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Song: Slide by: 3 Doors Down.
Chapter 10- The truth.
'I have to tell him.'
The slate-haired boy sighed as he stood in front of the closed door to his room.
The day had become awkward after Kai and Ray talked. Kai could not even look at the teen without hurting inside. After talking, the team continued training for most of the day. Suppertime rolled around; they ate quietly while Mr. Dickenson chatted about the upcoming tournament before he left.
Ray went upstairs to relax after his meal, whilst Tyson challenged Max to a rematch at Mario Kart.
'I can't go on like this.'
Kai had been mentally beating himself up for lying that morning.
'Now or never.'
The captain pushed the door open. He expected to see Ray up and about, not asleep, like it seemed.
He took a deep breath. ''Ray.''
There came no reply.
'I guess he's sleeping.' Kai frowned but as he got closer, he noticed a cd walkman under Ray's palm.
That was why the teen did not respond.
''Ray.'' He repeated himself a little louder.
His music was fairly loud but the raven-haired boy could still hear his name being called.
His eyes fluttered open and he saw sitting across from him.
''Oh, Hey!'' Ray sat up and removed his earphones, letting them fall around his neck.
''What are you listening too?''
''Big Shiny Tunes 4.'' He showed Kai the cd case that was on the nightstand. ''It's pretty old but I still like it.''
Kai picked up the case and read it over quickly, not recognizing most of the bands.
''Listen to this.'' Ray handed over his earphones.
The
captain hesitated at first but slipped them on anyway. He closed his
eyes and awaited the beginning of the song.
''-Could
you whisper in my ear the things you want to feel. I'll give ya
anything to feel it coming. Do you wake up on your own? I wonder
where you are and it was all your fault. I wanna wake up where you
are. I won't say anything at all. So why don't you slide?-''
The
first verse ended and Kai opened his eyes to find Ray starring at
him. The gazing teen smiled and quickly looked away, diverting his
attention to the window.
''-I
wanna wake up where you are. I won't say anything at all-''. The
phrase stuck in his head as the song went on.
''-And I'll do anything you ever dreamed to be complete.''
Kai began humming the tune, causing Ray to laugh.
''-Put
your arms around me. What you feel is what you are and what you are,
is beautiful.''
''-Do
you want to get married and run away?-''
It ended and Kai passed the earphones back.
''Do you like it?''
''Yeah, I do.''
During the song, Kai found himself imagining Ray singing the song to him. He could not stop the simplistic fantasy from playing out in his mind. Every single word pushed him more and more to tell Ray everything. Perhaps that which he saw, and hoped for, could actually happen.
How he felt…it had to come out.
''Um...Ray.''
''Yeah...'' Ray turned his attention from putting his disk man away to Kai, who was looking down.
''Earlier when we talked...'' Kai paused and looked up into Ray's eyes.
The golden innocence that they emitted was the final push in the right direction that he needed. ''I lied to you.''
''What?'' The raven-haired teen asked, confused, as his heart began to pound inside of him and an uneasy feeling set in.
''And for that I'm really sorry.'' Kai looked down once again immediately.
He could not bear to look at the hurt flow into the golden orbs.
''I really am.''
''What… did you lie… about?'' Ray found himself stuttering.
''About the time lapse.''
The Chinese boy nodded as he waited for the rest.
''First well...'' Kai knew what he had to say but the words just would not form on the tip of his tongue.
''You...You...'' He bit down on his lower lip. '' You kissed me.'' The words finally fell out.
They came as a complete shock to Ray. His jaw almost hit the floor. He truly could not believe he did such a thing.
''I...I...don't know what to say.''
''Don't say anything.''
''But I'm...I'm sorry.''
Ray did not mean his apology; it did not seem right to say, but he had no other words. He was, however, sorry he could not remember the feeling of being so close to Kai. But the captain thought he meant it, which caused his heart to sink into his stomach.
''There's more.''
Ray nervously ran his fingers through his raven locks.
''You said.'' Kai inhaled and exhaled slowly causing Ray to feel uncomfortable.
Something inside of him knew what was coming.
''You said...you loved me.''
What he thought was a burden had been half lifted from his shoulders but he still did not feel right.
This time Ray did not even attempt to speak. There was no use.
He suddenly began to tremble though. The silence from his inability to speak sent shivers up his spine. He had never thought, while being sick that he would ever blurt out how he really felt. His whole body shook as he just felt like crawling under a rock and disappearing.
'Tell him.' The mental screaming in the elder's mind became louder, almost intolerable.
''Ray.''
Kai broke the awkward silence that had filled the room.
''Yea...yeah.'' Praying to vanish was not working at all.
Kai had to be sure before he went on.
''Did you mean...it? Or was...it nothing?''
Inwardly, he braced himself for rejection.
Ray, however, just sat there, speechless.
'Why is he asking me that?'
He could not even possibly think why he would be.
''I...I...''
If he revealed how he felt, he feared that Kai would react in a bad way. Kick him off the team - that came to mind first, or - never speak to him again, that would hurt far more. Although it was not much, Kai's friendship meant a lot to Ray. But he could not deny the chance to give his heart a voice of its own.
''I do.'' Ray suddenly felt the urge to cry.
His words would more than likely be his downfall. Or so he thought.
''I meant it.''
Kai felt his heart skip a beat. Everything felt better for him. But as he looked up, his joy was limited to himself. Warm tears trailed down Ray's tanned cheeks. Since Kai had not spoken, Ray assumed the worst.
'He probably hates me.'
'I shouldn't even be feeling this way.'
Ray had always convinced himself that what he felt was wrong. But he could not betray his heart no matter what.
He bolted out of the room in tears. Everything said was just too much to handle. He tried to be strong but failed.
''Ray! Wait!'' Kai called out but the teen did not and flew down the stairs, passed his friends in the living room, covering his face.
'I'm a disgrace.' That was all he thought before stopping at the door.
-TBC-
I guess I could call this a mini cliffhanger. It's been a while since I've done one of those.
I have good news and bad news...
Good first, since I've cracked 200 reviews I'm posting my other thank you. ''When they're away'' So be sure to check it out once your done reviewing!
Bad news, Chapter 11 is the final update for this fic. I know it's sad. It's all coming to an end but there will be more good news next chapter. So be around in a week or so alright?