Chapter 10
Still Mattox. He's thinking over his thoughts of yesterday:
As I collapsed on my bed after telling the wardens, I sighed and massaged my forehead. The vixen was still on my mind. I hated thinking thoughts such as these, but loved thinking them of her. I knew it was pure adultarated lust...
But, every time her innocent gaze peirced my sight, there was a longing deep inside me. However, when ever Reagan swam through my mind, so did the conversation Tillion and I had. What could he mean by saying she is a liar? I thought over and over, and still, I couldn't not see why he hated her so. Has he lusted over her the same way? Has she rejected him or what if she didn't?
Jealousy rose in the pit of my stomach as the thunder rumbled across the sky. Small pelets of rain dripped down onto my window. The afternoon sky grew grey with the storms, but I still had a smile.
My body smelled like her. Even if she was only in my presence for 5 minutes, I could still smell her. Her scent was like the fresh rain and jasmine, and it consumed me. My head swirled from the scent. She was driving me mad! I have to stop thinking like this! She is a child. An innocent child.
I sat up, swinging my legs over the side of the bed. 'I have to tell her now! I can not live another night without having her in my arms!' With a push off my bed, I threw open my chamber door and flew down the hall, walking quickly to her bedroom...
Reagan.
I combed the knots out of my hair and braided a silver ribbon in with it. The end nearly reached my rear when I stood up. Julia had left an hour ago, complaining she was hungry. To me, she ate too much, but, I could be wrong. I sighed and looked in the mirror as the lightening lit up the room a bit. A knock at my door jerked my attention to it before I tucked a lose strand of black hair behind my ear and stood up to get the door. "Yes?" I asked, pulling it open slightly. Tillion stood outside, leaning on the side of my door frame.
"Hello Reagan."
"Hello..."
"Why did you lie?" Fear shot down my spine. How had he found out...Of course, I wasn't too sensible about it. He could have found out from any body. Without thinking, I pushed the door closed, but I wasn't fast enough. Tillion pushed it open, slinging me back onto the floor.
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me up to him. "Do you realize you lied to the Prince? I could put you in the prison for telling false stories to a royal..." I begged him to let me go, tears filling my eyes. I wasn't afraid of prison, I was afraid of what HE was going to do to me NOW. "Please, I'm sorry. I was afraid of you...Like I am now..Im scared."
"Apologize.."
"Im sorry!" I barely choked it out before Tillion released my hand and put his finger in my face as I fell to the floor. "Never lie to me again Reagan..." I sniffed as he grabbed my door handle and slammed the door shut, making the candle holders shake on the wall. Thunder popped outside the walls, but I hardly flinched. My wrists were red and sore, but that was it. I put my face in my hands and sobbed, not hearing the door creak open.
"Reagan?" A soft voice, said before they touched my shoulder. I turned my head and saw Julia. She bit her thumbnail, gazing down at me with a worried stare. "It's ok...I- I fell."
"With the help of a certain elf?" I shook my head and stood up, shakily. My hair fell over my shoulder, hiding my face slightly. The tears had started to slide down my cheeks as I looked at her out of the corner of my eyes. She made her way to me, but I backed up into the small nightstand next to the bed.
"Please...I just..want to be alone for a few minutes. Im sorry.." Julia nodded and looked to the door, a glare swept across her face. "It's ok. I have things to do anyway..." With a sigh, she left and her footsteps rang in the halls until they disappeared. I touched my wrists and fell back on my bed, sobbing loudly. I looked up through my tear filled eyes to see Mattox, standing there with a worried look.
"Reagan! What's--" "JUST LEAVE! please!" I pushed him out of the room and slammed my door, leaning back on it. I put my face in my hands and slid down to the floor. 'What am I going to do now?'...
Julia:
I grabbed the Elf's shoulder and jerked him back to glare at him. My hand contacted with his cheek and he stumbled back. "NEVER! EVER! Touch her again!" Tillion smirked as I reached up to strike him again. He caught my wrist and I tried my other one, having him grasp it too. "A human girl will never overcome and Elf.."
He let me go, making me grow even angrier. Just as he turned to walk away, I ran up behind him, yelling. "You are an ASS! If you come within TWO feet of either of us! I will scream rape and have you locked away longer than you could ever live!" He stopped suddenly, turning around, his face inches away from my own. "Never threaten me Julia...Im far too powerful for you to handle..."
I swallowed and looked into his cold eyes. Tillion raised his hand, coming inches from my cheek. I flinched and shut my eyes, expecting to feel his hand on my cheek. Nothing happened so I opened my eyes to see him staring at me, his eyes narrow. "I-...."
