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
She remembered their first kiss. It couldn't have been more perfect.
She'd opened her hotel room door, and he was standing there. He had a strange look on his face, like he'd finally come home.
And then he kissed her. It was gentle, soft, and tender: the most magical kiss she'd ever had.
And she thought she'd never have that again.
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're one
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
She'd tried to stop loving him at first, but she'd given up when she realised it was impossible.
She'd broken his heart twice. But the second time, she'd broken her own as well.
Somehow Ross had convinced her she should be with him. He'd used their daughter as a weapon, saying it was what Emma needed. He'd let her write a note, but he'd crossed out so many of her heartfelt words that it ended up looking more like a formal letter, and it was smudged so badly by her tears it was almost illegible.
At least he knew she hadn't gone easily.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
She had been happy. She had loved him more than she had ever loved anyone. She still did.
She hated Ross for stealing her happiness. Even Emma missed him. Emma had seen how happy her mum had been, and how unhappy she was now.
But Emma was just a child. She didn't know what was best for her, let alone her mother.
Or did she?
You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Rachel's head span.
This worked. It was a stable home for Emma, with her real father, and they had plenty of money to support her. They had a big house, in a good area, in a good city.
But she wasn't happy.
She pictured the other scenario. Little money, a small apartment, confusing Emma as she went back and forth.
But she'd be happy.
Making a concious decision, she scrawled a note to Ross and Emma, placed her wedding ring on top of it, grabbed her coat, and left.
Author's Note: I orginally planned I Know You By Heart to be a one off, demonstrating what would happen to Joey when the ineveitable happened. But I liked it so much that I decided to continue to show how Rachel felt. This ends with a cliffhanger, and another chapter will follow. And, as if I need to tell you, the song here is My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion, the love theme from the film Titanic.
UPDATED - If you don't like this, don't review. Bad reviews are pointless. I welcome criticism but there's no need to insult me. I know I've made Ross rather harsh, so don't tell me that, I know. But it was needed for the purpose of this story, so it happened.
Premise: Rachel might not be as happy as Joey thinks.
Disclaimer: I do not own Rachel, Joey, Ross or Emma (unfortunately).
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Rachel sat in the darkness, like she did every night. Ross and Emma were asleep, but Rachel needed to think. Like she did every night.
She'd tried to forget him, she really had. But she couldn't. He was always there, in her mind.
She never saw him anymore - Ross wouldn't let her. She couldn't even see him on the television anymore, because he'd been fired for his 'slipping work'.
She knew exactly why his work was slipping. And it gave her a strange comfort, knowing he was missing her too.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
She remembered their first kiss. It couldn't have been more perfect.
She'd opened her hotel room door, and he was standing there. He had a strange look on his face, like he'd finally come home.
And then he kissed her. It was gentle, soft, and tender: the most magical kiss she'd ever had.
And she thought she'd never have that again.
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're one
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
She'd tried to stop loving him at first, but she'd given up when she realised it was impossible.
She'd broken his heart twice. But the second time, she'd broken her own as well.
Somehow Ross had convinced her she should be with him. He'd used their daughter as a weapon, saying it was what Emma needed. He'd let her write a note, but he'd crossed out so many of her heartfelt words that it ended up looking more like a formal letter, and it was smudged so badly by her tears it was almost illegible.
At least he knew she hadn't gone easily.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
She had been happy. She had loved him more than she had ever loved anyone. She still did.
She hated Ross for stealing her happiness. Even Emma missed him. Emma had seen how happy her mum had been, and how unhappy she was now.
But Emma was just a child. She didn't know what was best for her, let alone her mother.
Or did she?
You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Rachel's head span.
This worked. It was a stable home for Emma, with her real father, and they had plenty of money to support her. They had a big house, in a good area, in a good city.
But she wasn't happy.
She pictured the other scenario. Little money, a small apartment, confusing Emma as she went back and forth.
But she'd be happy.
Making a concious decision, she scrawled a note to Ross and Emma, placed her wedding ring on top of it, grabbed her coat, and left.