"Were you going to hit me?" He backed up, looking at me as if I were plagued. "You were...How awful!!!! A prince should not act like that!!!! You want to know your problem? You are too sure of yourself. One of these days someone is going to get fed up with you and just--" Before I could finish my ranting, Tillion stepped forward, and took my face in his hands.
I whimpered seconds before he brought his lips down to mine, kissing me passionatly. I couldn't stop myself. I kissed him back, sighing softly to myself. He broke away, looking into my eyes. "I am so sorry...I never wanted to hurt you..." The look in his eyes was genuine, but, I had enough sense to know there was a possibility of him lieing. And I couldn't take my chances.
I pushed him away, making him stumble into the rock wall behind him. "I never wanted you to kiss me either..." With that, I turned and walked back up the stairs shaking my head at all of this. Sometimes I wish I could have just been left at Paranuil and been a slave for the rest of my life. Of course, slaves could never be able to kiss a prince who kissed that good. 'I need a scalding hot bath...' I looked at my door before walking in...
Reagan
Why is this happening? If I would have just given Tillion his way...then Julia wouldn't be in a fit and I wouldn't be depressed. But, just the thought of that stupid Prince, made me sick to my stomach. I moved my eyes across my room and sighed. I have been here almost two weeks and it seems like I've been here ten years by the way everyone is treating me.
Everyone seems to know who I am and it isn't in the good way. Tillion must have said something. Another bad thing about Elves to add to the growing list. They gossip and stick their perfect noses in others business. I'm going insane. 'No...I'm just a hypocrite...' Of course I knew that already. Despite my deep hatred for the Elven race, one seems to always occupy my mind.
The thought of losing him, killed me. It made me more sick than Tillion. I couldn't, won't, live without knowing how he feels...about me. Even though I had changed into my nightgown, I fled from the room, running toward the west wing of the castle. My black silk gown clung to my body as I ran. As I rounded a corner, I was knocked back and into the wall. Mattox stood in front of me, stuned but smiling. "Do you ever sleep?"
"Do you ever walk?" He mused, attitude dripping from his voice. I realized I had been a bit cross to him earlier this evening. "Is there anything I could do for you? Or were you just out for a nightly run?" He continued walking the way he was before we bumped into each other, making me follow him. I tucked a peice of my hair behind my ear and thought for a second.
"Actually...I. I was wanting to say-- uh..say.." "Say what?" I blinked and looked away, sniffing back the lump in my throat. 'If you can't tell him...then just say something!' My mind screamed and I said the first thing that came to me. "Would you like to go for a walk with me?" He raised an eyebrow and sighed, nodding slightly. "Uhm...W-why can't you sleep?"
"I'm leaving to go fight in a battle against blood thirsty Orcs.." I nodded and waited for him to open one of the side doors to walk out on the terrace. Thousands of Fireflies lit up the sky around us as if we were swimming in the stars. I looked through the dark and saw the whole village in front of us.
Even this late at night, Elves littered the streets, moving in and out of the buildings and stopping for a drink of Ale. "Listen Mattox, I wanted to apologize for earlier. I didn't mean to yell at you like that. But, it was just, I--"
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to him, placing a finger to my lips. "Don't. I should have listened to you all those other times I've came to your rescue. I am just so used to protecting you. I felt I should have did it tonight also. You are very capable of taking care of yourself Reagan, it's just that...You're young and a woman." I looked up at him through my green eyes and smiled coyly.
"A woman? Since when is 17 and helpless a woman?" I asked, mocking his same words he said to me a night in the woods. A silence fell between us, as we just stood there, staring at each other. "You are a woman. Inside...and...out.." His gaze fell to my chest. Suddenly, I felt naked, standing there in my thin silk nightgown as he looked me over hungrily.
"And you know what a woman is suppose to be like...on either side?" My voice came out barely louder than a whisper. I swallowed nervously and looked down at my feet. Mattox placed his finger under my chin and raised my head up so I had to stare into his face.
We licked our lips simultaniously before I felt him slide his hand through my hair. Just the touch of his hand barely grazing my skin, made the the hairs on my arms stand on end. "You have shown the traits...Especially here..." He touched my chest, where my heart was beating wildly against it.
He replaced his finger with his lips, placing a kiss on the soft skin, and slowly moving up. I leaned my head back as he grasped the back of my neck, supportng me up. His lips grazed my neck, jaw and chin before the Elf was staring down at me, his face inches from my own. We were both motionless for what felt like was eternity.
"Kiss me Mattox..." I whispered, running a finger over his jaw. Before I could sigh, his lips pressed to mine softly at first. It was a desperate kiss that we have both been dying for. Our noses crashed against each others and his hand wrapped itself around my waist, pulling my lower body closer to his.
We paused for a second, to catch our breath and to savor the taste of each other. I blinked, looking into his dark, midnight blue eyes. With a sigh, I was pushed against the castle wall, Mattox still pressing his lips against mine. This was what I was dieing for since the night he had saved Julia from the Orc.
My passion for him only grew when weeks later, we went swimming. If only he would stay, then I could sataisfy my need. I realized suddenly that I had whispered a few words from my last thought. "I can not stay, Reagan. I'm dieing to carry you up to my chamber right now, but I know it's wrong." I shook my head, grasping the back of his neck.
"It isn't wrong...This couldn't be wrong..It feels too right to be anything else. Please.." I pressed my lips back to his, making him pull one thin strap off of my shoulder. He kissed where it just was, lightly sucking on the skin. All the while, his hands were moving across my back and sides, landing one at my hip and the other on my thigh.
My senses regained themselves and I discovered that his hand was under my gown, caressing the skin some ways above my knee. I bit the side of my lip and pushed him away slightly. We were both out of breath, my heart beating wildly matching his. "I am sorry. I..I just can't do this. Not here at least. If you wish, meet me in my chamber in half an hour."
With that, I turned and walked in the door, not stopping until I reached my room. Julia's snores could be heard from behind my door but I had more things on my mind. I ran a comb through my hair, touched my neck and wrists with some fragrance perfume and took a hold of my stomach. Another look at myself in the mirror and I went to sit in the middle of my bed.
My eyelids began to close but I snapped them open, in case I missed him. I sighed an hour later and let my head fall against the head board. If he didn't come in another five minutes, I decided to just go to sleep. Ten minutes passed. It turned into a half an hour and finally, another hour passed.
"He isn't coming..." I bit my lip and glared at the door as if it were its fault. I grasped the top blanket and started to pull it back when the door knob twisted and the door opened. I took in a deep breath and stared at.....
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Still Mattox. He's thinking over his thoughts of yesterday:
As I collapsed on my bed after telling the wardens, I sighed and massaged my forehead. The vixen was still on my mind. I hated thinking thoughts such as these, but loved thinking them of her. I knew it was pure adultarated lust...
But, every time her innocent gaze peirced my sight, there was a longing deep inside me. However, when ever Reagan swam through my mind, so did the conversation Tillion and I had. What could he mean by saying she is a liar? I thought over and over, and still, I couldn't not see why he hated her so. Has he lusted over her the same way? Has she rejected him or what if she didn't?
Jealousy rose in the pit of my stomach as the thunder rumbled across the sky. Small pelets of rain dripped down onto my window. The afternoon sky grew grey with the storms, but I still had a smile.
My body smelled like her. Even if she was only in my presence for 5 minutes, I could still smell her. Her scent was like the fresh rain and jasmine, and it consumed me. My head swirled from the scent. She was driving me mad! I have to stop thinking like this! She is a child. An innocent child.
I sat up, swinging my legs over the side of the bed. 'I have to tell her now! I can not live another night without having her in my arms!' With a push off my bed, I threw open my chamber door and flew down the hall, walking quickly to her bedroom...
Reagan.
I combed the knots out of my hair and braided a silver ribbon in with it. The end nearly reached my rear when I stood up. Julia had left an hour ago, complaining she was hungry. To me, she ate too much, but, I could be wrong. I sighed and looked in the mirror as the lightening lit up the room a bit. A knock at my door jerked my attention to it before I tucked a lose strand of black hair behind my ear and stood up to get the door. "Yes?" I asked, pulling it open slightly. Tillion stood outside, leaning on the side of my door frame.
"Hello Reagan."
"Hello..."
"Why did you lie?" Fear shot down my spine. How had he found out...Of course, I wasn't too sensible about it. He could have found out from any body. Without thinking, I pushed the door closed, but I wasn't fast enough. Tillion pushed it open, slinging me back onto the floor.
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me up to him. "Do you realize you lied to the Prince? I could put you in the prison for telling false stories to a royal..." I begged him to let me go, tears filling my eyes. I wasn't afraid of prison, I was afraid of what HE was going to do to me NOW. "Please, I'm sorry. I was afraid of you...Like I am now..Im scared."
"Apologize.."
"Im sorry!" I barely choked it out before Tillion released my hand and put his finger in my face as I fell to the floor. "Never lie to me again Reagan..." I sniffed as he grabbed my door handle and slammed the door shut, making the candle holders shake on the wall. Thunder popped outside the walls, but I hardly flinched. My wrists were red and sore, but that was it. I put my face in my hands and sobbed, not hearing the door creak open.
"Reagan?" A soft voice, said before they touched my shoulder. I turned my head and saw Julia. She bit her thumbnail, gazing down at me with a worried stare. "It's ok...I- I fell."
"With the help of a certain elf?" I shook my head and stood up, shakily. My hair fell over my shoulder, hiding my face slightly. The tears had started to slide down my cheeks as I looked at her out of the corner of my eyes. She made her way to me, but I backed up into the small nightstand next to the bed.
"Please...I just..want to be alone for a few minutes. Im sorry.." Julia nodded and looked to the door, a glare swept across her face. "It's ok. I have things to do anyway..." With a sigh, she left and her footsteps rang in the halls until they disappeared. I touched my wrists and fell back on my bed, sobbing loudly. I looked up through my tear filled eyes to see Mattox, standing there with a worried look.
"Reagan! What's--" "JUST LEAVE! please!" I pushed him out of the room and slammed my door, leaning back on it. I put my face in my hands and slid down to the floor. 'What am I going to do now?'...
Julia:
I grabbed the Elf's shoulder and jerked him back to glare at him. My hand contacted with his cheek and he stumbled back. "NEVER! EVER! Touch her again!" Tillion smirked as I reached up to strike him again. He caught my wrist and I tried my other one, having him grasp it too. "A human girl will never overcome and Elf.."
He let me go, making me grow even angrier. Just as he turned to walk away, I ran up behind him, yelling. "You are an ASS! If you come within TWO feet of either of us! I will scream rape and have you locked away longer than you could ever live!" He stopped suddenly, turning around, his face inches away from my own. "Never threaten me Julia...Im far too powerful for you to handle..."
I swallowed and looked into his cold eyes. Tillion raised his hand, coming inches from my cheek. I flinched and shut my eyes, expecting to feel his hand on my cheek. Nothing happened so I opened my eyes to see him staring at me, his eyes narrow. "I-...."
"Were you going to hit me?" He backed up, looking at me as if I were plagued. "You were...How awful!!!! A prince should not act like that!!!! You want to know your problem? You are too sure of yourself. One of these days someone is going to get fed up with you and just--" Before I could finish my ranting, Tillion stepped forward, and took my face in his hands.
I whimpered seconds before he brought his lips down to mine, kissing me passionatly. I couldn't stop myself. I kissed him back, sighing softly to myself. He broke away, looking into my eyes. "I am so sorry...I never wanted to hurt you..." The look in his eyes was genuine, but, I had enough sense to know there was a possibility of him lieing. And I couldn't take my chances.
I pushed him away, making him stumble into the rock wall behind him. "I never wanted you to kiss me either..." With that, I turned and walked back up the stairs shaking my head at all of this. Sometimes I wish I could have just been left at Paranuil and been a slave for the rest of my life. Of course, slaves could never be able to kiss a prince who kissed that good. 'I need a scalding hot bath...' I looked at my door before walking in...
Reagan
Why is this happening? If I would have just given Tillion his way...then Julia wouldn't be in a fit and I wouldn't be depressed. But, just the thought of that stupid Prince, made me sick to my stomach. I moved my eyes across my room and sighed. I have been here almost two weeks and it seems like I've been here ten years by the way everyone is treating me.
Everyone seems to know who I am and it isn't in the good way. Tillion must have said something. Another bad thing about Elves to add to the growing list. They gossip and stick their perfect noses in others business. I'm going insane. 'No...I'm just a hypocrite...' Of course I knew that already. Despite my deep hatred for the Elven race, one seems to always occupy my mind.
The thought of losing him, killed me. It made me more sick than Tillion. I couldn't, won't, live without knowing how he feels...about me. Even though I had changed into my nightgown, I fled from the room, running toward the west wing of the castle. My black silk gown clung to my body as I ran. As I rounded a corner, I was knocked back and into the wall. Mattox stood in front of me, stuned but smiling. "Do you ever sleep?"
"Do you ever walk?" He mused, attitude dripping from his voice. I realized I had been a bit cross to him earlier this evening. "Is there anything I could do for you? Or were you just out for a nightly run?" He continued walking the way he was before we bumped into each other, making me follow him. I tucked a peice of my hair behind my ear and thought for a second.
"Actually...I. I was wanting to say-- uh..say.." "Say what?" I blinked and looked away, sniffing back the lump in my throat. 'If you can't tell him...then just say something!' My mind screamed and I said the first thing that came to me. "Would you like to go for a walk with me?" He raised an eyebrow and sighed, nodding slightly. "Uhm...W-why can't you sleep?"
"I'm leaving to go fight in a battle against blood thirsty Orcs.." I nodded and waited for him to open one of the side doors to walk out on the terrace. Thousands of Fireflies lit up the sky around us as if we were swimming in the stars. I looked through the dark and saw the whole village in front of us.
Even this late at night, Elves littered the streets, moving in and out of the buildings and stopping for a drink of Ale. "Listen Mattox, I wanted to apologize for earlier. I didn't mean to yell at you like that. But, it was just, I--"
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to him, placing a finger to my lips. "Don't. I should have listened to you all those other times I've came to your rescue. I am just so used to protecting you. I felt I should have did it tonight also. You are very capable of taking care of yourself Reagan, it's just that...You're young and a woman." I looked up at him through my green eyes and smiled coyly.
"A woman? Since when is 17 and helpless a woman?" I asked, mocking his same words he said to me a night in the woods. A silence fell between us, as we just stood there, staring at each other. "You are a woman. Inside...and...out.." His gaze fell to my chest. Suddenly, I felt naked, standing there in my thin silk nightgown as he looked me over hungrily.
"And you know what a woman is suppose to be like...on either side?" My voice came out barely louder than a whisper. I swallowed nervously and looked down at my feet. Mattox placed his finger under my chin and raised my head up so I had to stare into his face.
We licked our lips simultaniously before I felt him slide his hand through my hair. Just the touch of his hand barely grazing my skin, made the the hairs on my arms stand on end. "You have shown the traits...Especially here..." He touched my chest, where my heart was beating wildly against it.
He replaced his finger with his lips, placing a kiss on the soft skin, and slowly moving up. I leaned my head back as he grasped the back of my neck, supportng me up. His lips grazed my neck, jaw and chin before the Elf was staring down at me, his face inches from my own. We were both motionless for what felt like was eternity.
"Kiss me Mattox..." I whispered, running a finger over his jaw. Before I could sigh, his lips pressed to mine softly at first. It was a desperate kiss that we have both been dying for. Our noses crashed against each others and his hand wrapped itself around my waist, pulling my lower body closer to his.
We paused for a second, to catch our breath and to savor the taste of each other. I blinked, looking into his dark, midnight blue eyes. With a sigh, I was pushed against the castle wall, Mattox still pressing his lips against mine. This was what I was dieing for since the night he had saved Julia from the Orc.
My passion for him only grew when weeks later, we went swimming. If only he would stay, then I could sataisfy my need. I realized suddenly that I had whispered a few words from my last thought. "I can not stay, Reagan. I'm dieing to carry you up to my chamber right now, but I know it's wrong." I shook my head, grasping the back of his neck.
"It isn't wrong...This couldn't be wrong..It feels too right to be anything else. Please.." I pressed my lips back to his, making him pull one thin strap off of my shoulder. He kissed where it just was, lightly sucking on the skin. All the while, his hands were moving across my back and sides, landing one at my hip and the other on my thigh.
My senses regained themselves and I discovered that his hand was under my gown, caressing the skin some ways above my knee. I bit the side of my lip and pushed him away slightly. We were both out of breath, my heart beating wildly matching his. "I am sorry. I..I just can't do this. Not here at least. If you wish, meet me in my chamber in half an hour."
With that, I turned and walked in the door, not stopping until I reached my room. Julia's snores could be heard from behind my door but I had more things on my mind. I ran a comb through my hair, touched my neck and wrists with some fragrance perfume and took a hold of my stomach. Another look at myself in the mirror and I went to sit in the middle of my bed.
My eyelids began to close but I snapped them open, in case I missed him. I sighed an hour later and let my head fall against the head board. If he didn't come in another five minutes, I decided to just go to sleep. Ten minutes passed. It turned into a half an hour and finally, another hour passed.
"He isn't coming..." I bit my lip and glared at the door as if it were its fault. I grasped the top blanket and started to pull it back when the door knob twisted and the door opened. I took in a deep breath and stared at.....
AHHH!!!! Behold the power of a cliffhanger!! Thanks for the reviews!!!!! If you give me fifty! Ill give you an Xtra chapter filled with fluffy loveydovey crap.... BYE!!!